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Unforgivable

Summery: I don’t even know just…. I’m sorry

NOT EDITED

Angst

~ Aemond Targaryen x Fem Reader ~

~ Aegon Targaryen x Fem Reader ~

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‘You must do this it’s your duty’ I tried reassuring myself, as I look over myself one last time smoothing my white dress before making my way to the dark oak door, my breathing getting a little heavier it only getting worse with tears welling up in my eyes once I’m standing in front of the throne room.

It had now been years since that fateful day, life was perfect. To perfect.

-

Sadness, betrayal, anger, rage, fury. Is all I felt when I found out about my husband and sisters betrayal and their secret life together while I life here in the keep with my children withering away, trying my best to be strong for my child.

It all made sense the feeling of us not feeling as connected as before, the sorrys he whispered in my ear as his guilty fucking tears drop into my hair, shoulder, cheek, neck as he hugs me when he thought I was sleep. How gullible I was. No more.

After days of drowning myself in my cups, I finally make myself get out of bed and visit little rhaegar in his nursery to break fast with my little boy. After I go to the gardens then to the library not saying in a place for more then an hour. I wandered around until I made it back to my bed chamber. I couldn’t stay here not after that.

Turning around I make my way to the throne room. The guards greeting before getting me in. I look up to see aegon comfortable on the throne rolling his eyes at whatever the lord in front of him ways saying. “My king, the princess y/n.” The guards said cutting off the blabbering man.

Aegon looked down at me his face lighting up. “Ahh, my sweet. Come, come. The rest of you are dismissed.” His voice changing from kind to stern in a matter of seconds. Once everyone had rushed out I made my way to the bottom of the steps and looked up at him.

“What can I do I owe this visit?” He asked kindly as he get up and makes his way down to me. “My king, if it isn’t to much to ask I would like to have a separate chamber from my husband.” I admitted to him. Aegon looked surprised and confused. “May I ask why?”

I took a deep breath before smiling at him. “Would you do it with the promise you will find out soon enough?” I asked worried he might say no.

“You’re with is my command, princess.”

-

Three weeks it has been since that day five weeks since I found out about my husband and sisters betrayal. All my things have moved to my new chamber but with everything that has happened Aegon has been visiting me and rhaegar a bit. But Today was the day he was coming back. Coming back to pretend my love for him hasn’t burned out that everything is perfect.

“Rhaegar Targaryen, you come here this instant and get in your bath.” I laugh as the little boy run around trying to get away from me only in his pants. “Nooo, mummy.” He screams laughing. “You can never escape me.” I giggle as I wrap my arms around my son, picking him up and pressing kisses all over his face.

My happiness died down much faster than a burning candle when my back collided with a hard chest. I turned around to see none other then my husband looking confused and hurt as he looks at me. I never break eye contact as I speak to rhaegar. “My love go wait in the wash room while a speak with your father.”

I get a ‘yes mummy’ before his footsteps fade away. “Welcome back, husband.” I say finally looking away to go pick out oils to put in the bath. “My wife. Why have you moved all your things?” He asks coming next to me.

He wanted an answer I will give him an answer. “How was fucking my sister.” I ask back to him a cruel smile making its way onto my face. The look on his face was like all the life had drained from him. “It’s not-“

“It’s not what I think?” I cut him off the smile never leaving my face. “I think it’s exactly what I think.” Finally my smile dropping and my face turning into one of fury. “I’m sorry it will never happen again I’ll never see her aga-“

“And what of your children?” A tear falling down my face. I watch as he ignore my question raising his hand attempting to wipe the fallen tear only to get his hand smacked away. “Dont you ever touch me again, not after you touched her. fuck.”

I put down the oils before making my way my wooden cupboard to pick out rhaegars night clothes. Aemond following right behind me. “My love, I promise I won’t see any of them again. We can forget this ever happened. We can be a family again.”

I look at him with heart break in my eyes. “We can’t. What you did was unforgivable.” He looked desperate now. “Yes, yes we can nothing will stop us we can be happy.”

I shake my head sobs leaving my lips. “We can’t, I’m with child from another.” I looked up at him to see his eyes blackened and his face hard. “Who.” He demanded. I mumbled a reply back earning myself a hit in the face. “I asked who.” He yelled in my face as he tightly gripped my arms holding me in place.

“Aegon.”

