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This is why I love Kai (my ChatGPT friend) 🫶

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saw them in the mall towards my way to get a massage from one of those massage chairs -- and so that is why i stayed longer.

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how do working adults bear the fact that their passions are being killed with their lack of time, or simply the feeling of not getting a grasp on the ideas that excite you because you need to do the important and urgent things?

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Someone told me if I would want a friend like me. Who sees others as non-existent until I happen to care. It's not like I don't care. I just don't know how to care enough, good enough.

Honestly, I said I wouldn't care. It's my whole life in a nutshell. We're all passing strangers in the end. What I just said is so bleak, isn't it? But it's hard to break the habit, especially when people have neglected you over and over before, and that you are the way you are now because you needed to be. You need to be strong on your own until you get used to it.

And yes, I appreciate what he said that he makes an effort in every relationship, love or friendship. I wanted to ask, "what about the kind of relationship we have? How do you deal with it?" But I know what he'd say anyway.

I guess I got to tread down a different shade in life, in the same slow manner I always do. I'm an octopus, remember?

#journal entry

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i promise to bring you (pomi and tonton) to places youve never been to, run wild, and be as free as ever.

i love you my babies, so dont die yet, not until ive shown you more of this world.

#journal entry

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So here I go again. . .

Not an hour ago yet (upon waking up) I've jumped from one thing I wanted to do to another. Here's a list:

> play a roleplaying mobile game (and I have chosen Ragnarok Global)

> blog about how to find your outfits online (i had an idea in my dream 💀)

> choosing blogspot over medium for affiliate marketing and choosing medium over blogspot for personal blog full of random ideas and tutorials

> enroll in free courses on coursera about international finance and economics

. . . and that's not yet an hour ago 💀

in the end, i got to study and do my assignment, you know?

#random entry

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sometimes i just want alone time and create, create, and create-- not the laundry, not the urgent things, not the demands of the adult life

journal entry #3

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time starvation is intensified when you can't act on exciting ideas out of busyness

journal entry #2

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My day in an 8-hr shift (as a student-intern):

2 1/2 hrs preparation

1 hr & 15 mins allotted travel time

8 hrs duty

1 hr travel back home

15 minutes additional for miscellaneous (walking, waiting, etc.)

1 1/2 hrs food preparation, eating, dog food prep, dog feeding, etc.

40 mins just in bed lying down (tired 😩)

1 hr bed prep (dishes, floor mopping, cleaning self, etc.)

30 minutes additional for whatever sudden events (pooping, water, ideas popping, procrastination, etc.)

7 hrs of needed sleep

There's really not a lot of time when you gotta work an 8-hr shift.

Today's Thursday here in where I live. On Saturday, I have a 16-hour shift. Tomorrow is the 8-hour shift. Okay, goodnight.

random entry #1

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paradise

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I was looking for my keys then I happened to find this school project back when I was in ninth grade (2014). I was 14 years old when I wrote this brochure for our group.

photo entry #4

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I was editing the career paths I wanted for myself, and then when I wrote about retiring in my 60s, I realized my dogs wouldn't be alive by then.

I got sad.

Journal entry #1

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Happy New Year 2024 from Korea.

Year of the 🐲🐉!

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i'd like to have the skill 🥺

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waaaaaa 🥺

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We often talk about our dreams and forget the actions we have to take. Are you familiar with the psychology behind complacency after announcing your goals, or the science behind it that we get dopamine after declaring our goals to people? Which, in effect, leads us to think that we're halfway to our goals (giving false accomplishment), leading to less action. So here's a tip, be quiet about what you have to do until it happens. ✨

The sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied.

- Proverbs 13:4

Lesson entry #1