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[[ me @ myself when getting excited and typing in all caps to mutuals: Stop yelling at them you’ll scare them away ]]

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[[ If you ever started an rp with me and would want to continue it, send me a message! I haven’t been on in.. literal months, so I don’t know who is still here and who would be willing to continue! ]]

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• I just got dumped horribly and I’m crying so fucking bad right now and I just bumped into you in the hallway wow talk about hella awkward //hello friend lol

[;;      He knew he couldn’t point out the mess that Rin was.

Sousuke hadn’t expected to see his roommate and best friend like this. If he had it his way, Rin would never be in this state of distress. His nose nearly matched his hair color and is eyes were puffy and swollen from crying. Though he hadn’t said a word to him yet, Sousuke could tell Rin’s voice would crack upon uttering his first syllable, echoing whatever pain he was feeling inside.

      This destroyed Sousuke..

The time for rage wasn’t now. Sousuke didn’t have the information he needed to right the wrong of the idiot Rin had been messing around with. All he was able to do now was damage control.

      “Do you want to talk about it?” Sousuke winced at his words as soon as he said them. Of course he didn’t want to discuss it and Sousuke didn’t want to push him, but it was a start.      ;;]

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RP Ideas!

I’m more of an au kind of rper, though I can/will rp mainverse, so these are a lists of a few au rps I’d love to do! I may make a few starters for some of these ideas, but if you wanna detail rp we can do that too!

Cop!Sou AU: We’ve all seen the pics– I want a plot of it! Available and Open for anyone! Basic plot is Sou coming back on the force after being shot in the shoulder, tearing his muscle and shattering part of the bone. Can be its own verse or we can make a new verse if you wanna do something different!

Fisherman!Mermaid AU: Sou being a dumb fisherman and catching more than he bargained for. Mermaid can be anyone! Verse can be platonic/shippy. It all depends on your preference!!

Gangster!AU: Speaks for itself. Are you an enemy or an ally of the Yamazaki Family? Are you an innocent bystander who never did no wrong,? The person who makes Sou’s coffee in the morning? Someone he wouldn’t want his enemy’s hands on? Find out by plotting!

Breakup!AU: Hey we were dating and broke up! Why? Probably for a good reason. Is Sou sad you left? Maybe! Does he miss you as much as you miss him? Who knows! It would be awkward for us to cross paths.. so lets do it!

Werewolf!AU: That guy who lives alone in the cabin in the woods pretty much keeps to himself.. why don’t you go talk to him? Maybe not on a full moon night though..

I have a lot more but– here are a few! Inbox me if you wanna do one! I’ll make some starters!

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Ideas For Modern AU's

• We’re stuck in an elevator together and I’m literally pressed up against you this isn’t awkward at all

 • I accidentally passed you an embarrassing note that was meant for my best friend dON’T YOU DARE READ IT

• I just got dumped horribly and I’m crying so fucking bad right now and I just bumped into you in the hallway wow talk about hella awkward

• Neither of us have partners for dance so we’re stuck together for the slow dancing unit and neither of us can dance

• I just twisted my ankle while running laps in gym and you’re the only person near me please carry me to the nurses office I’M DYING HELP

• I just heard a weird sound in the middle of the night and woke up to find you stealing food from our kitchen aND WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING MY NUTELLA

• There are not enough lockers in the school so we have to share one for the rest of the year did I mention I have a huge ass tuba I haul around everywhere?

• I just stepped on your new iPhone aND I AM SO SORRY I’LL MAKE IT UP TO YOU PLEASE DON’T KILL ME

• I’m on my way to the swimming pool in our building but the elevator got stuck. So now I’m alone with you in an elevator wearing nothing but a skimpy swim suit

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nice aus

i was watching that hot jogger while driving out of the neighborhood but got distracted and crashed but i just woke up in a hospital room and said hot jogger is at my bedside because apparently they’re the one who called the ambulance

we have apartments next to each other and sometimes you’re blasting shitty music but other times you’re jerking off and that’s even louder than the music please quiet down

you left your sketchbook on a bench and i can’t really tell but is this supposed to be me??? am i really that skinny????

