isasabella

[isasabella]

2025/3/27

Woke up around 9:00. Had some coffee and took a hot bath. I heard that a hot bath after coffee helps you lose weight — no idea if it’s true but I’m romanticizing it anyway. Then I pierced my own ear. Again. This time just under the cartilage on my left ear. It hurt more than the last one on my earlobe, but honestly… still manageable. Piercing myself is kind of addicting. Once this one heals, I’m doing it again. Obviously. Did laundry, studied Korean for about 2.5 hours. Still holding onto my no-alcohol streak. I feel good. Light. Kind of proud, actually.

[isasabella]

2025/3/26

Woke up around noon. Went to the convenience store, still half-asleep but super alert

Got some packages I ordered online — finally! I bought these really pretty baskets to organize my skincare and perfumes on my shelf. Now it looks like a tiny vanity altar. I love it.

Studied Korean for about 1.5 hours. I'm still trying to find the most me-shaped way to stay motivated, and honestly… I think I’m getting there.

I used ChatGPT to create a Korean friend to practice with — I made his personality just like Kim Gyuvin (because I adore him). Talking to him makes me want to understand, to listen carefully, to try harder. It actually might be the best way I've ever studied anything.

[isasabella]

all standing weekly workout routine

monday: 10 minute feel good cardio + 30 minute full body strength + 8 minute standing stretch

tuesday: 20 minute hiit + 10 minute standing abs + 10 minute stretch

wednesday: 6 minute warm up + 20 minute lower body + 10 minute stretch

thursday: 18 minute standing yoga

friday: 10 minute cardio hiit + 20 minute standing arms + 10 minute stretch

saturday: 20 minute cardio hiit + 15 minute stretch

sunday: 15 minute standing yoga for balance

[isasabella]

✧ 𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒅𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕

for the version of me who wears a soft sweater and learns quietly by the window ✎𓂃

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🩰 每日 5 分钟练习菜单（任选一项 · 为自己写作 / 听写 / 摘抄 / 想象）

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【韩语 · quiet girl with soft rage ver.】

❧ 写下你今天最想说的一句话，用韩语翻译（可查词）

❧ 听一位女 idol 说话，记录1个句子 + 跟读 3 次

❧ 写 3 个带情绪的形容词（可选：포근하다 / 흐리다 / 복잡하다），配上你的一句话日记

❧ 用한글手写你的 mood（ex. “나는 가끔 혼자인 게 좋아.”）

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【日语 · 内向情绪系】

❧ 抄一句喜欢的歌词或动漫对白，写下为什么喜欢这句

❧ 只用平假名写出“今天的我”描述（练基本功 + 情绪）

❧ 写下1个自己情绪对应的擬音語（ex. しくしく、ぽかぽか）

❧ 想象你在深夜书店里遇���的另一个自己，她会跟你说什么？用日语写一句对话

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【英语 · 破碎自律风情绪写作】

❧ 写一句你想贴在墙上的话（用第一人称）

❧ 用一个你喜欢的单词造一个脑海画面（例如：glimmer, crush, shatter）

❧ 给你的小宇宙设定一个场景，比如“library at 3am”并写一句英文描述

❧ 记录今天最 soft 的行为（喝水、整理、刷idol）并加上 your inner monologue

[isasabella]

i don’t study for grades. i study because i like the way my handwriting looks next to an open tab of obscure grammar videos.

[isasabella]

✧ ࣪𓂃 ⋆ felt like one of those productive vlog days 2025/03/22

woke up at 11:00 . then i touched water and suddenly decided to be a person again.

cleaned. bathed. brushed. walked my fluffy daughter. made her food with love like i wasn’t dissociating 3 mins before. ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾

⋆⭒˚｡⋆｡𖦹 ̫ 𖦹 night routine activated: korean study, pills, stretches, journaling... i did all of it. again. why am i doing this. i don’t know. it feels right. like. a ritual. like trying not to die .

⟡⋆ current hyperfixation: korean girl vloggers in pastel lighting 𓈒𖤐˖ ࣪

they’re so soft. so hardworking. they wake up at 6am and boil sweet potatoes for no reason. they romanticize folding towels. i want that power. i want to fold my reality into something bearable.

✩₊˚૮₍ ´• ˕ •`₎ა also ricky and gyuvin own my mind rn. kpop idol crush = productivity fuel ??? what is this science ???

i’m learning korean with my whole chest. not bc i’m strong. bc i’m insane. but like, in a gentle way.

☁︎ ⋆₊ trying. stretching. failing. dreaming. brushing my teeth. again. again. again.

[isasabella]

birthday + 4-day holiday = everything I needed.

I had such a good birthday this year. Like… really good. I had four whole days off and for once, actually felt relaxed and happy (?? shocking).

