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PROMPT TIME can I have some m&m and “enduring grief and anger in silence” please!!

hehe yes beloved <3

TW for discussion of death and funeral practices

Nelyo had not cried once after Atar’s death.

He had wept, bitterly and without comfort, after Atyarussa had died. There had been a kind of grim satisfaction in Tyelko’s face; Curvo and Moryo had been silent, Curvo tall and straight at his father’s shoulder; Minyarussa had simply stood, swaying, eyes so bright he looked like a sick animal. Makalaurë’s own eyes had been dry; he had been full of fear so hot he felt as though he were burning along with his youngest brother, and in his mind only one thought had circled, round and round like the wheels of an organ-grinder: at least one of us is now safe.

But Nelyo had cried and cried, doubled over on the ground like he was playing again on Atyarussa’s little drum-set, and Minyarussa had stared at his shaking eldest brother with a dull sort of relief on his face. Atar had half-heartedly said, “Get up,” then shook his head and strode away as Nelyo behind him gasped, “the baby, our littlest one - the baby -”

He had raged at Makalaurë, after. “Why did you not weep? Little Atyarussa! My brother the musician, composer of dirges, can still weep for a pet rabbit lost these hundred years, but not his smallest brother, who we were as fathers to -”

“You were, perhaps,” said Makalaurë, not caring that he was being cruel, not wanting to think about it, “but I had other matters to attend to. In any case, brother, at least he is not here.”

Nelyo’s face had frozen in open shock; but all he had said was a quiet, “It should have been me.”

Only - only now Atar was gone, and it seemed to Makalaurë that some rotted abscess within him had torn open and was draining, for he could not stop crying. There was grief for the father who had lifted him upon his broad shoulders when he was tiny, and swallowed his dislike of the Vanyar long enough to send Makalaurë to Valimar for tutelage - for a little - and taught him his letters. And there was grief for the days of his youth, the bright happy house and his mother’s unshadowed eyes; and finally, finally - where had it been before? - there was grief for his littlest brother, for whom he had fashioned a little violincello and whose piping voice had lifted with him in duets.

It was his turn, now, to lift his voice in mourning; but Nelyo was silent, and refused to help spread what they could gather of Atar’s ashes in the fields that were taking shape by the lake, laying him to rest as close to Cuiviénen as they could manage. He and Minyarussa stood on and watched, twin shadows of Ammë.

Does she grieve for us, he wondered. Will she know he is dead, and did not know whether he meant Atyarussa, or Atar, or himself.

But after, Makalaurë could bear it no more. “Why will you not weep for him? Our father is dead!” he demanded in a whisper in their tent. And then, pouring out of him, “you wept more for Findekáno, who is alive! Atar will not see the hills of Tirion on Túna again, nor Finwe his father; he is Doomed, and all of us with him! Will you not weep! For us, if not for him!”

“He murdered my brother,” said Nelyo, quite casually, “why should I weep? As for the rest, we have been Doomed a long time since, and I shall not grieve twice what I was commanded not to grieve once. I will fulfill our Oath; is that not enough?”

Makalaurë blinked back tears, again, and said, “Not for me; where is my brother?”

“He died on the ships,” said Nelyo; and they did not speak again until the messenger from Moringotto came.

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Something that antis who "analyze BB as media that is meant to 'cause discomfort' by displaying shotacon themes" forget is that creative texts (be they in visual, textual, or audial form) are highly psychological in the sense that you can't perfectly measure out every bit of the emotional reaction you will get from your audience.

Yes, there are writers who will specifically want to make their reader question certain moral dogmas, concepts, and ideas. There are also writers who end up writing particular concepts into their story by sheer accident.

In case of BB, though, one can't say that Yana is trying to "make her audience uncomfortable" by showing Sebaciel dynamics because nothing about it is uncomfortable. She definitely wrote it in on purpose, but claiming that it is supposed to cause some sort of a deep discussion on how Sebastian is a Bad Guy is laughable; because S/C relationship is a positive one.

