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Please Don't Leave Me (Part. 4)

Bucky Barnes x Reader

(Part 1) (Part 2) (Part 3) (Part 5)

Warning: Violence

You didn’t think it would get this far. 

“So much has happened in the last three weeks. I don’t even know where to begin.” you said as you looked anywhere but at the person's couch you were sitting on. 

“Where it’s comfortable.” Dr. Daley spoke directly. There was a moment of silence and you looked at her for a long time, incredulously almost. 

“None of it is comfortable.” you crossed your arms. She sat with her legs crossed, notepad and pen draped on her legs and a hand at the side of her head. 

“This isn’t an option Ms.Y/n. You have gone through a traumatic event and if you want to return to your team you will do this-”

“Agent” 

“What?” She said, confused. 

“Yes. I went through something traumatic and so did everyone else. And its Agent not Ms.” You spat. She shoved the book shut and leaned over the table separating the two of you. 

“I know you don’t like me but I am only trying to help you. You need to learn some coping mechanisms. What you are doing to yourself isn’t healthy. Do you think it’s healthy, Agent?” She was truly trying to help but to you it just seemed condescending. 

“So start where you feel is right.” 

“It started three weeks ago…”

Walking through the halls. I made my way to the conference room. Bucky’s hand held mine and I was grateful. I just wanted to be close. It felt like at any moment he was going to disappear. This touch kept me grounded. 

Steve, Tony, Nat, Clint, Sam, and Bruce waited for us. They were talking, pictures from the hard drives were floating on the holographic screens. 

“Y/n. Bucky.” Steve greeted us. 

“We were discussing the drive's content. We need to put a plan together.” Nat said from the corner. She gave me a sweet smile. I walked up to the screen, swiping the photos. I can’t believe they captured all these pictures. Images of the time me and Bucky went to the market showed up. I was staring at the fruit and Bucky was staring at me. How could I have been so oblivious? Then your breath hitched. A photo of Bucky in his room. I was in a towel wrapped and Bucky sat at my feet. It was the night Bucky carried me to the shower. The photos didn’t stop. They showed him carrying me and how he got me dressed. They showed him kissing my head as he slept, something I didn’t remember. They got it all. I turned the screen off. Everyone was looking at me, gauging my reaction. 

“So what are you going to do about this?” You asked no one in particular. Tony stepped up. 

“We can’t risk HYDRA taking the fight to us. We have to be prepared, so I say we strike first. We fight them. Infiltrate every base.” No one said anything. 

“What are you guys scared of a little fight?” Clint jested. 

“It’ll be like old times.” Nat laughed. All of a sudden Thor walked in. You hadn’t seen him in months. 

“Thor. What are you doing here?” Steve asked. 

“I thought you would be more excited to see me, Captain Rogers.” Thor quirked. I sighed with relief that this could really help us. 

“I came because I heard about a present danger from the group HYDRA.” 

“How-”

“Sergeant Barnes called for me,” he finished. Everyone looked at Bucky. 

“We need all the help we can get. They are in deep and they will stop at nothing. These photos aren’t just of me. They are of all of you…” He said, looking at me. 

“There are a lot of y/n” Nat spoke up. She clicked the screen and opened the file. Pictures of me flashed on the screen. Everything from the last year. Everytime I left they had a shot taken. They ranged from grocery store stops, missions, and the last one made you furious. It was a photo of me with no shirt. My bare back was shown and my arms were stretched over my head. Violated. I felt violated. 

“Bucky and Thor will go to this corner of the base.” He gestured to a building on the blueprint. 

“Nat and Clint you will go here and Y/n and I will take this wing. Tony and Sam will fly over and assess any threats. I think if we time everything up we can get to the center of the base and blow up-”

“Are you crazy?” I spoke up. Why would Bucky be involved with this. 

“Are you trying to make this easy for them?” Nat tried to soothe me. Seeing I was distressed she tried to rub the back of my arm and I shook her off. 

“You might as well put a bow on Bucky's head and leave under the goddamn Christmas tree. Here you go, here's the guy you've been wanting for months- no years!” I yelled. Why are they proposing this? Are they actually daft? This is the stupidest idea ever. 

“Y/n this is the best option nothing is going to happen-” Steve said.

“No. Absolutely not. You said we all have a voice and I vote no. It’s too dangerous. I won't stand for it.”

“The lady is right. You said we have an equal part in decisions.” Thor said. I was grateful even if I didn’t show it. My anxiety was getting the best of me. 

“Okay. Let’s put it to a vote. All in favor” Steve countered. Nat, Clint, and Tony raised their hands. Thor kept his down and Steve slowly raised his hand. A tie. That means we don't do it. You turned to face Bucky and he had his hand raised. I couldn't believe it. My ears started to ring and I couldn't focus. I just stared at Bucky, 

“We will leave within the hour.” Steve said. I just kept staring at Bucky and then I walked out. The sounds of footsteps are the only sound heard. People started to call after me but I was seeing red. I made it to my room and packed my go bad. I threw everything in anger. I rushed to put my suit on to be sure to get changed where no one could see me. A knock sounded on the door and I knew exactly who it was. Bucky wasted no time in opening the door. I just stared at the mirror and Bucky walked behind me placing a kiss on my shoulder and I caved. Closing my eyes. 

“It's going to be okay. I won’t let anything happen to you.” 

“You think that's what I'm worried about?” I turned around shaking off his touch. 

“You think I’m worried about getting hurt? About dying? I couldn’t give any less of a fuck about me. It’s you. I told you that if anything happens to you I couldn’t live without you. Without you I’m nothing, just a thing taking up oxygen. You promised me this was forever and yet you don’t seem fine with putting that in jeopardy-”

“You think I’m okay with this? You think I’m okay with risking all of our lives? The reason we are in this mess is because I am a monster. I killed so many people. I was a weapon of a war that I didn’t even know was going on. As long as HYDRA is alive we will be at war. I can’t do forever knowing that at any second it could be taken away. I can’t lose this life. I can’t lose my future with you. You are everything I want. I can’t let them hurt you.” His breath was uneven and he ragged. I didn’t know what to say. 

“Just don’t leave me, Bucky. Please.” I begged. I hated how pathetic I sounded but I loved him and I couldn't. There was the fear again. He started to walk away and I got scared. This was it. He finally got sick of my whining. He went to the record player and put on a record. Doris day’s “Dream a Little Dream of Me” echoed through the speakers. I was confused. He knew how much I loved this song. Before I could process it he pulled me to him and we started to dance. I rested my head on his chest. I loved the song but I loved the sound of his breath and his heartbeat. That was my favorite song. He hummed the tune and he looked at me. He pulled me in for a kiss. It wasn’t rough or possessive but filled with passion. It felt like a goodbye. Tears pricked in my eyes. 

“I love you James Buchanan Barnes.” You said seriously. 

“I know, doll” 

I got my stuff and reluctantly headed to the jet. I was feeling better. Bucky sat across from me and gave me a soft smile. The corners of my mouth turned up and I couldn't get over the love I felt for him. We were going to be okay. 

We got to the base and everything was going well. Steve and I finally got to the center of the base when Tony told him he needed help. 

“Go Steve, I got it.” That's when everything went to hell. I was about to leave the base, the explosives in place when I heard a voice. A thick accent laced his menacing voice. 

“Ah Y/n L/n. I’ve been waiting for you.” I slowly turned around to be faced with a gun pointed at me and some sort of mad scientist. 

“You look just as good as the pictures.” He said slowly walking toward me. 

“Good thing this is the last time you’ll see me then.” I countered. 

“How right you are. You were supposed to report back minutes ago and you haven't. You know who will come to your rescue.” So this was his game. 

“He’s probably on the jet by now, your plan is ruined.” I smirked.

“I wouldn't be so sure.” I heard the sounds of gunshots and I closed my eyes. Dammit.

“You won’t be able to stop him once he's turned. No one can.” I was confused by what he said but before I had time to think about it Bucky stormed in and was immediately thrown across the room. His metal arm sticking to a huge magnet. 

“Bucky!” I screamed. 

“So nice for you to finally join us Sergeant Barnes.” 

“Who the hell are you?” He spat. 

“You don’t remember me Soldat? Shame, you will after I make you kill your girlfriend. I’ll record the whole thing and send it to the Stark tower so that you watch it over and over again and remember how you betrayed HYDRA.” I sucked in a breath. This was not happening. Then he started to speak. 

“Longing. Rusted. Furnace.” 

“No! Stop!” Bucky pleaded, trying to get free from the magnet.

“Daybreak. Seventeen.”

“Y/n leave. Now.” He yelled. 

“No. Not without you.” I  cried.

“Benign. Nine. Homecoming.”

“Ill kill you. I won’t have a choice.” I pulled my knife and charged at the scientist when he fired a shot into my shoulder. I sank to the ground in pain and continued. 

“One.”

“I forgive you, James. I love you.” I cried. I knew exactly what was ab0out to happen. I stared at him and all I saw was pain and fear. He wasn’t peaceful. 

“Freight car.” His head immediately bowed, Bucky was gone, this was the Winter Soldier now.

“Soldat?” The scientist said. The Winter Soldier replied in russian.

“Ready to comply.'' The scientist turned off the magnet and he fell to the floor. 

“Kill her.” My face fell.

“Don’t make him do this. I beg you. I will do whatever you want!” He laughed. 

“This is what I want.” Bucky started to walk over to me. I knew what I had to do. I pulled my knife. I can’t kill him but he can kill me. I hope he forgives me. I slit my wrist. 

“I love you. James, I love you.” I cried. I slit my other wrist. 

“This was supposed to be forever. I promise I will never leave you.” I gave him one last look and then stabbed the knife into my chest. All the way down to the hilt. I didn’t even feel the pain. The entire time my eyes remained on Bucky. I could feel myself losing my sight and hearing. I allowed death to over take me. The Soldier stopped moving, knowing his mission was dying. I took care of the work for him. I couldn’t let him kill me. It would haunt him for the rest of his life. He wouldn’t survive it. I laid in a pool of my blood. I could feel it seeping out of my mouth and nose. The last thing I heard was the sound of guns and struggling. 

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Bucky Barnes (Series)

Please Don't Leave Me (Part 1) (Part 2) (Part 3) (Part 4) (Part 5) (Part 6) (Part 7) (Part 8) (Part 9) (Part 10) (Part 11) (Part 12) (Part 13) (Part 14) (Part 15) (Part 16) (Part 17) (Part 18) (Part 19) (Part 20) (Part 21) (Part 22) (Part 23) (Part 24) (Part 25) (Part 26) (Part 27)

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 27)

Bucky x Reader

A month had passed and there was no sign of Christian. He didn’t make contact but there also seemed to be no HYDRA but things aren't always how they seem. It was quiet. Too quiet. Things were different between me and Bucky. All I wanted was to be there for him in the way he always was for me but he was guarded lately. I’m not sure what was driving us apart. The week following Jamie's death we were closer than we’ve ever been. He was by my side through all of it. 

The funeral was held in the upper east side although I requested it be back in Covington. Jamie had ties in New York City with the elitist and it was out of my control. It was grand and I sat in the back row. All of the team came. I was thankful for that. It was elaborate and I couldn’t help but think that Jamie would have hated it. 

4 weeks ago 

“Are you sure you’re okay?” Nat asked y/n. She was all dressed up in a tight black dress and black heels to match. 

“I’m fine. I’ve come to terms with it. I’d rather the funeral not be at the damn Louvre but it wasn’t up to me” Nat smiled at Y/n’s joke 

“Some people would kill to have their funeral at a place like that.” 

