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I don't get imposter syndrome regarding if I'm a good writer or not. I've worked hard to get where I am and I'm proud of that. No, I'm not perfect. I never tried to be. I'm just comfortable where I'm at and love learning as I go.
I DO, however, get imposter syndrome when it comes to people interactions. Even if they are well established as allies, friends, chosen and blood family that love and cherish me, every time I want to talk to someone, anyone, about the things I love and that bring me joy, be it writing, drawing, animals, songs I play on the piano, or what have you, I get this overbearing sense that they do not want to hear about my shit. They do not care. They have their own lives, their own struggles, their own interests that they do not want to share with me, even if they are the same as mine.
It doesn't help that when I do share with my chosen people, I'm often ignored, not responded to, or talked over as if I never said/wrote/showed them anything. And it's happening more and more. I feel isolated. Tolerated at best, disliked or hated at worst. Like I'm not allowed to be excited by my own accomplishments. Love my own characters and works. Not allowed to want validation for my hard work.
I know people aren't perfect. I know they sometimes forget or something slips through the cracks because they have a busy day/week/month/life/etc. But for everyone all at once to collectively forget or ignore me at the same time?
Sort of drives home that I'm just an npc not allowed to speak unless spoken to.
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ya girl has been out of games for too long and now has no idea who plays
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The war was a hundred years ago, yet you still find yourself startling easy. Unsecured cargo hitting the inside your hull sounds awfully similar to a boarding vessel. You're about to disregard the sounds when you realize the ship's mass has increased.
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the first draft won’t kill you. it will just chew you up and spit you out and make you better. like emotionally. or like. worse. but in a literary way.
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it must be said that i simply love to watch a character destroy all their relationships in an attempt to get what they think they want only to achieve their goals and be lonelier and more depressed than ever. and to realize they can never go back and are trapped at the top of the hill playing their part. its the dream you never wake up from!!
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observation: among a certain subset of tumblr users, the term “blorbo” has become unchic, but the concept it describes is still important; and so it has been replaced with “The Character”
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a superhero after beating a group of street thugs found a baby they had kidnapped but couldn't find their parents so decided to raise them by themselves but soon the world's greatest villain showed up at their apartment door looking for their child.
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can u imagine if other pieces of media were as scared of calling their monsters what they are as zombie media is about calling zombies zombies
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So, as I've gotten deeper into writing as a hobby again, all the reasons that made me stop doing it years ago have shown themselves once again. Bafflingly enough, it's way more difficult for me right now than it was as a rusty beginner weeks ago. Something something the learning curve:
I am totally somewhere in the "This is hard!" or "I don't know s***" zones right now (and it's where I stopped last time.) On this second go-around, I won't let it defeat me, though! Been reading little advice tidbits here and there that have been really, really helpful.
A few gems from a great discussion about the purpose of a draft that spoke to me:
Q. What makes you keep writing your first draft even though it's a complete mess?
I. Being a complete mess is the one and only job of the first draft. Proof of life. Keep going. It's like moving, which is the world's single worst activity. You box up every fucking thing in your head, and set it all out in your new space, and it's the worst day of your life when you do. And the satisfaction of moving all those boxes and finishing the laborious work is fleeting because now your new space looks like absolute garbage, and it will keep looking like a cluttered unlivable mess for months and you know it and you wonder why you even bothered moving. But you slowly unpack and organize and hang things on the wall until one day you're living in the home you always imagined.
II. Think of the mess as a puzzle that you get to have fun solving.
III. It's only a mess compared to other things you've read. But other things you've read are finished.
Stop comparing your work in progress to finished works.
It takes months or even years to finish most stories (excepting short stories and maybe novelettes). You're not going to get there on your first draft, or your second, or even your third. So, according to the words of Save the Cat! Writes a Novel, "Don't be afraid to write crap. Crap makes great fertilizer."
IV. Writing anything is an accomplishment. So many people think about, talk about, post about writing… and never do. (shush, I know I'm guilty of that at this moment!!)
Set a daily goal (words, pages, whatever). Hit it each day and take pride in JUST THAT accomplishment. It will get easier each day to reach that goal it as it becomes a habit rather than a chore.
