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me: *goes to pick up the phone*

dua lipa:

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when Ed gets brought up in conversation and everyone looks at me

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Not trying to be petty but I'm just really getting sick of people and it makes it more annoying when those people are supposed to be your friends and would probably say your crazy or give you shit if you ever said anything to them...just sick of being the nice, considerate, supportive friends and not getting anything back

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Personal Overemotional Vent (no need to actually read)

Anxiety is the fucking worst. It makes me feel crazy and I can’t tell if the way I feel is normal or not. I can’t help but let the past eat away at me and bother me to no end. I’ve been journaling a lot because I don’t wanna annoy my friends with the same stories and complaints over and over and over again. I wish social media didn’t exist and that I didn’t plan out posts days or even weeks in advance with the thought in my head that I might impress people. Posting things and worrying about who sees them is toxic and ruins the moment. I feel like I have the strangest mind set sometimes where I have really bad self esteem, but at the same time think I’m better than people (like what the fuck?). It’s like I can’t help but try to show off and tell people any sort of fact that I think is interesting or that might sound impressive. I need to stop being such a show off and stop caring what people think of me. I always tell myself I’m going to do a social media cleanse, but then something comes up that I want to post or I get bored and can’t help but scroll through every single app. I don’t wanna base my self esteem and validation on a few likes or views. I need to stop living in the past. I hate that in my head I plan out posting things in the hope that that one person will see it and think about me and feel the need to talk to me again. I hate that I’m not sure if he was all that great or if I just liked the idea of him. I hate that I still fantasize about talking to him again. I hate that I still measure out the time and wonder if it would one day be ok to reach out to him again and see how he’s doing.

This past year has been such a whirlwind and theres a lot of things that I regret. Every so often I randomly remember one of the really embarrassing things I did and I’m like “fuck!.” I try to tell myself that what’s done is done and that you can’t change the past, but it’s not so easily done. I sometimes think that a therapist would be helpful, but then I worry that I’ll realize I’m crazy and I’ll annoy the shit out of them and I also worry that I won’t like what they have to say. I know that doing/not doing certain things and that completely deleting people from my social media and contact list would be good for me, but I’m not one to let go of things so easily... I sometimes think that in some ways I must enjoy torturing myself by thinking about the past. Is that what masochism is? I want to make a list of all the terrible and wonderful things that have happened except I wanna also forget about the terrible things. I like to think that once i am actually happy that these feelings will go away. I hate the fact that I was having a really good week until I got stressed out and started overthinking everything. I worry that I’m not good at what I do and that I wasted my time going to school for something I can’t find a job in. I worry that I don’t know what I’m doing. I literally worry that I worry too much...

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Right in the feels

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Does anyone else look at things like exes social media or old convos even though it just kills u inside ? 🙃

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VHS Covers

Artist known as Steelberg creates nostalgic creative downcycles some of today’s most popular television shows and films by imagining them as plastic VHS cases. The worn titles, with their distressed cover images, are reminiscent of the cases you’d rent from Blockbuster Video in the late 20th century—”Be kind rewind” stickers and all.

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just found out corgi races exist, this is game changing!

via @drugxtest

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