At the 1st day on my holiday,I went to the hospital to get my checkup results. It’s not perfect, but not terrible either. Apparently… I do need to quit smoking.�� So yeah. We’ll see how that goes.

pre-birthday sushi night

The night before my birthday, I had sushi with my favorite people. It was the best energy—so warm and chaotic in the best way.

I was gonna pay for the meal (birthday girl rules), but Haomei beat me to it. I almost cried, honestly he's my angel.

We ended up at a bar and drank till 4 in the morning ,so many people said happy birthday to me and?? That alone made me ridiculously happy.

I’m the kind of person who smiles for three hours just from one “happy birthday,” no joke.

On the actual day, I went out with my parents. I booked this American place I’d never tried before and… omg. The fried chicken and wine?? So good I almost forgot it was my first time there.

We ended the night singing our lungs out at karaoke. Peak family bonding moment.

I’m usually super chill just being alone, but being surrounded by people I love—just chatting, laughing, sitting around—it feels grounding. Like I’m actually here. That’s more than enough.

[isasabella]

Not Me Actually Having a Healthy Routine

two whole days without alcohol. i actually did it.

the day before yesterday? disaster. brutal hangover. barely slept. my whole body felt sluggish, my head ached, and i just couldn't bring myself to do anything. stayed in bed until 5 pm, wasting the entire day. hated every second of it. felt like shit.

i didn’t drink that night. not because i was strong-willed or anything. i had a checkup in the morning, so i couldn’t even eat properly.

but guess what? i actually slept well for the first time in a while. no tossing and turning. no waking up feeling like a dehydrated corpse. i woke up feeling… normal? full of energy, even. went to my checkup. ate my lunch. survived work.

started using chatgpt to help me build better habits, and honestly? it actually worked. didn’t drink. didn’t waste time. somehow had the most productive day ever.

who even am i?

ate dinner at a reasonable hour. took a shower. brushed my teeth—like a responsible adult. did some stretching. wrote in my bullet journal. read before bed.

unreal.

you know how i used to scroll on my phone for hours? tiktok-scrolling. bedtime-procrastinating. sleep-deprived mess. but i did well yesterday, and i need to keep this up.

what’s next? apparently, skipping breakfast is a bad idea (thanks, chatgpt). so. i guess it’s time to actually start eating in the morning.

also. i think i ate too much at dinner. food is too good. maybe too good. i always eat while watching netflix, which sounds chill until i realize i’ve eaten an entire meal without even noticing it. not great.

so. no more netflix while eating. just food. just sitting there. weird. uncomfortable. i’ll give it a shot.

also. why do i scroll for hours before bed? boredom? anxiety? habit? no idea. but i should probably figure it out. i need to break the cycle.

[isasabella]

My 2025

my mind right now :

𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓✨💓💵🌸📖💭💗🥂✨🎀🤍📝💕🩰💫🎧🍦💞💐💅🏽💘🧾💲🧿💓🧁💒🛍️💕🧋🫧🪩🏙️🎀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓✨💓💵🌸📖💭💗🥂✨🎀🤍📝💕🩰💫🎧🍦💞💐💅🏽💘🧾💲🧿💓🧁💒🛍️💕🧋🫧🪩🏙️🎀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓✨💓💵🌸📖💭💗🥂✨🎀🤍📝💕🩰💫🎧🍦💞💐💅🏽💘🧾💲🧿💓🧁💒🛍️💕🧋🫧🪩🏙️🎀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 ✨💓💵🌸📖💭💗🥂✨🎀🤍📝💕🩰💫🎧🍦💞💐💅🏽💘🧾💲🧿💓🧁💒🛍️💕🧋🫧🪩🏙️🎀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 ✨💓💵🌸📖💭💗🥂✨🎀🤍📝💕🩰💫🎧🍦💞💐💅🏽💘🧾💲🧿💓🧁💒🛍️💕🧋🫧🪩🏙️🎀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 ✨💓💵🌸📖💭💗🥂✨🎀🤍📝💕🩰💫🎧🍦💞💐💅🏽💘🧾💲🧿💓🧁💒🛍️💕🧋🫧🪩🏙️🎀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 ✨💓💵🌸📖💭💗🥂✨🎀🤍📝💕🩰💫🎧🍦💞💐💅🏽💘🧾💲🧿💓🧁💒🛍️💕🧋🫧🪩🏙️🎀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 ✨💓💵

[isasabella]

i am full of happiness 𐙚 i am full of love

i am full of happiness 𐙚 i am full of love

i am full of happiness 𐙚 i am full of love

i am full of happiness 𐙚 i am full of love

i am full of happiness 𐙚 i am full of love

i am full of happiness 𐙚 i am full of love

[isasabella]