Sebastian is presented - directly, indirectly, symbolically - as Ciel's only source of comfort and protection. Yes, it is a tainted liaison because it's the Devil's sacrament. It's erotic, sensual, intimate - and it's utterly comfortable.

Sebastian is the only person whose touch is comfortable to Ciel. He's among the few adults he trusts being in his vicinity. He's comfortable being alone with him. Ciel heals through his sickened bond with Sebastian. Yes, Sebastian craves him in the flesh-based, primal way. Whether you view it as erotic, beastly, or morbid does not matter: Sebastian craves Ciel. And Ciel is comfortable with that.

Yana did not fucking write it for nearly two decades to have some goddamn idiot who knows nothing about PTSD come in and say that Sebaciel is meant to be a "gross thing causing people discomfort". Sebaciel is a part of the story in the sense, "Sebastian and Ciel have A Relationship: whether it's predatory, romantic, sexual, or anything along the lines doesn't matter, but it's ultimately positive."

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oh AND my favourite thing about the show is that Edwin and Charles spent a whole ass 30 years being best friends without ever analyzing their trauma (Charles) or their feelings (Edwin)

icons, the both of them

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I love the Dead Boy Detective Agency and I just have a quick question.

Death knows all of her denizens in her realm, that means no spirit can actually hide from her. She's letting the boys do what they want because she views them as actively helping the other ghosts find closure.

I don't think she'll take them until they're ready to leave.

So my question is

" does she just kind of laugh every time she sees the boys skedaddle away from her?"

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NIKO SASAKI AND EDWIN PAYNE Dead Boy Detectives (2024-)

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Edwin and Charles are each other's light in the dark

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EDWIN and CHARLES in THE CASE OF THE VERY LONG STAIRWAY

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Crystal was a complete mood all the series. I loved her, I loved her weird thing with Charles, her friendship with Niko, the back and forth she has with Edwin, her defiance at David and how she uses her powers. How she can be both sweet and fierce, and kind self-centered.

The way she totally clocks Edwin (and I'd argue Charles too) at the start but doesn't say much about it. She so knows there's something going on, she noticed right away the jealousy and even tells Charles to mind what he says for Edwin. She knows form the start, that anything between her and Charles won't last; she's not even really dating him. He's still the first to offer her to stay, a temporary home. She still has a lot of baggage and Charles is dead, forever 16. She still kisses him goodbye one last time when she goes.

How she's all ride or die for the boys and Niko, how she started the series bc she was friendly to a little ghost girl and she wanted to save another little girl, lost, across the Atlantic Ocean in another continent while she herself had no memories.

She has a demon buried on her soul bc she put him there until she could get ride of it, bc he doesn't define her and has no right to torment her. She tries to protect Niko at the finale, repeats what the boys said to her, that Niko is only human, and still they both go together to save the ghosts, and Niko dies taking a knife for her, and she wakes Lilith with her righteous rage and call for retribution for all girls dead too soon and makes Esther pay.

How she comes back to stay at the finale, because she has just recovered her memories and watched Niko die for her, and Edwin being tortured while Charles was chained, and has decided she wants this new life while she sorts out her past, fuck it she can have it all. Offering Jenny to come to London. Just. I want to hug her.

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The way in Charles death scene, Edwin is talking about how ghosts don't really experience the world with their senses, they can't really touch things, etc. (bc charles is about to die and he wants him to be prepared, Edwin oh boy)

And Charles immediatly answers. I'd miss kissing. Do you? And Edwin can't answer because he died without one, because he was gay and unable to even admit it to himself due to the time and place he was born into.

(how charles mind goes there so quickly, to an act of love, pleasure, warmth so different from what he has to be feeling right now)

The way Charles has that makeout session with Crystal and then tells all giddy to Edwin that he didn't really felt it physically but mentally it was good. He hasn't lost kissing after all even if it's different than if he were still alive. My god.

Charles is so very emotional and I bet when he was alive, also very much in touch with his body, for good or bad. It breaks my heart; he misses being alive, he wants to kiss and date. He's never going to last with Crystal because she's alive, but he's enjoying while it lasts. He's going to spent all his death and beyond with Edwin and one of the first conversations they had while he was dying was that he was going to miss kissing. He answers with wht is basically a not yet the love confession.

