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people don't talk enough about how fucking funny it is that bruce can sub in his kids as batman when he's too busy. like can you imagine it from the league's perspective? imagine you have this really mysterious, geniusly scary guy that you know next to nothing about, never cracks a smile and yet always comes out on top, and one day he shows up to a league meeting and there's just something... off. about him.

you can't pin it down because he's literally acting exactly the same as usual and there's no reason to think there's anything wrong, but maybe he shifted in his seat one to many times, or he looked just a tad bit too bored during green lantern's case review, but something's just... odd. so you quietly ask superman after the meeting if anything's up with the bat bcs you know those two are closer and also clark can hear heartbeats so if something's wrong surely he'll pick it up? and without hesitation he leans over to you and mumbles 'yeah batman was busy, that's his 17 yr old son. he's a crime lord and kills people sometimes though so we're not allowed to let him into the weapons department.' and then walks away like it's normal.

like the whiplash the league must go through every time they realise that no, this is not their fearless dark and brooding leader, this is in fact one of his dipshit kids being forced to sub in bcs the real batman broke an ankle, is incredible.

wonder woman: so that's my proposed plan, what are your thoughts batman?

batman: hn. i think that- *voice raising two octaves* oh shit hold on my phones buzzing

the league:

batman, answering the phone and immediately dropping the Bat Posture™: what do you mean- aw come on little wing that's not fair! but- no, NO DON'T YOU DARE TELL ALFRED I'LL BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU- IM SORRY OK I'LL BUY YOU MORE- *catches sight of the league watching him, baffled* *stiffens* ok listen i promise to replace them but i gotta go, please show me mercy iloveyoubye *hangs up*

the league:

batman:

batman: *coughs awkwardly*

superman: *sighs*

batman, to superman: ...red hood found out i ate his chocolate pretzels-

superman, shaking his head: just... just stop.

the flash: so this isn't batman either, is it?

wonder woman: if this one's also a criminal im losing my mind.

superman, tiredly: no no, this one isn't a criminal. this one's actually a cop.

batman: *sinks down in his seat* b's gonna kill me

green lantern, mystified: where does he keep GETTING you all from!?

'batman' dick, who made a pact with jason to Always Fuck With Bruce Whenever The Opportunity Arises: batman is a whore.

they think they've finally sussed out all 2 of batman's kids and then one day during a meeting 'batman' ends up on a 30 minute rant about different hacking methods this tech villain could be using that results in him half way through a sentence breaking off to say '-oh uncle clark could you pass me that pen- thanks, anyway so-' and then five minutes after that when the league have all been exchanging incredulous looks he finally freezes and is like. SHIT.

wonder woman: you're different from the other two, aren't you?

batman: maybe i am maybe i'm not, you can't prove it.

wonder woman:

green lantern: so like, are you new or have you just managed to avoid sub duty up until now?

superman, coughing: actually, this is this ones ninth occasion of replacing batman. you've just never realised before.

the league:

batman: yeah actually the other two are kinda mad i lasted longer than them...

the flash: how the fuck does he keep getting kids with the exact same build as him!??!?

'batman' tim, spent 20 minutes padding the suit out so he would look the part, still mad that bruce keeps palming WE work off on him: oh he forces us to take steroids for it.

the league, concerned:

superman, pinching the bridge of his nose: now come on red robin-

batman, fully tearing up and looking distraught: PLEASE uncle clark, it HURTS, you can't keep COVERING FOR HIM!

superman, frantically to the league: this one lies.

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the league, squinting at batman:

the league: ...

superman: *head in his hands, too disappointed to do anything*

the league: *silently exchanging looks, wondering if anybody's brave enough to say anything*

duke as batman, fully aware this is fucking stupid but jason and tim fell on the floor laughing when dick came up with the idea and frankly, he wanted to see if anybody would have to guts to call him out: so, are we all ready to start the meeting?

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Made the worst brownies ever created just now

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I love the old timey phrase "you forget yourself". bro that was so impolite like do you even know who you are rn

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My brain: You have so many tight deadlines. So many things on your weekly schedule. So many important jobs. You have to get important work done!!!

My hands:

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do you ever hear people talking about something and you’re like. fuck. let me be real for a second. i’m too much of a commie to have this conversation

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how?? just how?

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funniest character dynamic in the world to me is when you have one guy knows hes gay but doesnt realise hes in love with his best friend and another guy who knows hes in love with his best friend but does not know hes gay

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capybara

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one of my favorite things about my job that i can say to people that sounds utterly ridiculous but is technically 100% true is that one of our sea turtles keeps trying to get me to commit a felony on her behalf and gets SUPER cranky when i won’t do it

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Sorry, PETA, I would 100% eat a T-Rex.

