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moved to softbuff.tumblr.com

Yep, I did! Follow me again because I’m uncomfortable in small groups: 

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moving to softbuff.tumblr.com

Currently re-following people. Re-follow me first and save me a thousand years of scrolling through the list of 1,000+ blogs I just now realized I follow! 

---> new blog <---

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Me on a date: Do you watch Agent Carter?

Date: No, I don’t think Peggy is as interesting as the male superhe-

Me: 

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No spoiler, but we do see Hank and Janet when they were active heroes in a flashback.

HELL YEAH THAT’S AWESOME!!

Thanks for letting me know.

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subite-vene-in-orem said: no u da best. i always feel like my parents lied to me about my birthday b/c i am an almost exact opposite of a sagittarius.

Same tbh. I’m a Cancer, which means I should be a sensitive soul and clingy hopeless romantic with good maternal instincts, over-the-top empathy, a preference for homely/calm environments and domesticity, and a tendency to get overemotional. 

The only thing I actually have in common with my sign is my ability to do a really cool sideways crab walk after a few tequila shots, but I’m not sure that counts. 

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archangelimpala said: But I think they don’t mean Janet. I think they probably mean turning Hope Van Dyne into Wasp or something.

I’m sure that’s what they’ll do, but I mean, they deliberately didn’t make the movie about Hank Pym. I love Janet, but we can either make this about female characters (in which case Hope isn’t a bad alternative), or we can make it about founding members of the Avengers (in which case the issue is with the movie featuring Scott Lang instead of Hank Pym as the “real” protagonist). I don’t know how they’re depicting/mentioning Janet (if at all) so I don’t have an educated opinion on that yet, but if I have to pick between a Hank-centric movie ft. Janet and a Scott-centric movie with a new Wasp, I’m kinda leaning towards the latter. It would have been hard to make Hank sympathetic (imo) when the MCU already has Tony be the “I would probably hate you if you weren’t so damn charismatic” character.

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subite-vene-in-orem said: that was a sad face i am sad facing now

OH NO I’M SORRY

On the bright side I never knew you were a secret Sagittarius agent so clearly you proved me wrong

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in stories featuring aliens, they’re always like “on my planet this never happens!” or “in my culture, this differs from your human culture.” and that’s neat and all because i like worldbuilding and all that jazz but wouldn’t it be fun if they just. couldn’t do that?

i want a story where humans encounter an alien who frustrates them because they don’t know enough to tell them anything concrete

like humans will ask “tell us about politics in your planet!” and the alien’s all “uh… hold on it’s been a while since i took gov. um….”

“what sorts of plants grow on your planet?”

“i dunno i grew up in the suburbs. they’re like… purple? idk what you want me to say”

“tell us about the culture on your planet!”

“do you have any idea how many fucking countries are back home, i don’t even know where to begin”

“your planet is obviously much more scientifically and technologically advanced than ours. is it possible for you to enlighten us on certain matters concerning space travel, or would that be a form of interference you must avoid?”

“naw it’s cool, it’s just that, um, i’m a philosophy major”

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Un séjour au pays des insectes qui ne sera pas le dernier pour Marvel: d'abord, on sait déjà qu'Ant-Man sera de Captain America: Civil War (actuellement en tournage); et, on s'en souvient, Ant-Man va de pair avec The Wasp. La Guêpe. Elle aussi membre fondatrice des Avengers. «Nous avons des plans pour elle, souligne Kevin Feige, et nous le montrons de façon pas très subtile dans ce film-ci.» [source] 

Ant-Man and The Wasp go hand in hand. She, too, is a founding member of the Avengers. “We have plans for her,” highlights Kevin Feige, “and we aren’t very subtle about it in this movie.”

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I’ fait crissement chaud. ):

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idk why gemini gets all the hate when sagittarius is CLEARLY the worst sign tbh

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where do lesbian viking warriors go when they die in a mighty battle?

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friendly reminder that dana scully was born in 1964, clarice starling was born in 1963, and both of them attended the FBI academy in Quantico probably around the same time. 

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I’m going to skip the shipping politics and go straight to queer representation, ok? Ok. Also, I bolded the part I really want to address.

There’s a HUGE difference between someone policing headcanons (or, you know, canon-related wishes) and someone advising you not to mention or campaign for them in a way that involves the people working on the show (actors, writers, producers, etc.) 

The former is inexcusable, in my opinion; if someone told me that I shouldn’t interpret a character as anything but a straight neurotypical cis person because there’s isn’t explicit indication of the contrary, I’d be pissed--and rightfully so. Fuck that.

The latter, however, I agree with to some extent.

Now, I’m not saying that you (we? they?) should never discuss these things with someone involved on the show. I think everything is fair game, but there’s a context for it. I’m firmly against direct public demonstrations, though. Nominating a slash pairing in an online contest is harmless, but starting a petition isn’t cool. Discussing interpretations at a meet & greet is fine, but putting actors on the spot during a convention panel isn’t. There’s a context for everything.

First, there’s some degree of creative freedom that should always be left to the people working on the thing, and the audience shouldn’t interfere. It’s one thing to express that you enjoy/would like something, but it’s not our place to make requests. I’m not interested in watching a show dictated by fans--I have fanfiction for that. It’s different from, say, reminding the Constantine writers that they’re writing a canonically bisexual comic character, or telling the Agent Carter writers that the first season really lacked racial diversity. “I would like to see a main bisexual character” isn’t the same as “I want this main character to be bisexual, and for it to be made explicit through a relationship with this other character”. Plus, the whole concept of pairing a character’s sexuality with a specific pairing is that most people will be considerably less receptive if they don’t like the pairing in question. I rarely want to see my favorite slash pairing on screen, but I do want to see most of my favorite characters casually confirmed to be bisexual. (See: Bi the Way trope vs If It’s You, It’s Okay trope.)

