heluvschibi

[heluvschibi]

𝙸 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙻𝙾𝚂𝚃 𝙸𝙸𝙸

❦mature language, mentions of suicide, emotional distress, time loops themes❦

Not proof read/edited

If you haven't read previous parts please do "A reality where I'm stuck in a time loop? Is this my life now, opening a door to see her standing there?" wrd count: 697 <<prev/next>> m.list to series

"You are the ghost…"

I look at her, there's no way she's standing right here, right in front of me…she's dead. This has to be some sort of mind game I'm playing on myself, but she looks so real, so real that if I just put my hand out to touch her, she wouldn't disappear. I let out a gasp as my hand laid on her cheek, her much alive and real cheek, she's not going anywhere.

"Min, what's wrong, you're crying…"

I didn't even realize that I was crying, my hand caressed her cheek.

"Min?"

I fell to my knees, and sobbed gripping onto her skirt, squeezing so tight I thought she'd go away, she probably would, If I let go of her, she'd slip through my fingers again, I can't let that happen, not again…her hand went to pet the back of my head, slow, deliberate, pets.

"I thought you were gone, I thought I'd never see you again…"

I let out a whimper and I looked up at her, her brows were furrowed, her eyes looked at him trying to put the pieces together, but nothing is clicking.

"What are you talking about, Min?"

I looked back down crying.

"I thought… I thought you'd died, I thought you killed yourself but you're alive, you're alive and well-"

It took me longer that I'd like to admit for me to feel that her pets had stopped, I looked up at her a hopeful smile on my face, but her face was frozen and grey, no everything is grey, like someone had sucked the color out of the world.

"Y/n?"

I say but she still has that look on her face, I stood up and looked around, my cat was mid step, and grey, the tv that was reporting the weather was frozen.

"What the hell is going on?"

I blinked then it all went back to normal, not all normal though. I went back in time, I was sitting in the chair, getting ready again, i stood up after the door was knocked on…"There's no way…" I walked to the door and opened it.

"Gosh, Min hurry up we're going to be late!"

This was starting to creep me out.

"Y/n?"

"What?"

I let out a laugh, I'm definitely going crazy.

"you're standing Infront of me…right?"

She raised her brows then her face rested, she rolled her eyes and placed her hands on her hips.

"No, you're imagining me…"

she said obviously in a sarcastic way, I reached out and cupped her face with my hands, she's real…

"Min?"

her hand went over my hands and squeezed them, she smiled softly, I felt something in my heart flutter. I knew I missed her but whatever is happening now is crazy.

"Min you're crying what's wrong?"

"I'm going crazy…"

she tilted her head, pulling my hands away from her cheek, "Min tell me what's wrong, you're acting weird…"

"Y/n… I'm going crazy…"

I laughed, she soon started to laugh, more like laughed along with me.

"I can tell…"

"No, no, you don't understand!"

I pulled my hands away shaking my head, I took a step back, my breathing began to pick up.

"Min?"

"Y/n you're fucking dead! You killed yourself! You jumped off a fucking bridge!"

and like last time, the whole world was shrouded in grey, everything was frozen in time, this wasn't a dream, it's too real to be a dream, this is reality. A reality where I'm stuck in a time loop? Is this my life now, opening a door to see her standing there? Each time without fail, a knock on the door, she's there, alive and well, I mention her death then I go back in time…I'm going crazy. It took me the tenth try to notice that…

"Gosh, Min we're going to be late! Oh, you look like you've seen a ghost…"

you are the ghost....

"Min, are you okay? You look like you're getting sick…"

I wiped the look off myself, "it's nothing, just woke up to early." If I want to spend time with her, "You just looked really pretty today." I'm going to have to forget the past…

[heluvschibi]

My account is officially 1 years old!

This is real.

NOT MINES!!! straykids.loverr6 on tt

[heluvschibi]

༄༄Chibi 2024 recap !!༄༄

⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

Stories w/ the most notes - Angst

1st place: Poor Train Boy Felix- 291 notes total

2nd place: Changbin Angst Week- 163 notes total

3rd place: Destined (meant to be)- 150 notes total

Stories w/ the most notes - Fluff

1st place: Poor Train Boy Felix- 291 notes total

2nd place: Destined (meant to be)- 150 notes total

3rd place: Baby You Got Me Feelin' (Butterflies)- 119 notes total

Honorable mention(s)- Hans Fluff week- 75 notes total and Just like the stars 56 notes total

Drabbles w/ the most notes

1st place- Yandere-52 notes total

2nd place- Commitment issues-17 notes total

3rd place Clumsy- 15 notes total

Followers at the end of this year

138!!

⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

Thank you all for showing me love and support my first-year writing on here, or in general. I promise to do more in the future if you promise to keep being by my side.

IMPORTANT**For the next month or so I won't be posting. Something happened and has been happening that has taken a toll on my mental health, so this page will be radio silent for some time. I hope you all would understand and sorry if you were looking forward to anything I would've done.**

[heluvschibi]

am I back?? maybe who knows... hehe

[heluvschibi]

Hello 👋,

I hope this message finds you well. My name is Aziz, and I’m reaching out with a heartfelt plea to help my family find safety and reunite with our mother. 😞

The ongoing war in Gaza has torn my family apart. My mother and newborn sister are stranded in Egypt, while I, along with the rest of my sex family members, am trapped in the midst of the genocide in Gaza. We have not only been separated but have also lost our home and are enduring unimaginable hardships. 💔

Your support can make a difference. Whether by reading our story, donating, or sharing our campaign with others, you can help us reunite, find safety, and start anew. 🙏🕊

Thank you, from the depths of my heart, for your kindness, compassion, and solidarity during this difficult time. ❤🍉

https://gofund.me/58268669 🔗

Please help Aziz anyway you can so he can find his family.

[heluvschibi]

I'm going to be like CeeChynaa but instead of only making music once a year I'm only going to post ff bc wow this is so draining (I'm on a hiatus anyways and just thinking about it makes me wanna go dig a hole and jump in it)

[heluvschibi]

Taking the boat the island wasn't bad. You follow the stone path that leads you up to a small office with big letters at the front saying the mayor's office. There is a little pamphlet that says getting to know the mayor and how to become a secret resident.

Back to town square

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

୨ৎ Oh, Miss Mayor!!! ୨ৎ

Hi, I'm Chibi the owner of this town/island(blog)!!! The trip from a different island (blog) to here must've been tiring…I recommend this to read while you are here in town!! >>Baby you got me feeln'(butterflies). If you're looking for something sadder and more filled with angst, I recommend this>> I was lost.

But let's stop looking at those, you want to know more about me! Mayor Chibi!!

Chibi obviously isn't my birth name (It's an OC name)

I haven't been writing ff for long, my first one I ever wrote was>> Destine (Meant to be)

Favorite animals! Bunnies for me ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

I don't like talking to ppl that much, but I still try (anti-social Mayor)

If you have any recommendations please write me a letter(ask)!!! I'll try my very best as mayor to fulfill your duty. If not enjoy the boat ride back to the island!!! 

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

୨ৎ How to become a resident in secret ୨ৎ

Want to become a resident of this island, but don't want other visitors or residents to know you?? (or me…) Send me a letter (ask) anonymously asking to be a resident, with a representation ofc. ex) anon 1, 🐷anon, E anon) !!

How should I ask Mayor Chibi?? Anyway you want!! But if you don't know how just send me this>> "Hello Mayor Chibi, I'm writing this letter to tell you I am officially a resident of your island!! But...I am kind of a hermit...could I be [anon representation] ??"

[heluvschibi]

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

You've made it to the library!!! You look around and see that the library is split in three. "Chibi's Written Laws" “Chibi Island Laws.” and “The Mayors Favorites.” Go ahead and choose, time goes slower here, take your time going through and enjoying. 

Back to town square

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

Chibi Island Laws. -You must love rules, or you are very serious!! These are the laws of Chibi Island, breaking them only has short consequences, Mayor Chibi hates punishing. So, each offence is jail time (blocked). ex) 1 offence 1 hour in jail, 2 offence 2 hours in jail. You get the jest…

Spreading the evil curse around..(Being mean)

No passport?? (no posts, reblogs, ect.)

Don't make the mayor uncomfortable…(just don't be weird??yeah??)

Sending too much mail at one time (the same person sending too much mail I mean)

(more laws will be soon)

The laws are set in place to protect the residents and visitors. If you have any problems, go take it up with your mama…

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

Chibi's Written Laws. -Don't get theses mixed up with the island laws! The mayor wrote these for funzies!!

Genres: Fluff-F Angst-A Smut-S Series- 📖 One-shots- 📒Drabble-✏️

updated [12/01/24]

Bangchan

Destined(Meant To Be) ~F, A, 📖

When Bangchan and y/n were split apart because Chan wanted to follow his dream of being and idol, y/n's life goes straight into the dump, alone throughout her school days, couldn't even get into college. So she gave up as wanting to working as a veterinarian and now works as a... Waitress...  Still, she hasn't given up hope yet, how can she when her best friend is in Korea with his group members having fun– wait what... HE CAME BACK TO AUSTRALIA!? 

