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Emercency has hit, and we have less than a dollar in the bank after having to run medical tests on my fiancee, immediately after paying rent late. I hate to ask for help from strangers, but it isnt for me. Its for the cat I've had and loved for over a decade.

This is Chicken. Last night he started crying while eating and pawing at his face. We think he has a tooth issue we cannot afford to fix, and it could fall anywhere from $375-800 at the discount vet we are looking at. As I said before, we have less than a dollar in the bank.

I can offer services such as: editing/proofreading, beta reading, mental illness sensitivity reading, oc building, world building assistance, and various literarary creative help. I am more than happy to perform any creative services I can in return for any donations, however small. I will literally proofread and beta read a 80k word novel manuscript for $5 rn lol.

Chicken has been present my entire memorable life, and seeing/hearing him in pain literally brings me to tears. I've asked everyone I can, only to be met with loved ones facing their own financial hardships(and understandably so). Please help me help my boy, if you can. Just message me what you want in return, as long as it isn't sexual in nature, and I will deliver.

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cashapp is pandoramoreau

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henlo sir m'am uh i wanted to ask if you'd be kind enough to give me a summary on what "2ha" is about? i've seen it around and have wanted to get into it but i'm a wuss and don't like jumping in blindly ; u ;

yeah of course!! 

what is 2ha?

so 2HA aka ER HA aka THE DUMB HUSKY AND HIS WHITE CAT SHIZUN is a m/m chinese fantasy novel by meatbun (that’s the author’s handle) clocking in at about 300 chapters. it has lots of warnings associated with it which can be found at the start of various chapters. before i go on, here are links to the google drives where you can read it:

translation from 1-117

mtl from 117-321

it’s going to be made into a live action titled IMMORTALITY and all the art in this post is official concept art from that adaptation. the author also refers to the novel as “this venerable one has been reformed” which would probably make more sense as a title since the novel is not at all what the common title suggests.

what’s it about?

it’s basically a time travel fix-it story. the premise is that the evil emperor of the cultivation world, mo ran, dies and is transported back to his 15 year old body before the events that lead to him becoming the worst person in the world. he realizes he has a chance to stop the death of his friend, shi mei, that lead to his descent into evil the first time, and there’s our story–but don’t be fooled. the person he blames for that death is his shizun, chu wanning, and that is the other half of our main pairing.

in their original life, after mo ran made himself emperor and started terrorizing the world, chu wanning was the only cultivator powerful enough to defy him. he took responsibility for mo ran’s descent as his shizun and thwarted him three times before he finally fell to mo ran, in dramatic fashion. he’s an ascetic in all ways, beautiful and cold, purer than pure and without emotion other than being short-tempered (or so it seems). after he fell in the first life, mo ran made him his prisoner and took out both his anger and his lust on his once-shizun, and that’s where most of the warnings for dark content come into play. i’ll let you fill in the blanks. 

of course, nothing is as it seems, and the truths mo ran built his previous life begin to fall apart under fresh examination. the most devastating? chu wanning never hated mo ran, and will give anything to protect him–literally–and those stakes couldn’t be higher. we soon learn this redux life isn’t going the way mo ran’s previous one went at all; someone else is getting a chance at a redo, too, and whatever they want, the danger to the people mo ran cares for is vast. he’ll have to get stronger fast to protect the people he needs to–and he’ll have to figure out who that is before it’s too late.

tl;dr and gentle warnings

tl;dr: take an evil emperor forced to relive his teens and twenties who spent much of his previous life exacting revenge on the world in general and chu wanning in specific, a cold shizun who actually feels 800 emotions a day but is too awkward to show any of them, and then throw in a lot of ghosts and demons, epic love, sacrifice, dire misunderstandings, incredible settings, fun side characters, a big mystery, and you’ve got 2HA.

anyway i would be remiss at this point if i didn’t warn a little bit: mo ran really was horrible in his previous life. nothing about this story is sanitized, but it’s also not gratuitous. this is basically character growth: the novel, and both mo ran and chu wanning have to go through hell first to get there. if you like hurt/comfort,  you will love this. i actually really enjoyed reading those vignettes on who mo ran used to be and how compelling and yet deeply screwed up his relationship with chu wanning was then. it makes the payoff even better. also, some may find the initial age gap uncomfy since cwn is of ambiguous immortal-beauty age and mo ran starts as a 30+ year old in a 15 year old’s body. i didn’t care or find it distasteful since nothing happens until mo ran is well out of his teens. honestly, i feel like the only thing that really needs to be warned for is the fucking incredible amount of thirst that the main characters go through from chapter 140 on. i never read pining until i read this.

you will like it if…

you like the trope where one half of the pairing disdains the other half and blames them for something that wasn’t their fault and then the person being blamed does something self-sacrificial and the blamer realizes how wrong they were and tries to fix it, if you like character growth, if you like hurt/comfort and fluff, if you like fantasy, etc.