i’m late to work but can’t function correctly without coffee so i stopped at starbucks on the way and i have no idea how to use this menu please help me

we both live at the beach and it’s spring break so we bond over the hatred of college kids ruining everything

it’s a heat wave out and you’re wearing a goddamn hoodie so please take this water bottle i just stole bought from a hot dog stand before you die of overheating

we’re at the beach and my friend is off fighting people for a spot near the ocean and they packed a lot so yes, could you please help me unload my truck?

i tried to call a crisis hotline but got one number off and started ranting for 10 minutes before you got to speak and tell me i got the wrong number but now you’re worried about me and telling me not to hang up

i want to be ‘the man who can’t be moved’ level romantic but i spent an hour just trying to pick out a candy bar for you because i wasn’t sure what you like im sorry

my friend brought you along to an outing of ours and i get way too into singing along to mumford and sons songs in the car and my friend is laughing but you’re trying to imitate a banjo sound with your mouth because what’s mumford and sons without violent banjo playing

it’s my tradition to eat twizzlers while marathoning this show on it’$ anniversary but i ran out so i’m in the walmart candy aisle at 2 am crying because i can’t find the twizzlers please help me

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[[ Anyone wanna start or restart an rp I’d really like to get back on the horse ]]

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[[ Holy shit I found my last update asking for help and it has 35 notes?? God you guys are so great I didn’t even have a way to check this blog when I was homeless yet you all shared it to help me out and that makes me so happy thank you guys.

Also just to assure you! Even though I have none of my medications anymore... I’m a lot happier here. I have been staying with my mom instead of living in my car, so I’m not homeless and things are getting better than before.

All because of you<3 ]]

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[[ I miss roleplaying and I wanna get back into it, even though I have two jobs now and no time to do anything ever..

Life updates: In March I got divorced because my spouse was tired of me relapsing back into my depression every five months, lost my insurance so I lost access to my antidepressants and my therapist, I moved, I got fired from my job not even a week after being there (made a very dumb and reckless mistake due to stress and withdrawal of my antidepressants) got kicked out of my dads house, got kicked out of my brothers house, which hurt because I expected that from my dad but I thought me and my brother were ride or die for each other, I had to move in with my mom, asked you guys for help, which you did and I’m so thankful holy shit. I gotta research who helped me pay my bills and repay them in any way I can..

Well now.. I’m working two jobs, I havent had a day off in 3 weeks, but at least I’m paying off my debts and managing to survive. I also found out that I got approved for my own apartment! Once I get out of debt from my divorce/moe hopefully I can go down to one job and have a life again.

Updates may be few and far between, but if you’re interested in starting something small, or restarting an old idea because it’s been forever, let me know hit me up I miss all of you<3

Thank you again for your love and support, it keeps me going, yknow. ]]

[idksou]

[[ Saddest man in the world manages to get sadder by becoming homeless..]]

Some of you may or may not know, but I recently went through a divorce from the person I was married to for eight years. They left me because they could no longer handle the depression or suicidal tendencies I’ve had since I was 13. I was in debt before they served me with papers, and the move and the divorce itself plummeted me into more debt. Being married to them provided me with the insurance I needed to see my therapist, my psychiatrist, and to have access to the medication I needed, since I suffer from two types of severe clinical depression and ptsd. However, since our divorce, they’ve removed me from their insurance. Since being forced to move back in with my abusive family, I am now down to only one of the three anti depressants I was on. And it gets worse..

My irrational behavior and suicidal tendencies are becoming harder and harder to control. I have three credit cards, all of which are now maxed out. I had a job when I first moved, but was fired from it for making a costly mistake.. I have been told by two different jobs that I’m hired, but they won’t get back to me about when my start date is. I have to take care of all my own bills on my own now and I also have a cat, and surviving is becoming so fucking difficult I feel like I’m going crazy..

On top of all of this, today, I’ve been kicked out of my dads house, where he was allowing me to stay rent free. I knew it was going to end badly because he was abusive and controlling but I had no choice.. as of today, I’m going to be living in my car..

Trying to survive by doing favors for cash like cleaning houses, babysitting, and yard work isnt cutting it until I start my new job.. I’m in dire need of assistance..