Yandere ~✏️

He loves you so much he would just snatch you up right from under your nose

Leeknow

I was lost ~A, F, 📖

She was such a happy girl, always smiling, always being nice, donating when she could, helping others in school, but why all of a sudden, why did she suddenly die? Suicide? They found her body in the river, her shoes with a note in them... It just broke his heart. Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into one whole month without her, although the month went by with her death the news, the school, everyone still talks about her, but with a simple knock at his door everything changed.

Changbin

Dandelions ~A, F, 📖

(Series is paused until further notice)

The shy and quiet girl Y/n needs help with her history, her grades (in most of her classes) are dropping dramatically, so obviously the teachers ask to give y/n a tutor, and it just so happens to be Seo Changbin... Great? No...  Although y/n doesn't want to be around him (for some reason) he wants to be around her because he has a major crush on her, Changbin's friend Felix thinks that Changbin's feelings are pity feelings but Changbin thinks otherwise!

Angst week (2024) ~A, 📖

One week of angst for the birthday boy coming right up!!!

Commitment issues ~✏️

Changbin loves y/n…and wants to get married, and have kids and do all of theses things together…Y/n…she's struggling and wondering if she's normal, how come she feels so sick to her stomach at the thought of forever with him…she loves him…she knows it…but…does she??

Hyunjin

It seems this shelf is empty…write a letter to the mayor if you want some but until then wait!!!

Han

Oh he's just a nerd!!! ~F, S, 📒

(hmm it seems that this book isn't on the shelf…)

The quiet nerd Jisung has always been alone, until one day a cheerleader at his school came into his life, trying to break him free of his shyness, inviting him out, which he doesn't come out unless she's promises its only them. But when a party after the basketball team wins takes a turn of events, he decides to go and the next day he's a new man…

Fluff week (2024) ~F, 📖

One week of fluff for the birthday boy coming right up!!!

Clumsy ~✏️ Y/n has a clumsy boyfriend, and she knows it. So, she prides herself on keeping anything that could be broken out of his reach, ask him to set out the plates for dinner, then remember he is just so clumsy and tell him to just sit and wait, it's not his fault though!! But when one day his clumsiness finally got on your nerves, y/n lased out. Why did she lash out? He broke the only teacup her grandma made…p.s. her grandma is dead, so she can't just go asking for another…

Felix

Just like the stars ~F,📒

A camping trip. A camping trip with an idol, well friends ofc. When Felix asked you on a camping trip (date) you obviously had to say yes you haven't seen him in a long time! But when the tranquility of the night hit Felix like a truck carrying "confession" well...

Train boy!Headcanon ~F, A, 📖

Mash up video Felix looks like a poor bus boy or those train boys who take your stuff???

Seungmin

It seems this shelf is empty…write a letter to the mayor if you want some but until then wait!!!

I.N

It seems this shelf is empty…write a letter to the mayor if you want some but until then wait!!!

ot8

The Apocalypse ~F, A,S(maybe…haven't thought abt it), 📖

The zombie apocalypse is amongst them!! Y/n, a 24-year-old foreigner who had moved to Korea because she was promoted was happy there. She understood the loops and how to get around living a somewhat stress-free life, until everything came crashing down, zombies? Now living in her stinky apartment will she survive?

Baby you got me feelin' (Butterflies) ~F, 📖

Based on the song Butterflies.  When a group of men become smitten by y/n, they each try to impress her in their own way. 

Thunder ~F,A,📖

How each member comforts y/n during a thunderstorm. (In order from oldest to youngest) 

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

The Mayors Favorites. -The favorite writers!? You must be here because you want to get to know the mayor or because you share the same interest in writers!! Look around their catalogs to see what they've been cooking up. (Will be added later on)

[heluvschibi]

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

You make it up to the Clock Tower, there you could see the beautiful blue sea and the beautiful Cherry Blossoms that stay there(a safe curse on the island nothing to bad). You're in awe wondering how such a town existed, you see there are different catalogs, you touch one and a hologram with a list pops up with what the mayor is working on.

Back to town square

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

Bangchan

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

Leeknow

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

Changbin

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

Hyunjin

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

Han

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

Felix

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

Seungmin

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

I.N

Each time you click this catalog nothing pops up, the staff there tells you that the mayor hasn't written anything for it awe no…write a letter to the mayor if you do want something if not wait!!!

ot8

- The Apocalypse part 3

[heluvschibi]

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

You woke up in a world with a sign that says “Welcome”… You have 4 paths…

The Library   The Post Office  Teleporter The Clock Tower

Huh…you chose to stay??…well there is a short boat ride to The Mayor's Office…

Mayor Chibi, she run's the island keeping all the visitors and residents safe. If you want to be a resident (Mooties) like theses lovely people, write the mayor a letter (comment or go to asks (Post office). If not enjoy your stay here on Chibi Island !! Where the island is small, but the fun is BIG!!!