“And some people are killed to have a funeral at a place like that” Y/n said back. Nat was silent. Yn started laughing. 

“Nat. Come on. That was funny.” Nat scoffed but there was a smirk on her face.

“Alright. Enough with the jokes. It’s showtime. We have to put on our game faces.” Both y/n and Natasha walked out to the common room with their faces stoic as ever. Steve and Sam sat on the couch and stood up when the girls entered the room. 

“How are you doing?” Steve asked genuinely. Nat looked at y/n and they both started hysterically laughing.

“You either have shit on your face or they’ve officially lost it.” Sam said aloud. Nat stopped laughing and put a serious look on her face but as soon as she looked at y/n they both lost it again. This time Steve and Sam started laughing as well. Nat poured drinks in short glasses and they all clicked glasses. Steve immediately spit it out. 

“What is this?” He asked with his face scrunched up.

“Fireball. We gotta get a little fucked up before we have to with the fat cats” Nat downed the rest of her drink. Y/n smiled and went to pour herself another. 

“Steve, you might want to drink up. We are going to sit with like 100 of Tony clones.” Y/n joked. Steve drank the rest of his drink and pursed his lips together. 

“What are we talking about? Me I hope.” Tony sauntered into the room with his expensive suit. 

“Oh you have no idea” Y/n mumbled and Nat must have heard it because she started laughing again. 

“Anyway. Clint can’t come. He is with the kids. He told me to tell you that he loves you and he’s sorry.” Tony said. Y/n raised her glass again. 

“To Clint!” She had to be on her fourth glass at this point. Hell it was a funeral why not make it a party. 

They all made it to the limos that Tony had ordered and Bucky came down. He was fidgety and y/n couldn’t help but notice. She put her hand on his thigh and he looked over at her. 

“Have a drink” She grabbed the bottle of tequila she had stashed in her purse. She took a swig and handed it to him. He didn’t think twice before throwing it back as well. The bottle was passed around to everyone beside Steve politely declined. 

“Thor. You got any of the good stuff?” Y/n breathed. 

“Of course!” He pulled out a flask and handed it to her. She poured some in the champagne flute and then one for Bucky. 

“To Mr. Moneybags for getting us this limo.” She cheered with Bucky. 

“You know me. Philanthropist by day, playboy by night.” He smirked. 

“Jar. Jar. Jar. Jar!” Nat took an empty glass and placed it on the little table in front of Tony. He rolled his eyes but threw a hundred in it. They got to the funeral and sat in the back. The place was packed. 

“Who knew Valentino had so many friends” Sam uttered. 

“Acquaintances. He didn’t like any of these asshats. They're all here for show anyway. It’s an investment opportunity.” Y/n said.

“Business as usual.” Sam said back. The funeral progressed and it was boring of course. There was a gathering in the ballroom following the ceremony. It was way more upbeat. Drinks were being passed around and the sounds of laughter were heard. 

“I say we blow this popsicle stand and go to a real party.” Tony said. Steve looked at him incredulously and was about to tell him how insensitive his remark was when y/n jumped in. 

“Tony. That was the best idea you’ve ever had. You’re a genius!” She grabbed a drink off of a server tray as he walked by and headed toward the door. The limo was waiting out front and Bucky was quick to follow her. 

“Where to?” Happy asked. Tony looked toward y/n and she smirked.

“The Delancey.” Tony said and he started to play some music and LED lights lit up the back.

“Tony, are you kidding me?” Sam asked. He was starting to smile as the Teach Me How Dougie came on. He saw the smile on y/n’s face and he stood up. He hit the dougie as he made his way to y/n.

“May I have this dance Ms. L/n?” He stuck out his hand. She got up and started to dance with Sam. They were all laughing and eventually Nat joined in and Thor tried to dance but was not hitting any of the moves. Everyone was laughing. Y/n started dancing in front of Bucky. He smiled but stayed sitting, his arm casually resting on the back of the seat. 

“Come on, Sergeant, show me what you got.” He got up and Nat changed the music. Ain’t No Mountain High Enough came through the speakers. Bucky started to sing to y/n and she looked surprised he knew the song. She started to voice the Tammi Terrell's part and everyone started to join in. 

“Cap, I know you Marvie Gaye.” Steve smiled and he reluctantly got up and started dancing and singing.

“No, no, baby!” He started screaming. Tony screamed and pretended he was having a heart attack. 

“Oh my god the fossil has been brought to the 21st century!” The rest of the night was a blur but everyone had fun. The most fun they had in a long time. It felt like things weren’t as serious anymore. The weight of the world was lifted and every bad thing had been forgotten for the night. Bucky and y/n made it back to their room. Bucky basically holding her up. As soon as they made it to the room y/n hit the bed with an ‘oof’. She rolled onto her back and smiled at Bucky. He jumped on the bed and y/n laughed. 

“Thank you for today. I needed this.” She said as Bucky put a strand of hair behind her ear. She did the same thing as the bun in his hair couldn’t hold all of the front pieces. 

“Anything for you, doll.” 

“So Marvin Gaye huh?” She joked. 

“An icon. How could I resist?” 

“Alright then. Lets Get It On, Barnes.”

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 26)

Bucky x Reader

“This is nice, Steve. Thank you.” Steve took me to a spot near the Brooklyn bridge to watch the sun rise. 

“I come here sometimes when I feel hopeless. It helps me.” 

“You mean when you and Tony are in a lover's squabble.” He laughed. I smiled. This felt nice. 

“Do you want to talk about it?” He asked. I sighed. 

“Jamie is going to die and he has the chance to fix it and he won’t.” The water was so beautiful and serene. Bucky had talked about coming here a thousand times.  

“I know you care about him but it’s his choice. Imagine what he’s going through. How would you be feeling?” Steve was always the voice of reason. 

“Scared.” 

“This isn’t about you. It may be tough right now but you need to be there for him. Till the end of the line right?” He bumped my shoulder with his. 

“It’s all my fault, Steve. He never would have been there if I didn’t ask him to-”

“He chose to go. He cares about you. We all do. We all would have done the same thing,”  The thought of any of my friends going through this made my chest tighten. 

“God. I hate when you are always right.” I groaned. 

“Let’s go. You will regret not being there for him.” He stood up and offered me his hand. 

We got back to the tower and Jarvis told me Jamie was in my old room. I walked to my door and took a deep breath. The curtains were shut. The sun was barely peeking over the horizon.

“Y/n.” He said surprised. 

“I’m sorry. For all of it. I know this is your decision and I will support you no matter what,” I sat on the bed near him and I could see the sweat that was forming on his brow. I moved up so that I was resting on the headboard and he hugged my me. 

“I’m glad you’re here. I’m sorry too.” He rested his head on the pillow below my shoulder. 

“You have nothing to be sorry for.”

“I do. I should have told you about Christian. Maybe you wouldn’t have been in this situation. You wouldn’t be haunted by the memories and plagued with the future.” His words were slow and he closed his eyes. 

“Enough with the what if’s. Let's talk about something else.” I dabbled his forehead with the cloth on the nightstand. 

“I bought a new car. I want you to have it. The boarding house too” 

“ I can’t-”

“Come on. Give a man his dying wish. I want you to have a place of your own. Somewhere you can be free of all of this.” He rasped out. 

“Thank you.” I tried to hold back the tears but I could feel I was losing him. His breathing slowed down and his body was limp. 

“Tell me about Barnes. That jackass makes you happy but he’s still a jackass.” I laughed. 

“He makes me feel alive. He saved me. So many times I can’t count.” I said and he mumbled so that I would go on. 

“He’s everything to me. It scares me sometimes how much I depend on him. How much I love him. He makes the weight of my world lighter. I’m so in love with him it hurts.” I went on. 

“You are always there for everyone else. Let him be there for you” He mumbled. Even in death he was comforting me. I nodded. 

“Promise me you will let yourself be happy.” He drawled. 

“I promise.” A tear rolled down my cheek. I couldn’t feel him anymore. His chest stopped rising and I knew he was gone. 

“I promise. I won’t let you down.” The tears wouldn’t stop until I was full blown sobbing. The door opened and Bucky appeared. He looked heartbroken. 

“He’s gone Bucky.” I cried. He approached the bed slowly. 

“I want to bury him.” He nodded. 

“I want it to be nice. There is a family plot by the boarding house overlooking the ravine.” He nodded again until he was next to the bed. He put his hand on mine. I moved to hug him and he picked me up. He walked to the door and I knew this was the last time I would ever step foot in this room. 

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 25)

Bucky x Reader

“Let him go” Steve grabbed my shoulder. 

I shook him off. I followed after Bucky and he went to our room. 

“Bucky. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean-” Before I could say anything I was pushed up against the wall. His eyes were dark and I realized how dark the room really was. The room was a mess. The bed wasn’t made. Drawers were open. He hadn’t been taking care of himself. 

“I’m sorry.” Tears filled my eyes. 

“Why did you leave me?” His face was filled with anger but I could hear the sadness in his words. The betrayal. I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. 

“Why!” He pushed me harder into the wall and I whimpered. I knew Bucky would never hurt me but I didn’t recognize this person in front of me. I turned my head against the wall and closed my eyes as a tear rolled down my cheek and I tried my best to not look how I felt. Scared. His breath was fast and ragged. He let go of me and staggered back until he hit the bed. I kept my cheek pressed against the wall and took a deep breath. I heard him stand and walk toward me again. 

“Why?” He sounded so broken. I turned to him and I could see the desperation all over his face. 

“I didn’t want anyone else to get hurt.” He turned around again. 

“Bucky. I swear. I wanted to tell you what I was going to do. I was so tempted. When I saw you asleep and I was writing that note I prayed you would wake up and tell me not to go. But you have to understand I wanted it to end. I wanted you to wake up and it would be over.” I started to walk over to the window where he stood looking out. 

“I would have helped you. I’m supposed to protect you but I can’t keep doing that when you’re set on suicide missions. Do you have a death wish?” He was angry again. 

“I just wanted it to end. I can’t keep living like this.” More tears made their way down my face. 

“Like what? Is this not enough for you? Am I not enough for you?” He yelled. I shook my head. Of course he was. 

“You are so careless with your life.” He made eye contact with me. 

“I love you, Bucky. I would never do anything to hurt you.” There was no fighting his words. I had to take it in a different direction. I loved him so much it hurt. I had forgotten that in my endeavor to find Christian I was hurting him.

“Bucky please. James.” 

“I know you would never hurt me intentionally. But you did. You beg me not to leave you but why does it feel like you are always leaving me?” His eyes were glassy and his words were soft. 

“I know you feel like you can’t trust me but I need you to trust me when I say that I will never do anything like this again.” Tears were falling and I angrily swiped them away. I felt so pathetic. 

“I trust you. It’s me and you till the end of the line, remember?” He put his hand on the side of my face. I launched myself into his arms and put my hands around his neck. Hugging Bucky felt like home. His hand came to the back of my head and he kissed the hair above my ear. 

“God, you scared me, doll.” I pulled back to meet his eyes and he thumbed my tears away. I leaned in and kissed him. The kiss was soft and sweet. It felt like years since the last one. He picked me up so my legs were around his waist and he deepened the kiss. My back hit the window and the kiss grew rougher. 

“I think I need to remind you that you're mine.” He breathed in my ear. 

“I think so too.” He threw me on the bed and I remembered I was still wearing the dress from the gala. It was 3am and yet it felt like a whole day had passed. His hands slid up the side where I was still wearing my empty thigh holsters. He unbuckled them and shoved the dress until it rested on my ribs. 

