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Surprise! Chapter 4 is here!

Welp, it's been a minute, hasn't it. Working my current job basically killed my creativity for a hot minute and I feel like it's only just come back.

In this update;

An introduction and some work for your Channel.

A drive-through trip.

Eve being an absolute legend of a friend.

I know it's been a long time since my last update and I am desperately hoping that I can work on the next section quicker. I'm super excited to write it!

I hope you've all had a great holiday season and have a Happy New Year with one extra chapter of YLAF 💛

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GAME (coming early 2024) | PINTEREST | SPOTIFY

Misfortune begets misfortune; evil will begin prey upon itself. Just as how the fox cannot live without the rabbit, the predator must understand what rises will fall.

Long before you were born, the Great Calamity, a calculated effort by Magyo cultists nearly wiped out the entirety of the Jungpa sects. If not for the noble sacrifice of the peerless Sword Saint of the Mount Hua Sect: the Divine Blade, Yeo Jinhu, demonic forces would have rent the heavens and the earth asunder.

Despite his triumph, nothing would ever be the same – the losses were staggering, the task of rebuilding the sects to their former glory seemed to prove an insurmountable challenge. Yet nearly two decades after his death, peace returned to the land once more.

After the death of your parents, you lead an ordinary, if not monotonous, life as the playmate of the spoiled young master of the Mount Hua Sect. However, all is not what it seems. Following the mysterious arrival of an amnesiac with strange abilities, whispers of a plot brewing in the shadows start to surface, and the world as you know it begins to fall apart around your feet.

Suddenly confronted with the uncertainty of the future, you must unravel the tragedy of what truly conspired all those years ago before you risk losing all you hold dear.

tosahobi (18+) is a muhyeop choose-your-own adventure game centered around elements of korean folklore and taoism in a tale of family, grief, and heritage.

play as a customizable main character: choose their physical appearance, gender, pronouns, sexuality, and more.

explore different relationships: from platonic to romantic to familial, build a variety of relationships with the cast (and hopefully make more friends than you do enemies.)

choose from different skill sets: pick between medicine, weaponry, tactics, and hand-to-hand combat. each field comes with its own advantages and disadvantages that affect multiple scenarios as the story progresses.

choice-driven story: with several routes and (many) choices, fail or succeed and find your way to an ending (whether it be happy or not.)

something is incredibly wrong: can you feel it too?

THE YOUNG MASTER

Yeo Jinwol of the Mount Hua Sect, is the youngest son of the sect leader. Contrary to his charming public demeanor, he has a childish side and can be extraordinarily stubborn. Having grown up in the shadow of his elder brothers he is fiercely protective of those he considers precious to him and struggles to measure up to the expectations placed on his shoulders. Assigned his playmate at a young age, whether you consider it fortuitous or not the two of you have been stuck together for years.

THE ENIGMA

Yul is your sajae, a disciple under the same master as you. Despite their amnesia, they're preternaturally talented at whatever they set their mind to. With strange yet unexplainable abilities that seem to stretch far beyond the scope of their powers, their missing memories may be the key to unlocking the answers you seek. Reclusive yet insightful you'd almost think they were far, far older than their age if not for their intense sweet tooth and their tendency to follow you around like a very clingy second shadow.

THE PRODIGY

Baek Iseul, the Frozen Blade is the rising star Emei Sect and has long been hailed as the next Sword Saint. Contrary to her cheerful personality you've never met anyone with a sharper gaze before. Hailing from obscurity, her power rivals even those who have trained for years and years, and has amassed an ever-growing collection of heroic feats under her belt. Popular and well-liked with a mischievous streak, you're really not sure why someone with such a promising future has taken a liking to you.

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if to transcend means to leave the world behind, bind me to the soil so even long after my death, long after my body has turned to dust, i can find you once more.

