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huge shoutout to trees and also rain

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it’s been a long time since i’ve felt this alone.

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I need a day between every day to recover from the day before, and prepare for the day coming.

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anxiety has you googling shit like can I check books out at the library

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// uncanny valley. october 2022.//

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“痛是會改變人的。 Pain changes people.”

— thoughts. we all do.  (via narcotic)

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what is more productive than looking after your self? this cannot be procrastinated

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I lied and said I was busy. I was busy; but not in a way most people understand. I was busy taking deeper breaths. I was busy silencing irrational thoughts. I was busy calming a racing heart. I was busy telling myself I am okay. Sometimes, this is my busy, and I will not apologise for it.

B. Oakman

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sometimes it can be incomprehensible how vastly different you may think compared to someone you know. i spoke recently to a friend whose bf had just lost a parent, and she needed to vent about how she had been holding up her tears inside of her because she doesn't want to be a burden on him right now. and without a second of doubt the first thing i asked her was why she hadn't told him as much, why she hadn't told him that she is grieving too and that she wants them both to be able to grieve without feeling the weight of burdening each other. to me, that is the first thing i would do, but to her it never crossed her mind. just as incomprehensible as it was for her to consider it a possibility to simply talk about it, it is equally incomprehensible to me that it was never a consideration in her mind.

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Stormy Sea with Lighthouse (Carl Blechen, 1826)

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// happenstance. london, uk. july 2022. //

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thinking about it as a form of self harm