2024 recap 

─────────────────────୨ৎ─────────────────────

The Residents!!! -The Locals of Chibi Island(mooties), there's so much Mayor Chibi would love to say to them, it's just that's she doesn't have the words. 

@jeonginsleftcheek

@sadseungmin

@linoarchive

@adestayskz

@frenchkisstheabyss

@qwqqmfh

@juskz

@/lino-jagiyaa

[heluvschibi]

I honestly expected this from Chan lol. Everyone was talking abt how his is going to be worse (Like completely naked stuff) But we get vampire Chan!!!

[heluvschibi]

thank you !! 💌🫶🏽 @jeonginsleftcheek

@sadseungmin @linoarchive @adestayskz @frenchkisstheabyss @qwqqmfh @daengtokki @doitforbangchan

sending positivity, and good luck your way!!!!

positivity train!

if you see this or are tagged in it, tag a couple of your favorite mutuals/blogs and let them know you appreciate seeing them on your dash!

@h0neysugarfree @blueberrylovv @bequiteanddriveeeeeee @cherri-bomb-bomb @eg0mechan1c @fatrexicisback

[heluvschibi]

𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝙸𝙸

❦Cussing, domestic abuse, death(read at your own risk) read from readers pov❦

Not proof read or edited

If you haven't read previous parts please read them.

"Maybe father would be happy to see his only spawn dead, maybe he would…" Wrd count:628

<<prev/next>> m.list to series

I know he's friends with me out of pity, Lee Minho... He has beautiful features, unreachable looks...

We've been friends from the get go. I just came from a different country, he was born here. I was out casted, he had many friends. The day we became friends, that's when I found true happiness.

I'm not a very bright girl, and my looks aren't very good, un like Min's...

His relationship with his father is only something I could wish for... Only something I could dream for, I prefer his family over mines anytime, anywhere... Even if I was on Mars, even if the world was ending.

The day he bought me that hair clip, it made me happy, so happy. I wore it for the whole day, even when I got home. But home wasn't home, I should just call it a house with four walls and a roof. It's like being trapped in a enclosed box with someone you refuse to know yelling at you for the smallest things... "Your not pretty so I don't see you working as a model... " "your not smart so I don't see you working as a doctor!" "The only thing good comin' for you is death..."

It's like is words echo in my head every day... Even now.

The gusting wind of Korea making my cheeks cold, I won't make it to Christmas this year... Or New years... Or any other day or holiday.

Maybe father would be happy to see his only spawn dead, maybe he would...

I look at my phone the picture of Min and me is my wallpaper, I close my eyes remembering that moment, he won't be mad, will he?

I open my eyes and take a step closer to the ledge, looking down at this 10 story building, I see people walking by on the side walk... I see cars waiting for the red light to turn green, I see the beautiful lights of Seoul... I see his shining eyes smiling at me, I smell his scent, I feel his warmth.

I start to question, "Maybe, I shouldn't...." But then.

My phone rang, I opened it hoping it was him, hoping it was Minho, telling me to come over for dinner, or to come over for homework, or to just talk... But it wasn't...

"Where the hell are you! Your mother is worried get your ass home!"

Tears slowly rolled down my cheeks, I feel hopeless...

"Are you crying? You shouldn't be the one crying! Get your ass home now, you have 1 minute if you don't I'm beating your ass! You worthless piece of shit, a son would have been a better choice but you had to pop out of the womb! I raised a useless-"

I ended the call... Having to hear his annoying voice for the last time won't put my soul to rest.

I take off my shoes and place them neatly side by side like how I was taught to do, I place my phone in my shoe with a note, I go back to the ledge and look down, "If I jump here I'd hit people... I wouldn't want them to get hurt because of me..." I walk off, leaving my shoes, my note, and my phone.

I found a nice bridge to jump off, the weather is getting colder, the water is colder... Let's just hope the impact kills me...

3...

I'm sorry Minho that you have to finish school on your own...

2...

I'm sorry mom that I made you feel like that, like you raised a useless child... I know you loved me...

1...

I have nothing more to say to anyone else... Including my father...

0...

Goodbye world... I'll be here in another life.