“You are going to take everything I give you. I think you are going to come for every time you’ve left me. Mmmh how many times has it been? Four now?” His metal fingers wrapped around the back of my knee and he yanked me down the bed. He went to take off his shirt and I slid further off the bed until I was on my knees. 

“What are you doing? Get up.” He looked down at me. I moved my hands to his belt and started to unbuckle it. He allowed me to and I unzipped his pants. He grabbed my wrist. 

“I just want to make you feel good.” He let go of my wrist and I slid down his boxers and his pants. He was already hard. I took him in my hand and wasted no time putting him in my mouth. I looked up at him and he never moved his eyes from mine. I thought my pace was good until he gathered my hair in his hand. 

“Doll. I need to fuck your face. Are you gonna let me?” I knew he wasn’t really asking me but I nodded anyway. His pace was relentless. Usually he’d give me a chance to breathe but he never stopped. I relaxed my throat and tried to breathe out of my nose. 

“Nothing to say now, doll.” He pulled my head back and I gasped for air. I didn’t waste a second and took his cock back in my mouth before he could do it. 

“Fuck.” He lurched forward and his chest was over my head. His cock was so deep in my throat. At that moment all I wanted to do was please him. He had this control over me.

“Fuck Your gonna make me come.” 

“Agent L/n. Your presence is requested by Dr. Banner.” Jarvis’s voice came out of nowhere. Bucky removed himself from my mouth. We just stared at each other. 

“You have been requested as well, Sergeant Barnes.” God damnit. I stood up and sat on the bed. This was the most awkward timing. Bucky pulled his pants up and buttoned his jeans. 

“Just when things were getting interesting”. I looked toward him and he grunted. I moved to the closet and put on a red top and tied up my hair. I brushed my teeth quickly and saw Bucky walk to the bathroom. 

“I’m gonna head to the med bay. Meet you there?” I called back knowing he may need a second. He opened the door. 

“No. We can go together.” We took the elevator up. Jamie and Bruce were talking about something. The lights were dimmed and I noticed that Jamie was wearing different clothes. Bruce must have given him something other then a suit. 

“What’s going on?” I asked. 

“Mr. Valentino seems to be in some sort of transition between human and vampire.” Dr. Cho said from behind a screen. 

“What does that mean? Is he going to be okay?” I was starting to stress. I still felt like this was all my fault. Dr. Cho gave me a weird look. What is going on?

“If my calculations are right, in order to finish the transition Mr.Valentino will have to consume human blood.” Dr. Cho finished. I looked toward Jamie and looked away. 

“And if he doesn't?” Bucky asked. 

“Then he will die.” She said. 

“I won’t do it.” Jamie stood up. 

“Jamie you’ll die.” I pleaded with him. 

“He’s already dead.” Bucky chimed in. I looked at him incredulously. 

“Something tells me you're not all choked up over it “ Jamie spat at Bucky. 

“Really? I’m feeling some pretty strong emotions right now.” He stepped toward Jamie. What was wrong with them?

“Trying to act all tough in front of your girl-”

“That’s right. My girl!”

“Not if-”

“Jame-” I tried to step in.

‘What!” They said at the same time. Their heads snapped back to look at eachother and I knew the fighting was about to start again. 

“I’m not being a tape measure in a dick measuring contest. Get it together.” I spat. 

“This isn’t the time. Jamie. You need to make a decision. There isn’t time for this.” I wanted him to choose life. Or survival. He hesitated. I saw that he was scared. He wanted to keep going but he couldn’t do it. 

“As much as I want to kill Christian I can’t go through with this. I won’t be a monster.” He moved toward me and I turned my head. Tears started to fill my eyes. I needed to respect his decision but the guilt was becoming too much. 

“Y/n. Look at me”. He lifted his hand to my chin so that I would look at him. 

“No.” I backed away. 

“I won’t stand here and watch you die. I respect your decision but I can’t do this. I’m sorry, Jamie.” I left the room and I heard people calling after me. Tears started to fall. It was so selfish of me to leave but I couldn’t watch another person die. Tears clouded my sight and I could barely see where I was going. I relied on my muscle memory. I was almost in my room when I collided with someone. 

“I’m sorry.” I tried to keep walking when someone caught my shoulder. 

“Y/n. Are you okay?” It was Steve. I turned to him to lie but I couldn’t. I shook my head and he encased me into a hug. iI held on to his shirt and he rubbed my back. 

“It’s going to be okay.” He said. 

“Come on.” He released me and grabbed my hand. 

“Where are we going?” I tried to wipe away the tears. 

“I know a place.”

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 24)

Bucky x Reader

We made it back to the tower and Bruce and Jamie were really hitting it off. They were talking about some new technology that Bruce had been working on. I anxiously played with my phone, waiting for the elevator to stop on my desired floor. It finally dinged and I could see Tony standing talking to someone in the common room. 

“Look who it is the scientist, the assassin and oh you’re new.” He turned his head to the side. 

“This is my friend.” I gestured to the newcomer. 

“Oh so you go on secret missions and bring home strays from the city morgue. Who are you, l/n.” He joked. We walked further into the room to see everyone in the same spots there were when we left. 

Bucky sat with his elbows on his knees and his hands clasped. As Jamie walked in he sat up straight. 

“How the hell-” 

“It’s a long story.” I said. I was still mad at his behavior but I understood his apprehensiveness. Steve stood up and shook Jamie's hand. 

“Steve Rogers. Any friend of y/n’s is a friend of mine.” Leave it to Steve to be sweet. 

“Jameson Valentino.” He shook back. 

“Valentino? Let me guess. You're related to Chrisitan.” Sam said. I saw Nat’s hand fly to her gun. Jamie must have caught it too because he quickly responded. 

“Brother but I assure you I do not share my brother's hobbies.” He was quiet but I could see the apprehension on everyone's faces. 

“You were dead.” Bucky spoke up. 

“Bucky.” I warned. 

“He was what!” Clint yelled from the sofa. 

“Yeah well he’s not anymore.” Nat said. 

“What happened at the gala? Because last I checked zombies weren’t real” Tony asked.   

“HYDRA experimented on Chrisitan or Chrisitain experimented on himself. I noticed he was different when he came to the masquerade ball, stronger. He said he was a vampire.” Sam started laughing. 

“I knew this guy was all murderous and shit but I didn’t realize he was cuckoo for cocoa puffs.” He jested.

“He said that his blood would bring someone back if they died with it in their system. He put it in our drinks.” I looked at Bucky this time. I couldn’t read him.

“So blue eyes over here is a vampire now?” Tony pointed at Jamie. 

“We don’t know.” Bruce walked over to the screen. He pulled up vitals and everyone's heart beats appeared on the screen. Even Jamies. 

“His body seems to be functioning normally.” He said surprised. Tony walked up to the screen and swiped a few times. I saw Jamie stagger out of the corner of my eye. I put my hand on his shoulder. 

“Jamie what is it?” He looked sick. He squinted his eyes and put his hand on his head. 

“I don't know. Something is wrong.” 

“Banner.” I pleaded with him. 

“I’ll take him to the med bay and run some tests.” I nodded. I looked at Jamie and reassured him it would be okay. Bruce headed down the stairs and I was left with the rest of the team. 

“So what are we going to do?” Sam asked. 

“We have to find him and kill him. If his blood is capable of creating other weapons then we need to get rid of the source.” Clint said.

“Not all weapons. They’re people too. Innocent people.” I added. 

“Not anymore. They are weapons of HYDRA.” Thor flew in. He was god knows where. 

“You forget that we have one of those weapons right here.” I said out of anger. Immediately I was filled with regret. Bucky got up and started to walk out. I moved to step in front of him.

“Bucky, that's not what I meant. I was saying that they are innocent people too-”

“Let him go” Steve grabbed my shoulder.

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 23)

Bucky x Reader

“What were you thinking!” Bucky yelled across the room to me as I sat on the couch with an icepack on my forehead. 

“We don’t do these things alone, y/n” Steve said. He sat on a chair across from me and he gave me the disappointed dad look. 

“Really, Rogers? You don’t want to go there with me.” I said throwing the ice pack on the couch. 

“You don’t get to defend yourself. You lost that right the moment you lied to us.” Bucky said. 

“Lie to you? When did I do that? You all want to act high and mighty but you have all done the same thing!” I looked at Nat this time. Hoping she would tell them where to shove it. 

“I agree with them, y/n. I’m all for independence but what you did was reckless and stupid.” She sat backwards on a chair next to Steve. 

“We are a team. We do things as a team.” Steve got up from his chair and Bucky moved to look out the window. 

“I know that but this. Wasn’t. About. You. This wasn't a team thing, this was a me thing. It’s my mess and I am gonna fix it.” I punctuated my words trying to send the message. 

“Was.” Bucky spoke up. 

“What?” 

“Past tense. I “was” gonna fix it not I “am” because you sure as hell aren’t gonna pull that shit again.” I don’t think I’ve ever seen Bucky this angry. He was dark and scary and not in a way that intrigued me. 

“Okay, let’s leave the lovers quarrel for later. What I want to know is what you think you were going to get out of this?” Tony poured himself a drink. I didn’t answer and he moved to sit next to me on the couch. He cocked his head to the side. 

“We’ve been looking for weeks, how did you manage to find him?” He was almost a little annoyed that I found him first. 

“I needed help from an old friend.” I left Jamie’s relation to Christian out of it. I knew they wouldn’t understand. 

“That dead guy?” Tony asked. I picked my head up quickly to meet his eyes. The mention of Jamie’s death sparked something in me.

“Where is he?” 

“His body? City morgue is my guess.” Tony said taking a sip of his drink. I stood up and started to walk out. I needed to go now. If what Christian said was true then Jamie wasn’t dead. Sam caught my arm. 

“Where are you going?” 

“Out.” I looked as his arm as if telling him to let go. ‘

“What did we just talk about, y/n” Steve said. 

“I’m going to the city morgue, Steven.” Sam let me go and everyone stood up. 

“To the city morgue then.” Sam said. They started to follow and I turned around. Bucky went to follow with the same angry look on his face.

“Fine. Bruce. You can come.” Bruce looked surprised and Bucky looked shocked but his face returned to the same angry look. 

“Uh um yeah. Yes. Let me grab my things.” He stuttered and I nodded. 

“I’m sorry. I really am. It won't happen again.” I told the rest of the team as I walked out and headed toward the parking garage. 

Banner and I made it to the morgue and checked in with the mortician who told us we could say our goodbyes and to tell him when we were done. I didn’t look under the sheet yet. I was waiting for him to wake up or something. 

“So, y/n. Why did you choose me to come with you? I mean I’m glad I’m here to support you and all but I’m not going to lie I was a little shocked.” He awkwardly put his hands in his pockets. 

“I thought you might be able to help.” I looked at him and he gave me a questioning look. 

“You’re a man of science right? Listen. This is gonna sound crazy but Jamie isn’t dead.” I lifted the sheet and revealed Jamie’s face. Banner walked to the side of the table and inspected his body. 

“What do you mean?” He adjusts his glasses. 

“Check for rigor mortis, Bruce.” I was hoping what Christian said was true. I didn’t want this to be the end. He lifted his arm and touched his neck. His eyes shot to mine. 

“There isn’t any. Y/n what's going on.” He backed away from the table. 

“Something happened when I went to find Chrisitan. He said HYDRA “enhanced” him somehow.” I walked to the other side of the table to stand in front of him. 

“Enhanced him, how?”

“Christian is a vampire.” I let out. 

