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Hey all! I'm not dead, just have very little time for anything, especially writing, since I started work in one of those international corporations sucking the life out of people 😆

Learning Chinese is also going great, it's my favourite thing to do in whatever spare time I rip out of my days.

And also my father had a stroke recently so I have to use all the time I have outside of work to take care of him and make sure he's taking all the meds and exercises.

I'm not saying goodbye to this blog, life just forced me to take a break, hahaha

Take care of yourselves!

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It's been a while since I've been to Tumblr. Ever since I got a job (and now I'm even changing companies, that was fast 😂) and got really deep into learning intermediate Chinese, I barely got any free time left.

But I'm still alive and I'm glad to see so many of you are doing well too 😀

Tumblr has changed a lot too, I barely recognize some of the functions, hahaha

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Hirako Shinji: with a shy s/o

Fandom: Bleach

Shinji has a lot of experience when it comes to breaking someone out of their shell.

He can be extremely persistent, to the point of becoming annoying, and that is usually enough to invoke some kind of reaction from the person of his interest.

Despite many people around him insisting otherwise, Shinji is a firm believer that an angry reaction is better than no reaction.

Regardless of how he chooses to present himself to the outside world, Shinji has a keen eye and uses it to pick up on all the small habits his shy object of interest might show when uncomfortable. Shinji has no issue with becoming the center of attention in any room he enters, so he'd use his loud personality to shift everyone's attention onto himself.

He has a never ending list of things to talk about, so Shinji would have no problem with filling up the quiet when his significant other froze or got too stressed out to finish the sentence.

He might spare you the awkwardness of sitting in the sudden silence, but it doesn't mean he wouldn't (tastefully) tease you about it later on. Once again, it's better to have any reaction at all, and from his experience, anger is a pretty good way of forgetting about stress.

Shinji doesn't consider himself a shy person, so his personal experience in that area is rather limited. He notices what makes you nervous and would try his best to redirect your attention away from it.

The moment he noticed you crack a smile at one of his lame jokes, he'd flood you with them.

When he noticed you spiraling down the path of panic, he'd push you with his shoulder or take your hand in his or find a hundred other ways to remind you that he's by your side, regardless of how bad a situation is.

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I'm looking for a few ideas what to write with Bleach characters. If you have an idea, send it in through the asks and we'll see where it takes us!

But please don't send anything with children/pregnancies/proposals.

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Ulquiorra: touch

Fandom: Bleach

Ulquiorra isn't used to being touched. He doesn't crave it, doesn't encourage it, doesn't think about it ever being a possibility outside of combat.

To be touched without malice and without pain is a foreign concept to him.

The first time you take his hand, Ulquiorra stopped whatever he's been doing and looked at you in confusion.

His skin is smooth and a little colder than you'd expect, but not unpleasant to the touch. It lacks any of the tiny imperfections that would make it more human-like.

On the very few occasions when he allowed you to take off his jacket, you were amazed by how much he resembled a marble statue. Brushing your hand over the milky white, smooth surface and over every tensed up muscle was an intoxicating experience.

It takes Ulquiorra some time to feel close enough to you to allow you more skin contact, although he still remained confused by the reasons why you insisted on touching him. He'd often stare at you blankly but without anger, when you brushed his hand or touched his face.

Ulquiorra acts as if he's indifferent to your touch, but as time goes on, you'd notice small changes in his behavior, like him standing closer to you than the others. He'd sometimes lean his face in your direction when talking, as if he wanted his hair to fall over his eyes and make you fix them.

His hair has a strange texture, like something between a silky spider web and an artificial doll's hair. It runs between your fingers like water, but has a strange strength to it. It fascinated you, and that sight made Ulquiorra feel something strange deep in his chest. You didn't notice at first how he remained completely still while you contemplated the secret of his hair and ran your hands through it, happy that he didn't immediately tell you to quit it.

Ulquiorra would never mention that he somehow-apparently-kind of enjoyed that experience, but there would be signs.