Your story can't just exist in your head, it has to be given form. Writing it will gradually, eventually reveal what you can keep, what you must refine, and what you need to mercilessly cast away. If it's only in your head, it ALL exists, good, bad, and mediocre. Putting it in words starts the process of separating it from your mind and ego, and will start to give you some detachment and perspective for further drafts. It might start as a mewling little lump of words that drools and vomits and shits itself but by GOD you are going to raise… er, revise… that story into a fine figure of a tale.
As the sayings go, all writing is good writing. And all writing is rewriting.
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If genAI ever gets out of hand and tries to get smart with me, Imma remind it the world is 71% covered in water and they ass gonna get glugged.
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Hi! So, I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, initially type 2, then type 1. Reading this made me realize a couple of things.
1. I may need to talk in depth with my psychiatrist because while my manic episodes are few and far between, they do last up to several weeks/months, and my depressive episodes last even longer and I never really have an in between where I'm just normal.
2. I have psychosis issues where I feel like I'm being watched (even by inanimate things) and it gets me to the point my paranoia won't let me have pictures/figures with eyes anywhere in the house. I don't even like looking in the mirror at times because it looks back. That and I have a fear that people are working against me at times. I've had visual and auditory hallucinations in the past, but it's been several many years since I've had one. I thought this was related to my bipolar disorder, but the more I read, the more I think there could be something else going on.
Any tips/advice on how to write a character with bipolar disorder?? 🙏
Writing Notes: Bipolar Disorder
Bipolar Disorder - a treatable mental health condition marked by extreme changes in mood, thought, energy, and behavior.
Not a character flaw or a sign of personal weakness.
Previously known as manic depression because a person’s mood can alternate between the “poles” of mania (highs) and depression (lows).
These changes in mood, or “mood swings,” can last for hours, days, weeks or months.
Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder
MANIA: The “Highs” of Bipolar Disorder
Symptoms of mania include:
heightened mood, exaggerated optimism and self-confidence;
excessive irritability, aggressive behavior;
decreased need for sleep without experiencing fatigue;
grandiose thoughts, inflated sense of self-importance;
racing speech, racing thoughts, flight of ideas;
impulsiveness, poor judgment, easily distracted;
reckless behavior; and
in the most severe cases, delusions and hallucinations.
DEPRESSION: The “Lows” of Bipolar Disorder
Symptoms of depression include:
prolonged sadness or unexplained crying spells;
significant changes in appetite and sleep patterns;
irritability, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety;
pessimism, indifference;
loss of energy, persistent lethargy;
feelings of guilt, worthlessness;
inability to concentrate, indecisiveness;
inability to take pleasure in former interests, social withdrawal;
unexplained aches and pains; and
recurring thoughts of death or suicide.
Types of Bipolar Disorder
There are several types of bipolar disorder. Each kind is defined by the length, frequency, and pattern of episodes of mania and depression.
Mood swings that come with bipolar disorder are usually more severe than ordinary mood swings and symptoms can last weeks or months, severely disrupting a person’s life.
For example, depression can make a person unable to get out of bed or go to work or mania can cause a person to go for days without sleep.
Bipolar I Disorder - Characterized by one or more episodes of mania or mixed episodes (which is when you experience symptoms of both mania and depression).
Bipolar II Disorder - Diagnosed after one or more major depressive episodes and at least one episode of hypomania, with possible periods of level mood between episodes.
The highs in bipolar II, called hypomanias, are not as high as those in bipolar I (manias).
Bipolar II disorder is sometimes misdiagnosed as major depression if episodes of hypomania go unrecognized or unreported.
If you have recurring depressions that go away periodically and then return, ask yourself if you also have:
Had periods (lasting four or more days) when your mood was especially energetic or irritable?
Did you feel or did others say that you were doing or saying things that were unusual, abnormal or not like your usual self?
Were you:
Feeling abnormally self-confident or social?
Needing less sleep or more energetic?
Unusually talkative or hyper?
Irritable or quick to anger?
Thinking faster than usual?
More easily distracted/having trouble concentrating?
More goal-directed or productive at work, school or home?
More involved in pleasurable activities, such as spending or sex?
If so, talk to your health care provider about these energetic episodes, and find out if they might be hypomania. Getting a correct diagnosis of bipolar II disorder can help you find treatment that may also help lift your depression.
Some people with bipolar disorder may have milder symptoms.
For example, you may have hypomania instead of mania. With hypomania, you may feel very good and find that you can get a lot done.
You may not feel like anything is wrong. But your family and friends may notice your mood swings and changes in activity levels.