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Things I Never Learned In High School

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24 Invaluable Skills To Learn For Free Online This Year

Here’s an easy resolution: This stuff is all free as long as you have access to a computer, and the skills you learn will be invaluable in your career, and/or life in general. 

1. Become awesome at Excel.

Chandoo is one of many gracious Excel experts who wants to share their knowledge with the world. Excel excellence is one of those skills that will improve your chances of getting a good job instantly, and it will continue to prove invaluable over the course of your career. What are you waiting for?

2. Learn how to code.

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Perhaps no other skill you can learn for free online has as much potential to lead to a lucrative career. Want to build a site for your startup? Want to build the next big app? Want to get hired at a place like BuzzFeed? You should learn to code. There are a lot of places that offer free or cheap online coding tutorials, but I recommend Code Academy for their breadth and innovative program. If you want to try a more traditional route, Harvard offers its excellent Introduction to Computer Science course online for free.

3. Make a dynamic website.

You could use a pre-existing template or blogging service, or you could learn Ruby on Rails and probably change your life forever. Here’s an extremely helpful long list of free Ruby learning tools that includes everything from Rails for Zombies to Learn Ruby The Hard Way. Go! Ruby! Some basic programming experience, like one of the courses above, might be helpful (but not necessarily required if you’re patient with yourself).

4. Learn to make a mobile game.

If you’re not interested in coding anything other than fun game apps, you could trythis course from the University of Reading. It promises to teach you how to build a game in Java, even if you don’t have programming experience! If you want to make a truly great game, you might want to read/listen up on Game Theory first.

5. Start reading faster.

Spreeder is a free online program that will improve your reading skill and comprehension no matter how old you are. With enough practice, you could learn to double, triple, or even quadruple the speed at which you read passages currently, which is basically like adding years to your life.

6. Learn a language!

With Duolingo, you can learn Spanish, French, Portuguese, Italian, or English (from any of the above or more). There’s a mobile app and a website, and the extensive courses are completely free.

Full disclosure: BuzzFeed and other websites are in a partnership with DuoLingo, but they did not pay or ask for this placement.

7. Pickle your own vegetables.

Tired of your farmer’s market haul going bad before you use it all? Or do you just love tangy pickled veggies? You too can pickle like a pro thanks to SkillShare and Travis Grillo.

8. Improve your public speaking skills.

You can take the University of Washington’s Intro to Public Speaking for free online. Once you learn a few tricks of the trade, you’ll be able to go into situations like being asked to present at a company meeting or giving a presentation in class without nearly as much fear and loathing.

9. Get a basic handle of statistics.

UC Berkeley put a stats intro class on iTunes. Once you know how to understand the numbers yourself, you’ll never read a biased “news” article the same way again — 100% of authors of this post agree!

10. Understand basic psychology.

Knowing the basics of psych will bring context to your understanding of yourself, the dynamics of your family and friendships, what’s really going on with your coworkers, and the woes and wonders of society in general. Yale University has its Intro to Psychology lectures online for free.

11. Make your own music.

Step one: Learn how to play guitar: Justin Guitar is a fine and free place to start learning chords and the basic skills you’ll need to be able to play guitar — from there, it’s up to you, but once you know the basics, just looking up tabs for your favorite songs and learning them on your own is how many young guitar players get their start (plus it’s an excellent party trick).

Step two: A delightful free voice lesson from Berklee College Of Music.

Step three: Have you always thought you had an inner TSwift? Berklee College of Music offers an Introduction to Songwriting course completely for free online. The course is six weeks long, and by the end of the lesson you’ll have at least one completed song.

Step four: Lifehacker’s basics of music production will help you put it all together once you have the skills down! You’ll be recording your own music, ready to share with your valentine or the entire world, in no time!

12. Learn to negotiate.

Let Stanford’s Stan Christensen explain how to negotiate in business and your personal life, managing relationships for your personal gain and not letting yourself be steamrolled. There are a lot of football metaphors and it’s great.