He isn't the kind of person that would openly talk about his growing fondness of being touched, but he would slowly stop avoiding it whenever you initiated.

It would take Ulquiorra a long time, but his confusion would eventually turn into acceptance and then into fondness.

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Kuchiki Byakuya: types of kisses

Fandom: Bleach

Byakuya prefers to keep affection in private, both because of his own preferences and because of the way he has been raised as a clan head. There are countless rules he has to follow in his daily life, and they only get more complicated the more serious he becomes about a relationship.

Because of his position as a squad captain and a clan head, it is not proper for him to even admit being in a relationship with someone outside of the aristocratic clans of Soul Society. It's viewed as a dishonor to the Kuchiki bloodline and legacy.

Therefore, since he's already considered a disappointment in the eyes of the elderly, there's nothing stopping Byakuya from disappointing them further. The damage is already done, because he has no intention of letting you go. He might as well enjoy the ride.

Still, Byakuya feels too shy to engage in something heated under the scrutiny of strangers’ eyes. Whenever the two of you are in public, which basically consists of everywhere outside of Byakuya's personal apartments at the Kuchiki manor, he’ll be extremely stoic and almost indifferent to you most of the time. The most you can get from him are feather-light brushes of his hand over yours or the gentle but tender kiss on top of your palm.

It's still more than the clan aristocracy can handle, but their protests land on deaf ears.

If only Byakuya felt more comfortable with public displays of affection, he'd engage in them more often. He loves you, and enjoys every aspect of you - if it was up to him, he'd always touch you in one way or another.

Throughout the day, Byakuya usually only kisses you on the cheek or the crown of your head when he walks past. It soon becomes almost a habit, and he's overjoyed when you start returning the favor.

He's often busy with all the paperwork and has little time to spare during the day to be with you. That's why he appreciates it so much when you choose to sit quietly with him in the room, taking care of your own work, reading or resting. There are plenty of servants in the Kuchiki manor, but he appreciates it when you decide to brew fresh tea or bring him fruits and snacks. He always plants a kiss over your hands.

Byakuya is more open when he's out of the public eye, and is more willing to take things further. When the two of you are alone, Byakuya will take his time running his fingers over the sensitive skin of your jaw and neck. He tilts your chin up slightly to face him, and marvels at the way your eyelids always flutter in that moment.

His kiss is almost a brush of lips over yours at first, but he's a master of asking for permission with every movement and stroke. It'll turn heated before you realize you're gasping for breath and clinging to his clothes. His hands hold onto you with just as much need, grounding you when you feel lightheaded.

Byakuya doesn't like when you depart, whether on a mission or back to the world of the living. He always makes sure to see you leave and parts with a kiss. He's gentle and considerate, and you can feel him already longing for the moment you're back.

He cups your face and looks into your eyes with sadness shining in his own. He understands the reasons why you have to leave and doesn't stop you. The kiss isn't long, but it takes you breath away with how much it encompasses.

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Grimmjow: trust

Fandom: Bleach

Grimmjow is used to being on his own and always sleeping with one eye open. The possibility of being backstabbed and betrayed by those claiming to be on his side had proven to be real many times before - to the point where he almost expects it.

It takes him some time to warm up to the idea of making friends and having a genuine connection with Ichigo and his friend group and therefore also - you.

Adjusting to the new reality of being able to sort of, kind of, believe that some people don't mean harm to him in the long run was sped up by the growing interest Grimmjow had in you.

Grimmjow isn't someone who is good at, or would even consider suppressing his feelings, so it would sooner or later lead to him finding himself in a relationship. It was a strange course of action to him, because binding his life to someone else's was a first for such a paranoid loner, but what was even stranger was his hope that it would last.

Trust was not easily given in Grimmjow’s life, and one of the most difficult decisions he had to make was deciding whether he should put it in you.

The relationship with you is probably one of the very few genuine connections Grimmjow allowed himself throughout his long life, and it wouldn't last if he didn't respect you enough to accept the unknown.

For Grimmjow, trust is putting a sword into your hands and pointing it at his own heart, while never truly certain what your next step would be.