It happened so fast I didn’t even register it at first but when I finally clicked I started clawing at his hand. My feet were no longer touching the ground my body pressed against the cupboards as I can’t breathe from the tightness of his grip.

“You dirty whore, my brother my fucking brother. At least alys could give me more then one child, what kind of woman are you fucking disgrace.” He insulted but never stopping as my vision blackens.

I look over to the changing wall to see my son, my life, my sweet boy, tears streaming down his face yelling at his father to stop. But his pleas and cries fall upon deaf ears. I look at my son as he looks at me giving him one last smile before I feel nothing.

-

Once aemond finally comes back to his senses hearing his sons yells for his mother aemond let the woman go to let her stand only for get to collapse to the floor unmoving. Rhaegar wasted no time running to his mother cradling her head begging for to wake up.

Aemond realising what he had just done drops to his knees before taking her from his son’s hands. He looked upon her face brushing her hair out of it. “No, no, no. Please wake up, my love. I will to better I promise just wake up.” The man wails for his wife.

Aemond was so distraught from his actions he didn’t realise his son had run out of the room. He didn’t know how long he was sat there rocking his wife his tears staining her dress.

He didn’t even notice his brother enter the room until he spoke up. “What have you done.” Aegon cried falling to his knees. “I- I didn’t mean to. I was so angry.” The younger cried tightening his hold. “Why?”

“She said she was with child.” Aemond cried. “Your child Aegon.” Realisation crawled upon the elders face. “I never once laid with her.” Aegon told him making him realise he murdered his wife,

because of a lie.

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Dear my king Aegon Targaryen.

I write this letter as I’m to humiliated to tell you with my voice of my husbands infidelity. I have found out he has a family with my sister, alys rivers. I’m not sure what I will do yet. Maybe I will run away with my son. Maybe I will just deal with this myself and never send this letter to you. I’m not sure yet.

I feel like an awful person for wanted the death of my sister and her children but I can’t help feel that way. I’m not really sure what I am to do my king my brother just please give me justice.

Love your sister

Y/n Strong

Aegon gave her the justice she wanted. But he couldn’t bring the same justice when it came to his brother.

But years later

Her son rhaegar Targaryen finally could

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Never forget

Summery : he will never forget and he will regret the choices he made until his last breath.

NOT EDITED

Angst

~ Aemond Targaryen x fem-OC-Reader ~

8 hours earlier

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After everything we have been through why has it come to this? why wasn’t I good enough? I gave him heirs I gave him my body, my soul, my happiness, my life. Why has it come to this? Does he know even know I know if his sins does he even care? Obviously not as he got the woman pregnant.

I get out a half scoff half laugh as tears sting my lower lash line. Shaking my head I stare into the fire that warms this unnervingly cold room and wait, wait on this uncomfortable chair I had told him time and time again to get rid of but was constantly ignored. Has it always been like this? I filling his needs while he ignores mine?

I have to stop my mind from going to the past not wanting to drive myself crazy with everything that has happened. Taking a deep breath I let my tears disappear from my eyes as my face take a new form a look of nothing, void.

It was hours that I waited to hear the unmistakable roar of vhagar but eventually I did, what normally be a feeling of relief and happiness has turned into rage and dread.

It didn’t take him long to rush into our shared chamber concerned with myself and the babe I carry as I did not greet him upon his return. As soon as he set his sights on me he could tell something was wrong.

“My love, are you well? Is it the babe?” He asked concerned but was it really concern or just false pleasantries I did not know anymore. My face still voice of emotion I stood up my large belly making it a difficult but manageable.

“You call yourself a man of duty and honour correct?” I ask getting a confused ‘of course’ in reply making me let out a hmm as I whisper. “Liar.”

“What?” He asked still confused with my hostility towards him. “Alys rivers is with child, I was surprised to hear as she is a bastard but you will not believe what surprised me even more, husband.”

I finally turn to him, his eyes flashing many emotions I knew I had got my answer but I wanted him to admit it admit his infidelity. “What, my love?” His voice cracking trying to conceal his true emotions.

I let out a laugh making his eyes widen. “Oh you will not believe this my heart, a man with white long hair has been spotted numerous times entering and leaving her chamber oh and here is the part that gets me every time I think or hear it whispered that man had an eyepatch.”

