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(if you haven’t watched the final season of Squid Game, don’t read on pls)

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I’m only two episodes in and my fave character has DIED??!!? I mean, I’m not entirely surprised cuz they were subtly leading up to it but I was HOPING AGAINST HOPE and now I have lost ALL motivation to watch the show cuz literally this character was the only reason I even gave S2 a chance and ended up loving it!

I’m so sad 💔

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Sigh.

Sigh

Sigh,

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh.

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh.

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh

Again

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh.

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Sitting by a bridge that overlooks the evening speeding cars.

My dog is with me on this walk.

I’m regretting bringing her with me.

Because she’s the only reason stopping me from jumping off this bridge and plunging right into the oncoming traffic.

How nice that would be, if my life could end right this very moment.

But since she’s here tugging at the leash.

I guess we should walk back home before it gets too dark.

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Finally caught Mickey 17 and woah.

What a ride it was.

Very, very thought-provoking.

Although my cortisol did shoot through the roof.

Some scenes… oof.

Great movie, a little chaotic and disjointed but in a way I think that’s how Mickey might have felt throughout his entire adventure.

But yeah, absolutely would recommend.

Ok bye.

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I’m sick of being ugly.

I hate that nothing I do can positively transform my body.

I’m just done.

Done done done.

These are my 6:47 am thoughts today.

What a way to start the day.

Now to find a way to end it.

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I’m sad.

Still sad.

Always was sad.

Will be sad for the foreseeable future.

I wish I was like a line of code.

Backspace backspace backspace

Delete.

No undo.

Just done.

And gone.

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Me, KL, 2 May 2025 ✌️

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And how depressed did you wake up this morning?

If you could even wake up at all?

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I

am

inconsolable

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Here’s a delicious bowl of 욕회비빔밥 (yukhoe bibimbap) that I had been craving and finally had on Monday:)

Here’s the aftermath haha. It came with lovely sides and a daily soup but I ordered another soup, hence the three bowls:))

A rare happy post. Cuz it’s about food haha.

Okay byez~

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Took a day off to indulge a little so I got a hair cut at this salon I’ve always wanted to go to and even tried out their head spa which was bone-meltingly good.

That said, it was the personalised sticker on the complimentary tea that won me over right away haha ♡

What can I say - affection and attention that you pay money for always hits the spot.

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There’s no solace like the solace of sinking into a luxurious hotel bed.

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Sick and tired of absorbing everyone’s emotions.

Even when I don’t want to be everyone’s emotional punching bag I become it anyway.

I really hate being alive and with emotions.

I wish I felt less.

I wish I felt nothing at all.

I wish I would wake up nice and still, unfeeling and unbreathing tomorrow.

Yes, please.

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I lie so naturally it scares me.

(But actually I’m more impressed than scared)

(Especially with how easily I can recall them and perpetuate them where necessary)

Yeah, it’s pretty scary.

(In a cool, but also toxic way 🤷🏻‍♀️)

Okay bye. Off to first biz trip of 2025 ✈️

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Good morning.

And how have your “nearest and dearest” let you down today?

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You can’t trust anybody.

Especially those that claim love and loyalty.

They are the ones to be trusted least.

I’ve quoted this a million times before and I’ll quote it again:

Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls

I’m sick of everything.

I’m sick of acting like it’s okay when people hurt me

I’m sick of being surrounded by people who don’t even realise they have

I’m so fucking sick of this.