13. Stop hating math.

If you struggled with math throughout school and now have trouble applying it in real-world situations when it crops up, try Saylor.org’s Real World Math course. It will reteach you basic math skills as they apply IRL. Very helpful!

14. Start drawing!

All kids draw — so why do we become so afraid of it as adults? Everyone should feel comfortable with a sketchbook and pencil, and sketching is a wonderful way to express your creativity. DrawSpace is a great place to start. (I also highly recommend the book Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain if you can drop a few dollars for a used copy.)

15. Make your own animated GIF.

BuzzFeed’s own Katie Notopoulos has a great, simple guide to making an animated GIF without Photoshop. This is all you need to be the king or queen of Tumblr or your favorite email chains.

16. Appreciate jazz.

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Have you never really “gotten” jazz? If you want to be able to participate in conversations at fancy parties and/or just add some context to your appreciation of all music, try this free online course from UT Austin.

17. Write well.

Macalester College’s lecture series is excellent. If you’re more interested in journalism, try Wikiversity’s course selection.

18. Get better at using Photoshop.

Another invaluable skill that will get you places in your career, learning Photoshop can be as fun as watching the hilarious videos on You Suck At Photoshop or as serious as this extensive Udemy training course (focused on photo retouching).

19. Take decent pictures.

Lifehacker’s basics of photography might be a good place to start. Learn how your camera works, the basic of composition, and editing images in post-production. If you finish that and you’re not sure what to do next, here’s a short course on displaying and sharing your digital photographs.

20. Learn to knit.

Instructables has a great course by a woman who is herself an online-taught knitter. You’ll be making baby hats and cute scarves before this winter’s over!

21. Get started with investing in stocks.

If you are lucky enough to have a regular income, you should start learning about savings and investment now. Investopedia has a ton of online resources, including this free stocks basics course. Invest away!

22. Clean your house in a short amount of time.

Unf$#k Your Habitat has a great emergency cleaning guide for when your mother-in-law springs a surprise visit on you. While you’re over there, the entire blog is good for getting organized and clean in the long term, not just in “emergencies.” You’ll be happier for it.

23. Start practicing yoga.

Most cities have free community classes (try just searching Google or inquiring at your local yoga studio), or if you’re more comfortable trying yoga at home, YogaGlohas a great 15-day trial and Yome is a compendium of 100% free yoga videos. If you’re already familiar with basic yoga positions but you need an easy way to practice at home, I recommend YogaTailor’s free trial as well.

24. Tie your shoelaces more efficiently.

It’s simple and just imagine the minutes of your life you’ll save!

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once you stop fantasizing about that ideal version of yourself and start working towards becoming that person by setting your alarm clock earlier and actually going to the gym and actually volunteering at places and actually eating healthier and not procrastinating and working just a little bit harder you’ll realize that it was so easy all along. becoming your ideal self will only ever exist in your mind until you make the decision to work towards becoming that person. get up!! get going!! it’s now or never!! there is no light at the end of the tunnel!! get that flashlight and pave your own path bitch bc no one else is going to do it for u!!

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“A long time ago I learned not to explain things to people. It misleads them into thinking they’re entitled to know everything I do.”

— Lisa Kleypas (via quotemadness)

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reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

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“I might be having some difficulty understanding this subject, but i’m going to be patient, get some clarity on what I’m confused by and I’m going to learn this. After I understand it, I’ll be able to help folks that had the same struggles as me.”

— Affirmation of the day.

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The time I ruined my high school teachers career and got her fired in the greatest way possible.

This story is widely known amongst my family and is constantly brought up and joked upon in my group of friends even years later. A buddy of mine suggested that this is the perfect place to make it public so let’s get into this shit storm.

Backstory: I was a senior in high school at the time and i had never been the brightest student. I was a solid C student and i had never received a detention or had any kind of bad student record. This is important because to this day, i still have no idea why the teacher treated me this way. The teacher, who we will name Mrs. Frank, had been a teacher there for more then a decade and was widely known for being a petty heartless bitch who the administrators saw as the golden child.

Mrs. Frank taught algebra, which is my worst subject, so naturally i had issues understanding the lessons and would ask questions frequently. To some these questions are easily answered but to me it was rocket science.

Usually when someone asks a dumb question, no one should address it however in Mrs. Franks case she would belittle me in front of everyone by saying things such as “And here comes the slow boy again” , “wow surprise surprise you don’t understand it again” “Really? We have to go extra slow for you today don’t we” etc…etc.