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|| The "Emotional" Part of the Personality ||

Summary: an EP is a part that encapsulates the complex mental systems involving traumatic experiences & memories, and is disconnected & disoriented from the life they live in the present.

EPs are the "threat response" & "autonoetic traumatic memory" activation systems of the mind. These systems include: fight, flight, freeze, fawn, pain-experiencing & pain-numbing, re-experiencing traumatic memories, being disoriented to the present, and "owning" memories.\...\- In primary structural dissociation, one EP includes all of these systems & subsystems. In secondary & tertiary structural dissociation, these systems are divided between multiple EPs, and different EPs can exhibit the same threat responses in different situations. Additionally, threat response systems are frequently activated in succession (eg. freeze to fawn to flight), and will often result in multiple EPs being active at the same time, with one "experiencing" EP, and one or more "observing" EPs.

Example: "freeze" EP is experiencing & personifying a traumatic situation, while "flight" EP and "fawn" EP are observing it.

The latter two are not personifying the experience, because "freeze" EP is not behaving the way "flight" EP and "fawn" EP would or want to. In this situation, all three EPs are active, because all three responses may be needed for the traumatic situation. Each EP is, essentially, "waiting their turn" to be active so that they can protect themselves through their threat response activation system.

When these parts are more autonomous & elaborated, it can cause conflict if multiple EPs are active at one time. One EP may be critical of another, and might take drastic measures, such as self-harm, to activate a different threat response system, and thus, a different EP.\...\- With regards to re-experiencing traumatic memories, EPs may remember only metaphorical representations of the trauma, a complete recall of the event, fragments of a single event, or similar aspects of multiple traumas recalled as only one memory or event.

Because the EP's memories are subjective reproductions of an event, and not an exact replica, different EPs may have vastly different perceptions & responses to the same traumatic situation. Two EPs may even have completely separate memories regarding a single event. Furthermore, the activation of traumatic memories will often obstruct access to other memories available to the ANP, resulting in the EP being unable to recall episodic, semantic, or even procedural memories. This restriction can cause EPs to become stuck in a loop of re-experiencing a traumatic event, with no way to orient themselves to the present.

If the EP can be re-oriented enough to gain access to non-traumatic memories, they can grow beyond their activation systems. The more an EP is activated by trauma-related stimuli, the more benign life experience they gain. After a while, they may begin to develop a set of personal memories unrelated to their trauma. This can cause an elaborated sense of self, resulting in an "Emancipated EP." In this case, the EP is able to expand their episodic, semantic, and procedural memories past what their activation systems demand of them, allowing the EP to have their own set of wants, needs, interests, and desires.

The Emancipated EP will continue to be activated by trauma-related stimuli, however, they may be able to re-orient themselves to the present on their own, and will begin to become activated through positive stimuli that is unique to their episodic memories. Emancipation may cause conflict with other EPs, as well as phobic ANPs. The more an EP is activated in daily life by benign stimuli, the more an ANP may feel out of control, or even threatened by the presence of the Emancipated EP, who still holds traumatic memories. However, an Emancipated EP is still not fully integrated with their present reality. While they have synthesized their traumatic memories & activation systems with their benign memories and personality, they are still activated & disoriented by trauma-related stimuli.

It's important to remember that EPs are representatives of threat response activation systems & autonoetic traumatic memories. EPs are never trying to make things difficult on purpose. Rather, they are responding to innate biological systems they have no control over. EPs are also greatly affected by something called "conditional triggers," specifically with regards to their activation, but that requires an entire thread on its own. I will reply to this tweet with that thread once I have it written.

A final note: please remember that DID is complex, and alters are not only their labels. It can be hard to define whether a part is an ANP or not, and you should never force labels onto your parts against their will.

Take what feels right to you, and leave the rest.

Common EP Roles/Experiences:

- apprehension/fear part

- pain-numbing part

- pain-experiencing part

- 4Fs of survival part(s)

- attachment-seeking part

- care-seeking part

- recuperation from injury part

- "sick" or "ill" part

- "negative" sexual part

- aggressive part

Common EP Feelings:

- extreme emotions

- psychosomatic pain

- intense sensory experiences

- feeling overwhelmed

- suicidal ideation or behaviors

- pervasive sadness

- grief, loss, & mourning

- hope & longing

- feeling as if "nothing good happens"

- desire for caregiving

All of this information was taken from the Theory of Structural Dissociation, as written in the original paper from 2004.

Source:

Please excuse any typos.

I am not a professional nor an expert.

✨️Transcribed from Twitter with permission from @/ColubridC✨️

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|| The "Apparently Normal" Part of the Personality ||

Summary: an ANP is a part that encapsulates survival & daily functioning, and has failed to integrate and personify traumatic memories & the activation systems related to those memories.

