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aaron minyard doesn’t hate neil josten because he’s annoying or because he’s his brothers boyfriend.

no, aaron minyard hates neil josten because one day, neil will be asked to kill his brother and andrew would hand him the gun without hesitation.

it starts when neil joins the team. sure, things were rough before, but this kid showing up out of nowhere and trying to fix them rubbed salt in the wound. he sees how neil interests andrew, how his brother keeps giving the liar his yeses and his deals and promises. it doesn’t sink in until baltimore, until andrew breaks his deal and chokes out kevin. watching andrew kneel in front of neil (nathaniel), a broken boy made from butchers and glass, that’s when fear starts to claw into his heart. he interrogated neil at the cabin, and the whole time there’s a whisper in his head saying “just how far will andrew go”

aaron watched andrew fight his way into being his own person after a childhood of tragedy upon tragedy. he was there when nicky adopted them, when andrew explored his agency and rebuilt himself from the ground up. and then he watched as andrew found neil and piece by damning piece built his life around him. they’d deny being codependent but there is no more andrew minyard and neil josten there is only andrewandneil.

neil makes a deal with the mafia and aaron wants to scream, shake the man and ask him where his brother fits into all this.

but he knows.

he knows that one day, neil josten won’t be a professional exy player anymore. he knows that the man will grow old and slower, and one day he won’t have a paycheck to send to the moriyamas. they’ll consider him a liability, show up at his home (the one he shares with andrew)

and when neil josten will fall, so will andrew minyard.

his brother claims he is an independent person but he is lying

aaron is terrified, because he knows there is no corner of hell that neil josten could not lead his brother to.

neil josten is andrew minyards death sentence, and aaron is the only one who can see it. he cares too much about his brother not to.

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One of my most favorite headcanons I have for Andrew is that at the start of aftg he and Aaron have buzz cuts. The reason being someone had a thing for pulling Andrew’s hair when he was younger so he got rid of the weakness before it could be used against him again. Once he starts to really make progress in his healing journey though, he lets it grow out a little longer each time before he shaves it all off again and eventually, by the time he goes pro, he’s got himself a nice head of what I can only describe as sports hair. Just long enough that curls bunch just under the back of his helmet. It’s a little mulletie and is so blond and so thick and wavy. Andrew still buzzes it from time to time, whether it be impulsively or just because, but long hair Andrew becomes quite the media start.

Bonus: The reason Aaron didn’t fight Andrew on this one particular thing is because 1 his hair was already super short to begin with and 2 the reason for that was so Tilda had a harder time grabbing onto it. Aaron, too, grows his hair out eventually, but once it’s long it stays that way and he does this many years before Andrew.

Anyway, this was just a long way of me saying Andrew starts growing his hair out when he truly begins to heal. Okay. Love you, bye.

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Andrew wearing fishnets under his ripped jeans. you agree. reblog.

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Jeremy and Jean are living inside my head and I don't care that they don't pay rent (working on some redesigns for these two)

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my biggest aftg head canon is that andrew is just a silly little guy—like his meds didn’t change his personality he was just more easily distractable and had less of a filter so all the stupid little jokes he made are his own

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Is there a fic out there for Neil (or Katelyn) full on decking or attacking someone cause they mentioned having Aaron and Andrew at the same time. I’ve seen a lot things like “twins would be so hot at the same time” and it makes me feel gross.

With Andrew having the background he has it wa send him into shock for sure. I guess Katelyn wouldn’t know about it but I feel like she would be grossed out and flip out on someone. Idk I just want some angst and protectiveness from Neil or Katelyn,

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When the misunderstanding is mutual but they’re both so sweet about it (coffee shop au edition)

Inspired by the tags below (originally on this post) from @blahblaheverythingisgay and @lovelyprincejehan accompanied by some thoughts:

thank you for bringing this GALAXY brain take to my attention 😂 this guy comes in, all cagey about his past and his scars, always wearing baggy clothes but complaining about compression clothes (being on the run does a number on your joints and muscles), picking out a name for himself??? OBVIOUSLY he’s trans right

They somehow manage to have like three separate conversations about it without realizing they’re talking about two very different scenarios. Andrew only was so wrong for so long because scars on their own (and even being a criminal lbr) are such non-issues that it didn’t even occur to him that Neil could be talking about anything less important than being trans lol

Andrew had his little crisis about it and landed pretty solid on yeah he’s still into Neil regardless, and yeah he’s still super gay. He’ll figure out the rest from there. The only thing he didn't prepare for was Neil being uh. Cis

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genuinely none of us would survive a book from kevin day's perspective

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10 or 11 little ducks have been spotted crossing the dash board

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hyperfixations come and go but the aftg special interest is forever

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Andrew Minyard, dressed in all black, knives in his armband, apathetic expression on his face constantly looking like he could possibly be plotting a murder

carrying the largest possible caramel frappuccino, extra extra caramel, extra extra whipped cream piled as high as possible, with rainbow sprinkles

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Everyday I thank god (Nora) that aftg is set in college and not high school

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eddie. eddie look at me. look at me eddie. don't worry baby. you're the one for him. you're his baby daddy. he can't live without you and he doesn't want to. stay strong buddy. that man may have him speaking in tongues but you'll be the one he'll be saying his vows to just STAY. STRONG.

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[at Disneyland, in the teacups]

Neil, Kevin, and Renee: *spinning a little and talking*

Dan, Matt, Nicky, and Allison: *fly past them spinning as fast as they can, screaming at the top of their lungs*

Andrew and Aaron: *also spinning as fast as they can but with deadpan expressions*

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For years, men who have loved each other romantically have been written down and tossed around for the sake of views and egos. For years, men who love men and women have been ridiculed and scoffed at. For years, queer people and their storylines have been shoved down the drain or put on the spot for quick fame. To have arguably one of the most watched, most advertised tv shows on a network as important as abc believe in a bisexual man and create his story without fear, but rather with pride, with delicacy, feels like watching the sun finally rise after a long night. It’s freeing. 911 means so much to me.

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Can't wait to see Eddie being jealous when he sees his boyfriend and husband kissing

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No im not “grieving” Buddie, do you know how amazing it is to have queer/bisexual men representation in today’s media? Do you know how important it is for all of the community and the younger people watching this? This is a huge milestone and Buck’s sexuality is valid outside of any type of ship. Today we celebrate.