ilikereadingthisiswhatilike - Tumblr blog

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

haha lol, whoops (I need her)

For some reason, when one of my creative outlets won't act right, the other one suddenly pops up and tells me to get to work so, Abby

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

made a few ellabs doodles :)) do you guys agree on needing more short haired abby? Well I’m here to provide (the crowd cheers for boobies)

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

hi baby! your art gives me life, can i request something with ellie? up to you to do whatever you want, but to give you some ideas, maybe she has one hand on her breast and the other fingering herself? sorry if this is a little awkward, i dont request many things but ellie is my girl!! thank you so much my love xx

sub!top Ellie))

sorry for being inactive for so long.. here some sub!top Ellie!!!!! also I drew Abby too, will post her when this post will gain about 300 likes ;)

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

as I promised)

if this post will gain 1k I will post the next art with Ellie and Abby, but what will it be is a surprise hehe. so get to work! I can only give a spoiler that it will be a game

upd: needed to crop the whole picture because It can be removed(

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

Not having an orc girlfriend who treats me like a princess is a tragedy.

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

I wish there sapphic omegaverse content. It doesn't have to be NSFW content. Just a strong Alpha woman cuddles their pretty omega in their pink nest.

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

They could have been such good friends. 🥺

"Uhmm, says the comic book nerd who collects trading cards in her spare time."

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

Dead Dove, Content Entitlement, and Fandoms

There's been no end of posts clogging up popular fandom tags with arguments and opinions on dark content, dead dove, and related things. While I've seen some decent posts that go over media literacy and dark content, I personally feel like none fully encompass my entire feelings on this nor provide all the points that I feel are important.

I know people have strong feelings on this subject, and I'm not expecting to immediately change anyone's minds. But I hope maybe I can toss some food for thought out there, or provide further context from both a victim of SA as well as a content creator. This has been bothering me for a while now to the point where it has been making me no longer want to write or engage in fandoms on Tumblr, and so I needed to get this out there with my stance. I've also had people in my inbox stating that my dark content is somehow morally better than other writer's dark content. TW: Mentions of dark content including discussions of noncon/dubcon, harassment, SA, etc.

Addressing Common Points

If you write or consume [INSERT CONTENT], you're romanticizing and endorsing it and that makes you a bad person. Or, you're weird/wrong/gross for it. I see this brought up primarily with dubcon/noncon topics. It should go without saying, but fiction is fantasy, it's separate from real life. Adults who consume this type of content understand that these things are NOT ok in real life. But to take it a step further, I want to stress that having noncon fantasies is actually INCREDIBLY common. In studies regarding these fantasies, nearly 50% or more of people who participated admitted to having fantasies that align with these topics the majority of which are women. Not only that but these kinds of fantasies are even more common in people who have been victims of these crimes. This isn't some niche thing only liked by a minority of people. If you don't believe me here's an example of ONE study, but there's plenty of easily accessible information out there. By conflating consuming/writing this content with someone's moral character stigmatizes these feelings further and does more harm than good. And I know what you're thinking though. But why? Why would someone who's gone through something like that fantasize about something so awful? Why is this appealing to anyone, victims or not? Fiction creates a safe space to explore topics. In fiction there are no real victims, no one is actually getting hurt, it's all fake. The characters aren't real and if at any point as the reader you are too uncomfortable to continue, you can stop and exit. You can like the idea of a fictional person tossing you around, while also feeling uncomfortable if a real life man tried to pick you up a the bar or didn't take no for an answer. There's also "normal" things you can fantasize about, but not want to participate in IRL.

Hypocrisy and what is considered dark content? This won't apply to everyone, but I've seen a number of people who claim to be anti-dark content but reblog things that are non consensual, perhaps without realizing it. And this is especially true for those who are younger on here. Please understand that noncon/dubcon does not inherently need to be violent or gory. Any situation in which there's a lack of consent or a power imbalance is inappropriate. Somno fics? If it's not explicitly stated that it was agreed upon prior in the fic, that is still non consensual even if it's written to be "sweet.", even if it's a pre-established relationship. Professor x student fics? There's power imbalance there. There's a reason you cannot have a relationship with your teachers in real life. Hybrid fics? Most people write hybrids as completely sentient people who are treated as sex slaves. They have little choice or are "following instinct." You cannot consent to someone who literally OWNS you after adopting you. You get the gist. There's far more to consent than physically manhandling someone. Yet because these things are written in a way that contextualizes them as being "sweet" and "normal", they aren't considered dark content by many people. If you're ok with the above, you have to understand that these ARE forms of dubcon/noncon. I would even argue that these are more romanticizing of these topics than stuff that's far more explicit in nature. If you would be pissed if your IRL partner tried to feel you up in your sleep, but enjoy somno fics, or enjoy the Taboo of Professor Leon, but wouldn't fuck your actual college professor - then that is the EXACT way in which people who enjoy even "darker" content can enjoy the fiction whilst not partaking in real life.