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might as well make this stance crystal clear! (and this isn't directed at any anons, fyi!) i know the comparisons may as well be inevitable since this is a story where the protagonist attends a magic school and learns magic, but when it comes down to it, i don't, like, really want to hear or be asked about joanne's dumbshit series?

notwithstanding the author being an actual fascist, there's plenty of more eloquent people out there when it comes to talking about why the series is flimsy world building and shoddy storytelling. and i'm not acting like mine is any better constructed or whatever, i'd just rather not see my own stuff get held up against it like it's become a measuring stick for how good or shit something is.

but i'll go on to say this: i know i might sound all bitter asshole here, but when it comes to reviving the series for whatever nostalgia kick or personal fun, i'm just reminded the chick-fil-a and legacy debacle all over again. people don't want to be inconvenienced. allyship of queer folks is secondary the moment it's at the expense of their own comfort or enjoyment of something. it's annoying, it's stupid, and i'm exhausted of it, to be honest.

you're not a bad person for enjoying the series. but r*wling is unambiguously someone who gladly pals around with nazis and eliminationists. just let it die, man. the world will keep turning. you'll find something else you love.

anyways, i'm neither going to acknowledge or respond to any comments about it from here on out for my own sanity, so i hope this was clear enough!

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update: still alive and kicking and working on the wip!!! iawe was and has been deep in production due to the sheer amount of coding required, but despite satan’s best attempts, this project will never die.

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“…the finding/losing, forgetting/remembering, leaving/returning, never stops. The whole of life is about another chance, and while we are alive, till the very end, there is always another chance.”

— Jeanette Winterson, Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal?

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do you think you'd ever open up art commissions? i honestly slap for your art & its style

I've been considering this for a while now, and with the cost of college/moving, I think this was the kind of kick I needed to actually open commissions.

Commissions: Ground Rules

Slots will be available until the end of the month, 3-5 at a time. I will reblog this post when all slots are filled, and will maintain a waitlist if necessary.

Please give me time to complete commissions- I am in the middle of update season as well as a full time student and athlete.

I reserve the right to deny commissions.

Please do not communicate through tumblr- I won't see it. Send me a message on discord instead. (30x30#8269)

Payment is to be completed through Ko-Fi.

Rates- All Prices in USD:

Portrait: 15 (lines), 20 (full color)

Half-body: 20 (lines), 25 (full color)

Full-body: 30 (lines), 35 (full color)

Other/Illustrations: contact for pricing/more information

I will not be doing complex backgrounds for anything but the illustration tier, single color/geometric backgrounds are free.

Contact for more information on pricing for multiple characters.

Work Examples (under readmore)

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iawe has important themes and story plots i need to work on and yet here i am recoding an rng for an extracurricular activity you Might choose

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YOU’RE DRIVING, maybe a little faster than you should be. Maybe a little faster than is actually safe--but then again you’re trying to get home--but then suddenly something’s run out in front of your car and you swerve and panic and suddenly, you're spinning out. You’ve hydroplaned and in the panic of the moment you can’t remember what that shitty instructor had told you to do during your driver’s ed course back in school for a situation like this. 

So your gripping at the wheel turning into it and applying the breaks and oh shit you’re off the road, and even worse, you’re going sideways, and as if God hadn’t decided to clown you enough tonight, there’s a thud and a smash and a scream and you don’t know if the sound has come out of your mouth or whatever you’ve just hit. 

Maybe its bad that you’re praying its a deer, or a cow at the fucking least. Your truck is currently sitting diagonally, inside the roadside gully separating the now mud slicked road ahead of you from the rows and rows of corn behind you. 

You can see whatever it was  you hit is wearing jeans and well, just a single boot. And the realization dawns upon you that what you’ve hit is not just a thing but a person. 

You rush out of your car and into the rain, letting it poor sideways around you. 

You know what you have to do.

WELCOME TO FLORENCE HOLLOW, MISSOURI IN THE LATE 70's. A town kept alive by it's singular industry of cattle slaughter, you play as "Jackie" Eckhart, bartender to Florence Hollow's one and only bar.

Headed home from work one night during a storm, you've hit something--no, not something--but someone. And that someone is Lucky Harding, Heir to the Harding Family Fortune and their Slaughterhouse Empire.

Sole provider for both your ill mother and kid sister, you can't be put away for murder. You can't. You won't.