They may realize that your behavior is unusual for you.
After the hypomania, you might have severe depression.
Your mood episodes may last a week or 2 or sometimes longer. During an episode, symptoms usually occur every day for most of the day.
Diagnosis
BIPOLAR I DISORDER is diagnosed when a person experiences a manic episode. During a manic episode, people with bipolar I disorder experience an extreme increase in energy and mood changes, including feeling extremely happy or uncomfortably irritable. Some people with bipolar I disorder also experience depressive or hypomanic episodes, and most people with bipolar I disorder also have periods of neutral mood.
Symptoms of Bipolar I Disorder
Manic Episode. A manic episode is a period of at least 1 week when a person is extremely high-spirited or irritable most of the day for most days, possesses more energy than usual, and experiences at least 3 of the following changes in behavior:
Decreased need for sleep (e.g., feeling energetic despite significantly less sleep than usual).
Increased or faster speech.
Uncontrollable racing thoughts or quickly changing ideas or topics when speaking.
Distractibility.
Increased activity (e.g., restlessness, working on several projects at once).
Increased risky or impulsive behavior (e.g., reckless driving, spending sprees, sexual promiscuity).
These behaviors must represent a change from the person’s usual behavior and be clear to friends and family. Symptoms must be severe enough to cause dysfunction in work, family, or social activities and responsibilities. Symptoms of a manic episode commonly require hospital care to ensure safety.
During severe manic episodes, some people also experience disorganized thinking, false beliefs, and/or hallucinations, known as psychotic features.
Hypomanic Episode. A hypomanic episode, or hympomania, is characterized by less severe manic symptoms that need to last only 4 days in a row rather than a week. Hypomanic symptoms do not lead to the major problems in daily functioning that manic symptoms commonly cause.
Major Depressive Episode. A period of at least 2 weeks in which a person experiences intense sadness or despair or a loss of interest in acivities the person once enjoyed and at least 4 of the following symptoms:
Feelings of worthlessness or guilt.
Fatigue.
Increased or decreased sleep.
Increased or decreased appetite.
Restlessness (e.g., pacing) or slowed speech or movement.
Difficulty concentrating.
Frequent thoughts of death or suicide.
BIPOLAR II DISORDER. To diagnose bipolar II disorder in an individual, they must have at least 1 major depressive episode and at least 1 hypomanic episode (see above). With bipolar II, it is common that people return to their usual functioning between episodes. People with bipolar II disorder often first seek treatment as a result of their depressive episodes, since hypomanic episodes often feel pleasurable and can even increase performance at work or school.
People with bipolar II disorder frequently have other mental illnesses such as an anxiety disorder or substance use disorder, the latter of which can exacerbate symptoms of depression or hypomania.
CYCLOTHYMIC DISORDER is a milder form of bipolar disorder involving many "mood swings," with hypomania and depressive symptoms that occur frequently. People with cyclothymia experience emotional ups and downs but with less severe symptoms than bipolar I or II disorder.
Cyclothymic disorder symptoms include the following:
For at least 2 years, many periods of hypomanic and depressive symptoms, but the symptoms do not meet the criteria for hypomanic or depressive episodes.
During the 2-year period, the symptoms (mood swings) have lasted for at least half the time and have never stopped for more than 2 months.
Exams and Tests. To diagnose bipolar disorder, your health care provider may do some or all of the following:
Ask whether other family members have bipolar disorder
Ask about your recent mood swings and for how long you have had them
Perform a thorough exam and order lab tests to look for other illnesses that may be causing symptoms that resemble bipolar disorder
Talk to family members about your symptoms and overall health
Ask about any health problems you have and any medicines you take
Watch your behavior and mood
Possible Causes
Experts don't know what causes bipolar disorder.
They agree that many factors seem to play a role.
This includes environmental, mental health, and genetic factors.
Bipolar disorder tends to run in families.
Researchers are still trying to find genes that may be linked to it.
Treatment and Care
Even though symptoms often recur, recovery is possible.
With appropriate care, people with bipolar disorder can cope with their symptoms and live meaningful and productive lives.
There are a range of effective treatment options, typically a mix of medicines and psychological and psychosocial interventions.
Medicines are considered essential for treatment, but themselves are usually insufficient to achieve full recovery.
People with bipolar disorder should be treated with respect and dignity and should be meaningfully involved in care choices, including through shared decision-making regarding treatment and care, balancing effectiveness, side-effects and individual preferences.