It sets a bad example for younger people on the website/"protect the children." Children shouldn't be looking at smut in general, dark content, vanilla content, etc. I don't know what else to tell you. It is NOT the job of content creators to try and police what teenagers do on the internet, that's between them and their parents. The majority of creators who make 18+ content explicitly state MDNI and block those younger than 18 if we discover them trying to interact with us. That is the most that we can and should be expected to do.

[INSERT CHARACTER] would NEVER act like that, it irritates me when people write them as OOC. Fanfiction is by definition NON canon. The only people who truly know how a character is supposed to act are the people who created those characters. But I want to add on to this, there are plenty of times in which a character acts entirely OOC even in fluffy or vanilla fanfiction. Every writer is going to have a different interpretation of how a character acts or thinks - and yet it's only really complained about when it's dark content. These characters are not real. Leon cannot be upset or hurt by people writing dark content about him, because he doesn't exist. Part of the fun of fanfiction, at least in my opinion as well, is justifying certain things within the context. Many dark content writers will and do explain why the character became how they are or why they think that way using canon as context - not that I think it's required because fanfiction can be whatever you want it to. The point is, dark content or not, not everyone will be on the same wavelength as you about your favorite character.

Even if you're a victim of SA or other crimes, you should get professional help, not read dark content. This is a very bad take in my opinion. Mental health care can be incredibly hard to get. Reading fanfiction is free, it's harmless. But genuinely, imagine you're a victim of a heinous crime, and you're already struggling with feelings regarding it - to then be mobbed by people online telling you that you're weird and wrong for having the feelings that you do? This is also in league with my first point, but having these feelings are actually VERY normal. This is a healthy way to process the emotions in a safe environment where no real person gets hurt, where you can leave whenever you want. Stigmatizing these things does hurt real people though.

You're hurting other people who're victims of these things. Look, if a fic is not properly TW then I fully understand. Every victim will have a different experience, and while some may be ok with dark content, others won't. So if you open a fic expecting it to be one thing and it's another, that's shitty. But tags are there for a reason. If you see something marked Noncon, and that's triggering for you, no one is expecting you to read it. And here's the thing with tags/tw's as well, everyone's trauma is different. Something that one person might not consider dark content, or is generally considered innocuous might trigger someone else. If you are one of those people who think even seeing the trigger warning could be harmful to people, then that's a prime example of WHY you must curate your own experience online. Block certain words, tags, and phrases to make sure you don't see them. But that's on YOU to do, not people who create content. Their only responsibility is to warn you about the contents of the content they've made, their responsibility stops beyond that point. You know what DOES affect real people besides the stigmatization of their feelings or kinks? Harassing them. Leaving hate comments, telling people to unalive themselves. These affect the mental health of the real people behind the content that you don't like. I've seen death and rape threats SENT to dark content writers.

Dark content in other forms of media. It's interesting to me that the majority of discussion around dark content comes from people criticizing fanfiction specifically. Take horror movies for example. The Saw Franchise, we'll say. Do you think the creators of that series want to enact those horrible things onto other people? Do you think they want to be the victims of Jigsaw themselves? What about people who watch content like that? You probably don't think that they do. There's TONS of movies, music videos, even horror novels that have incredibly, and I mean INCREDIBLY dark dead dove content - and yet most people understand that the appeal is in the taboo. That it's fiction. That people who consume THOSE forms of media don't want to participate in those things but do enjoy consuming that content. But when it's fanfiction it somehow becomes a problem.