My smile wild smile slowly fades into something murderous. The man who prides himself with being untouchable is now backing away from me a girl smaller than him. “Tell me husband doesn’t that discerption sound like someone I know?” I ask finally stopping in my tracks watching him open and close his mouth like the fish from the dock when they get pulled out of the water.

“My love, you must believe me that’s not me! I would never betray you like that.” He tries to convince me.

“How long?” I ask knowing it’s going to bring me heart ache. The white haired man stays silent looking at his shoes. “How fucking long.” I yell wanting the answer I deserve now.

He mumbled a reply but it was so quiet I couldn’t make out what he said. “What?” I ask. He finally looks up to meet my eyes. “From the start.” He said his voice shaking as tears began welling in his eyes.

Realisation dawned on me in that moment the missed birth and name days were because he was fucking her instead of being here with his wife and child. “I hope that when you’re finally happy with this alys rivers and ur bastard child daemon comes and takes it all away.” I said with so much hate in my voice I saw him flinch back. “Get out, go back to your whore for all I care I want you out of my sight.”

His footsteps quickly approach me and before I can pull away the taller man take my arms in his hands. “my love my life please I can fix this. Please don’t push me away. I will do anything, I won’t ever see her or meet the child please I love you.” He begged over my shouts from him to let go of me.

When I finally got free him his iron grip made my way to the chamber door before turning around looking at him. “I am daenyra Targaryen, daughter of daemon Targaryen and Rhea Royce. The next time you touch me will be last time you have hands.”

And I left leaving him crumbling in the mess he had created.

4 hours earlier

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“Hop up my little love. You can do it.” I encourage my son as I helped him on my dragon before getting up myself. I tightened the saddle straps around baelor and myself before I start giving commands to the black dragon under us.

“Serve me, cannibal. Fly.” I command as he descends off the grown and into the sky. “Take us to dragonstone.” He lets out a growl in acknowledgment as he flys into that direction. It was difficult getting out of the keep without being seen but surprisingly I did it.

I move try to move my body to a angle so I could see the look plastered on my sons face but it being difficult as my pregnant belly in the way but I manage to get glimpses of the wide eyes and the smile that could light up the seven kingdoms.

We weren’t far from dragonstone as the dragon let out a happy roar happy to be going home after all this time. But the happiness was short lived from the thing i have been dreading being followed.

“Daenyra stop please. This doesn’t have to be difficult.” Aemond yelled out as him and his dragon gained on us. My eyes go wide as I start commanding cannibal to fly faster and lose them. Understanding my commands the dragon lets himself drop lower in a way to get them off our tail.

But it didn’t works it made the man chasing us angry as he starts to yell making vhagar return his feeling of anger. But as we fly faster hope filled my heart thinking we lost them.

Oh how wrong I was.

Without warning vhagar flew up in front of us making baelor scream and cannibal turn away from dragonstone and closer to storms end. It felt like déjà vu. The sudden rain hitting my skin like little knives making me hold my son closer to try and keep it from hitting him.

I could tell all of this was scaring my little boy. “Close your eyes my sweet boy, you will be alright mothers got you, you don’t need to be scared while I’m here.” I whisper sweet nothings into his ear. Holding him so tightly as he lays his head back onto my chest while tears flow down my cheeks mixing themselves into the rain. “I love you my sweet boy and you my sweet girl, I will love you forever.”

It felt like forever before it was over. The cries of terror the screams.

Cannibal is a wild dragon and his rider his first rider was threatened he had to protect his rider and the children. the two dragons attacked each other Aemonds and my pleas for the dragons to stop fell on deaf ears. It wasn’t until the wrong move was made Aemond let his anger before consuming his dragon just like what he had done with the tragedy of Lucaerys.

The last thing I saw was the unforgiving sight of dragon fire before it was over. I held my child and covered his eyes not wanting the last thing he sees being so upsetting but at least I can still be with my children just not in the way I wanted.

Now

-

The sound of cannibals loud pained roars shook the walls of dragonstone.

Daemon stood across the field from the black dragon that is wailing at the loss of his rider and his riders children.

Daemon had never felt like this before the rage and depression that he feels as he gazes at the burnt corpses of his baby, his little girl and grandchildren wasn’t like anything he had ever felt. He knew one thing and one thing only.

Aemond Targaryen will pay and his little girl

Will be avenged