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Miss you, darling. Miss you so much. I hurt you so much when I was hurting, and it was the same from you to me. I hope you're doing well and I hope you don't ever get near me. I'm sorry for resenting you

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I didn't realize your reasons and I didn't know your plans, until I became the same age you were back then and it horrifies me. I wish you had done more so I could prove the world I am right, and I wish you had done nothing to me at all. Isn't it weird how it works?

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My mother thinks I'm a hermit, but I just aren't able to handle anyone in this place anymore. Is there any hope left for me?

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Complex feelings, hidden delusions

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I wish I was a boy, I wish I was your man

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nothin' quite like how a dog loves

let dead dogs lie - silas denver melvin // red dog - elizabeth frink // how to be a dog - andrew kane // domestication syndrome - dhole b // no origin found // for your own good - leah horlick // pleasure - beth cavener // it will come back - hozier // i am a dog. i have blood all over my teeth. - sciencedfiction // same poem as directly previous

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"don't live in the past" okay well the people I loved are there

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when georges bataille wrote, “no greater desire exists than a wounded person’s need for another wound” & when gillian flynn wrote, “a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort” & when ocean vuong wrote, “sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined” & when lisa m. basile wrote, “did you inherit a sickness? did you blame god? do you believe in god? do you believe in yourself? are you still on fire? did you ever put out the fire?” & when stephen a. guirgis wrote, “why didn't you make me good enough so that you could’ve loved me?”

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Tired of being used? Me too, pass the bottle

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Don't be sorry! I enjoyed the blurb a lot, and your writing in general is a treat to read!

And, with the earnest, most tender wording I can conjure: Thank you for your kind words, I deeply appreciate it

Edit: Don't worry about the derailment, seriously. Part of the beauty of posting in this particular medium is seeing how others develop from where you left it, like a note being passed by children in a classroom, and seeing it in real time was a joy to see.

Begging God to fix you!

(And other tales about religious trauma)

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Whining like a hurt dog and missing your dead lover (we were so young and the world failed you)

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Genuinely surprised this is all about MCYT, but very pleased. Lovely analysis!

I'll be honest (and a bit too vulnerable) with this, but I didn't expect someone to do such a extended, yet accurate, analysis on a silly little webweave I made, (ha!). This specific board is tied to a character from a story I'm writing, and I'll be lying if I didn't admit than that, too, is inspired by my own experiences with mental health, and very specifically delusions and trauma.

As silly (and perhaps a bit self-centered, I fear) as I sound, I find it heartwarming that someone took some of their time and passion to write something as wonderful as this analysis was, and to hear that it made them feel seen. That, really, is a joy I didn't quite expected to receive.

Thank you!

Begging God to fix you!

(And other tales about religious trauma)

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not that either is a good thing but there is a small cosmic sort of irony to appreciate in the way that the russian invasion of ukraine and the most recent nakba happened so close together and how they through comparison made it undeniably clear how much the definition of war crime and genocide and atrocity &etc depends on the geopolitical interests of the imperial core

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Begging God to fix you!

(And other tales about religious trauma)

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Are you okay?

I like your content and felt like checking in

I've been doing well, thank you!

College has been very hard lately, so I haven't made much stuff in general, don't worry about it tho, I'll collect some stuff soon, I hope

Thank you! I appreciate the concern :]

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Oliver Quick - I Love Like Something Not Worth Loving Back

Emily Wilson’s foreword to a translation of Homer’s Odyssey // Saltburn, MGM and Amazon Studios // It Will Come Back, Hozier // @/ojibwa on Tumblr // Bite The Hand, Boygenius // I’m Your Man, Mitski // I Want To Be Your Only Pet, Bombay Bicycle Club // The Carnivorous Lamb, Agustín Gómez-Arcos, tr. William Rodarmor // Frankenstein, Mary Shelley // Japanese Breakfast, Boyish

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Hi! I've been trying to find the owner of this image you used in a webweave. Do you happen to know? Have a nice day!

I'll be honest with you, I do not have the original creator. However, I'll look it up and see if I find them!