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gem

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Betelgeuse

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Say everything I do is for my woman

Me I no dey see another girl for my visuals

Loving you loving you na hin my ritual

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And this one!

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I really like this creator, I agree on many points with her there. (Almost) no sugarcoating. I recommend checking her other videos on popculture as well.

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Only the slowed down version of this song is listenable (loving this one tho)

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Lovin this songggg

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Boy, we way too grown

For this shit (Mm)

Boy, we way too grown

For this shit

I gave you a heart that you can't keep (Keep)

You gave me the dick, then gave the dick without the D (D)

If I had one wish, it'd be to practice what I preach (Yeah)

If I had one wish, it'd be to keep this off IG (G)

Why you always dippin' into business about me? (Me)

Why you always wish I could be bitches I won't be? (Be)

Everybody doin' you so wrong and you a victim

Everybody doin' you like dances up on TikTok

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Ain't got nothin' on me, these people do not phase me

Enjoying every moment, ain't worried 'bout who's in it

I'm growing every day, everything's gon' be okay

As long I got my shit together, they gon' see me doin' better

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Baby I see you working hard

I want to let you know I'm proud

Let you know that I admire what you do

The more if I need to reassure you

My life would be purposeless without you (Yeah)

If I want it (Got it)

When I ask you (You provide it)

You inspire me to be better

You challenge me for the better

Sit back and let me pour out my love letter

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Some of you already know that I love Kanye West as an artist and a public figure. I don't care what anybody else thinks about him, I think he's very much misunderstood, which often happens with very intelligent and talented people, especially artists, in this world.

Today I will share some of my favourite songs by him:

POWER

Dark fantasy

All of the lights

I thought about k1lling you

Jail pt 2

Hands on

FML

As a guest artist:

No church in the wild (by Jay-Z)

Made in America (by Jay-Z)

Drunk in love remix (by Beyoncé)

Ego remix (by Beyoncé)

Diamonds remix (by Rihanna)

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🤍🤍🤍

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Sooo...

For the past few days I've been thinking about this topic.

I don't think that a huge age gap in a relationship is a big problem...unless there's no love.

Again, ask yourself - why would you want to date someone much younger than yourself?

I personally think that if one is attracted to the people much younger than themselves, is because of them (the first person) not having grown up in some area in their life. They still have this "missing piece" from a past that they would like to get back by dating someone much younger.

That's why I also was often attracted to younger guys - there was still a part of me from the past that wasn't "complete" - and I was searching for it outside of myself.

I was searching for being loved for who I was at a younger age.

The thing is - that much younger people can surely guide you and show you the way you wanted to feel like back then...but then, is this relationship really about loving them? Or is it about you and your unresolved past?

Think about it. I'm slowly transitioning from me being unfulfilled in the past to accepting it as it was (very much not satisfying), and finding a new spark of life in the current times that I live in.

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Beautiful deck

7. The Chariot

Astrological correspondence: Cancer

The Chariot represents willpower, determination, and self-assurance in any challenge. The charioteer reminds us to be steadfast and exude self-control in situations that arise in order to ensure victory over any obstacle.

Upright: Conquest, control, victory, motivation

Reversed: Aggression, self-doubt, defeat, loss of control

21. The World

Astrological correspondence: Saturn

The World is the final destination ofyour journey. You have a deeper understanding of your role in the universe and all of your efforts have come full circle.

Upright: Completion, satisfaction, travel, fulfillment

Reversed: Regret, incomplete, lack of closure, doubt

14. Temperance

Astrological correspondence: Sagittarius

Temperance appears when there is a need for balance of opposing areas in your life. You are being asked to be patient and re-examine priorities in your life that are in disharmony. Temperance assists us by pointing you to life's meaning and purpose.

Upright: Balance, harmony, purpose, moderation

Reversed: Competition, frustration, excess, imbalance

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Feeling the essence

Touch your soul, make a move

Feel what color and taste you are

What type of vision do you have, when you're looking at your soul? Is it a dark purple galaxy? Is it a mellow blue sky?

Who are you, there? Can you show it to the people and still feel it deep inside? Without any shame and guilt? Without any fear of judgment?

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Bones are crushing, bones are crushing (pushin' me)

Bodies touching, bodies touching (lovin' me)

Blood is pumping, blood is pumping (pullin' me)

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Honestly, the amount of love that I've given to the people and me getting an abüse in return, is truly disheartening.

Idk what to think about people. I'm literally waiting for someone to bash me again for having these feelings and tell me that it's all my fault (you won't be the first one). Idk why I deserved all of that. But I guess that that's just my life. At least I'm being honest with myself and I don't hide anything anymore. Idk why people can't stand me. I want to be liked at least. I can't pretend that I'm someone that I'm not in order to be liked. I guess I have to accept that I'm too much for many. I'm sooo sad rn...