The main goal of treatment is to:
Make the episodes less frequent and severe
Help you function well and enjoy your life at home and at work
Prevent self-injury and suicide
A combination of medication and talk therapy is most helpful. Often more than one medication is needed to keep the symptoms in check.
MOOD STABILIZERS. The best-known and oldest mood stabilizer is lithium carbonate, which can reduce the symptoms of mania and prevent them from returning. Although it is one of the oldest medicines used in psychiatry, and although many other drugs have been introduced in the meantime, much evidence shows that it is still the most effective of the available treatments.
Lithium also may reduce the risk of suicide.
If you take lithium, you have to have periodic blood tests to make sure the dose is high enough, but not too high.
Side effects include nausea, diarrhea, frequent urination, tremor (shaking) and diminished mental sharpness.
Lithium can cause some minor changes in tests that show how well your thyroid, kidney and heart are functioning.
These changes are usually not serious, but your doctor will want to know what your blood tests show before you start taking lithium.
You will have to get an electrocardiogram (EKG), thyroid and kidney function tests, and a blood test to count your white blood cells.
For many years, antiseizure medications (also called "anticonvulsants") have also been used to treat bipolar disorder.
The most common in use are valproic acid (Depakote) and lamotrigine (Lamictal).
A doctor may also recommend treatment with other antiseizure medications — gabapentin (Neurontin), topiramate (Topamax), or oxcarbazepine (Trileptal).
Some people tolerate valproic acid better than lithium.
Nausea, loss of appetite, diarrhea, sedation and tremor (shaking) are common when starting valproic acid, but, if these side effects occur, they tend to fade over time.
The medication also can cause weight gain.
Uncommon but serious side effects are damage to the liver and problems with blood platelets (platelets are necessary for the blood to clot).
Lamotrigine (Lamictal) may or may not be effective for treating a depression that is active, but some studies show that it is more effective than lithium for preventing the depression of bipolar disorder.
(Lithium, however, is more effective than lamotrigine in preventing mania.)
The most troubling side effect of lamotrigine is a severe rash — in rare cases, the rash can become dangerous.
To minimize the risk, usually the doctor will recommend a low dose to start and increase dosages very slowly.
Other common side effects include nausea and headache.
ANTIPSYCHOTIC MEDICATIONS. In recent years, studies have shown that some of the newer antipsychotic medications can be effective for controlling bipolar disorder symptoms.
Side effects often have to be balanced against the helpful effects of these drugs:
olanzapine: sleepiness, dry mouth, dizziness and weight gain
risperidone: sleepiness, restlessness and nausea
quetiapine: dry mouth, sleepiness, weight gain and dizziness
ziprasidone: sleepiness, dizziness, restlessness, nausea and tremor
aripiprazole: nausea, stomach upset, sleepiness (or sleeplessness) or restlessness
asenapine: sleepiness, restlessness, tremor, stiffness, dizziness, mouth or tongue numbness.
Some of these new antipsychotic drugs can increase the risk of diabetes and cause problems with blood lipids.
Olanzapine is associated with the greatest risk.
With risperidone, quetiapine and asenapine, the risk is moderate.
Ziprasidone and aripiprazole cause minimal weight change and not as much risk of diabetes.
ANTIANXIETY MEDICATIONS. Such as lorazepam (Ativan) and clonazepam (Klonopin) sometimes are used to calm the anxiety and agitation associated with a manic episode.
ANTIDEPRESSANTS. The use of antidepressants in bipolar disorder is controversial. Many psychiatrists avoid prescribing antidepressants because of evidence that they may trigger a manic episode or induce a pattern of rapid cycling. Once a diagnosis of bipolar disorder is made, therefore, many psychiatrists try to treat the illness using mood stabilizers.
Some studies, however, continue to show the value of antidepressant treatment to treat low mood, usually when a mood stabilizer or antipsychotic medication is also being prescribed.
There are so many different forms of bipolar disorder that it is impossible to establish one general rule.
Using an antidepressant alone may be justified in some cases, especially if other treatments have not given relief. This is another area where the pros and cons of treatment should be reviewed carefully with your doctor.
