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I have to cook dinner tonight but it’s just for me which means I have exactly 0 motivation and Ik it would be good if I made an actual meal but I CANNOT be fucked. I think I’m slightly spiralling because my friends all cancelled last minute (relatable? Or am I just autistic lmao) now I need to figure out wtf to do for the rest of my weekend

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“Am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?”

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the number of hours we have together is not so large btw. you can linger in the doorway uncomfortably if you want idk. you can forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it if you even care

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“We’ll dream of a longer summer but this is the one we have. I lay my sunburnt hand on your table: this is the time we have.”

Tell me this quote isn’t them.

Im literally tearing my hair out oh my I can’t

Just watched close and cried through the entire thing. I am gay and I am WRECKED what the fuck Lukas Dhont??????

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Just watched close and cried through the entire thing. I am gay and I am WRECKED what the fuck Lukas Dhont??????

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Currently feeling so normal about birthday cards from close friends (just cried for 2 hours after reading one (I’m on antidepressants ( wtf)))

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UPDATE: just got diagnosed with TWO (2) more things so bye

If I’m diagnosed with ONE (1) more thing I will go live with the wolves that is a promise.

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Hadn’t cried for months and then one of my friends said she couldn’t come to my birthday celebration the day before and it unleashed the gates of hell.

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“And what kind of madness is it anyway, to be in love with something so constitutionally incapable of loving you back?”

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Update: I’m over it

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A confession: I don’t know how to talk to you any more and it rips my fucking soul in half

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“It tears me apart, rips me at my seams, to know that you loved me.”

Whoever wrote this. Enough. I will haunt you, don’t test me.

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If anyone wanted a perfect quote describing every single moment as an autistic person socially interacting here you go: “I don’t like how endings in real life come on so suddenly without making sense, without much warning. One minute you’re in the middle of something and the next it’s all a very long time ago and you’re a different person and none of it is ever coming back.”

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Let me bury my head in the ground so that soil and worms climb into my throat. Let me choke on it. Bury me alive so I can confront life itself, show me the earth, show me it exists.

Show me that this glowing light that everyone talks about is real.

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Richard Siken is both the bane of my existence and probably the love of my life. What in God’s name gave him the right to crush me like this.

“HE REACHES OVER YOU AND TOUCHES YOU, LIKE A PRAYER FOR WHICH NO WORDS EXIST, AND YOU FEEL YOUR HEART TAKING ROOT IN YOUR BODY, LIKE YOU’VE DISCOVERED SOMETHING YOU DONT EVEN HAVE A NAME FOR” ??????? ARE YOU JOKING

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Hey! This quite literally killed me 😊. I am now dead. Don’t try and contact me because I will not respond because I am DYING DEAD AND DECAYING

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“The centre of every poem is this: I have loved you. I have had to deal with that.” - Salam Deera