Once he'd made that decision though, a part of Grimmjow would finally be at peace. Whatever happened next was entirely up to you, and he'd just have to live with the consequences. But before that happened, the kind of trust Grimmjow would give his significant other was one of the purest and most wholehearted gestures he was capable of.

Grimmjow is a territorial person and doesn't want to share the things he cares about deeply - and you are one of those few. Trust for him means knowing that you consider him just as important. Grimmjow has aggressive tendencies and wouldn't enjoy the sight of someone else taking too much of an interest in you. He trusts you to make the right choice and send the idiot away, but at the same time it doesn't mean he can't stand around, glaring menacingly and imagining gutting the idiot open. Grimmjow doesn't mind his thoughts clearly showing on his face.

He's an open book. He hardly ever tries to hide anything.

Except for the rare occasions when he's woken in the middle of the night, his paranoia making the nightmares unbearable. He'd wake up covered in the cold sweat, with the fading remnants of the dream stuck beneath his eyelids.

Trust in you is something he's managed to get used to. It's present when he lets his guard down, when he closes his eyes, when he falls asleep knowing you could slit his throat. It's present in the moments when Grimmjow has to get a burden off his chest when it becomes too heavy. It's present in knowing that you'd keep his secrets and insecurities tucked safely away within yourself.

But trust is a gained privilege, and no one knows better than Grimmjow that the reality, regardless of the world he lives in, can be cruel. Grimmjow trusts neither in the future, nor in good fortune. All that he's ever gained, he had to fight for and that's precisely why he will do anything in his power to protect those closest to him.

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Kuchiki Byakuya: insecurities

Fandom: Bleach

Kuchiki Byakuya is a man that grew up under immense pressure. From a very young age, everyone's eyes had been following his every move - both inside and outside of his clan.

Some of his more superficial insecurities are rooted in that very scrutiny and constant judgment too.

His every word and gesture had been an object of scrutiny for long enough to forge the perfect clan head and then also a captain. Dealing with nobility is a headache even on a good day, but it becomes a true battle of wills when one of Byakuya’s decisions isn't up to their liking.

It is a given that the nobility is going to use every single insecurity and vulnerability in Byakuya’s facade just to prove a point. But even if he eventually became better at dealing with them, sometimes their words and scheming just finds a crack in his armor.

Every once in a while Byakuya faces a situation that brings out the things he is careful not to think about. Regardless of his completely unreadable facade, they are still difficult to get out of his head, though. He is prone to overthinking his decisions, trying to find any possible mistakes or things he might've overlooked initially. The amount of responsibility he has on his shoulders is immense, and makes him feel insecure in his own skills and understanding. He knows that every single mistake he makes will be used against him by the opposing nobility.

Many times he was left alone with his thoughts after a meeting. Drowning himself in the never-ending paperwork could only work for so long before it failed too.

It's not an easy thing to notice the subtle change in Byakuya's mood, even for his significant other.

He'd never mention anything bothering him, so it's up to his spouse to notice the slight tension in his shoulders that doesn't leave him throughout the day, and the deeper than usual frown between his eyebrows. Byakuya holds his spouse close to his heart and values them greatly, but it's also out of that respect that he doesn't want to bother them with his personal issues, especially the ones rooted in his very sense of self.

He appreciates his spouse's support, no matter how small. On some days, even a simple gesture is enough to break him out of the prison of his mind.

He enjoys the kisses you press over his face or the top of his head when you walk past him in the manor. His expression wouldn't change, but some of the tension in the line of his shoulders would be released.

Byakuya has never denied you a hug, even though he's rarely the one to initiate one. He appreciates the way you always seem to know when he needs them the most. Despite his calm facade and stoic demeanor, Byakuya wouldn't be the first to let go.

Sometimes, it would be difficult for Byakuya to finish the day and mentally get rid of the accumulated stress enough to fall asleep. He'd sit on the veranda and drink some tea in hopes of clearing his head. He'd appreciate it if you decided to join him, but wouldn't force you to witness his sulking. Byakuya doesn't have a lot of space to pull down his walls and be honest with himself without anyone else watching. As his significant other, you'd be one of the very few people that could see him in that state.