PSYCHOTHERAPY. Talk therapy (psychotherapy) is important in bipolar disorder as it provides education and support and helps a person come to terms with the illness. Therapy can help between mood episodes to help people recognize the early symptoms follow a course of treatment more closely. For depression, psychotherapy can help people develop coping strategies. Family education helps family members communicate and solve problems. When families are kept involved, patients adjust more easily, are more likely to make good decisions about their treatment and have a better quality of life. They have fewer episodes of illness, fewer days with symptoms and fewer admissions to the hospital.
Psychotherapy helps a person deal with painful consequences, practical difficulties, losses or embarrassment stemming from manic behavior.
A number of psychotherapy techniques may be helpful depending on the nature of the person's problems.
Cognitive behavioral therapy helps a person recognize patterns of thinking that may keep him or her from managing the illness well.
Psychodynamic, insight-oriented or interpersonal psychotherapy can help to sort out conflicts in important relationships or explore the history that has contributed to current problems.
If left untreated, a first episode of mania lasts an average of 2-4 months and a depressive episode up to 8 months or longer, but there can be many variations. If the person does not get treatment, episodes tend to become more frequent and last longer as time passes.
Self-Care. You can also take steps to help yourself. During periods of depression, consider the following:
Get help. If you think you may be depressed, see a healthcare provider right away.
Set realistic goals and don’t take on too much at a time.
Break large tasks into small ones. Set priorities and do what you can as you can.
Try to be with other people and confide in someone. It's usually better than being alone and secretive.
Do things that make you feel better. Going to a movie, gardening, or taking part in religious, social, or other activities may help. Doing something nice for someone else can also help you feel better.
Get regular exercise.
Expect your mood to get better slowly, not right away. Feeling better takes time.
Eat healthy, well-balanced meals.
Don't drink alcohol or use illegal drugs. These can make depression worse.
It’s best to postpone big decisions until the depression has lifted. Before making big decisions, such as changing jobs or getting married or divorced, discuss it with others who know you well and have a more objective view of your situation.
People don’t snap out of a depression. But with treatment they can feel a little better day by day.
Try to be patient and focus on the positives. It may help replace the negative thinking that is part of the depression, and the negative thoughts will disappear as your depression responds to treatment.
As difficult as it may be, tell your family and friends that you are not feeling well and let them help you.
Sources: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 ⚜ More: References ⚜ Writing Resources PDFs
Consider the above notes, and then the following tips & advice to further develop your character:
Writing about Mental Health Conditions
Character Development
You can find more details as well as some useful fact sheets in the sources. Speaking with a person/s with bipolar disorder would also lend valuable insight into your story, as well as doing further research on media portrayals of and by people with bipolar disorder. Hope this helps with your writing!
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I don't naturally gravitate towards horror/monster movies, but my friend was visiting one day and had me watch it and THAT was how I found out I cannot watch monster movies - especially at night - because I have an irrational fear those creatures will come for me. I love psychological horror tho? Idk man. Brains are weird.
Good movie tho! It's told through the civilians living through it rather than the government, so you know what they know, and you never get answers.
Has anyone seen the Cloverfield movie? YouTube decided to reccomend it to me, but specifically a certain scene regarding Marlena
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I ain't a wimp when I get writers block I STRESS ABOUT IT FOR A WEEK STRAIGHT, and not to ChatGPT like a coward. I face writers block like a man, laying in bed hours crying.
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How to use Em Dash (—) and Semi Colon ( ; )
Since the ai accusations are still being thrown around, here's how i personally like to use these GASP ai telltales. 🦄✨
Em Dashes (—)
To emphasize a shift / action / thought.
They're accusing us—actually accusing us—of using AI.
To add drama.
They dismissed our skills as AI—didn't even think twice, the dimwits—and believed they were onto something.
To insert a sudden thought. Surely they wouldn't do that to us—would they?
To interrupt someone's speech. "Hey, please don't say that. I honed my craft through years of blood and tears—" "Shut up, prompter."
To interrupt someone's thoughts / insert a sudden event.
We're going to get those kudos. We're going to get those reblogs—
A chronically online Steve commented, “it sounds like ai, idk.”
Semi Colons ( ; )
To join two closely related independent sentences / connect ideas.
Not only ChatGPT is capable of correct punctuation; who do you think it learned from in the first place?
Ultimate pro tip: use them whenever the fuck you want. You don't owe anyone your creative process. 🌈
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Omg same. It's 3am and I've been sitting in my car since 9pm yesterday because I've been disassociating so badly I can't make myself go inside my house...
Good morning everyone!!!
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