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need someone to smack me like a broken tv

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everything good is temporary and my suicidal feelings are permanent, what am i supposed to do

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This is hilarious

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„Suicide is selfish“ let me be selfish for once in my life.

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people will be like “don’t worry it’s all in your head!” like babe… yes… that’s the problem… how do i get it out of there…

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what if being loved by me is a curse

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I’m tired of being soft. There is nothing soft about me left. I’m angry, hurt and exhausted.

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it’s so heartbreaking to realize that i’m not getting better.. it’s just phases of good, then bad, then repeat.. no matter how good i think i’m doing, it always seems to get bad again..

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my insides feel rotten, i dont feel like a real person

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Sometimes i wish i never met you in the first place

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i'm really fucking scared this is all i will ever be

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Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

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Waiting for the day I decay.

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Saw someone on tiktok say that Starchaser was so sad because it was always supposed to end that way, but wolfstar was so sad because it was never supposed to end that way and I think about that a lot.

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sorry still posting about wacthing over me because jesnen ackles what do you mean "the fantasy was far too real" what do you mean. what fantasty, the destiel fantasy? that one? dean winchester is that you? im typing this through tearz

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Hi everyone! It’s finally time to share something super exciting with you just in time for Christmas!🎄🥰

Everyone’s favorite angel is now a tree topper! 🎄🌟😇

This is one of the four tree-toppers I have designed featuring Cas, Jack and Dean & you are welcome to download him & put him on top of your tree! If you do, I’d love to see the photos! Feel free to tag me on sm 💗

All four versions are available to all paid tiers on my *patreon*

Or you can get them on *KoFi*

You can also get them as a sticker pack as seen below on RB

Here are come more photos of the whole crafting process and end result under the cut. (And yes, I still need to put up the Christmas tree 😅)