So you do what you've always done. Make the hard decision.

You hide the body.

Only to return a few days later to find, that the once very dead corpse you dumped in the woods, is very much alive, and very much pissed.

Risen from the dead like Christ and Lazarus before them is One Lucky Harding--on the run from their demon worshipping family of wanna-be necromancers. And like it or not. You owe them. Big time.

UNDEAD HEIR is a twine-based interactive-fiction focused on horror, complex family dynamics and romance. This game and blog are currently rated 16+

Play as Male, Female or Non-Binary with Customizable Pronouns

Customize your Ekhart to your liking

Develop your character’s personality and skill-set through choices and in-game experiences

Romance five different characters (One Male, One Female, One Non-Binary and Two Gender Selectable Characters)

Navigate through a world of Cults, Demons, Small Town Woes, oh! and of course, t̶̤̪̗̮̽̽̋h̸̨̛̬̜͓̚͜e̵͖̽̏ͅ ̷̯̖̓u̷̪̇̊̎͘n̷̢̥̱̊̌͊î̶̛̗̤͚͖͐̇m̵̺̫͉̃̊̄͘ạ̵͌̕͠g̴̝̠͎̖̿i̵̟̲͆̂͆̔ń̸̮̺̙̣͗́͜a̴̛͖͔̋͊͐b̸̛̦l̵̮̻̈̾̽͆ȩ̷̙̣̠́͝ͅ ̴̧̛̮͙͉̼̌̎h̸̠̉̒̾͐͜ọ̴̥̌̕r̴̘̰̀͋ṙ̵̳̬̃ͅò̶̪̤̺̭͖̈͗̀r̵̭͖̅͛͜s̸͍͈̰͇̈́͋

"JACKIE" ECKHART - Why, that's you of course! Local bartender extraordinaire, parentified child of Louise Eckhart and older sibling to Jamie. You've just accidentally committed a murder. (Or did you?)

JAMIE ECKHART [M/F/NB] ♥ Your kid sibling--the one you've practically raised all your life. Their smart as a whip, and you know they'll actually get somewhere in life. Or at least, somewhere that isn't Florence Hollow.

LUCKY HARDING - [M/F] Youngest child of the infamous Harding Family. They own the slaughterhouse and you guessed it! Practically the whole town. Also! Their cultists. You've just hit Lucky with your truck.

JASON REYES - [M] ♥ Washed up would-be football star, he's the veterinarian's kid. Stuck in Florence Hollow after a ruined football career, forever known as the kid who actually could've gotten out of this place.

AMARA BRIDGERS - [F] ♥ Farmer's daughter--classic trope. But, hey, she wants more (who doesn't in Florence Hollow after all?) All that and she also happens to be Jackie's Best Friend.

JESSE MARKS - [NB] ♥ The town book-keeper and one and only transplant. Why the hell anyone would move to Florence Hollow no one knows. But hey---you could always work up the courage to ask them.

Ĺ̵̢̯̪͜A̵͇̥̹̬̐̉͘̚͝ͅZ̴̨̦̻̊͜A̸͓͖͉͕̓̔̉R̵͕͉̍̚͝U̸͖̹͘Ṣ̴̅̏̀͛ - [M/F/NB] ♥ Just your friendly neighborhood demon lord.

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Euripides’ Hippolytus (tr. David Grene)

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Erou, Maya Phillips

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so, i finally took the leap and launched a patreon that for the moment'll feature heavily larkin related content, but i'm hoping to expand in the future with access to some of my other work!

I’m currently a college student that’s also balancing working several job to support myself. With your support on Patreon, I’ll be able to put more time into working on my writing and less time worrying about those other pesky little aspects of life >;)

there's three separate tiers ($3, $5, $10) all of which feature bonus content access, detailed writers blogs and early access to larkin updates. below is a preview of what'll be featured for the month of september!

thank you! <3

// SEPTEMBER //

WEEK ONE 9/4-9/10

WRITERS BLOG: these’ll be more detailed versions of my weekly updates on tumblr, and posted at least once a week (maybe more if i’m a little jazzed what i’m working on.) thoughts on the process, what’s happening in the story and more than likely a few coding complaints. No set day of the week for these.