Second, my personal issue with involving people who work on a show in fanon interpretations/theories is that it gives them too much power. If showrunners won’t go there but we’re lucky enough to have ambiguous characters, I don’t want so-and-so to tell me I’m wrong to interpret them as queer. Most actors are diplomatic enough to refuse to answers questions that would confirm/deny these things--which is great! Because if an actor says “no, my character is straight” (and...it might be? that’s actually a thing) then you’ve just a) invalided every other interpretation, and b) given ammunition to people who already attack other people’s interpretations. I don’t want that. I want more queer characters, and I can express a preference toward certain characters who were already vaguely “coded” as queer, but I’m not going to tell a showrunner or a writer or an actor that I know their character better than they do. Similarly, a friend once told me that she firmly believe that once someone’s work was “out there”, it belongs to the audience, not the creators. Intent doesn’t matter. If a character says “I need you” on screen, unless it’s addressed again on the show, the writers have no business saying it was platonic after the episode aired. Hideaki Anno (the guy behind Neon Genesis Evangelion) wanted to fuck with the minds of otaku because he despised their culture, and he ended up creating what is arguably the #1 cult anime of all time. Intent =/= result =/= interpretation. Unless someone is undeniably missing the point of something that was textually explained (dudebros and Fight Club, somehow) any interpretation and can justified and defended.

And with shipping, there’s always the issue of selective representation. Take Teen Wolf, for instance. People campaigned for Sterek (which I’m like, totally on board with, you have no idea how much) but didn’t give a fuck about Danny (a gay male character) or his relationship that was depicted on screen (which is rare enough; a lot of “token queer characters”, like Charlie on Supernatural, are either limited to flings or celibacy). Result: Danny was never a main character, and he was eventually written out of the show.

Of course, absolutely nothing justifies abusive behavior--I’m certainly not saying people are entitled to be homophobic dickbags simply because they disagree with you. That goes without saying. But I also firmly believe that when it comes to storytelling, canon and fanon should stay separate. If it happens, it happens. If not, tough luck. “Don’t demand it” doesn’t mean “don’t think of it that way”. I’m team “ship and let ship”, and insisting that something be written into the show makes me super uncomfortable.

No, please, tell me again how ‘the possibility that their character might be queer/in love with someone of the same sex/gender is too shameful & wrong of an idea to EVER even mention to an actor/writer, & you are a horrible/crazy person if you want it to happen onscreen or on the page’ isn’t at all rooted in homophobia.

Homophobia, and the idea that straightness is normal & right & default, & anything else is an aberration that needs justification for its mere existence, and that queer people don’t deserve to have hope of representation.

Please do tell me.

I’d love to hear it.

I’m tired of people saying ‘queer shipping is fine, wanting characters queer is fine, just keep it in fandom, don’t expect it to happen on screen, don’t mention it to the actors, you have no proof, stop, ew’, & pretending that isn’t exactly what they are saying, then gas-lighting when we point it out. 

Especially not when non-canonical m/f ships with far less narrative basis? Are talked up in media constantly, treated as normal & inevitable, & actors not supporting them is a reason to send hate to them.

Please.

Give me another reason that I shouldn’t talk about the possibility that characters I love might be queer. 

Give me another reason why wanting them to be queer would ruin their characters, hurt the actors involved, destroy a story. 

Give me another reason that I should be fine with having homophobic slurs thrown at me for wanting this, why the idea that someone might be like me is delusional, wrong, bad, harmful. 

Give me another reason why ‘these characters might want to kiss/fall in love’ gets labelled ‘dirty’ & ‘gross’ & that we need to ‘get our minds out of the gutter’ & ‘stop ruining everything’.

Give me another reason.

Please.

Because I need one.

Because it’s that or live with knowing that this many people still ultimately think that there is something wrong with me, something so bad & horrible that it insults them to their very core to think that a favourite character of theirs might share that traits with me.

That an actor I’m supposed to respect would be willing to play characters who have killed people, but the thought of them acting queer, as I am queer, would destroy them. 

That a writer should be horrified at the notion that some people saw hints of queerness in their writing, right after the torture scene & before the murder, and that it must have been by accident, for no decent person would write something like that on purpose, they should deny it at all costs. 

That queerness, no matter how quickly some laws change or attitudes, is still ultimately unwanted, still wrong, and I don’t deserve to have stories with people like me in them.

That just because in certain contexts, in the past, because of laws or regulations or social pressures, a character literally could not have been written queer when they were first created, changing it now to reflect the new possibilities & social norms? Well, that’s simply a horrible concept, it would ruin everything.

That, ultimately, I don’t deserve to have heroes that I can identify with, the way other people deserve that.

I don’t deserve to see people like me fall in love, or have a happy ending, or be anything but a peripheral character or someone whose life falls apart or ends because they are queer.

Please.

Tell me why that isn’t what you are telling me, when you try & shame me for shipping things or wanting better representation. 

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Thursday, July 9th

Shinji arrives in Tokyo-3 as Sachiel makes its attack. 

Misato and Shinji meet face to face for the first time. 

Rei has been in NERV’S ICU for 4 days. 

Shinji pilots Eva-01 for the first time and suffers an injury against Sachiel. Unit-01 goes berserk; Toji’s little sister is injured in the aftermath. Sachiel is defeated.

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horse people are spectacular to listen to bc they love to go on about the “trust” between horses and people and it’s just enchanting. I leave that conversation completely mesmerized by the idea that a person actually trusts  one of those fucking demon creatures when you can see it on their face that there is no life or love in their eyes. horses are the ready vessels of a vengeful, hateful god and we should leave them to eat the fucking ground in peace

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