I tried going to the administration about it before but again she was considered the golden child. They would send someone in to examine her during class, she would act respectful and normal for one day, and go back to being a bitch the next.

This goes on for about half the year until i had enough. I went to the local radioshack, bought a recorder, and secretly recorded every insult she would throw at me. I would sometimes instigate to make up for the lost time.

Go ahead feed the fire.

Fast forward to the end of the year and im sitting in Mrs. Franks class when i ask a question. Her response, and i quote (because it’s burned into my brain) was-

“I’ve been teaching here for over 10 years and that was the single dumbest question I’ve ever heard come from anyone’s mouth.”

She continued the lesson without answering. I calmly stood up, packed up my stuff, and headed to the nurses office to dismiss myself from school. (We were allowed to dismiss ourself if we were 18.)

I went home, compiled all of the brutal tapes into one glorious masterpiece of insults, and headed back the next day to show the administrators. I sat down with the principal and we listened to a couple of the insults before he stopped me. He wanted more witnesses present as well as Mrs. Franks. He told me we would meet the next day where i could show him and the rest of the administrators the full tape.

I walk into school the next morning being the most nervous iv ever been for anything. I was called down to the office where i met with some board directors, the local school police officer, the principal, the vice principal and Mrs. Franks.

What follows was some of the greatest minutes of my life.

I watched as the administrators went from fed up with being in another useless meeting, to furious and speechless with some of them keeping their mouths open for the duration of the tape. I also watched Mrs. Frank go from confident and stuck up, to her realizing that she had f*cked up beyond repair.

She was publicly roasting herself in front of the most important people from the district.

The tape ended and without hesitation, the administrators looked around in astonishment and the principal turns to me and says “I think we have heard everything we need to, thank you.” And i was quietly dismissed from the room.

The final time i saw Mrs. Frank was leaving the room. I looked back and we made eye contact through her tear filled eyes as i gave the biggest most evil smile.

I returned to class the next week and Mrs. Frank was no where to be found. The story spread quickly throughout the school and i was seen as a saint. I had successfully gotten her fired and made it almost impossible for Mrs. Frank to return to her teaching career as well as cut off most of her connections she had with other teachers in the school. I had ruined her financially because no school district in the area would hire this walking piece of garbage.

If you’re reading this Mrs. Frank id like to take this moment to tell you to go f*ck yourself.

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“Decide in your heart of hearts what really excites and challenges you, and start moving your life in that direction. Every decision you make, from what you eat to what you do with your time tonight, turns you into who you are tomorrow, and the day after that. Look at who you want to be, and start sculpting yourself into that person. You may not get exactly where you thought you’d be, but you will be doing things that suit you in a profession you believe in. Don’t let life randomly kick you into the adult you don’t want to become.”

— Commander Chris Hadfield (via sciencesoup)

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...with some exceptions, of course

caine= local anesthetics cillin= antibiotics dine= anti-ulcer agents done= opiod analgesics ide= oral hypoglycemics iam= antianxiety agents micin= antibiotics nium= neuromuscular blocking agents olol= beta blockers ole= anti-fungal oxacin= antibiotics pam= antianxiety agents pril= ace inhibitors sone= steroids statin= antihyperlipidemics vir= antivirals zide= diuretics

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NCLEX Pharmacology Medical Suffixes

-amil = calcium channel blockers

-caine = local anesthetics

-dine = anti-ulcer agents (H2 histamine blockers)

-done = opioid analgesics

-ide = oral hypoglycemics

-lam = anti-anxiety agents

-oxacin = broad spectrum antibiotics

-micin = antibiotics

-mide = diuretics

-mycin = antibiotics

-nuim = neuromuscular blockers

-olol = beta blockers

-pam = anti-anxiety agents

-pine = calcium channel blockers

-pril = ace inhibitors

-sone = steroids

-statin =antihyperlipidemics

-vir = anti-virais

-zide = diuretics

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i can’t believe we’re all young professionals and academics and we’re still logging on to tumblr.com every single day to clown on ourselves. who let this happen

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the phrase “curiosity killed the cat” is actually not the full phrase it actually is “curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back” so don’t let anyone tell you not to be a curious little baby okay go and be interested in the world uwu

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“Quittable”

Two years ago, I was ready to quit nursing.

Not in the conventional, end of shift, I can’t wait to get out of here, way.

Not in the new graduate, holy hell, I can’t do this, I’m quitting sort of way,

Not in the burned out, I’m so tired of it all, way.

All legitimate, except there are people who will tell you, no, you just need to suck it up. “Nurses aren’t quitters.”

