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I'm eating it all up like its my last meal

some more sams :0 same friend from the last post told me about 'yallternative',,, how could i not put sam in something like that??? AND THEN HBW AUDIO SAM RAHDFSJGDFJHSJDHFSJFHSGHSBGSJHSF

southern man take me by the hand

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Ay señor...david Shaw save me...please save me david shaw

Imma listen to Fool!Milo when I get home but in the meantime, lemme just— *throws a different shifter at y'all*

Me? Drawing David Shaw properly? More likely than you think. Real talk though, this sketch is gonna be part of an art collab with @mr-laveau at some point. I just couldn't help but post it too (/lh /pos).

[Quick Stats (Under The Cut)]

-6'0" (Tallest of the main pack, Darlin included)

-Latino, specifically Colombian (Him and Milo using Spanish to communicate at times is everything to me)

-His lip scar is sacred to me (And part of my "everyone in the pack has a facial scar" agenda)

-Dog tags have Gabe's name on them and were gifted by Milo after he passed

-He can grow a fuller beard but tends to keep it cut shorter (or clean shaven)

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Been thinking about my experiences as a POC within fandom while also being an artist and how much that sucks sometimes. This is primarily in regards to the Redacted fandom, but could be applied to any other fandom honestly.

Proper "fussing" under the cut (for those who would rather not see):

Sometimes, I really stop and think about what it must be like to be a white person in fandom, especially when you're an artist. To see yourself reflected in the spaces you exist in all the time. There are some exceptions to this, of course. For example, lack of body diversity is just as much of a problem in my opinion (Like fat people exist. Disabled people exist. Fat, disabled people exist. You can draw them, y'know? /rhet) But generally speaking, it's not difficult to find designs that probably look like you. There will be blondes, brunettes, redheads even— It's everywhere you look.

I don't think most people realize how isolating that ends up feeling though.

Because it's not just the fact that most of the art/designs you'll stumble upon won't resemble you. It's the fact that the prevalence dictates how everyone else interacts with fandom too.

Do you know how much it sucks seeing a post saying "So we all agree that Asher's blonde, right?" and knowing that most people are thinking of a white guy and nothing else?

Or noticing how Alexis, a generally "hated" character in the fandom, is the only vampire most people are willing to make visibly brown?

How about the fact that Gavin, the "thrilling" and "sexy" incubus, has so many black and brown designs— But I can count the non-white Lasko designs I've come across on my hand?

People can do whatever they want. I've said it before, and I'll continue to repeat it when I make these rambles. If you want to make every single design you have varying shades of white and never stray from that, that's your prerogative. But for the love of god, I wish I didn't feel like I was fucking crazy for talking about how much that shit sucks to see as a person of color.

On top of that, do you know how frustrating it is to watch white artists get praised for generic diversity when POC artists have been consistently bringing forth such compelling, stunning designs to table? Like I see the kind of shit that gets praised in this fandom and what doesn't. Racial ambiguity or the slightest addition of a curl gets treated like it's revolutionary— And that's only if it's the "correct" character. It has to "make sense", right? The same way Sam has to have sun-kissed, golden skin even after he's been turned, or the way Guy has to be white because there's no way someone with that personality could be anything but.

Do you know what it's like to be filled with such a sense of joy because someone made a design where a character had your skin tone or hair texture or facial feature? Like, I genuinely have a strong reaction whenever I find a black or brown design in this fandom because they're so rare in comparison to everything else. And when I really stop to think about that, I realize how fucked up of a phenomenon that is.

I love the designs that I've made, but I've also noticed which ones "do better" comparably. I don't change much of anything with how I go about posting or promoting them. The only difference is that some of them fit what is considered widely "canon" in fandom. And the others... don't. I go out of my way to make every design POC in some regard, and you can usually tell visually even without the addition of colors. I'm not gonna stop doing that because I know why I started in the first place. But fuck, it does start to hurt seeing white artists with the same general white designs get hyped up endlessly while I internally debate if I should even make another character look like me or not. If it'll even matter to anyone but me.

Some days, I just really wish it didn't feel like shit being black in this fandom. I hate knowing that I'm gonna post this, and I'll probably get responses for other people of color primarily.

But maybe putting this out will help that pill get easier to swallow.

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Please I'm completely in love god. This is amazing, you're amazing this this is....im eating it right now. This is my food now

FL fr saw a guy studying in a library on their first day on DAMN and said hi babygirl

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How.. How am I seeing this now ......... Oh my god

Another drawing idea recommended by peeps this time by @sri-rachaa who suggested drawing Gavin!

Decided to doodle Gavin hanging out with freelancer who just so happens to be playing on their switch! What game are they playing though??? 👀

This was fun to work on! Sorry it took so long! Also I have no idea how to draw a switch-

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Cause I love you and appreciate you as my friend babe :3

So...maybe I liked fool! Gavin a bit too much.. (VERY SUGGESTIVE UNDER THE CUT)

The whole "let's go somewhere else I need you in private" got me fucking screaming

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So...maybe I liked fool! Gavin a bit too much.. (VERY SUGGESTIVE UNDER THE CUT)

The whole "let's go somewhere else I need you in private" got me fucking screaming

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Guys actually wait. What if I make a tik tok account for my redacted designs and shit and like post things like normal people do ehh EEhhh

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Requested by my boyfriends :3

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sometimes I like people's post (specially redacted stuff) and then I wonder "oh would they recognize me like ah you're one of the people who design redacted characters" ahsdgagdfaugsdegadhga don't mind me I'm silly

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I've watched him for such a long time and NEVER DID I EVER THOUGHT ABOUT THE FACT THAT HE'S CALLED SAM COLLINS

You guys will never guess who I found

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Noo come back pookie I promise it was an accident

Stop bullying Leo m-orgy, he's hot so that takes away the fact that he ate a centipede when he was a kid

Are you calling me an orgy, Ash?

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It wasn't on purpose it was an accident m orgy I'm sorry

Stop bullying Leo m-orgy, he's hot so that takes away the fact that he ate a centipede when he was a kid

Are you calling me an orgy, Ash?

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I would never call you such thing..I appreciate you Cielo

Stop bullying Leo m-orgy, he's hot so that takes away the fact that he ate a centipede when he was a kid

Are you calling me an orgy, Ash?

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new year same fixation accompanied by redesigns. We've got: good boy (Lasko), old man kink (Sam it's the same but with little details like scars from the accident) and hot boi summer (Gavin and his human skin tone)

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if anyone ever complains about darlin' I'm throwing hands because this, this is the good shit

I saw this meme template and I just had to

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Babe are u kidding I love that one I did but tumblr got mad at it >:(

GAVIN HAS HEART-SHAPED TOP SURGERY SCARS‼️‼️