“He said that if someone dies with vampire blood in their system they will come back as one. He spiked all of the champagne with his blood and then he snapped Jamie's neck. I think… I think Jamie is a vampire or at least he will be.” I was unsure of the whole situation myself. For all I know Christian could have been lying but my gut was telling me he wasn’t.  Bruce put his hand on the side of his head. I could tell he was freaking out. 

“No, no. no. This is insane. Y/n I don’t think I should be here.” I out my hand on his. 

“Bruce. I chose you for a reason. Don’t freak out on me.” I smiled. All of a sudden Jamie gasped and he shot up. I jumped. 

“Jamie!” I moved to him. He looked at me and put his hand at the back of his neck. 

“Y/n. Thank god you’re alright. What happened?” His eyebrows scrunched together. How was I supposed to tell him he was dead.

“This is going to sound crazy. I need you to be calm.” I put my hand on his. 

“What is it? You’re scaring me.” 

“You’re dead, Jamie.” He scoffed as if he didn’t believe me and then he looked around the room. It was clean, white, and sterile. It looked exactly as a morgue should be. 

“Christian killed me.” He put his hand to his neck.

“He snapped my neck. How am I alive?” I looked at Bruce. I didn’t know what to say. How do you tell someone there a vampire?

“Hi, Mr. Valentino. I’m Bruce Banner.” He stuck out his hand. Jamie met it. 

“I know.” 

“I don’t know exactly what is true and what it is now but y/n told me that Christian was enhanced. Somehow blood brought you back to life. Well not life but brought you back. May I?” He gestured to his hand and Jamie nodded. Bruce felt a pulse and touched his skin. Everything seemed normal. There were no signs of death. 

“You’re a vampire or you will be. I don’t know.” I put my hands through my hair. 

“What? What does that mean?” Jamie was a lot calmer than I thought he would be. 

“Let’s get out of here. There is an exit to the left of the mortician's office. We can talk about all of this when we get back.” Bruce said to both of us. 

“Where are we going?” Jamie asked. 

“Stark Tower.”

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 22)

Bucky x Reader

I laughed. A vampire. I couldn’t stop laughing. Christian laughed too.

“You. A vampire. I think the dye in your suits has gotten into your bloodstream. You’re insane.” 

“Do you know how one becomes a vampire?” He sat down. He was calm. Too calm.

“They have to have vampire blood in their system and then they have to die.” I watched as he took a swig of his drink. 

“I could turn you, y/n. I could turn anyone here. Just for the fun of it.” He put his arm on the back of the sofa. 

“What are you talking about?” I said. No longer thinking this was funny. 

“Tell me. Did you enjoy the champagne?” He said. I was confused. 

“Did it taste like rust? Did it taste like my blood? It should have.” I froze. What was going on?

“I could kill you right now and you’d be just like me.” He smiled. 

“You’re a monster.” Tears filled my eyes. 

“And you would be too.” He stood up again. He seemed angry. I heard a thud and then another on the other side of the door. Before I knew what was happening the door shot open. Jamie. 

“Y/n. We need to go-” Christian vanished before my eyes and he was behind his brother. How did he do that?

“Hi brother. Goodbye brother.” A sickening crack filled the room and Jamie hit the floor. My mouth fell open and I fell to my knees. 

“See what you made me do? What a shame. I thought this little reunion was gonna last. I guess not.” He vanished again and the door shut. Jamie, no, Jamie. I crawled over to his body and grabbed his hand, searching for a pulse. There wasn’t one. I began to cry. I put his head on my lap and stared into space. I did this. I made him help me. I’m the reason he’s dead. I didn’t hear the door open or the voice that called for me. All I heard was the snap of Jamie’s neck. Over and over again. I felt a hand on my shoulder and then another on my face. 

“Y/n,” It was Bucky. I lifted my head to meet his eyes. 

“Bucky?” He nodded. 

“I’m right here.” He knelt down next to me and then he looked at the man who laid dead on the floor.

“We need to go.” 

“I can’t leave him here.” I cried. 

“He’s dead y/n. We need to go and then you’re going to tell me what happened” He grabbed my arm below my shoulder.

“No.” I didn’t move. I couldn’t leave him. 

“Y/n. I wasn’t asking. We are leaving.” He lifted his hand to the side of my neck and I went to protest and then I felt a prick on the side of my neck. I looked at Bucky again and I saw the syringe in his hand. 

“I’m sorry, doll.” He really did seem sorry. My visions started to blur and I couldn’t feel Jamie's head on my lap anymore. I felt like nothing and then everything went dark. 

Again. The darkness consumed me. 

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 21)

Bucky x Reader

“Bucky. I’m sure she’s fine. Maybe she just needs a little space. A lot has happened.” Steve said. 

“Steve. I know her. She doesn’t do space.” I told him. Why was no one concerned. 

“I think your protective boyfriendness is clouding your judgment. Y/n’s a badass she can take care of herself.” Sam said. 

“It’s been three days. She hasn’t called or texted. Her phone is off.” Nat said to Steve. 

“Okay. If she’s not back by tomorrow we will worry about it.” Steve said. I slammed my hands on the table and walked out. Why was no one worried? This was so out of character for y/n. Things were going well. Why would she leave? Christian. I went to the conference room and tried to figure out how to use the screen. She must have found out about the photo. That’s the only thing that could have made her do this. She must be looking for him. She’s gonna try to find him on her own. I’m going to find him first.

Meanwhile in the Upper East Side

We made it to a hotel across the Met and I knew that Jamie was right. Chrisitian was one for the dramatics and he used to go here for galas all the time. When I thought he was the CEO of that big company we would always go to functions here and that's where he did business. Always talking to some rich investor. 

“There’s a gala tonight. That’s probably where he’s gonna be.” Jamie said as he set a suit bag on the bed. 

“One problem. We werent invited.” I sighed. 

“Wrong. I’m a Valentino, I’m always invited.” He smirked. 

“Jameson Valentino. You are a saint.” I lowered the binoculars and stood up from the window. 

“I had Becca pick up a dress for you. It’s black tie.” I nodded. He really had thought of everything. 

“10 sharp.” I looked at my burner and it said 8:30.

I spent the next hour getting ready and we headed to the Met. Jamie made sure we could get our guns in by talking to some security guard that used to work for him. 

“Are you ready?” He asked as he led me to the ballroom.

“Yes. We find him and then get the fuck out.” I said as I reached for the bottle of champagne.

“There's a private office upstairs. We need to get him there.”

“Are you sure this is going to work? We have one shot and I don’t want to mess this up-”

“Stop, stop. Y/n you’ve got his. Based on what you’ve said, Christian is obsessed with you. He’s not going to expect it, he’s predictable.” He said with his hands on my shoulders. We walked around the gala and Jamie introduced me to like 40 people and I couldn't tell you any of their names. I was on my third glass of champagne and I have seen Christian not once. 

“I don’t think he’s coming.” I said from behind Jamie. He turned to me and went to talk and that’s when I saw him. All the air left my lungs. 

“Y/n, what is it?” I just kept staring at the man that was staring at me. He lifted his glass and smiled. A devious smile. Jamie turned around and he saw him too. 

“Brother. I didn’t think this was your scene.” Christian said as he walked over. 

“Manhattan called. They needed me back.” Jamie said.

“Ah. Of course they did. One Valentino wasn’t enough.” He grabbed Jamie's shoulder and I couldn’t move. 

“Y/n. One Valentino wasn’t enough for you?” 

“The first didn’t satisfy me, so I had to try the other.” I said from over my glass. He looked amused. 

“Why are you really here? Not that I don’t love this little family reunion and all.” He held up his hand as if he was trying to not offend anyone. 

“It’s been 2 years, Chrisitan. I wanted to see my brother. Why don’t we take this somewhere private.” He gestured to the stairs. 

“Yes. Let’s.” We started walking and we were stopped by two guards. I looked at Jamie confused. 

“I know you have weapons,” I sighed. I pulled up my dress and gave him the gun that was concealed in my thigh holster and Jamie gave over his gun. 

“Your other one.” He looked at me, smirking. I rolled my eyes and pulled up the other side of my dress giving him the other gun. 

“Now that you are both disarmed, let’s talk.” He opened the door and walked over to the unlit fireplace. I kept knives in the corset I was wearing and in the heel of my louboutin’s. 

“Let’s just cut to the chase. Why are you following me, Christian.” I crossed my arms. 

“Can’t an ex boyfriend check in on his ex girlfriend?” He laughed. It sent shivers down my spine. 

“Fine. You caught me.” He poured himself another drink.

“That’s not why. You tell me why you’re here and I’ll answer your question.” He said nonchalantly. 

“Enough games Christian.”  Jamie said, stepping between us. 

“Why don’t you give us some space brother-”

“Why? So you can beat her again? Absolutely not-”

“Its okay, Jamie. I’ll be fine.” He turned to me and he hesitated. He gave in. 

“Fine but I’ll be right outside.” He turned back to Chrisitan. 

“Don’t do anything stupid, brother. I’ll make you regret it.” He left and shut the door behind him. 

“Now where were we?” 

“I want to put an end to this. I’m tired of your games.” I tried to remain stoic but I was scared. He kept getting closer. 

“I thought you liked games, y/n” Another step. 

“Not when you are the one playing.” Another step.

“Oh no that’s not what I remember.” Before I knew it I was backed into the wall. His breath hit my face. I reached for my knife and plunged into his side. He growled and I ran to the door. It wouldn’t open. I started to panic. I heard a clatter as the knife hit the floor. I felt a rush of air and he grabbed my shoulder and turned me around. 

“You think you can run from me? I’ll just find you again.” He pushed me so my head hit the door with a bang. 

“And again.” His hand went around my neck.

“And again.” This time veins formed under his eyes. My eyes went wide. 

“Are you scared, sweetheart?”  I nodded. 

“You should be.” I whimpered as he hit my head against the door again. 

“What is wrong with you?” I tried to get out as the hand around my neck got tighter.

“You don’t like my new face?” The veins went away and his eyes returned to normal. 

“What are you?” He dropped his hand. 

“What do you think? You really thought I didn’t enhance myself the second HYDRA gave me the chance?” He backed away and I kept my hand on the doorknob, hoping it would magically open. 

“I’m a vampire.”

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 20)

Bucky x Reader

I really didn’t want to leave him. He looked so peaceful asleep. I was tempted so many times to just wake him and tell him what I was going to do. Part of me wanted him to stop me. I wanted him to tell me that it was a bad idea. It was but I couldn’t let this go on. I couldn’t keep living in fear. That's all my life was, a matter of survival. 

I stood from the chair in the corner. The city lights illuminated the room. I grabbed my bag and put my guns in my thigh holster. I couldnt take my eyes off Bucky. I knew he would feel betrayed when he figured out I left. I scribbled out a note for him and left it on my pillow. 

I’ll be back in a few days. Don’t worry about me. I’ll be safe. My turn to choose date night when I get back. 

All my love, 

y/n

I got in my car and pulled out of the tower. It was 4am so I had some time before everyone realized I was gone. Christians brother lived in Georgia so I had a ways to drive. I had to ditch my car at some point. I didn’t know if I could trust Jamie but I was about to find out. 

I made it to Covington and I left the rental a few streets away from the boarding house. I knew Christian and his brother weren’t close but me and Jamie had always hit it off. I knocked on the door. I kept a hand on my gun just in case. Jamie’s house was huge but I knew it like the back of my hand. After a minute he opened the door. 

“Y/n?” He seemed surprised but I had expected it. 

“Jamie.” I smiled. Something in me knew that I could trust him but I still had to be cautious. 

“Come in. Please.” He gestured to the living room. 

“Drink?” He offered me a glass and I took it gladly, I needed the liquid courage. 

