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Hi! If anyone’s been worried, I just wanted to let you know I’m doing fine! I just don’t use Tumblr regularly anymore. I hope everyone is doing well!! :D

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If there's a reason I'm still alive

When everyone who loves me has died

I'm willing to wait for it

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seems reasonable

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*sad disco music plays in the background*

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Hello Mark! I found out about the limnonectes genus recently - why are some of them knobheads? What is the purpose of knob?

The structure is called a caruncle, which sounds like a made-up word, but then again, all words are made up. It is made of connective tissue underneath skin full of mucous glands (studied histologically by Lambertz et al. 2014), but its function is unknown. However, because it is only present in males, I have a well-founded suspicion that it is involved in sexual selection one way or another. I would guess that it is either (a) very intimidating for other males, (b) actually helpful in physical contests among males, (c) very attractive to females, or (d) some combination of the above.

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Skilltober #19 - Hand/Eye-Coordination

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recent neopets comms

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As a medium/lower support needs autistic who works with young higher support needs autistic:

We all matter. We all have the same diagnosis. We all deserve to be treated with dignity and respect.

But we are not the same.

I can mask and might be seen as 'odd' or 'weird' in public. The students I work with are seen as 'dangerous' and 'practically little kids'.

I can go to university and work with accommodations. The students I work with likely will never live independently and a few might find jobs that support them but still pay them less than an abled worker.

I have full control of my finances. The students I work with aren't allowed to make independent financial decisions, even if capable.

If I say 'no,' I'm making a choice. The students I work with can't say 'no' without being labeled as defiant and difficult.

I can feed myself, bathe myself, and take care of myself with extreme challenges. The students I work with are unable to take care of themselves without high levels of support/one on one support.

I had an IEP in high school but was mainstreamed in classes. The students I work with take separate classes and some rarely get to interact with their abled peers.

Our experiences are fundamentally different. Higher support needs autistics will experience a specific type of ableism I never will, and can never fully understand.

Lower support needs autistics need to stop saying we understand what higher support needs autistics are going through and then present autism as only being disabling because of society/lack of acceptance because that is dangerous. We need to stop saying every autistic person is capable of everything if given the right support because that leaves out huge parts of our community who will never be able to do certain things, regardless of support.

We are worthy of existence regardless of our abilities.

Autism is a spectrum. It is not the same for every autistic person. Autism acceptance and advocacy has to come with accepting, acknowledging, and listening to our higher support needs peers.

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I got a bit silly!  😳💞🌈✨

Last pic was a collab with @datacr1me

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hurr hurr I'm a human body hurr hurr I'm gonna solve all my problems using mucus

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Vampire amoeba

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Book's out! It comes as a pdf or an epub with 3 maps (1 of which is brand new) and 1 bonus tarot card art (repainted from the old demo version)

Synopsis: "Félix Ortega is the survivor of a childhood werewolf hunt, a deeply unpopular middle manager of a thieves’ guild, and the Púca’s newest toy. Félix’s death by exposure one cold winter’s night is reversed by the Black Horse’s hand, and he returns to a world that has moved on without him. While his oldest childhood friends from the guild struggle to accept him back into their lives after the argument that tore their friendship apart, the tyrannical lycanthrope monarchy of Inver chooses its newest victims.

SAID THE BLACK HORSE is a gaslamp fantasy inspired by Irish folklore and oral tradition set in a world pushed uncomfortably close to the margins of the faery realm."

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OH DANG they're bringin' back the old UC art over on Neopets!🙌🏼🎉

My last summer working at Neopets was 2007, which was riiiight on the eve of the big conversion—I rarely kept track of my more basic paintbrushes (purple, rainbow, checkered, etc), but I sure as heck kept track of all the PBs I designed that required full redraws:

I do not think I realized until this moment how many ixis I drew, apologies to all other pet species 😔🙏

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✦ Bread ✦