Entitlement and demand of fandom content. In addition to all of the above, there is a major uptick in people complaining about the content within fandoms some not even relating to dark content. "There's too many stories where reader acts like X." "I hate how so many people characterize this person because that's now how they would act!" "Why is there so much smut? Why can't there be more of {insert what I want}". This is FREE content made by people who do this stuff as a hobby. No one owes you content, and no one HAS to write the way you want them too. If there's tons of content like that, then it's because it's popular. Perhaps your version of a character is in the minority opinion, and that's completely ok!

What's the solution to all of this discourse?

Be the change you want to see! If you feel like there's too many x reader fics where the reader doesn't act how you want - then write it the way you want. Do you have head canons about a series or character that you haven't seen discussed before? Make that post yourself! If you don't feel there's enough fluff in the fandom - then create some! And if you don't want to make content yourself - request it, commission it. Interact with your favorite writers! Encourage them, don't demand. Talk with them about their work, leave comments, and reblog, reblog, reblog!! Being a part of the discussion and interaction is the BEST way to help the community thrive. Surround yourself with the content that YOU want, curate YOUR experience. Block every dark content writer you see if it helps. Go into your Tumblr settings, block words, block tags. Don't set yourself up to be upset or bothered by the content you're getting. Even if you read the above and you still think every dark content writer is a horrendous, awful person - the best thing to do is still block them. Block their content. Harassing them and complaining on it will NOT stop that content from existing. But you will continue to upset yourself by not curating your own experience.

~~~~~~~~

If you made it through all that, thank you for reading. I want to add that my blog WILL continue in the future to have a mix of both dead dove and regular content. I also interact with other dark content blogs, so if you're someone who followed me because of my "regular" fics and want to unfollow/block me, I'm ok with that. <3

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

March 2024

Alcina Dimitresuc

Alloy

Cyberpunk characters

Single Mom @ratcash-wasgud Summary: Mizu is in love with you and your motherly ways. Warnings: None Special Tag: Modern AU, Parent AU Mizu

Bully @rabbitbandit05 Summary: You are being bullied and Mizu stands up for you. Warnings: Bullying, Slut Shaming Special Tag: Modern AU, College AU Mizu

𝐓𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 @mt-oe Summary: This rough patch never seems to end. Warnings: None Special Tag: Modern AU, College AU, Angst Mizu

Hidden @rougecreator1 Summary: As a magic user you must hide you abilities, even form those you love. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Jinx

The Girl Time Forgot @hunnylagoon Summary: Ellie is the only time traveller who uses her uncommon gift to rewind time and constantly pester you-the only immortal who made a deal with death in 412 BC and is cursed to walk the earth for all eternity. Forever was promised but you never knew the price Warnings: Death, Murder, Mentions of Suicide, Self-harm, Toxic Relationship, Sickness, Violence, Angst, War, Mentions of Drugs Special Tag: Time Travel AU Ellie Williams

𝐓𝐨 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐮𝐧 @darlingverse Summary: You would do anything for your family, and finding a wealthy husband secures your future and your parents. Deep down, you’re not happy. You want excitement—one thrilling moment before you condemn yourself to a loveless marriage. An encounter with a known troublemaker does just that. Warnings: None Special Tag: Historical AU Dwayne

Bite Me @darlingverse (X) Summary: An accidental bite leads to you discovering a new kink—after all, what's the point of having vampire boyfriends if they won't bite you? Warnings: Blood Special Tag: Blood Kink, Poly The Lost Boys

Confession @buryustogether Summary: Two of you confess your love for each other Warnings: None Special Tag: Fluff Jinx

Baby I'm Yours @sweetcyberangel (X) Summary: When your friends leave you stranded at a club you find yourself in the helpful hands of the club's bouncer, who - by the way - is super hot and definitely your type Warnings: Drinking Special Tag: Muitly Part Abby Anderson

First time @obsessedduh (X) Summary: It is Jinx first time and your more then happy to help Warnings: None Special Tag: Fluff Jinx

