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They will never know the enormous strength it takes to leave them. #narcissisticabuse #emotionalabuse #trauma #bpd #npd #suicide #twinflame #narcissism #borderline #traumabond #traumabonding #codependency #peoplepleasing

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love is like a bomb

love is like a bomb

Memories come back with a startlingly new perspective.  You won’t fight for me.  Leave like you do.  I would like to sleep alone tonight. I miss us.  I’m done.  You’re my end game.  Why aren’t you paying attention to me?  I can’t deal with your defensiveness.  You don’t see me.  I always felt beautiful with you.  You’re killing me.  Can we go home and be us?  Did you fuck her?  I…

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beneath your thunder

“You ruin everything,” she screams and puts her hands on me. I don’t react. Hundreds of guests. A beautiful place. A beautiful feast. A beautiful night. Except, she gets wasted and does what she wants. Which is fine. Except when she crosses lines. Standing outside the very expensive restaurant I secured for her birthday, and with a slew of customers, friends and family members watching, I let her…

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comfort food night train

"And in that darkness, there is a knowing that nobody is coming to save me." Subscribe and follow at andonthebrightside.com #narcissist #narcissism #traumabond #emotionalabuse #hope #reactiveabuse #notalone

You won’t find bruises, broken bones, or split lips. Nothing to outwardly show the world that I am not okay. Sometimes I wonder if I might have liked physical abuse better. The physical body has the ability to heal itself. How does one heal the invisible? I don’t know what to do with the psychological damage or daunting task of untangling myself from the labyrinth of narcissistic abuse. Each…

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comfort food night train

"And in that darkness, there is a knowing that nobody is coming to save me." Subscribe and follow at andonthebrightside.com #narcissist #narcissism #traumabond #emotionalabuse #hope #reactiveabuse #notalone

You won’t find bruises, broken bones, or split lips. Nothing to outwardly show the world that I am not okay. Sometimes I wonder if I might have liked physical abuse better. The physical body has the ability to heal itself. How does one heal the invisible? I don’t know what to do with the psychological damage or daunting task of untangling myself from the labyrinth of narcissistic abuse. Each…

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comfort food night train

comfort food night train

On the last night I saw her, I told my wife she was a narcissist.  You won’t find bruises, broken bones, or split lips. Nothing to outwardly show the world that I am not okay. Sometimes I wonder if I might have liked physical abuse better. The physical body has the ability to heal itself. How does one heal the invisible? I don’t know what to do with the psychological damage or daunting task of…

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ants, bees and honey...

ants, bees and honey…

There are nights I want to tear our house down, light our memories on fire and throw my wedding in the ocean. There are days when tears push out of my eyes catching me off guard because I was not thinking of my wife. There are a thousand songs I skip on the radio because all I see are our moments in them. There are scenes in shows and movies I quickly move through. Through all of it, in every…

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Team I Abandon Myself

Team I Abandon Myself

Trigger Warning: Suicide “I don’t want you to kill yourself with my fucking meds,” the psychiatrist says, “I’m going to give you a two week low dose of Lexapro. If you decide to kill yourself with them, you will be in the ICU for weeks, feel like shit and be aware of it, and won’t die.” Fair enough. “I don’t want you on meds at all but you need to talk this shit out with your therapist so I’m…

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You are fierce and indestructible.

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