“What do I owe for this visit? It's been, what, 2 years?” He said as he stood at the bar. He seemed pleased I was there.

“What, I can’t visit my ex’s brother?” I joked. 

“You know you can visit me anytime as long as you don’t bring my asshat of a brother.”

“Speaking of. Have you seen Christian?” I asked, trying to test the waters.

“The last time I saw him was when I visited the two of you in New York. What do you want with that douchebag?” I laughed. He hated Christian almost as much as I did. 

“I’m looking for him. We need to talk some stuff out. He’s been stalking me a little bit.” His eyebrow raised. I honestly just needed to cut to the chase.

“Listen Jamie. Your brother…did he tell you why we broke up?” He shook his head. God, how did I tell him this. He didn’t know anything, I should just leave. 

“No, Y/n. You know you can tell me anything.” He sat next to me and put his hand on my shoulder. 

“He hurt me. Really bad.” I saw his hand ball into a fist. 

“Tell me everything.” He said as he took my drink out of my hand and set both on the table. 

“I want to trust you. I really want to. Tell me that I can trust you.” I looked in his eyes and searched for the truth. 

“You can trust me. I know what Christian does.” I was shocked. 

“What? What do you know?” 

“Who he works for or at least what bad shit he's into.” He stood up.

“He tried to get me to join him, you know. I couldn't believe it when he told me about his work. The killing. All of it. I said no. I told him to leave and never come back. A few years later he called me up, told me he got out. That things were changing. I wanted to believe him. When he met you I thought he went straight. I allowed him to come back into my life but we still weren’t going to be friends. Y/n had I known I would have told you.” He pleaded. I knew he was telling the truth. 

“I believe you, Jamie. He’s done awful things. He tried to kill me. He beat me, tortured me, left me for dead” He face turned angry. 

“I’ll kill him. You say the word and I’ll do it.” I knew he wasn’t kidding. I stood up. 

“No, no, no. Jamie I don’t want that. I need to find him though and put a stop to this. I can’t keep waiting for him to find me. I don’t know what he wants but it can’t be good.” I breathed out. 

“Will you help me? You don’t have to. It could be dangerous.” 

“I’m dangerous, y/n.” He said. 

“Where are we going?” He said as he went to the floorboards and pried it open.

“Back to New York. He has to be there somewhere.” I followed him upstairs to his room. 

“He left pictures for my team on our last mission. He’s following our everymove. I was careful getting here. Multiple cars. He would never guess that I would come to you. We have the element of surprise on our hands.” I watched as as he packed a bag. 

“I don’t know what to do. Where to go? What if we don’t find him?” I sputtered. He came over to me and grabbed my biceps. 

“Stop. We will. You don’t deserve this. Any of this.” I nodded. 

“Alright. We can take my car.” We headed to the car and we buckled up. 

“Christian Valentino, where are you?” I asked as we pulled out of the driveway. 

“Only one place I can think of.” He said as he looked at me. 

“Upper east side.” 

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 19)

Bucky x Reader

A few days later and we had gotten back from a mission. It didn’t go bad or good. Steve took a hit but we still took down the base. Unfortunately we couldn’t get the intel we needed but at least there was one less threat. 

I checked on Steve before going back to take a shower. I had just stepped into the shower when I heard the bathroom door open. He stepped in behind me and I turned to put my arms around his neck. We stood with our foreheads pressed together for a while until he kissed my shoulder and got out. I missed his touch already. 

“James.” I heard the bathroom door shut. He never just left like that. I turned the water off.

“James?” Still nothing. I wrapped the towel around myself and opened the bathroom door. He was nowhere in sight. I threw on a pair of sweats and a sports bra and headed to the common room. Still nothing. Sam sat on the couch eating snacks over the table. 

“Y/n, you want any of these snacks. Tony just restocked the kitchen.” He held up a bowl of cereal. I smiled and shook my head.

“Have you seen-” 

“Bucky? Yeah he looked all dark and broody and headed toward the conference room.” He made a face trying to impersonate him and it was way over exaggerated. 

“Thanks.” I headed toward the elevator and went to the conference room and as I made my way toward the glass I saw nothing. Where the hell was he? Where was everybody? I opened the door and I saw the screen was still up. Someone was still logged in and I swiped over. I was clearing the tabs when someone's face popped up. Christian. I shivered. Immediately I had a bad taste in my mouth. I looked at the picture for a while when I realized it was recent. The time stamp was two days ago. I zoomed in on it when I saw the location. 45th street. Right by the tower. What was he doing over here? In the open? He knew we would have to see him.

“Christian Valentino, what are you playing at?” I kept scrolling. I needed to do something I couldn’t keep living in fear. I searched in this system looking for the last time we had eyes on him and I couldn’t find anything but photos of a HYDRA based flooded the screen. That was the base from today. I kept looking and looking until I found a picture of Steve. He was looking at something in his hand and as I zoomed in I realized it was me. 

Christian Flat 

“Are we going to do this the hard way? I would hate to ruin this face.” Christian said as he dragged the blunt edge of the knife across my cheek. 

“Go to hell.” I spit. It had been about a week. I hadn’t eaten but he would occasionally give me water. I was so weak but nothing would make me give up SHIELD secrets. Nick trusted me with it, I couldn’t let him down. 

“Well I have to go but when I get back you better be ready to talk.” He shoved the knife into my thigh and I gritted my teeth. He did that everytime he left. 

I waited a long time. A day had passed and then another and another. He never came. I felt myself letting go. My body was weak and I could feel the skin against my ribs. The camera was still recording and I tried to show no fear. I heard footsteps and I put on a brave face. He was finally back. Then I heard more footsteps. I heard the door creak open and that's when I saw him. 

“I thought I told you to stay out of trouble.” Nick. 

“I thought I told you I never listen.” My throat was so dry it felt like sandpaper to talk. One of the agents started to cut the shackles and Fury came over to me. 

“I’m sorry it took so long to find you. He’s good.” He said. He was stoic but I could tell he was really sorry. 

“But you’re better.” The shackles were cut and I fell he caught me. 

“Nick.” I started to cry. It felt like everything was crashing down. My hands were still bound and the agents were trying to help but I couldn't.

“I got it! Goodman it.” He yelled at them to get away from me. I could barely stay awake. 

“I got you.” He said and then everything went dark.

The Conference Room

The photo Steve was holding was of me right before Fury got there. The next photo was Steve grabbing his side. He got shot because he was distracted. Why did no one tell me? Why was everyone always keeping secrets! 

I heard footsteps and I knew who it was immediately. 

“Why wouldn’t you tell me?” 

“It was on a need to know basis.”

“And I didn’t NEED to know, Nick?” I turned around. 

“How many things are you gonna keep from me? How many times do I have to prove to you that you can trust me?” I felt angry tears come to the surface. 

“It was my decision. I make the decisions, I hope you didn’t forget.” He said monotone as usual. 

“How could I, you remind me every chance you get?” 

“Watch it. You don’t want to say something you’ll regret.” He took his hands from behind his back and threw the file on the clear table.

“What do I have to do, NIck? Put my life on the line over and over again? Check. Take a beating? Check. Die? Check, check. What can I say to prove to the all powerful Nick Fury that I can do my job-”

“Watch. Your. Tone.” He got closer to me. If I was anyone else I would have backed down but I was so angry and I knew Nick too well to be afraid. What I did next I regret.

“And what if I don’t.” The room was silent and the air was thick. No one said anything. He grabbed the file and walked out. It wasn’t rushed. It was so Fury.

I turned to the screen and let out a shaky breath. This ends now. I spent a few hours gathering intel. I went back to the room and packed up a bag. I was almost done when a knock sounded at the door. I stuffed the bag in the shower and went to the door. 

“Steve.” I breathed out.

“What are you up to?” He said as he smiled. I looked for signs of pain but he seemed fine. 

“I’m okay. Dr. Cho already patched me up, I feel good.” I nodded. 

“Good. I’m just resting.” I lied. 

“Don’t forget we are going to Studio 54 tonight. 8 o’clock.”  He was definitely excited. I completely forgot. Goddamn it. 

“Have you seen Bucky? I’ve been looking for him.” I asked. 

“He went downtown to pick up a few things. He just got back I think.” I nodded. 

“I’m gonna get ready then. See you in an hour?” He nodded and left. I shut the door and leaned against it. Okay after this I’ll go. I started to fix my hair and put on some makeup. I heard the door open from the bathroom. I walked to the bedroom to see Bucky with a few things and a dress was laid on the bed. 

“I’m sorry I was so long. I had to grab a few things.” A lopsided smile was on his face but I could tell something was up.

“Thank you. What are we wearing?” I asked as I put in my earrings. He unzipped the bag to reveal a beautiful dress. I touched the fabric. It was beautifully themed. I saw another hanger behind it and I pushed the fabric beside it. It was a uniform. His WWII Sergeants uniform. I ran my fingers over the pins. 

“Is it too much? I wanted to-” I quieted him with a kiss. 

“I love it.” I hummed. He smiled. 

“Let's get dressed.” We both put on our clothes and I stepped out of the bathroom to see Bucky waiting for me with a bouquet of flowers. He was clean shaven and his hair was flicked back. A true 40s man. 

“You shouldn’t have” He was so good to me. 

“Yes I should’ve.” He took a flower from the bundle and put it behind my ear. I leaned into his hand. 

“You coming?” He said he put his hand out for me to take. 

“With you? Anywhere.” Then we were off. 

The night was amazing. Steve dressed up in his uniform and all of the team stayed on theme. Tony always went above and beyond. Bucky swung me around and I don’t think I’ve ever seen him so happy. It was such a good feeling to see him in his element. He was different, care free. We closed the nightclub down and sat at a round booth laughing. 

“He texted in the group chat and told y/n what he was wearing for a magnum 22!” Steve was dying laughing. I put my hands on my face and Bucky put his arms around my shoulder allowing me to hide in his jacket. 

“It was awful. I have never been so embarrassed. You guys suck for bad for that.” I grumbled.

“Oh come on, it was funny.” Sam offered. I giggled, it really was. 

“Alright my little pony and friends, let's kick it.” Tony said as he grabbed another glass off of a server tray and headed toward the door. Me and Bucky were the last ones to exit into the brisk night air.

“Promise me we will go back sometime.” I asked, leaning into him.

“Doll, I plan on taking you out every week for the rest of time.” He lifted me up and spun me around. We both laughed. We got back to the tower and Bucky went to finish his mission report. I looked into the bedroom mirror and took off my earrings, I saw the door open in the reflection and Nat walked in. 

“So what's the deal?” She said arms crossed. I didn’t answer, I wasn’t entirely sure what she was talking about but I didn't want to give anything up. 

“Y/n. What are you going to do? I saw you talking to Fury this morning. You were fighting, you and Fury never fought.” I sighed. 

“It’s fine Nat. I just hate when he keeps things from me. I’ll go talk to him tomorrow. How’s Steve?” I deflected. Everything I said was true so she did not have a reason to call me out. 

“Okay. He’s okay. All healed up. Super soldiers, ya know?” We both laughed. She put her hand on my shoulder and then walked out. I let out a big breath. I looked over to the bag I had packed and I put on Bucky's shirt. I needed to leave pretty early to get to Christians brothers. I layed down when Bucky came back. His hair was loose and his tie was undone. He had a bottle of wine in one hand and glasses in the other. 

“You didn’t think the night was over now did you, doll?” He made his way over to the bed and put the glasses on the nightstand. I poured the wine while he took off his uniform. He sat on the bed and I handed him the glass. 