Two years ago, I contemplated quitting the profession,

I didn’t care that I had earned two degrees, it didn’t matter that I was a Masters prepared nurse.

It only mattered I wanted to quit, and there would be something better out there, something I wasn’t failing at.

And so, I quit.

I spent time without employment, without prospects, without a clear direction of where I was heading. The people closest to me at the time suggested, perhaps it’s time to look into other professions, sustainable ones. I was met with pity, which is by far, exponentially worse than any misery met in the employ of a dictator.

But you see, I didn’t just quit the profession, I had quit the part of me that wasn’t “quittable.”  

I spent time explaining, soon realizing you cannot explain rock bottom to people who haven’t experienced it, you cannot explain the despair incomparable to the daily frustrations everyone surely feels. You cannot explain, to those who are insistent that if you simply change your attitude, all will be peachy.

And so, I learned you cannot explain.

But i contemplated attitude.

I contemplated that you can be the most motivated person,

…and walk in the door to a group of consistently negative people

You can have great ideas,

…and face an employer who shoots every one of them down, autocratic style

You can greet each day with hope, a quiet sort of new beginning,

…and still face the same  snide remarks, running commentary, ad nauseam

I contemplated what it means to spend an hour, a day, a week, a working life in an unhealthy environment,

and I quit.

I listened, as my employer called me “a quitter,”

But, I saw it as escape.

You see, we sometimes misinterpret the idea of quitting - and its nuance; the difference between what your gut instinct tells you is not inherently a good place to be, to grow - and experiencing tough times,  perhaps being exceptionally tough on yourself for where you are in that moment.

I was relieved, but I didn’t know it yet.

Fast Forward one year

I’m in a chair, a panel, being interviewed, but really, I’m interviewing them. Nurses are champions at assessing people without giving away what they’ve seen. My mistake? Just over a  year before I didn’t trust my instinct when in precisely the same position. I didn’t trust the raw instinct that whispered… …something is amiss.

I’m in this chair, as they speak, I’m observing their interaction with one another, I’m observing reactions of others when someone speaks, what they say, tone, what they choose to tell about their organization, what they choose to keep silent about.

I’m in this chair, contemplating if this is an environment that I will be safe to be me.

Fast forward  almost two years from QUIT

I’m safe.

And I know this, as I’ve experienced it before. I’ve felt this before, I’ve worked with nurses, on nursing units, in hospitals where I’ve felt safe and supported. I knew this was possible, but I quit that part of me that handn’t remembered this is also an important part of nursing structure, and it does exist.

I’m safe, for now, in this moment, and this is what counts.

Yesterday

I walked onto one of the units I cover, and was met with a registered nurse who was experiencing difficulty with some recent education, although as I looked into her face, I read an all too familiar look.

I took her nurse manager aside.

“I know this look,”I said.

“No, she’s just stressed about the changes here.”

I pulled the nurse aside, away from the exposure of the unit, the spotlight of being watched by coworkers, and she spoke. And I listened. She spoke about being the target of her coworkers, people who had been her friends, her confidants, people she trusted, an environment she trusted to go to for 12.5 hours each day  an environment that was now unfamiliar, and cold. And my heart broke for her. It wasn’t pity, it was understanding. My heart broke for how long she had possibly been feeling like this, and expected to perform her duties, nurse mask on, expected to work alongside people who smiled to her face, and cunningly targeted her when the curtain areas, medication room, supply room doors were closed.

I stood for a moment, at the door of the unit, and thought about this world of  nursing, the most “trusted profession in America,” and as much as I thought I had closed my own door to this, my work was just beginning, work that was decidedly more important to me than some of the most arbitrary inservices we do over, and over again.

Nurses work too long,  and too hard in what they do to be in places or positions that are uncomfortable or unsupportive. I have more work to do, and I’m grateful I’m in a position to not just speak out about this, but act on it to support others through their own trials.

So the next time someone tells you they want to quit, listen….maybe we need to take them seriously. Take their concerns seriously. Burnout, feelings of failure, unsupportive work environment, autocratic employers. Take them seriously, without offering platitudes that “everything will be ok, just suck it up.” 

Quitting doesn’t mean you’ve failed. Sometimes you need to quit to move forward.

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We question our reason to live and if it’s worth it when we’re:

1. Suffering so much and/or always

2. Very lost and confused in life

3. Doing okay but life seems meaningless

4. Tired of it all as we’ve seen and been through so much