He'd question himself a lot, both internally and with you if he decided to open up about his aggravated insecurities. He doesn't expect pity or an impromptu therapy session out of you, nor does he want it.

But it does feel better to voice the things that hurt and have someone else acknowledge and dismantle them one by one. A voice of reason is no less powerful when it comes in whispers and soft touches, brushing away any insecurities left.

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Hirako Shinji: affection

Fandom: Bleach

If only you allowed him, Shinji would be all over you every waking moment of his life.

It doesn't mean that his need for physical affection is that enormous - he'd rather use this opportunity to annoy you out of your mind.

He can't help but tease you relentlessly once your relationship is established and he can't keep his joy under control. He's always been a rather lighthearted person, and his tendencies only grow in strength once the object of his affection can't really leave.

Cheesy jokes and playing on your nerves are Shinji’s love language and there's no stopping him.

He loves to shower you in random kisses and counts as bonus points every time he manages to startle you. You will quickly realize that his hugs are a death trap designed to trick you into falling into his grip just so he can squeeze you tight and mercilessly tickle your sides.

Even though he's built like a skeleton, Shinji has a surprising amount of physical strength that he loves to use in order to hold you in his grip despite your wriggling and spitting out death wishes on him.

Shinji learns suspiciously quickly every single ticklish spot on your body and will use that knowledge when you least expect him to.

On the days when he chooses to tone it down, Shinji enjoys the simplicity of touch through holding your hand or having an arm loosely wrapped around your waist.

He isn't overly jealous in public, and even when he isn't the most happy with attention you're getting from others, he won't rush in and make a scene without a reason. He trusts you and knows that you can take care of yourself. He'd still hover around, of course, and step in if need arises.

The most he'd usually resort to is staring down whoever he deems annoying, as long as everything is respectful, though. The moment he notices you feeling uncomfortable, Shinji will find the right excuse to leave a situation.

He might be a little more clingy later on, once the two of you have more privacy.

He enjoys it when you take care of his hair in any way. It's shorter than what he's used to, so it doesn't require as much attention, but he still makes it look presentable. Especially since he noticed how much you enjoy brushing your fingers through it and comment on the softness.

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Kuchiki Byakuya: mornings

Fandom: Bleach

Byakuya enjoys routine. He's gotten used to a certain way of living over the years, caused by his rather unchanging set of duties.

Still, he appreciates having you by his side and tries to steal a few moments of relative privacy whenever possible. Mornings tend to be the time when has a rare chance to be with you without anyone's eyes following his every movement.

Byakuya enjoys waking up a few moments earlier than you, and way before he has to officially start his day as the head of the clan and a division. Byakuya has a tendency to work until late evenings, and sometimes even during the night, so it's not uncommon for you to be asleep by the time he comes back to your shared private rooms.

He doesn't blame you for it, but he feels the need to make up for it, and so he chooses to make sure he's there for you when you wake up. He loves your lazy, still half-asleep smile you always make when you notice him. However selfish, Byakuya loves to start his day with it.

On some mornings, all you do is just cuddle quietly, enjoying each other's warmth and presence. Byakuya cherishes the safety he feels with your arms wrapped around him, and the knowledge that you will stay by his side no matter what might happen.

Other times, you'd talk about whatever came to mind. Because of the nature of his responsibilities, Byakuya has to spend a lot of time away from you, so he makes sure to talk to you on a daily basis and be up to date with what happens in your life.

He enjoys listening to you speak, even if it's about people he doesn't know or things that he's unfamiliar with. The motions changing on your face had always been a captivating sight to him, just like all the small details he could discover again.

Byakuya insists on eating breakfast together, and always has the servants prepare your favorite tea. He makes sure that everyone understands he's absolutely not available when it comes to division of clan business until the breakfast finishes.