“To my Sergeant and his service.” I raised my glass. 

“To my girl and her dance moves.” He countered. 

“To forever.” We clinked glasses. 

To forever.

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 18)

Bucky x Reader

“She said she wanted to watch a movie.” Nat said, pulling the blankets out of the cabinet. Everyone stood in the kitchen area finishing their chinese. 

“What are we going to watch because I vote no to the Great Gatsby, Rogers.” Clint spoke up. 

“What? We only watched it once?” Steve said offended.

“And that was already one time too many.” Sam deadpanned.

“So what do we watch then? Any ideas?” Bruce interjected.

“How about The Hobbit.” Y/n answered from the doorway. Everyone looked over. Steve got up and walked over putting a hand on her back. 

“How are you feeling?” He said softly. 

I could tell Steve was beating himself up about the whole thing. We had gotten really close after Bucky ended things but lately it feels like we hadn’t seen each other. He really felt like a big brother.

“Good. Excited for this. I miss hanging out with you guys.” Everyone smiled. I knew they missed when things weren't always so serious. I couldn’t help but notice how distant Sam was. He never even looked in my direction, too interested in twirling his chopsticks. 

“I actually am down for a little fantasy action.” Tony said. I picked the movie because I knew that both Steve and Bucky hadn’t watched it but they both had been enamored with the book when it came out. 

“Perfect. I can go to the store and get some snacks for you guys-”

“Already done” Nat stopped me. She pointed to the bags of popcorn and candy next to the sink. I smiled. Nat was so underrated. 

“Okay, let's get started then.” Everyone made their way to the couch and I waited for Bucky. He probably needed a little alone time. I wanted him to sleep after being up all night last night. I settled in the love seat that I knew he would join me on eventually. The movie started and I hummed. I felt so happy being with everyone. It's crazy what 2 years can do to a person. It wasn’t that long ago that we were all strangers. It was only a few minutes when I felt a dip in the couch and arms wrapped around me. 

“Hi, doll. What are we watching?”

“The Hobbit.” I answered. 

“Really?” His eyes lit up. I nodded. 

“Who chose it? I really wanted to watch.” He said eyes glued to the screen. 

“I did.” He pulled me closer so that my head was on his chest. We sat like that for a long time. Everyone was really into the movie, laughs filled the room when Merry and Pippin set off the dragon fireworks and Gandalf scolded them. At some point I fell asleep. I was woken up by Nat’s hand on my forearm. 

“Hi.” She smiled. 

“Hi.” I smiled back. I looked over to see Bucky fast asleep on my arm.

“How long have we been out?” I whispered to not wake him up.

“A half hour. The movie ended a few minutes ago. We are going to play a game in the other room if you guys want to join.” I nodded. She left and I touched Bucky's face softly. His eyes opened slowly and he seemed like he didn’t want to be woken. I couldn’t help but giggle. 

“Hi, sleeping beauty. We are gonna play a game in the other room.” He nodded still groggy. He lifted his head and I stood up to be yanked back down. I laughed. 

“Not so fast.” He brought me under him and his stumble touched my jaw. 

“I believe it is very rude to wake someone up. You have to pay the price.” He smiled. 

“Oh and what price would that be?” I laughed a hand in his hair. 

“Cleanup!” Before I knew what was happening he ripped himself from me and ran into the other room. 

“Fuck you!” I laughed. That was the rule, the last person has to clean up after games, dinner, movie night. I sighed and folded the blankets quickly and brought the empty popcorn bowls into the kitchen. God, Thor could eat a lot. 

“Y/n! Come on! We are playing truth or dare!” I heard Clint yell from the other room. I smiled. Always so childish. I entered the room and everyone was around the glass coffee table. Thors’ hammer acted like a decoration sitting right in the middle. I sat next to Steve and Nat. 

“You know the rules. Dare is a dare. No leaving the tower or doing anything that might get us arrested. Truth is just that.” 

“LAME.” Tony interrupted Nat once again. 

“Maybe we could do a little seven minutes in heaven after this-”

“Jar.” I pointed to the large glass mason jar on the bar. 

“What is wasn’t even that cras-”

“Douchebag jar now. 50 bucks” Tony got up like a child and stuffed a 50 in the jar. There had to be almost 1000 dollars in that jar and that wasn’t counting the jars in random places around the house.

“As I was saying. If you don’t do that dare or truth you either lose a piece of clothing or take a shot of this asgardian liquor.” Nat smelled it and made a face.

“Please! I would love to see you all drunk off your asses.” Clint laughed. 

“Banner you’re up.” He looked around the room.

“Steve. If you could trade lives here with anyone, who would it be?” He asked. Oohs floating around the room as one of Tony's secretaries brought out drinks. 

“Hm. Probablyyyy Thor. I like the whole flying thing.” Thor smiled. 

“Okay okay my turn. Tony. When was the last time you cried?” Steve always with the truths. I was thoroughly interested in this answer. 

“I don’t know probably the day I was born. Oh no wait- Dummy dropped my last slice of pizza the other night. It was my favorite slice. It had everything…cheese, pepperoni, and a little dash of hope.” He pretended to shed a turn and when no one reacted he sat back up. 

“Man, nothing. Okay. Ummmm y/n.” He smirked at me. 

“Oh, good lord.” I rolled my eyes. Of course he would pick me. 

“Sext the last person you texted.” Everyone laughed.

“You’re such a dick.” I laughed as I pulled out my phone. I immediately screamed into the couch. 

“No, no, no. Give me another one.” I begged. Everyone laughed. 

“Who is it?” Nat picked up my phone. She immediately started cackling her hand over her mouth.

“It's a group chat with Steve and Fury.” Everyone was dying except for Steve whose face was bright red. 

“Oh come one y/n you never back down.” Clint laughed. I dramatically sighed picking up my phone. I opened the chat and typed. A second later Steve's phone dinged. He laughed. 

“What are you wearing right now!” He was almost crying. I buried my face back into the couch.

“Tony. I will get you back for that. Alright let's see. Natasha. Tell me about your last wet dream.” Everyone oooheed. She got really close to my ear and started to whisper.

“It was you, me, and Steve. Right after a mission and…” She kept talking and I tried to keep my face stoic but I could feel my face getting redder by the second. Everyone was watching me intently. After a particularly erotic line I stopped her. 

“Okay, okay, okay. I got it.” She started laughing. I pushed my hair behind my ears but smirked at Nat. Bucky gave me a look and I could tell he wanted to know. 

“Thor. Out of all of us, who do you think is the best in bed?” He was about to answer.

“And not yourself.” Nat jokes. Again everyone laughed. 

“Hmm no one comes close to me, I assure you..” He sent a wink our way. 

“But I would have to say probably one of those Super Soldiers. Barnes!” He held up his glass and we all laughed. 

“Is it true?” Nat asked. No one answered. Bucky looked to her.

“What?” He scoffed. 

“Y/n, is it true?” I smirked behind my own glass. Nat held her head back and she screamed. 

“I knew it!” Bucky's face was so red I was sure it was gonna explode. 

“My turn.” He said immediately. 

“I dare you all to go to Studio 54 next weekend” I raised my eyebrows. 

“That’s still open?” Steve chucked. 

“What is it?” Bruce asked. I was wondering the same thing. 

“It’s uh a nightclub from when me and Steve were…” He trailed off. He was definitely flustered and it made me smile. 

“Don’t ‘me and Steve’ anything Bucky! It was all you. Always had two girls on your arm and danced the night away. I was just a fly on that wall.” Steve accuses but he was laughing. 

“Ohhh. A nightclub, Barnes. That sounds fun.” Nat teased. 

“I’m down. I want to see what things were like back when the dinosaurs were still roaming around.” Tony said with his hand raised. 

“Good. Then those little girls you like to hook up with will know what it's like to dance with a fossil.” I shot back at Tony. Everyone was laughing and I couldn’t help it, I was too. Tony rolled his eyes. 

“James, I think that’s a great idea.” I looked at Bucky and he was already looking at me. His eye contact never wavered. It was always such an intense feeling. It felt like we were the only people in the room. I picked up my phone to text him as the game picked up again. 

What should I wear?

I heard his phone vibrate and he looked at me. I looked down to the seat beside him and he picked up the phone. He smiled. 

I already have something picked for you, doll. But you know I would rather you wear nothing at all. 

My breath hitched when I saw the text and he knew the effect it had on me immediately. 

I’m sure that could be arranged, Sergeant Barnes.

“Y/n.” I looked at my phone again and began typing. 

How about something like this?

I sent him a picture I had taken after a shower that I intended to send to him. 

“Y/n you have to do it!” I snapped my head up. What?

“Huh?” 

“Clint dared you to drink the asgardian liquor Thor brought.” Nat nudged my shoulder. 

“That’s the dare? Pft.” I grabbed the class on the table. Steve took it from my hand.

“No no no. That one.” He gestured to the tall class of straight liquor. My stomach dropped. Oh fuck. I was thinking a shot of that stuff that would have surely gotten me drunk. Not 10.

“Either that or hm I don’t know, that shirt is looking real nice on the floor.” Tony said. I rolled my eyes. 

“Give it to me.” I sighed. I stood up to grab the glass and mentally prepared myself. 

“We like to drink with y/n, because y/n is our friend! And when we drink with y/n she gets it down in 10! 9, 8,-” I threw it back and it tasted like battery acid. I heard everyone chanting around me and I swear to God I threw it back up into the cup before it went down. I finished the glass on 2 and slammed it on the table. Thor was cheering extra loud. I immediately felt tipsy. I sat back down and landed on Nat’s lap, both of us laughing. She put her arms around me and we stayed like that the rest of the game. Someone dared Tony to take off his clothes and get in the suit, Bruce ended up eating some weird concoction, Thor did Nats makeup blindfolded, Clint had to go skinny dipping, Steve and Bucky had to learn a Magic Mike routine and perform for the group, and then there was me. I was so drunk. Like barely functioning. I found myself dancing on the bar and the music was blasting. All I wanted to do was dance with Bucky.

“Bucky!” I was jumping in circles. He made his way over to the bar and grabbed my leg trying to slow me down. I grabbed his hand. 

“Dance with meee” I tried to tug him up. He rolled his eyes and climbed up on the bar. He stood still while I danced and I frowned. I pulled out some whacky move and he finally caved. I screamed. We kept going back and forth until he had my back to his chest and we were just touching each other. I clearly saw Nat and Steve dancing and I internally reminded myself to tease her about it tomorrow. Feel so Close by Calvin Harris came on and it was over. I don’t remember everything that happened next but I know we danced forever and eventually I felt someone scoop me up and bring me to mine and Bucky’s room. I hit the bed and I smiled. 

“That was the best night everrr.” I could hear the faint sounds of music from downstairs. We were both sweating. It was too hot to get under the covers. 

“I know. I had fun too, doll.” He laid next to me and I pulled him close. 

“I’m gonna marry you James. I’m gonna marry you so hard.” He let out a booming laugh and he rolled onto his back, his hand on his bare chest. I laughed too. 

“I’m gonna marry you even harder, Y/n L/n.” We held each other's gaze and we fell asleep both on our backs holding hands. I don’t think I will ever get over this feeling. 

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 17)

Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: Mature themes, smut

Y/n woke up the next morning with a groan. She turned her head to the side and saw Bucky wide awake looking at his hands. She was sure there were a million things going through his head at the moment. 

“Hey stranger.” I smiled at him. His head shot up and he helped me sit up.

“How are you feeling? Do you want me to get Dr. Cho or Banner?” His eyes searched mine. 