My paypal email is gimmieurmunny@gmail.com

Anything is appreciated and will be rewarded. If you do send me something, let me know and I can write you a drabble of your otp or fav, draw you a doodle or a quality picture depending on your donations, or pictures of my cat. I’m going to post this on one other blog, in hopes of getting some help. This isn’t a scam and if you want to message me inquiring more information I am more than happy to share.

Even if you can’t donate, a reblog would be just as helpful.. Thank you for your compassion and your time..

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[[ So a lot in my life is changing, some for better some for worse. I’m still not in the best state, but I would like to come back here one day when I’m in a better mindset to rp with you guys again. I really love you all so very much and miss you more than words can say. Thank you for staying by my side this long I’m so very grateful. ]]

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[[  I’m not gonna lie to you all, I’ve been in and out of the ER three days this week and I’m extremely frustrated and depressed and I’m sorry I can’t be here the way I want to be. ]]

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Yamazaki Sōsuke | | | 「映画 ハイ☆スピード！－Free! Starting Days－」PVs

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[[ I come home tomorrow and will be able to reply to more rps then! ]]

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[;;     He almost thought he heard someone calling his name...

Sousuke heard the crowd grow louder with whispers, but figured he’d become more in tune with the atmosphere. He was mistaken. Sousuke was about to push ‘send’ on his phone when he was hit from behind. He tried to turn to see what the hell was happening or if he was being attacked, when he recognized the small frame gripping at his back-- leaving him frozen in place.

Everything that came after felt like a blur.

He heard Haruka’s words. They echoed in his head, reverberating in his tight chest. If Haru wasn’t holding onto him he might have stumbled from the shock of it all.

After all this time...

His mouth had opened multiple times, but no words came. He was at a loss for them.

The hushed whispers grew louder-- and Sousuke realized that this would be bad for the both of them. Turning, he wrapped an arm around Haru and lead him away from the crowd. The shock on his face was clear and words still hadn’t come to him yet.      ;;]

No. This wasn’t how he wanted things to end. He didn’t want Sousuke to hate him forever and to resent their love. And he really didn’t want their love to be made into something that resembled nothing but lies because that was far from the truth. Sousuke was his breath of fresh air, his way of living, his everything. 

This isn’t how Haruka wanted to leave things.

Taking a few staggering steps forward, Haru mouthed his name as his arm reached out, wanting nothing more to do than wrap himself up in the essence that was— no is— his lover. “–suke…” A couple more steps, his tears falling a little more. At this point, a few pedestrians paused in their steps to watch the scene unfold, unusually quiet compared to the screams echoing inside the freestyle swimmers head.

But none of that mattered to Haru, seeing as how the guy he still so dearly held close to his heart, was walking away without even a single glance back. Haru had to get to him. He had to catch up to him. Sousuke had to know–!

“Sousuke…” Just a little louder; Haru swore he heard his name being whispered amongst the stragglers. “Sousuke–!!” And then he sprinted, his front colliding with the taller males back as his tears rolled down his flushed cheeks at an even faster rate than before. 

“I love you! I still love you!” Haruka confessed, crying out for all the pain he held in for so long. “Even if you don’t love me anymore,” Which he doubted. “Even if you hate me after this, even if you want me to disappear from your life,” Just the thought of it sent a new sob wracking through him. But he kept on. “I will always love you, and only you!!”

[’So please don’t leave me.’]

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[;;      At those words, Sousuke felt a little bit foolish. “Everyone at my precinct said you looked like the type of guy that was hard to please-- that you’d really need to be dazzled so you remembered me..” he confessed, keeping a tight hold on Haru’s hand and leading him out of the crowded bar.

      “From now on, I’ll just be myself.. How about that?”      ;;]

Haru’s lips quirked up into a brighter smile, taking Sousuke’s hand when it was offered and standing up with his help.

“I kind of wish you had suggested that to begin with.” Haru admitted. It had taken a lot  out of him to come out to a busy place like this; a lot of convincing from his friends and co-workers. But Sousuke was worth the effort.

“Let’s go. I’m interested in seeing what your place is like.”

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