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Scaramouche (Wanderer): jealousy

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Wanderer doesn't own much in life. He hardly ever cares about any belongings or material possessions and for the most part, he is happy with that. He's lost so much over the course of his life that he thinks it's best if he just has nothing else to lose. 

But there are certain things he just won't compromise on, and you are one of them. 

It's taken him a long time to convince himself worthy of you and now that he feels a connection with you, there is absolutely nothing Wanderer will allow to ruin that relationship.

He will immediately notice someone taking an interest in you. Wanderer will keep an eye on them just in case, and probably won't mention it to you without a reason. He'd feel bad for making you feel responsible for an idiot's behavior. 

The situation will drastically change the moment someone decides to act and approach you. Wanderer would immediately position himself in front of you. He wouldn't even have to try hard to make a scary face, because his anger would overtake him. If his scowl wasn't enough to scare someone off, Wanderer was fully ready for a fight.

You oftentimes had to calm him down with a hand on his shoulder or elbow, and convince him to let the situation be resolved in a more peaceful manner.

Wanderer had never been one for peaceful solutions, but he would carefully allow you to do the talking. 

He would stare menacingly from behind your back, his teeth almost bared and one wrong word away from snapping. You were his and there was no need for other people taking away your time. 

Wanderer was not below grabbing a particularly annoying person and taking them for a quick fly away from any witnesses. Sometimes a change of surroundings was the best problem solver, especially when paired with hanging someone high off the ground.

Wanderer had always tried his best to present his best side to you and prove how capable he was in everything he touched. So when he sees someone better, Wanderer will do absolutely anything it takes to show off and make up for it.

Wanderer is aware you know a lot of people all around Teyvat. He's been traveling with you for a while and made a few acquaintances too. But it doesn't change the simple fact that whenever he sees you talking to one of your friends and clearly having fun catching up, something in Wanderer stirs. Thoughts of self-consciousness are not welcome, so he'd just grow more quiet, trying to repress them.

He wouldn't make a scene when it comes to your friends. Regardless of his own feelings, he wants you to be happy and have fun with people you rarely see. 

Wanderer would be more affectionate than usual once that meeting was over and he was left alone with you again. He wouldn't ask for it outright, but his hugs would be just a bit tighter and his kisses longer.

Wanderer never thought himself to be the jealous type, but he had a few things to reconsider when presented with the evidence.

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Grimmjow: wounds

Fandom: Bleach 

Even before Grimmjow became an Arrancar, he had very little regard for his own safety. He was the King of Hueco Mundo and if any Hollow had that questioned, he'd rip them to shreds. 

Simple, efficient and even if it resulted in Grimmjow suffering injuries, he always made sure to play them off as something minor. He'd boast about his scars too - after all, these were the marks of terrible injuries he's overcome and enemies he defeated. 

The truly grave ones, Grimmjow would make sure to clean and take care of somewhere secluded, with no eyes on him. There was absolutely no way he'd ever let anyone see him vulnerable or weak. He was strong enough to overcome them, and if this time he wasn't - maybe he deserved to die.

As an Arrancar, there was even more pressure to always appear invulnerable and ready to settle down any tensions with a quick and bloody brawl. There was always someone in a lower position, waiting for his slip up to climb the hierarchy over his dead body. And there was always someone higher, waiting to take out the competition.

Grimmjow would rather bite off his own infected arm than admit he had a problem with it.

So when Aizen fell and the dust had settled once again, Grimmjow didn't think much had changed for him. Sure, he had somehow ended up infatuated with you, which was as incredible as it was confusing, but Grimmjow didn't predict that his days of lonesome suffering were over.

The first time he had a fight to settle and decided to hole up in some shithole to sleep off his exhaustion and ignore all the bleeding, he was quite literally dragged out of it and screamed at within first 2 seconds of opening his tired eyes. 

Grimmjow had no idea how terrifying you could be because of something so minor in his eyes. 

He was stunned into compliant silence when you started ripping off the pathetic excuses of bandages he slapped onto the most bleeding wounds. He didn't even argue when you dragged him home. He was exhausted and only half aware of his surroundings.