Voyer @k3n-dyll (X) Summary: You catch Abby masturbation and decide to watch. Warnings: None Special Tag: Voyerism, Dom Reader Abby Anderson

But I'm a lesbian! @girlrotterr Summary: You get sent to a camp full of lesbian Warnings: Conversion Camp Special Tag: Mutil Part, Poly TLOU Woman

The thought of you @sapphhicsluticslut (X) Summary: she finally spoke to you, after the long awaited 2 weeks of ‘knowing’ you she finally spoke words to you. You just looks to pretty, so she had to make sure you got home safe. So no one could kidnap you or anything, for your own safety. And maybe something else… Warnings: Stalking, Voyeurism Special Tag: Mutil Part, Modern AU Ellie Williams

Winner Winner @lynnielovestlou(X) Summary: Abby and Ellie challenge each other to see who can make you squirt first. Warnings: None Special Tag: None

The thought of you @sapphhicsluticslut (X) Summary: she finally spoke to you, after the long awaited 2 weeks of ‘knowing’ you she finally spoke words to you. You just looks to pretty, so she had to make sure you got home safe. So no one could kidnap you or anything, for your own safety. And maybe something else… Warnings: Stalking, Voyeurism Special Tag: Mutil Part, Modern AU Ellie Williams

Sweetheart @pow-pow1111 Summary: You like to playfight with your girlfriend. Warnings: None Special Tag: Fluff Jinx

Could Be a Better Boyfriend Than Him @ceruleanangel Summary: Vi feels a little jealous after one of your performances and decides to show you what's her's Warnings: None Special Tag: None Vi

The Diamond of Zaun @ceruleanangel Summary: During your performance you see a ghost in the crowed. Warnings: None Special Tag: Mutil Part, Performer AU Vi

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

Alcina Dimitrescu

Mood board made by @notjustdr

(X) = Smut

Doamna De Sânge @liviadimitrescu Summary: She'd been obsessed with you from the moment she met you. Knew the eyes the moment she'd seen them. And it changed the world for her. Now it was only fair that she changed the world for you. Warnings: None Special Tag: Mutil Chapter

Echoes Of Sacrifice @maybegays-blog Summary: Ethan will do anything to get his daughter back. Warnings: Character death, Murder Special Tag: Angst

Day Off @alxndryngs Summary: Alcina’s favourite maid has a bad day Warnings: None Special Tag: None

Yan @anxiousnerdwritings Summary: Alcina a bit of a yandere Warnings: None Special Tag: None

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

Aloy

(X) = Smut

Stitched Metal @statticscribbles Summary: Reader is a stitcher that has a crush on Aloy. Warnings: None Special Tag: Mutil Chapter

Love Sparked Within War @candyflossswift Summary: You have her back Warnings: None Special Tag: None

Nightmares @skeletondeerart Summary: You have a nightmare. Warnings: None Special Tag: None

Let Me Take Care of You For Once, Please @skeletondeerart Summary: Aloy is sick but she is refusing help. Warnings: None Special Tag: None

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

Cyberpunk Characters

*not my art

(X) = Smut

Yandere @poisonousroxstar Summary: Someone likes you a little to much. Warnings: Kidnaping Special Tag: Headcon Meredith Stout

Jealousy @smuttyfang Summary: Judy is pissed/jealous when a client hires reader just to seduce her Warnings: Jealousy Special Tag: None Judy Alvarez

Day In @judgementdaysunshine Summary: You and Judy have a lazy morning and day together Warnings: None Special Tag: None Judy Alvarez

Last Voice Mail @smuttyfang Summary: Reader chooses suicide in the end and leaves a really heartbreaking voicemail for Judy Warnings: Suicide Special Tag: Angst Judy Alvarez

Idol Worship @yns-world Summary: You’re a hyper feminine idol with a cutesy, girlie concept. As a Night City celebrity, these are some headcanons of your life with the men. Warnings: None Special Tag: Head con Cyber Punk Men

NSFW @ma1dmer (X) Summary: You find out what it like to be with a power couple Warnings: None Special Tag: Head con Elizabeth and Jefferson Peralez

you're not a ghost, you're in my head @vampireloverz (X) Summary: The voice in your head helps you get off. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Johnny Silverhand

THE EROS CLUB @buryustogether (X) Summary: You and Jackie receive a job to infiltrate a popular new club and retrieve a sample of a drug making its rounds through customers. unfortunately, it takes being dosed to realize the drug is an aphrodisiac.Warnings: drinking alcohol, drugs, being drugged unknowingly Special Tag: None Jackie Welles

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

Cuties who will brake your leg

