jacqien

[jacqien]

so much love experienced makes you gluttonous.

you forget how calm, and beautiful it is.

you take it for granted because you don't see the dark sides of other's hearts.

you're just taking it in. oblivious to its magic.

living through other's hurtful stories.

then you see how special...yours is.

how it doesn't come often in a million lifetimes.

— Jacqie Naya

[jacqien]

[jacqien]

“Stop thinking that other people are going to come and save you. You gotta save yourself.”

— Rae Earl

[jacqien]

Has anyone read The Kingdom of the Wicked series? I need to vent and compare notes.

[jacqien]

“At least I’m not as sad as I used to be.”

— fun.

[jacqien]

“We could do ourselves a tremendous favor by letting go of the people who poison our spirit.”

— Steve Maraboli

[jacqien]

how many books do I want to read? all of them. there is no limit. my frail body will one day be crushed under the weight of my tbr pile and my mind will rejoice at all the lives I have lived, at all the new words that I have learnt and yet there will still be more books that I wish to read. i am simply a gaping chasm that only books can fill.

[jacqien]

“When someone tells me to 'just relax,' I wonder why they don’t hand me a book?” ― Richelle E. Goodrich.

[jacqien]

“There are some things about myself I can’t explain to anyone. There are some things I don’t understand at all. I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after. I don’t know what my strengths are or what I’m supposed to do about them. But if I start thinking about these things in too much detail the whole thing gets scary.”

— Haruki Murakami, A Slow Boat to China

[jacqien]

I labelled myself a writer and tried to get my goals to support my label. Instead, I should've gotten my label to support my goals. My goals should be there regardless of that label. I should not try to 'act' my label but be it.

[jacqien]

“I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for.”

— Alice Hoffman, Practical Magic

[jacqien]

17|10|2023

My dream...

• Have a cafe + bookshop in a little nook somewhere.

• In a place rich with history, and old buildings.

• A small community of like-minded people who enjoy a good cup of coffee with a book in the other hand. 🤎

[jacqien]

hundreds of thousands of Palestinians displaced has to be one of the most horrific crimes we've witnessed in recent times.

israel is telling over a million(!!) palestinians to leave gaza before they begin attacking, and the UN has reported that to be impossible in such a short amount of time.

we're watching literal genocide occur. remember that when y'all are reposting #istandwithisrael

[jacqien]

This is how I lived back then– through books. I locked myself into their stories, dreamt of their characters at night, pretended to be them. They were my armour against the hard edges of reality.  

― Tomasz Jedrowski, Swimming in the Dark

[jacqien]

17|10|2023

I have never experienced a reading slump for long. I always get in and out the other side craving to be in another world. But I'm finding it hard to... read anything right now. I don't know how and why it's happening. It makes feel sad. Perhaps it's how empty I've been feeling lately. I didn't think my emotions could possibly go lower than they have this year. Alas, it seems as though life keeps shocking me.

How does one... drift. how does one stop looking for things to make them feel alive, and just be? How do I stop looking for purpose and move with intention of everything I do? Everything that I'm doing IS my purpose, is it not? Sigh... I don't really know where I'm heading, as long as I wake up and head somewhere.

I should be more intentional.

[jacqien]

I feel empty.