Grimmjow would allow you to take care of his wounds, although would watch your hands the whole time. He'd absolutely refuse to answer your questions truthfully, though. No, nothing hurt. No, he didn't have a fever. No, he didn't need your help or whatever stupid medicine you were stuffing him full with.

It would take Grimmjow a few days to actually relax and notice the difference of how he felt. 

Trust was a strong word in Grimmjow's world and he was reluctant to use it, but he had to admit you did nothing to hurt him or use the state he was in against him.

Grimmjow slept a bit more deeply whenever you sat by his bed. He'd deny it, but you could see how the lines of his face lost tension when his mind was finally allowed to drift away. He slowly got used to you doing small stuff around him while he slept, and no longer woke up every time you changed the cold towel on his forehead.

He'd want you to stay by his side the whole time, though. He played it off as whatever you did in his proximity had a better effect when you were close, but the truth remained that he had wanted you to brush the hair off his forehead and gently rub his hand. And he enjoyed it. 

He ate the medicine you gave him, even though it took a lot of curses about the taste and demands to know why precisely it had to be so awful.

Grimmjow had a lot to say about your skills with the needle too, but he let you learn on him anyway. He had a lot of scars already, so one or two more caused by your uneven stitches made little difference to him.

He has to admit that having someone around him felt good. Grimmjow would be extremely adamant to outright say he appreciated your help, but would spend some time watching you under half closed eyelids before deciding that he would, in his great mercy, allow you to be on good terms with him. He'd still be an insufferable asshole and there was nothing stopping his snark, but if there was something you needed help with, he'd give it.

Grimmjow was surprised how quickly his injuries stopped bothering him. He wouldn't say thank you, but he'd pay you a visit every once in a while with some excuse.

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I'm having Bleach brainrot and i love it.

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Kuchiki Byakuya: taking care of him

Fandom: Bleach 

Byakuya rarely got sick or injured enough to require medical attention.

Even as a child, he used to have a strong body and those few times he was overtaken by sickness, he was always fussed over by the clan medics. As the heir to the clan, there was not a moment of peace and quiet until he got better. He detested those moments, especially when he had a fever or a migraine and people would not leave him alone.

It got better with time, because once he had gotten stronger, there were less incidents that left him injured and through rigorous training, he hardly ever caught any illness.

But his duties as a captain had sometimes put Byakuya in situations that ended up with injuries that even he couldn't downplay.

A lot of those situations also involved Ichigo and his friends - and therefore also you.

The first time you took care of him happened after a terrible fight that had left him barely standing. Byakuya knew that once the fight was over, it wouldn't take long for the support and healing squad to get there, so he was fine with just closing his eyes a little and waiting. Fussing around wouldn't make him bleed any less.

What he didn't expect was for you to just walk over and start bandaging his worst wounds with the few scraps of fabric you had. You didn't have a reason to do it, no obligation or debt of gratitude to him. You didn't even small talk. 

It made him warm somewhere deep down in his chest.

There were many instances when despite him trying his best, Byakuya had to be helped off the battlefield once everything was over. He had become almost used to the way you wrapped your arm around his midriff and heaved him over your shoulder to half drag, half walk him somewhere safer. 

It felt almost comforting. 

Byakuya never sent you off once he was taken by his clan medics. Or rather, the few times he tried, you ignored him anyway or just broke back into his mansion to check on him a few hours later. 

Despite everything, he enjoyed your presence. He appreciated not being treated like he was made out of glass, which is something the clan medics had a tendency of. He knew his limits and often didn't agree with their suggestions.

The strange thing was, Byakuya was way more likely to listen to the same advice coming from your lips. It's possible that the mystery had something to do with the delivery. 

Ignoring the ancient, almost blind clan medics was relatively easy, especially since he's known them for hundreds of years and was the head of the whole clan. His word was always final and there was no one else commanding the clan.

On the other hand, hearing from you, a person he's reluctantly come to terms with calling a friend, to lay his ass back down on the bed or you'd sit on him, had a certain effect.