“No, no. I feel okay.” I assured him. I lifted up my the gown on my abdomen and saw the skin was pink but healed. I traced my hand over it and it burned a little bit but it was bearable. My hand shot to my neck remembering the bite. How intimate and fucked up it felt? Why had he bitten me?

“Did Tony figure out how he got in?” I asked looking back at Bucky. 

“No. He came out of nowhere. They checked all of the cameras but it was like he just appeared.” He said just as confused as I was. A hint of frustration lacing his voice.

“Something is different about him. He escaped SHIELD prison too. He must be getting some sort of help. Someone on the inside?” I thought. 

“Maybe. I don’t want to think about that right now. I want to figure out what we need to do to keep you safe. Christian isn’t the only one after us.” I knew he was right. The last three months were too good to be true. The dates and the movie nights, it had to come to an end at some point. 

“What are you thinking about?” Bucky asked. I layed down on my side and looked at him. 

“How much I love you. I just want to go back to before all of that happened yesterday and be in our little bubble.” I smiled. He hummed. I knew he wanted that too. 

“How about we get the team together and we have a movie night?” He asked, stroking my forearm but I caught how his eyes lingered toward the bite mark. 

“I would really like that.” I sat up again and swung my legs on the side of the bed. He stood up as to help me but I shooed him away. 

“Let me help you, doll. If not for you then for me. I just want to take care of you.” He brought his forehead to mine and we both breathed out. I nodded and he helped me up. I felt better than I thought I would but he still helped me nonetheless. We made it back to his room and I sat on the bed. He went to the closet and looked for something for me to wear. 

“What do you want to wear, babe.” I smiled. I loved the new nicknames. Baby. 

“Something of yours, baby.” I teased back. He peeked his head out of the closet and smiled. He brought me his red long sleeve henley, the one he knew I loved and a pair of sweatpant shorts. Those ones were mine. He set out the clothes and started to help me untie the gown. 

“I think you should shower first.” He said softly. 

“What are you saying Barnes? I smell?” I teased back. He laughed. 

“I meant to wash off the blood.” Oh. 

“Yeah, I guess that's a good idea.” I said looking toward the bathroom. 

“Take as long as you want, doll.” I didnt say anything. I was disappointed, we almost always showered together. I mean I did look like a scene out of Carrie, but still. 

“What is it?” He said looking to see if I was in pain. 

“Will you go with me?” I asked. The corners of his lips turned up. 

“Of course, I will. Never miss a chance to see my girl naked.” He smirked. I laughed. I missed this and it had only been a few hours since we last joked. We made our way into the bathroom and he turned the shower on. I started to undress and then I turned to him to unbutton the shirt he wore from last night. He only took off the suit jacket in the night. I was concentrated on undressing him and he stroked my back and my hair. 

“I can’t explain how much I love you. There are not enough words in the English language or any language in fact.” I looked at him tears in my eyes. 

“Sometimes it consumes me. You're all I can think about, I didn’t know it was possible to feel this way.” I said as the last of his clothes came off. He kissed me gently and I fell into him. I lived for moments like these. I felt so safe. He was so safe. We stepped into the water and he began to wash my hair. I closed my eyes at the feeling. I could fall asleep like this. I looked down to the floor and I could see the water running red. A reminder of him. Christian. 

“Look at me. Don’t look at that.” He grabbed my chin. My lips wobbled a little bit. God I was so emotional in moments like these. I moved forward to kill him again. Soft and sweet. He kept washing my body. The loofah started to scrub at the dried blood and I was suddenly free of him. The traces of him flowing down the drain. I pressed myself into Bucky’s as I sighed constantly. We stayed like that for what felt like hours until I could feel him turn the water off. He grabbed a towel never leaving my body and began to dry us. We moved over to the sink and he sat me on top of it. I turned around brushing my teeth with a towel on my head and he reached into the cabinet. After I was done I turned to him to see him pulling out wound care stuff. I unwrapped my towel, so comfortable with him that I didn’t care about nudity anymore. He began to apply a healing salve to my stab with his metal hand and I sighed. 

“That feels so good. It burns but the metal cools it.” I sighed with my eyes closed. I could feel him smile but he was concentrating. I heard the sound of wrappers and I opened my eyes again. His hands went to my neck and he inspected the bite. I grabbed his hand. 

“It’s okay. It’ll heal. Probably won’t even leave a scar.” We both knew that was a lie. I would probably have that mark for months. Tears didn’t find there way into his eyes but I felt like they could at any moment. I could feel how much he loved me. He looked back at the mark and began to cover it with bandages. Once he was all done he brought me back to the bed and started to dress me. Sneaking kisses all over my body. 

“Can we sleep for a little while?” I asked, looking up at him. 

“Of course but then you need to eat. It’s 9 so we have a while until we can meet the team.” He snuggled me under the covers and held me from behind. I never wanted to leave this bed. 

“I love you, James.” 

“I love you more, baby.” 

Sleep overtook both of them. The day was pretty miserable and the rain kept coming. The sky was dark, it almost looked like night. A particularly loud boom of thunder made y/n open her eyes. She blinked them open but she could feel Bucky moving. She heard his breathing pick up and she turned around quickly. Another nightmare. 

“Bucky, wake up.” She called him. Her hand on his shoulder. 

“James, its just a dream. It’s not real.” She placed her hands on his face. His eyes shot open and he stopped moving. His breath was still heavy.

“Y/n?” 

“I’m right here.” He grabbed my arms checking that I was real.

“Nightmare or memory?” I asked brushing his cheek with my thumb.

“Nightmare.” He siad closing his eyes. 

“Do you want to-”

“You died.” He said quickly. His eyes made there way to mine again. 

“I couldn’t get to you in time and your body collapsed on the dance floor. He was standing over you.”

“Oh, baby.” Tears started to fill my eyes, 

“I tried to get to you but it was too late. You wouldn’t wake up. There was so much blood.” He looked pained. I moved up the bed and grabbed his head in my arms. He shifted so he almost rested in my lap. His arms around my legs. 

“Nothing is gonna happen. We are gonna be okay.” I reassured him. We stayed like that for a while. I brought my head down until I was almost bent over him and kissed his lips. The kiss was slow and passionate. He sat up and brought me on top of him. The kiss got deeper and deeper and I never wanted it to end. 

“I am so glad you’re here. That you’re real.” He breathed out. We were both so desperate to be in each other company. 

“I want you to be closer.” I said starting to pull off his shirt. He helped me. 

“Are you sure? I don’t want to hurt you.” He said his eyes bored into my own.

“You could never hurt me, James.” I began to take off my own shirt. His shirt. He kisesd me again and trailed small pecks down my stomach. He stopped at the wound and gave it a soft kiss running his metal hand over the edges of the scar. He looked up at me and I nodded. I wanted all of him. He used both hands and grabbed my shorts at both sides of hips and brought them down my legs before throwing them on the ground. He got rid of his pants and his lips found mine again. 

“I love you.” I said and he trailed his hand down to my pussy as I spread my legs, 

“I know.” He said against my lips as he started to press a finger inside of me. I groaned. His pace was slow and sensual. This is what it felt like to make love. Not just fuck. My hands raked down his chest and I could feel myself get closer as he took turns between rubbing my clit and putting his fingers inside of me. My climax hit me and it was strong. He worked me through it, his eyes never leaving mine. 

“Please, I want you.” I said I put my hands on the side of his face. One running through his hair. 

“I want to go slow. Wanna show you how perfect you are. How you deserve to be treated” I nodded as I felt the head of his cock against my clit. 

“I want all of you.” He kissed me again as he entered me. It was slow and the stretch was still amazing. My eyebrows scrunched up and I let out a sharp breath. 

“Almost there baby.” He said as he rubbed my clit, trying to ease the pain. Everytime felt like the first time. He pulled out before slowly going back in. My eyes rolled back in my head.

“You feel so good, doll. You are always so good to me.” He started to thrust a little faster, my legs finding their way behind his back. 

“No one could ever make me feel this good. Oh-oh I love it.” I said as I looked down to wear our bodies met. My head landed on the pillow. Something about this time was different. 

“I never want to leave this bed. I wish I could stay here forever, you inside of me.” I said breathing in his ear. I could feel how it got him going. I knew he needed this just like I did. 

“Filling me over and over, making me feel like the most important thing in the world.” I kissed the shell of his ear this time 

“You are the most important thing in my world and in my life.” He said kissing my neck now. 

“I want you forever. I want you to marry me and have my babies.” I froze. I wanted that too. He faltered a little bit thinking he messed up. I grabbed his face and kissed him hard.

“God, I wanted that more than anything.” Tears started to fill my eyes. 

“Show me how you would do it.” I moved back so I could see his eyes. 

“Show me how you would put a baby in me, I want it.” Something in him changed hearing that. His thrusts started to pick up and he flipped us over. My legs were still behind his back but I was sitting on his lap. Our chest was impossibly close. 

“I would cum in you at least three times.” He started to speak looking slightly up at me. 

“The first would be hard. I would fuck you until you begged me to stop. The second you would ride me, using me for your own pleasure. The last time I would bring you as close as I could and we would be just as we are now until our love gave us our release.” He said. My insides were like fire at the thought. He brought his hands to my hips and he moved them slowly back and forth all while his mouth never left mine. He made small slow thrusts and I met them. 

“God I want to make you pregnant. I never knew how much I needed you to have my baby until now.” He breathed out. 

“I want that, I want to know that you did it to me. I want to carry your baby around with me for 9 months.” I breathed back. We got closer to our climaxes and my heart sank. We wouldn’t get pregnant.

“I’m on birth control.” I said softly. Tears started to fall softly. Now that the dream was in my head that was all I wanted. 

“I know, baby, I know.” We held eye contact as I started to reach my peak. His climax follows right after mine. We stayed like that for a long time. My arms around his neck and his around my waist. My legs behind his back. I ever wanted to leave this moment. We eventually pulled apart and laid under the covers. I stared at him and he grabbed my chin. 

“What’s wrong?” 

“I just loved that dream, I wish it were real.” I said softly smiling against his hand. 

“Doll, I thought I told you already that I will make all of your dreams come true. If its the last thing I do.” 

He pulled her in for one last kiss and they fell asleep. They both dreamed of their future together. Babies and the dog. 

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Update

I dropped my phone down an elevator shaft so I will try to update when I can :( crying in the inside and the out

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 16)

Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: Mature themes, violence, fluff

“What are you doing here? You know you’ll be caught, you can’t run forever.” I spat. I felt something being pressed against my stomach. 

“You see that pin on your friends chest over there?” I looked over to see sam with a wing pin above his breast pocket. 

“That is something special. A little magic trick of mine. You see, a press of a button and poison will immediately be injected into his heart. Old but efficient.” He taunted. 

“What do you want?” I asked.

“To dance and to send a message.” He grabbed my arm roughly and put it to his shoulder. I felt my skin burn with his touch like he was on fire trying to torch my very being. 

“Like old times.” I could feel tears welling in my eyes.

“Your pathetic tears are nothing to me.” He smiled. 

“I will kill you. Maybe not today or the next but I will.” I said holding eye contact. He smiled. 

“Always so feisty. You know how I feel about you fighting back. I will take your little boyfriend and turn him into the monster he is. He will be under my control and I’ll make you watch. Every little thing he does, the killing, and the torture. I’ll make him beat you everyday and he won’t be able to stop. You’ll forever be on the brink of death, begging him to kill you, to end the suffering of getting to see your love but never getting to have him.” He whispered into my ear. I could feel my breath pick up. He turned me around so that I had my back pressed to him and his lips kissed my neck. My eyes screwed shut. I felt something being pressed into my back. 