SATURDAY SEPT. 10: a short story about Wyatt’s time as a hunting apprentice and a little bit about Why He’s The Way He Is.

WEEK TWO 9/11-9/17

WRITERS BLOG

WEDNESDAY 9/14: PLAYLIST BREAKDOWN - this’ll be a monthly post, breaking down all the music included in one of the character playlists i’ve made. music is a huge influence to larkin and thus a lot of thought went into it’s  playlists--it’s only fair i make some of those thoughts public.

SATURDAY 9/17: ABRAMS FAMILY TREE - a small family tree will be released for the elder branch of the Abrams Family, something that’ll eventually come up later in game.

WEEK THREE 9/18-9/24

WRITERS BLOG

SATURDAY 9/24: BETA RELEASE - Chapter Three goes out to be playtested by Larkin’s Beta Readers! Woo!

SATURDAY 9/24: CYRUS INTERACTIVE SHORT - an interactive romance short between Dr. Sokolov and the player will be released.

WEEK 9/25-10/1

WRITERS BLOG

FRIDAY 9/30: A WYATT AND BARNS SERIAL - a monthly serial style story about the heroic Wyatt Abrams and his (first!) young apprentice Barns Abrams, the vampire slaying duo during their days in the family.

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📝 Hold

Daniel shouts when you grab ahold of his wrist and bodily haul him from the porch of the house. Something surges forth within you, the physical contact giving way to a jumble of his emotions and thoughts. The momentum carries, depositing the both of you in a heap of limbs and scrapes on the pathway.

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📝 laugh?

He remembers Will at eighteen, long-sleeves even in the blazing hot summer, patch of gauze taped over a cheek. School had given him hefty bags beneath his eyes, bleached him pale enough that he looked sickly in the sunlight. Jerry had asked, just once, if everything was alright at home. At school.

Will had laughed. Home’s fine, he had said. Come over for food. Mom’s on a French kick. At dinner, Jerry had watched him maneuver his cutlery without a single wince, scabbed knuckles flexing in the dim light.

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📝 + silence

Will can’t remember when he first met the two of them, can’t trace it back to which of his teen years sat him across the classroom from the both of them leaning together. It’s a hazy era of beginnings: fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, keeping his head down; scribbling at the margins of his notes in silence. He watched lovestruck expressions blossom on their faces out of the corner of his eye. In in the end though, it didn’t matter. Hadn’t mattered.

He had more pressing problems to attend to.

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Tag 9 People You’d Like to Get to Know Better Game

tagged by my homie @thirtybythirty who i bother waaay too much

favorite color: red & blue

currently (re)reading: salem's lot by stephen king & revelator by daryl gregory

last song: never leave by the devil makes three

last series: better call saul

last movie: the stone tape (it's on youtube!)

sweet/savory/spicy: sweet/savory! depends on my mood.

currently working on: if all was enough and nor are we forgiven (my 18+ side project)

tagging: THIS DIES WITH ME. (for anyone who wants to.)

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ok i’ve seen this meme floating around before but i can’t find it now so i’ll just make my own post: send me a  📝 + a word, and i’ll post an excerpt from a fic i’m currently writing that contains that word.

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CLOSEDLOOP UPDATE 02 || KNOCK KNOCK (PART 1)

Good morning, Citizen! Today is the first day of the rest of your life! Make it a good one.

|| FEATURES ||

CLOSEDLOOP is rated strictly 18+. Please check content warnings before playing.

Due to updates in coding and variables used in the prologue, previous saves will be broken. Please restart from the beginning. Restart from the beginning. Restart.

One half of Chapter 1, roughly 31k words for a total of 38.2k with code.

Customize the Citizen. Select a hair style, distinguishing features or lack thereof, clothing style, name, and gender. Choose wisely.

Visit the Database.

The worst email ever written, overpriced coffee, and the thrill of being handcuffed to a briefcase.

A day repeating.

A day repeating.

|| LINKS ||

PLAY || KO-FI (TIP JAR)