[heluvschibi]

Drabble 1 —Clumsy

Angst/comfort, fluff, death,

Your grandma died when you were 16, being a teenager and lose the one you honestly loved broke you to pieces. You loved your grandma, she had a special connection with you, like she was your real mother. You shred a hobby:pottery.

You would make these cups and mini statues once in a while, she kept your's in a case in the living room, and you kept her's on a self in your bedroom. The last time you made something with her was Christmas, she made this little elf holding a present, and you made a matching Santa Clause to go with it.

Now 7 years later, you finally decided to bring out your favorite one she made you. It was a tea cup, with white and gold accents, the base to the tea cup was a light blue, you wanted to use it, so after washing it and making sure it didn't break, you made tea.

You turned around for just a moment to look through the cabinet for some tea, but as you turned around you heard something crash to the ground, there was Jisung—Your boyfriend for 2 years and so clumsy it was almost irritable— standing shocked looking down at the broken tea cup on the ground, it's perfect shape that was shaped by your grandma now broken and in pieces.

"O-oh no, I'm sorry baby!" He squeaked out looking down at the now broken tea cup.

You clenched your fist, the tea bag in your hands being squished, a small tear rolled down your cheek.

Jisung squated down and was immediately going to pick up the pieces before he heard your sniffles, "Huh- oh uh! Baby what's wrong! It's just a cup, we can always buy another-"

"No you can't..."

"Huh?"

I spoke louder looking him in his eyes, "I said no you can't!"

He slowly retreated his hands away and stood up, "What do you mean, it's just a cup."

"Dammit Han, no its not! My grandma made me that cup! So no, I can't go buy another one!"

A look of remorse was on his face, he screwed up and he knew it, his wide brown eyes darting between the broken cup and you—Who was crying so much it hurts your head— He bit his bottom lip before going to grab a bag to put the pieces in.

2 weeks later you saw a box on your shared bed, you forgave him for breaking the cup, you had many more of your grandma's pottery, but that was the only cup she made...

You opened the box and there was a note on it,—"I'm sorry baby... I didn't know."—

You scoffed removing the wrapping and there it was, your grandma's cup, it was back in shape... Well... Mostly, it was chipped but still put together. You held the cup close to you hugging it, happy that you have it back. You looked at the note and went to call Jisung, telling him how grateful you were for him, he admitted that he asked Chan to "help" him fix it, but all in all he felt bad.

-------

Adios you lovlies💗—Chibi

[heluvschibi]

I've been reading to much angst, I cried to much for the past week. I literally feel like a dried up worm on the side walk on a very hot and sunny day no clouds, no shade, just being baked by the sun. I need water (something other than angst) GUYS STOP WRITING ANGST SO GOOD, I'LL DIE FROM DEHYDRATION 😭 Skz writers with angst is a whole nother level....

[heluvschibi]

FORGET THE LOTTERY me remembering this masterpiece came out on my birthday.

I love this album sm... (I have 3 😭) when I pulled Bang chan I was SCREAMING!

My favorite song from this album is Leave 🤞

[heluvschibi]

Guys I usually don't like talking abt things like POLITICS but the recent Presidential Election has gotten me fucked.up.

You would rather have a person who thinks it's okay to grab woman by the hoocie, a criminal, misogynist fucker, who probably doesn't know how to own up to his own mistakes, back in the white house??

Why bc you didn't want a BLACK WOMAN as president?? Or did you just want women's rights to be sold away like it's something that should be, just for some damn gas prices that could be lowered...

America you have officially LOST IT. I hate America, I absolutely hate it, I hate that I was born in this country, I hate the fact that people(Americans) think a criminal is great for a president, and I hate the fact that this generation has to grow up thinking that its okay to be like Trump when it's absolutely not. (This, this is what I mean by when I say I hate men...)

And what makes it 10 times worse is that it didn't even take that long for America to literally go BACK in time!!

Men are telling woman to stay in the kitchen??Womp womp over the internet?? WE LITTERLY CAN CRY BC WE OFFICIALLY CAN'T DO ANYTHING WITH OUR BODIES WITHOUT HAVING TO BE TOSSED IN JAIL LIKE A CRIMINAL (un like a specific person....)

Mass deportation will be happening when literally half of my friend group is Latino and Latina. Hell my mom's boyfriend is Latino, and I'm worried abt him and his family, I don't want my Abuela to leave this country.

I can't believe it....

I HATE AMERICA.

—Chibi 💙

(But I'm here to spread the 4B movement, if you don't want woman to get abortions, you won't get your dick wet, congratulations you fucking idiot.) (>>read up its a quick summary of what the 4B movement is)