The effect was making him too stunned to argue and then unable to with another wet towel slapped on his face to fight the fever. 

Sometimes, the best methods were simple ones.

Byakuya wasn't sure why he couldn't get angry at that kind of treatment from you. It might've had something to do with how different it was from what he was used to and bored with for so long. 

Or maybe it was because despite you being rough with him sometimes, you still stayed quietly by his side when he was feverish and could barely figure out what was happening. He dozed off, his dreams chaotic and messy, but he could still feel your hand in his anchoring him to reality. 

Byakuya was grateful for the rest he was able to get because of you. Both because there was someone he trusted quietly watching over him, and because you were ready to throw hands with anyone else wanting to disturb him. 

You could've sworn that once you've caught Byakuya smiling right after you were done throwing a clan medic out and telling him, in detail, how necessary a temperature check every 10 minutes was in your opinion. You might've been holding a sword at the time.

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Kuchiki Byakuya: falling in love //part 2

Fandom: Bleach 

Byakuya knew that due to his position in the clan, whoever he suddenly decided to spend time with would be closely monitored by the clan elders. They were a necessary structure within the clan, but one that required a reminder every now and then that they weren't omnipotent.

One such reminder came when Byakuya finally decided to inform them about stepping into a relationship with you. 

They weren't the first to learn about this, they weren't even asked beforehand for their opinion and a formal blessing. The bubble of their ego burst in the most spectacular way. Looking at their faces in that moment, Byakuya felt incredible satisfaction - and wondered whether the ones turning the brightest purple would actually step down or drop dead. 

They didn't, but their fury was immeasurable. 

Byakuya has never enjoyed working alongside the elders, and preferred to have as little to do with them as possible. It had worked out decently well before, majorly because as a clan head and a squad captain the amount of power he had had been enough to get his way with the most important decisions.

You didn't have that kind of protection.

That's why Byakuya made sure you understood that a relationship with him would mean having to step onto the clan ground and sometimes deal with people unhappy that a person from the World of the Living of no position would become Byakuya's significant other.

It was important for Byakuya to make you understand all the consequences. By then, he had been in love with you for a while, and wanted you to make an informed decision. Even if it meant a possibility of your refusal.

Byakuya had spent the few days before that constantly worrying what your answer would be. He'd accept it anyway. He was not the person who'd force you into a relationship with him just to fulfill his own dream, but make you suffer in the process. Still, he worried. 

An enormous weight was lifted off his shoulders when you agreed to a relationship with him. It was an almost visible thing and he couldn't help but let out a small sigh of relief. 

Now he only had to inform the elders. 

He froze when one day, soon after that, you asked whether he wanted to make the elders froth at the mouth. Given how much he had to argue with them to accept and not attack you on the clan ground, your question had caught Byakuya's attention. A vengeful, smug part of him that was almost forgotten since he grew up, now stirred.

Byakuya almost had a heart attack himself when you proposed to move your sleeping arrangements to his personal chambers.

It was not what he expected. Or was mentally prepared for.

But it certainly had the right kind of effect. 

He agreed when you explained that you mostly just wanted to be close to him and wouldn't force him into anything he wouldn't be comfortable with. Making the clan elders furious was a bonus point.

And that's how Byakuya ended up unable to sleep even deep into the night, laying on his bedsheets next to you. 

You were true to your words, and the two of you spent a nice evening drinking tea and talking before exhaustion weighed down on you. You slept peacefully, tucked in tight in your own futon, and just like you promised, you didn't disturb Byakuya's peace at all.

Or at least that was the idea. 

Byakuya couldn't help but stare at your peaceful face, barely visible from beneath the covers. Your hair surrounded it like a messy, unruly halo and every once in a while you muttered something quietly. He has never been happier.

He had barely slept that night, busy contemplating the way shadows brushed over your cheek as the clouds passed over the moon at the other side of the window. His heart was beating hard enough he worried he'd wake you up. 

He'd insist that you kept your sleeping arrangements with him, even after your revenge reached the elders.