sure they are both in a mentally bad place and went on a revenge rampage but at the end of the day they’re just cutie patooties☹️

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

All of these are really good. It is hard to pick a favorite.

All my recommendations are here.

Can yall pleaseeeeeee please!!!! Send me your favorite abby fics😩the abby girls have CRUMBS compared to you Ellie girls😣

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

Warmly greet, are you still writing for ''The Lost Boys''?

Hello there. 😃

I never wrote for the lost boys. I recommend other people's stories that I enjoy. I have not kept up with the fandom recently. Currently, I am more interested in other fandoms. It is possible that I will go back to the lost boys fandom in the future. If I do, any new stories will be added to the monthly recap and the complete collection list.

I hope this clears up some confusion.

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

I want all of them in my life

women of arcane>>>

[ilikereadingthisiswhatilike]

February Recap

(X) = Smut

Birthday Girl @hunnylagoon Summary: Jackson’s resident Baker works herself tirelessly to take care of everyone on their birthday and ensure they get something nice to brighten their special day but who is there to take care of her? Warnings: None Special Tag: Angst Ellie Williams

Baby Fever @circe-is-struggling (X) Summary: After seeing the cutest video of a sleepy toddler while on that part of your cycle. Warnings: None Special Tag: Breeding Kink Ellie Williams

Strap and Hair @obsessedduh (X) Summary: You like to pull Jinx hair Warnings: None Special Tag: None Jinx

Please Don't Leave Me Again! @0starwomen0 Summary: You are Jinx toy. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Jinx

Watcher @consciousblogworld (X) Summary: You wanted to wait for her to get off patrol. Warnings: None Special Tag: Voyeurism Abby Anderson

Hers @dungeonpuppykai (X) Summary: After trying to fight it for as long as you could remember, it was in the moment her life dangled between your fingers did you realize that Abby, your captor and perpetrator was also your savior. In her own ugly and twisted way. Warnings: Dub Con, Stockholm Syndrome Special Tag: Dark Abby Anderson

FINAL ACT @abbysvictim (X) Summary: After trying to fight it for as long as you could remember, it was in the moment her life dangled between your fingers did you realize that Abby, your captor and perpetrator was also your savior. In her own ugly and twisted way. Warnings: Dub Con, Stockholm Syndrome Special Tag: Dark

Side Lines @satellitespinner Summary: You've been going to salt witch beach every summer for as long as you can remember, it's home to you. and you wouldn't change that for the world... Warnings: None Special Tag: Mutile Chapter

Helping Hand @obsessedduh (X) Summary: Jinx catching reader masturbating and deciding to offer a helping hand. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Jinx

Strange Fascination @ervotica (X) Summary: They love you Warnings: Non con, Drugging Special Tag: Dark Ellabs

𝐕𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫 @leiswxrld (X) Summary: it’s Valentine’s Day, a special day to spend with your loved ones right but what if a slasher is going around killing only once a year on this special day. Warnings: Non con, Drugs, Murder Special Tag: Dark, Dirty Ellie Williams

Candy @pascals-doll (X) Summary: You and Ellie have a good Valentines Day Warnings: None Special Tag: Sweet Ellie Williams

So Pretty @hybridirl (X) Summary: your dad’s co-worker is sooo cute! you hadn’t seen her in so long! tonight, a dinner is happening with his team! you just have to hurry up and get dressed, because she just caught you nakeyyyy. Warnings: Cheating Special Tag: Age Gap Abby Anderson

Tis The Damn Season @whenlostinthedarkness Summary: You swore you'd never end up in Jackson again unless it was a life or death situation, but when that very thing happens, you find yourself back in the place you used to call home before it was tainted by her Warnings: Angst Special Tag: Mutli Chapter Ellie Williams

SOMETHING UNEXPECTED @sorrowsblogworld (X) Summary: Life seemed average, a repeated cycle you could never seem to get out of. Bland, overused and average. Warnings: Angst Special Tag: None Ellie Williams and Dina

Once More Into The Breach @destructive-path Summary: you take a risk and put your life in hands that always seem to find their way around your neck. Warnings: Blood, Injury Special Tag: Dark Ellie Williams

Nerd @elslvrsworld (X) Summary: Ellie caught the attention of the head cheerleader, who’s always successful in her endeavors. Warnings: None Special Tag: None Ellie Williams