istardancer

[istardancer]

I need to get something’s off my chest! I don’t care if anyone reads or if the person i would want to read, reads this or not! I am so angry with myself for letting myself fall in love with a man that didn’t give 2 fucks about me! And all I ever did was show his punk ass thats all it was for me was love!

And now that I see the love was taken from me and then I had to fight to earn the love of the world and I think thats complete bullshit! Because I don’t believe that because of a drug that I become so disconnected that my light still shines bright! I am the light of love who gets high on meth and I am workin as hard as I can to stay or get some help! I personally feel like I’ve been targeted to not succeed

I am a threat to someone just because I slay I am cute I dress nice and have an amazing personality and I have a ton of gift my God has blessed me with! EVERYONE has gifts but the question how are you willling to work and keep that gift! I know one thing I am not giving you or going to let you take DANCE from me!

Like how does the man that broke my heart on numerous occasion got the whole fuckin city officials and downtown Los Angeles to Gas Light one person! And gets a downgraded boyfriend that looks like me! Like whop does that! FUC< YOU Kyle Merritt on some real shit! You had my hopes up for what! You that petty! Ok Now so can i watch this shit!!

Take care

[istardancer]

I think I’m in a situation like this

Get Out (2017) dir. Jordan Peele

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I don’t care who you are

Grow up

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THE CRAFT (1996) dir. Andrew Fleming

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To my first Love

Well I don’t know where to begin I have a lot to get off my chest! I do miss you but Idk if it’s the affection or just enjoying you for the little time we had together. I think about you everyday! I still love you but idk if you feel the same. Like if I could I would love to be with you! But I mean I wish you would really have been as 100 with everything like I was with you! I don’t want to make this a sad or attacking thing. But I also wanna say thank you for being my first I would have picked anyone else.

I wonder at times do you think of me!? Do you miss me? Did what you felt or feel for me was a game you decided to play or what? I do need closure and I mean I should be able to trust and call you or text because I’ve known you longer and I lived with you so I feel like maybe we could be there for each other. But I’m the line of work you do I don’t think I can handle the other half that comes with that Territory!

Like I did brake up with you too right? Cause I know why I did though. Do you understand why I did!? Do you wanna know probably not. Like the last two times I saw you I wanted to give you a huge hug but I had to stand my ground lol . The question I really want to ask you is what is it that I can do to make you love me again.

If your taken cool. I iust it’s not who I heard it to be then ima need you to tell her watch her back real shit! I want to sit and just talk with you and just understand what’s was up with us. But I feel you wanted to still live life with that lifestyle and I want to break away from it! I’m trying to seriously and I wish you could be along side me and me beside you supporting our dreams and talents like we promised each other.

I scooter pass the building all the time and smile.

But you did some damage to me! Towards the end You me feel like you were sexually attracted to me and that you literally stopped caring. I’m crying as I’m writing this. Like now I feel like your ashamed of me which I wouldn’t judge you for Whatchu do. Just be honest!

Idk you ususally don’t respond and I don’t expect you to! I haven’t been the same since but I know what’s what. I just wish you there for me like I was for you! I don’t deserve none this or what we went through. I did a lot knowing my situation with being homeless and I know I complained a lot and expressed a lot but how else was the air suppose to be cleared. But I could go on forever.

I love you

Kyle Merritt

[istardancer]

To my first Love

Well I don’t know where to begin I have a lot to get off my chest! I do miss you but Idk if it’s the affection or just enjoying you for the little time we had together. I think about you everyday! I still love you but idk if you feel the same. Like if I could I would love to be with you! But I mean I wish you would really have been as 100 with everything like I was with you! I don’t want to make this a sad or attacking thing. But I also wanna say thank you for being my first I would have picked anyone else.

I wonder at times do you think of me!? Do you miss me? Did what you felt or feel for me was a game you decided to play or what? I do need closure and I mean I should be able to trust and call you or text because I’ve known you longer and I lived with you so I feel like maybe we could be there for each other. But I’m the line of work you do I don’t think I can handle the other half that comes with that Territory!

Like I did brake up with you too right? Cause I know why I did though. Do you understand why I did!? Do you wanna know probably not. Like the last two times I saw you I wanted to give you a huge hug but I had to stand my ground lol . The question I really want to ask you is what is it that I can do to make you love me again.

If your taken cool. I iust it’s not who I heard it to be then ima need you to tell her watch her back real shit! I want to sit and just talk with you and just understand what’s was up with us. But I feel you wanted to still live life with that lifestyle and I want to break away from it! I’m trying to seriously and I wish you could be along side me and me beside you supporting our dreams and talents like we promised each other.

I scooter pass the building all the time and smile.

But you did some damage to me! Towards the end You me feel like you were sexually attracted to me and that you literally stopped caring. I’m crying as I’m writing this. Like now I feel like your ashamed of me which I wouldn’t judge you for Whatchu do. Just be honest!

Idk you ususally don’t respond and I don’t expect you to! I haven’t been the same since but I know what’s what. I just wish you there for me like I was for you! I don’t deserve none this or what we went through. I did a lot knowing my situation with being homeless and I know I complained a lot and expressed a lot but how else was the air suppose to be cleared. But I could go on forever.

I love you

Kyle Merritt

[istardancer]

♂: I am a boy who has a crush on you

♀: I am a girl who has a crush on you

⭐: I am a nonbinary person who has a crush on you

✂: Just delete your tumblr already

✌: You’re awesome

♡: I love your blog

❁: You’re beautiful

🌸: You’re attractive

✓: I hate you

☹: You’re ugly

☀: I want to fuck you

♬: I wish we were close

♧: I wish we were friends in real life

☆: I relate to a lot of the same things you go through

☮: You inspire me

☾: We should kiss maybe if you wanna that’d be great

✖: I would give you the greatest hug

★: I’m scared to talk to you but I think you’re great

∇: You’ve changed urls/icons so much that I don’t remember who you are

○: I don’t remember why I follow you

☄: I wish I could help you but I’m not sure how

✨: You’ve taught me things

⚓️: I wish you’d take better care of yourself

©: You’re a bit problematic

™: You’re a cinnamon roll

❄️: I cherish you

🌙: Please post more

💫: We don’t talk much but I wouldn’t mind being your friend

♪: You’re very talented

∀: I don’t understand you

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Then I farted and it wasn’t cute and I flipped a booger on him and I still fell in love

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I am so beyond irritated and not even hurt by the situation like its to the point where its going to end because your wishy washy and i dont have time fot that shit. Like I try to make this a team effort but i can tell you want to give up . I feel like you always try to pick a fight or you dont wanna do anything that doesnt benefit you so after tonight its over cause im not important to you as your important to me and im sick of the mutha fucking games. 

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“Showing who you love is your human right.

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How you identify and see yourself is your human right.

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Who you make love to and take that ass to Red Lobster is your human right.”

—Beyoncé Giselle Knowles-Carter

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me @ myself every single time

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