ANPs are the "survival" and "daily functioning" activation systems of the mind. These systems include: play, exploration of the environment, managing energy levels through rest, sleep, eating, & drinking, interpersonal cooperation, and reproduction & caretaking.

In tertiary structural dissociation, these activation systems are divided between multiple ANPs, resulting in a collection of parts - who are often disconnected from each other - that attempt to manage daily life by remaining dissociated from traumatic memories & EPs.

Some ANPs may be professionals with a strong, long-standing career. Others may be loving (yet often inattentive due to dissociation) parents. Many more may experience overwhelming dissociation & disowned feelings, making them feel like they are barely treading water.

ANPs are NOT defined by being emotionless (or only experiencing "good" emotions), "strong enough to handle it," able to excel in daily life with no problems, perfectly rational paragons, or any of the other baseless stereotypes & assumptions people make. Many ANPs may very well have those traits, but that isn't, inherently, what makes them an ANP. In many cases, ANPs may NOT be well-equipped to handle daily life, and struggle greatly with even the concept of surviving.

They are still ANPs.

When it comes to dissociation, ANPs often experience "negative" symptoms of dissociation, such as memory loss, DP/DR, feeling apathetic, and "zoning out."

ANPs often lack memories related to trauma, and are unable to feel or identify certain sensory & somatic experiences. Quite a few ANPs do have access to some traumatic memories - despite the stereotype, ANPs often don't experience full amnesia. Rather, the memories lack personification. It feels as if it happened to someone else, or they have no emotional connection to those memories.

ANPs are the people who tell a "totally funny" story about something that happened to them as a child, and are confused and upset when people tell them "... that's kinda fucked up." They know of the trauma, but they have no ability to feel NOW what they felt THEN.

For "positive" symptoms, ANPs will experience an intrusion of traumatic memories, either full or in part, and they can be emotional, somatic, or both. These symptoms can be triggered by both internal and external factors, and often, the ANP is unaware of the trigger. This will result in the ANP feeling inexplicably upset or sick/in pain, disconnecting from the experience, and, finally, being deactivated completely & replaced by the appropriate EP.

This often causes either full or partial amnesia while the EP is active.

Other than traumatic memory intrusions that result in deactivation, an ANP may experience various positive dissociative symptoms, such as:

- hearing the EP's voice internally

- an EP controlling physical movements

- feeling pain or other sensory experiences.

Due to these intrustions, ANPs often - if not always, in the case of pre-cooperation stages - are phobic of not only the traumatic memories, but of the attached EPs, as well. An ANP may try to interact with an EP, but since the EP is liable to activate traumatic responses at any moment without the ANP's awareness, the ANP cannot predict nor control these intrusions of positive symptoms.

Fearing what they can't control, the ANP fears the EP.

If there are multiple ANPs, they may become avoidant of each other, based on conflicting trauma-related issues. This can go either one or both ways, depending on the ANPs and their reasons for avoidance. Most often, conflicting ANPs will be hyper-critical of each other.

Finally, when it comes to the formation of ANPs, they often split or elaborate when an existing ANP has become too affected by recurring dissociative symptoms to function without activation of an EP. They may also form in conjunction with an EP during or after a traumatic event.

The EP holds the activation responses needed to survive the threat, and the ANP holds the responses needed to function in a life outside of the trauma the EP holds.

A final note: please remember that DID is complex, and alters are not only their labels. It can be hard to define whether a part is an ANP or not, and you should never force labels onto your parts against their will.

Take what feels right to you, and leave the rest.

[Bonus] Common ANP Roles/Experiences:

- working professional part

- parent or caregiver part

- apathetic & detached part

- connection avoidant part

- denial/self-avoidant part

- "positive" sexual part

- friends & connection part

- exploration & play part

[Bonus] Common ANP Feelings:

- emotional numbing

- feeling disconnected from life

- apathy

- inability to feel certain sensory experiences

- feeling "out of control"

- avoidant/fearful of intimacy

- desiring freedom

- feelings of denial / "nothing bad happened"

All of this information was taken from the Theory of Structural Dissociation, as written in the original paper from 2004.

Source:

Please excuse any typos.

I am not a professional nor an expert.

✨️transcribed from Twitter with permission from @/ColubridC✨️

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If Taylor Swift used her power for good she would be such a great stochastic terrorist. She would post on Instagram "Hey guys, Tay here. Just wanted to say that whoever delivers me the head of Ron DeSantis on a platter will get free Eras Tour tickets. #ShadeNeverMadeAnybodyLessGay." It would be at her doorstep in two hours.