How does desire works for ghosts that don't have a physical body? It seems like the mind and the romantic attraction take the lead. (It's like the software for physical attraction is there even if the hardware is missing. Ghosts willing their bodies to act as the living do).

It's the way kisses are important to both of them in season 1, both as something never had before (Edwin) and something to miss and long for (Charles). When they kiss if we have a season 2 (or even 3 though I hope hey take pity and have them kissing in season 2 if it's greenlighted on light of Netflix sudden cancelations) I'm going to scream to my TV.

They're already together for what matters but the romantic/kissing aspect is clearly important for both of the so I'm just. Gripping my hands on the sofa thinking about them having that with each other.

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Edwin and Charles ideal afterlife includes them being together, that's what I took from the numerous scenes where they both commit to either oblivion (look that handhold in ep6 against mushroom omg) or misterious afterlife bureocracy together. Also episode 1: I won't let Death separate us. (OK Romeo! How didn't you realise you were completely gone for Charles before this is impossible to understand)

Hell is hellish, but also, crucially, they're separated if Edwin goes down.

The moment the Night Nurse said there was a case to be made that Edwin didn't have to go down, him and Charles just. Accepted that it was it. Didn't like it much, but were willing to go together.

Just. Agh. Love them.

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Anyways Charles having to drag Edwin away from Niko's corpse in episode 8 so they avoid Death was a perfect acting choice. Holy shit.

The way Edwin is noticeable subdued for the rest of the finale; most clearly just in the aftermath at Jenny's with Crystal and Charles, but even to the end already back in London you can notice the difference to before. He's also been to hell and back and been tortured by Esther so like. What an ending to their visit to USA.

Niko truly was his friend, and died trying to free him from Esther and protecting Crystal when she was only a human without even psychic powers. So I love we both hear him when she's stabbed and that it has such an effect in him he doesn't seem to be able to leave her. Just. Perfect choices.

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You really gave up a potentially tranquil eternity for your friend?

DEAD BOY DETECTIVES 1.07

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If I was a ghost and my best ghost friend who I've been in love with for 30 years rescued me from hell and held me by the shoulders and said he wasn't in love with me at this very second but that we had forever to figure out our feelings for each other I think I'd simply pass away again

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On the topic of Palamedes and Camilla also having messed up lives: while Paldulcie doesn't fit into a lot of folks' conventional ideas of queer romance in sci-fi, their whole love for each other circles back to Muir's point that you can't have shit in Empire and that love will often chafe against form and functioning Empire no matter what. The act of writing letters and attempting to make life better for Dulcie was revolutionary of Palamedes.

It went against planetary politics that demanded house necromancers compete and remain compartmentalized. It was an act that wanted to humanize a woman who was effectively bred to be an art piece of slow death and coddling.

Not to mention the continuous times in the series that Muir makes it seem like the Sixth house maintain some form of lesser place in the empire's hierarchy: like they're running out of genetic material, in Harrow's Marriage AU she mentions how they're often painted in a corner like her house is, The Second House went after their keys because they believed them the easiest to over-power, Palamedes and Camilla had no clue what formal dueling practices were.

Palamedes trying to marry the Duchess of Rhodes screams of the taboo and forbidden that Muir explores in Locked Tomb. I need y'all to wake up and see the sixth house as more than the funky librarians helping out the funky lesbians. They are definitely doing that, but they are so fundamentally crucial to this series.

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btw loved how tender but simultaneously filled with dread the death with the gas mask ghost scene was. the boys are double outside, not only are they not dead, thus outside out of death but also they watch but from the physical outside from the window too. and for them this really nice peaceful moment is filled with fear of being ripped from the most important person in your life....

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Buganvillas! Me encanta el color rosa y la textura de papel de sus flores, además de la estructura de la planta en sí, de enredadera. Como se nota que es abril toda la ciudad está cubierta de flores ><!!!!