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“Keep the ones who heard you when you never said a word.”

— Unknown

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Some days I just wake up tired. Tired of having to think of what next. Tired of having to get up. Tired of just being alive and up.

But I understand that this too will pass. Whatever is making my pulse to race will pass. I choose to acknowledge it and let go when I can.

And where,when,what,how I am is just ok for right now.

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My world revolves around me,

My wishes,

My wants,

My (dis)likes , ...

However, the world spins on an unknown untouchable axis.

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I swear my fro is refusing to grow.

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“Anyone who lives whithin their means suffers from a lack of imagination.”

— Oscar Wilde

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Sometimes

It can’t get any worse, I thought,

and then one day it was so much worse that

I begged God to let me go back to the bad.

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The guilt of having left soo much undone ... and then some.

“Only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone.”

— Pablo Picasso

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Some days are just 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️and this place had this cute maze that goes on for a bit 😍

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Anyone else ever get slapped with the sudden realization that you went through most of your life alone? Like yeah there were people around but the relationship was always only ever superficial or entirely disproportionate in effort so like you just. Have no emotional attachment to anyone or anything in your life? Because hahaha yeah thats Tonights Thoughts

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I need a job.

... Or at the very least a study buddy.

😔

This lifestyle is not working.

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It's scary how dependent I am.

So you can imagine how traumatic it was for me to move to another country on my own.

Hope I can make it to 3 years without tucking tail and running back to mi madre.

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I hate that we are in a time when we need validation from strangers about everything.

About our looks, achievements or lack thereof. More so appalled that we still need validation for things completely out of our control.

Not to say getting validation from others is wrong but actively depending on it is just 🤯

So do what you want, live how you want, go where you want, eat what you want, .... Be happy because right now you can, and you should.

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Today looks, feels and tastes gloomy 🤮

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Every body says it's going to be ok.

Sick? ... It's going to be ok

Failed an exam? ... It's going to be ok

Broken relationship? .... It's going to be ok.

Notice how it's always going to be ok.

But how do I leave from the now which is so painful, soo full of something I'm not happy with... something I don't want to feel; to what you are preaching???

Instead how about you say let's sit for a cuppa 🍵 or just listen to some blues 🎼 ? Something. Anything.

Let's go through it then we can laugh and say " ça vas bien maintenant" but for the life of me please don't say it's going to be ok because right now it's not.

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So I've been seeing soo many screenshots of Tumblr posts on different sites and I didn't know it was Tumblr so I did the rounds of various platforms.

Today I saw Tumblr and I was like this is it.

This is the time to say what I've been planning to say for a long long time...

But I find myself awfully quiet 🤐

For now I'll say hi 👋 and keep the secrets a little while longer ☺️