“Just a little something for the road.” He said as he slowly pressed something sharp into my side. My mouth flew open and I wanted to scream but I couldn’t. 

“Shh, be a good girl for me and keep quiet.” He nipped my neck and I could feel blood come to the surface. It must have been a knife on my side. He slowly pushed it in until the hilt was the only thing visible. 

“See you soon.” He tugged it out and then he was gone. I pressed my hand to my side and held the wound shut. I don’t think it would kill me but it was excruciating.

Bucky made his way from the bar holding a glass of red wine. The damn bartender was taking forever. He felt awful for making Y/n wait for so long. 

I looked around trying to find y/n. I saw her standing toward the wall but still on the edge of the floor. Her back was turned to me. 

“I got you a glass of red. The real expensive stuff you like. Cabernet Sauvignon. It's dry I think.” She never turned to face me. This game was getting serious. 

“y/n.” Still nothing. I rolled my eyes but I grabbed her shoulder to turn her around and I saw blood on her neck. It looked like a bite mark. 

“y/n. What happened? Who did this to you?” I breathed, reaching my hand to her neck. She tried to speak but she couldn’t. 

“Christian. I’m okay.” She let out a shaky breath. I scanned the floor for him, knowing with all of these masks it would be impossible. She clutched my arm.

“Sam. Go find Sam. He has a pin on him filled with poison.” Her breath was getting heavier. 

“I am not leaving you-” 

“James. Do it, please.” I contemplated it for a very long time. I saw Steve walk by and I called his name. 

“Stay with her.” I said handing y/n the glass of wine. Steve nodded and he looked concerned for her. I made my way through people to find Sam, wanting to get back to her as quickly as possible. I spied him across the room and I walked quickly. He was talking to some blonde man, drink in hand. 

“Sam. I need to talk to you.” I said stiffly. 

“Bucky! I was just talking about you. This guy right here owns his own company-” He slurred. 

“Sam. Right. Now.” I kept my ground getting impatient. He seemed for alert now. 

“Excuse me.” He told his guest. I grabbed his shoulder and moved us to the corner. 

“Take that pin off right now.” I told him flatly. 

“What? No, he gave it to me-”

“Sam. Y/n said its filled with poison.” I said grabbing his shoulder ready to take the pin off myself. He swatted my hand away. 

“I know you guys like to play games but I’m not buying it.”

“Sam. I swear to god. If you don't take the pin off I am going to make a scene. This isn’t a joke.” I shoved him back. He nodded surprised at my actions and I was a little shocked too. He placed the pin in my hand and I through it in a empty glass.

“Get it to Bruce.” He nodded. I let out a breath and ran my fingers through my hair. Y/n. I maneuvered through the crowd until I could see her. She was standing with Steve leaned up against the wall.

“Doll.” She didn’t say anything. 

“She’s not talking, I’m not sure if she’s in shock or something. Bucky, what is going on?” He asked, concerned. 

“It’s Christian. He came back. He tried to kill Sam.” Steve’s eyes shot open looking for Sam. 

“Y/n, look at me.” I grabbed her face. She looked extremely pale. I thought she was handing me the glass of wine when it slipped from her hand and crashed on the floor. Burgundy liquid covering the white marble floor and then I saw a much thicker red pool. I looked up her leg and the blood was running down them. I trailed them to look to her hand and blood was seeping out between her fingers. 

“Bucky, I. I’m sorry.” I reached my hand to her side and covered her hand with mine trying to stop the bleeding. 

“Doll, you’re gonna be okay.” She nodded. 

“Steve, go get Banner and Dr.Cho. I’m taking her to the med bay.” He nodded quickly and disappeared. I grabbed under my girlfriends legs and she put her arms around my neck. 

“I need you to keep pressure on that, baby.” She rested her head against my shoulder. She brought her hand up covering the wound. 

“It’s not as bad as it looks. He’s smart. He doesn’t wanna kill me yet. Just hurt me.” Her words were supposed to bring me relief but they didn’t. 

“I’m gonna find him, doll. I promised you he would never hurt you.” 

“He came out of nowhere. He’s willing to kill anyone for this. He wants us. HYDRA is still here. It doesn’t matter how many bases we raid, they are everywhere.” She said, I knew her words were true I just didn't want to believe them. 

“We are gonna get you fixed up and then we will put together a plan.”  I said I pushed open the med bay door. I laid her on the bed and this was the third time in the last 7 months that I had to do this. Each time hurt more then the last. She was sweating at this point and her skin was ice cold. I smoother hair down her head and I kissed her. I pulled back and I could see the bite mark. He marked her. He bit her? It was all so fucked in so many ways. 

“I feel like I won our game.” She smiled. I smiled, trying to lighten the air. 

“Is that so?” I teased back. We stared at each other for a long time and I could hear the others making their way to the med bay. 

“You win but I win everyday getting to be with you.” I told her as I kissed her knuckles. 

“Who knew Bucky Barnes was such a sap.” She laughed. God, I loved her. 

The others made their way into the room. Dr. Cho sets up the machine to regenerate her skin cells. She would have a nasty scar and be tired for a while but she would be safe. Banner draped blankets over her legs and cut her dress exposing her middle. Bucky stood near her hair, a hand on both sides of her head. Bruce cleaned the area and blood as soon as he wiped it down, like clockwork. 

Y/n was the air I breathed. She was the blood in my body and the water I drank. She was the vitamins in the sun rays and the food I consumed. She was the thing squeezing my heart so that it beat steady, the electricity. She was the insides of my bones and the movements of my lungs. She was my life line. The only thing letting me survive. Down to the black necrotic tissue of my body, she was always with me. 

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Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 15)

Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: Mature themes, violence

3 months later and nothing changed. Y/n and Bucky went back and forth waking each other up from nightmares and trying to turn dreams into reality. Everyday it only seemed like their love got stronger. Bucky sat waiting for Y/n to come downstairs for the masquerade party. He put on a black suit with a black button up to match her black dress. He secretly loved matching with her. He wanted everyone to know she was his and little did he know she was thinking the same thing. He heard her walking down the hallway, her heeling clicking. He stood and turned around. She was the most beautiful girl in the world. 

“Aren’t you gonna tell me how good I look Sergeant Barnes?” I said innocently. I could tell he was frozen in his spot, his mouth moving up and down like he wanted to say something but couldn’t. I loved seeing him like this. I walked toward him slowly.

“I wore this for you after all.” I reached for his tie playing with the end. He closed his eyes. 

“Doll, you're killing me.” He breathed out. 

“All for you” I got closer. His hands went to my waste.

“I love when you get dressed up for me.” He said his eyes were raking up and down my body. I swear to god my knees went weak. 

“But I love it even more when I undress you.” His mouth now hovered over my pulse point. This was a game, we both knew it, and at this moment he was winning.

“Maybe you should just check that everything is in its place. I don’t want to look bad, you know?” I tried to take back the reigns. He smiled. His hands went to the zipper and slowly down my back.

“Here? All good.” His hands made it down to my ass.

“Here? Even better.” He squeezed eliciting a gasp from me. He thinks he won but he hasn’t.

“Lower.” I urged him. His eyes shot to mine but he just smirked. His hands went to my legs and I took one of them in mine. I led it down between my legs and he halted. 

“I feel like I’m missing something, maybe you should take a look.” At this point I knew I won. His hand caressed the top of my pussy and I knew he was drawn in like a moth to a flame. I put my hand on his shoulder and pushed him down. He kissed the side of my knee and my breath caught.

“Warmer.” I said my hand in his hair. His lips started to move further up my leg. I massaged his scalp. He was making eye contact with me the entire time, it all felt so erotic. 

“Warmer.” He started to push my dress past my waist and he put his hand on my lower stomach. I could feel his breath fanning over my bare pussy  and I grabbed his hair. 

“I said look, don’t touch.” His eyes rolled back in his head. 

“As I said, you’re killing me.” I smirked. 

“Please, doll.” He begged. I loved the way my nickname rolled off his tongue. I pretended like I was contemplating it. 

“Mmhm. No.” I began to walk away. 

“What-”

“We are gonna be late, Jame.” I smoothed my dress out and went to find the masks he got us for the party. I stopped when I saw the box on the table. It looked expensive. I touched the box and the gold lettering of the brand.

“I wanted us to match, I hope you like it.” His breath was so close to my ear. I opened the box and smiled, they were beautiful. 

“I love it. Can I put yours on?” I smiled. He leaned on the table so that I could reach his head. I placed the mask on his face and reached my arms around him, tying the expensive ribbon. His eyes never left mine. 

“My turn.” He said switching our spots. He did the same to me, eyes still never leaving. We looked at each other for a long time. I never wanted to leave this moment. 

“Are you coming?” He teased me. 

“With you? Anywhere.” 

The party was at full capacity. Tony always liked the dramatics. It was beautiful though. Nat, Thor, Clint, Sam, Bruce, Tony, and Steve stood close to the bar.

“I’m so happy you made it, you look hot.” Nat greeted us. 

“Not as hot as you. This red? To die for.” I took her arms looking her up and down. 

“If I don’t find a guy you better be taking me home tonight, Y/n.” She joked.

“You know my door is alway open Natasha.” I joked back. At this point everyone was staring at us. 

“What?” I asked. Tony's mouth was open. Steve just coughed awkwardly.

“Is that invitation universal?” Tony smirked. Everyone laughed. I placed my hand on Bucky’s chest. 

“I’m afraid not.” Everyone got back to their conversation and I felt Bucky lean down to me.

“You joke but know that you belong to me. Every part of you.” He said slowly.

“This game we are playing, is there a reward?” He asked. 

“What is it that you want?” I let out a shaky breath.

“To leave the door open and let the world know you are mine. I’ll fuck you so good that you’ll scream my name until nobody questions who you belong to.” I would literally let him do anything to me anyways. 

“Deal. But no one will ever know because you aren’t going to win.” I turned to face him.

“And what is it that you want?” He looked deep into my eyes. 

“I want to edge you. So many times and I want you to beg me for the release you’ll crave. The one only I can give you. I want to ride you until you come and then I won’t stop until you come again. I want total control.” I touched his tie and made my way to his shoulder. He brought his body flat to mine. I could feel his erection. 

“Game on.” He smiled. 

The party was in full swing and everyone took to the dance floor. Bucky and y/n started to dance next to Nat and Steve. Tony had brought Pepper. It was all so sweet. 

I loved when we were like this. I wish we could stay this way forever. Bucky and I were hand in hand and his other rested against my waist. The music slowly changed.

“I’ll go get you a drink. Vodka soda or a glass of red?” He said sweetly. 

“Surprise me.” I hummed. He walked toward the bar and I looked after him. I loved him so much it felt indescribable. My whole world stopped when I saw him. If he loved me even half as much as I loved him I knew I was the most loved girl on this planet. How did I get so lucky? 

He wasn’t the stars and the moon. You only see those things at night when it's dark, when the only thing in sight is black. He wasn’t the sun that shined through the day illuminating our bodies while I watched the sheets cover his perfect skin. He was the creases of my knuckles and the lines on my palms. He was the color of my hair and the soft skin over my pulse. He was the branches of blue veins and the blood that ran in them. He was part of me. Seared into my body that even if I couldn’t see it, even if I tore my eyes away, I could never escape him. I would always feel him. Down to the darkest trenches of my soul, he was always with me. 

I looked at the ceiling completely lost in my thoughts when I felt someone press their chest into my back. I smiled. 

“Back so soon, Bar-” My smile vanished as I turned around. 

“Wrong. Guess again.” Christian.

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