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fuck these fascists

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Just read and listen, and be still.

Andrew Garfield on losing his mother, The Believer

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Unfit The Psychology Of Donald Trump (2020) - 123movies from Cassandra Marie on Vimeo.

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I try not to hate, we are all human, all have value, and all deserving of love.

I don't hate you for how you voted, but I do not feel safe with anyone who knowingly supported a man who everyone knows supports racism, sexism, misoginy, rape, homophobia, xenophobia, transphobia, Islamphobia, and ableism, and who I know will cause direct harm to many people I love dearly.

So please follow the above, for my safety.

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"I Do" from Jonathan Bregel on Vimeo.

“I Do” is an exploration of a love that surpasses time and adversity, unfolding within breast cancer's shadow. This ten-minute documentary follows widower Jim Kuhlman as he candidly reflects on his enduring love story with late wife Julie, serving as a reminder that love's echo endures, even as life's chapters unfold.

Subtitles available in Chinese (Simplified), Hindi, Arabic, Korean, and English.

Featuring: Jim Kuhlman | kuhlmanart.com

Director, Cinematographer, Editor: Jon Bregel Music: Nils Frahm Producer: David Bonnett Jr. Executive Producer: Jon Bregel Executive Producer: Ien Chi Sound Design: Christian Stropko Color House: Blacksmith Colorist: Mikey Pehanich Color Producer: Adam Vevang Color Assist: Sam Howells Title Design & End Credits: GrandArmy Production Company: JB Films Post Production: Nourish Creative

Special Thanks: National Widowers' Organization, Inc. Frederick H. Spero Dr. Sherry R. Schachter, PhD, FT, RN David Kessler Leslie Ries Dr. John Fetting Steve Case Trace Bell The Grief Toolbox Robyn Roth Glen Lord The ManKind Project Boysen Hodgson Ryan Sanderson Khalid Mohtaseb Daniele Anastasion

Film Contact: Jon Bregel | Jbregel@gmail.com

JonathanBregel.com nourish.art

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So much grief

I'm carrying so much grief, anger, frustration and sadness right now. Of course, my suffering is as nothing compared to thousands of others, but it doesn't make it invalid.

All I want is the pain to end. For there to be peace, freedom and safety for all. For everyone to get along.

And I just wish we could all collectively and individually learn how to process and express our grief in a healthy way. Because raw unprocessed grief just causes such harm. It wrecks friendships, it divides communities, and ultimately, taken to its extreme, it can lead to war and violence.

I feel so fucking powerless. I want to do something but I can't. I want to love people well and feel inadequate to do so. I'm so tired of division, hate, fundamentalism and violence. I'm tired of seeing people I love suffer. I feel I'm crying into the void and the universe isn't listening.

We can do so much better. We can be better.

#doctorwho #grief #trauma #emotions #mentalhealth #peace

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Queer Christian and a-spectrum resources, essays, and poetry: https://invisiblecakesociety.com/

My podcast guest appearances: https://invisiblecakesociety.com/podcasts/

Rainbow Faith playlist of queer-affirming faith-adjacent music: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3W0jBrpIARD8tDt7t857dg?si=3818939c4de54e5c

Twitter: @ Jenna_DeWitt

Yet Alive: a quarterly online magazine by affirming Wesleyans. Read and submit essays, poems, art, interviews, and more here: https://yetalive.com

Evolving Faith, a sanctuary for misfits in the spiritual wilderness, on Mighty Networks: https://community.evolvingfaith.com/share/yRDae5BEhrg0aiSf?utm_source=manual

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Seeing Ourselves

People often watch movies and see characters, and their reaction is “that’s the kind of person I’d like to be”. What they mean can be anything from a look, a vocation, a role, or ‘just the kind of person who does xyz”.

I saw a movie today where the lead character had a look and personality, and even some lived experiences, which I admired, I connected with.

At first my reaction was I wanted to be like them. But then I reflected, and realised, I didn’t want to be like them. In fact, they reflected a part of me I’ve yet to explore and embrace.  

You see the difference? I think often when we see people, even fictional characters, who embody who we already are or can be, we connect because some part of our authentic self connects. These characters or real life people just inspire us to explore these parts of ourselves which already exist, we just didn’t meet that side of ourselves yet.

And it’s often easier to live those dreams, ideals and lives out through someone else. Choosing to be ourselves takes courage, it takes hard work, it can be painful and risky.

I’ve grown enough and done enough work on myself to know its worth it.

But even I struggle to keep being courageous.

Maybe its time I began taking some risks again. It’s going to hurt, but it might also heal.

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Regenerating Me (2022 version)

I had a dream recently where I was the Doctor and I regenerated...into my own current body. I physically felt the energy of regeneration in my body, I could see the bright lights we see depicted in this GIF.  I’m still trying to figure out what this dream meant, but it felt so true.

The regeneration metaphor has so much power

Keeping your consciousness but also becoming someone very different. The journey of growth, healing and awakening (some call it ‘deconstruction’, though for me it minimises it), is about allowing the old self to pass on, and becoming a new, more authentic, transformed self - whilst still acknowledging and learning from who you were.

Add to this the fact that every 7 years your body quite literally replaces every single cell, so you are literally a new person every 7 years physically - but still you. Maybe this is why the seasons of life are measured in 7, why they say if a marriage lasts 7 years it can last - because in that period everything about you changes...yet you still somehow stay you. 

Maybe this a metaphor more of us need to pay attention to and be more intentional about. I certainly will...

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“I’ve been here all along”

What is it 

               what am i 

                               trying 

                                         to 

                                            say

                                                  ?

The heart knows. My inner consciousness, my awareness, somehow knows. I’ve just spent so long numbing it, so long being afraid….I just stopped hearing him. 

I spoke to him

last week.

And he said:

“I’ve been here all along”

I thought he was dead. Or quit on me. 

No, it was me. All along. 

However, no shame. Grief and trauma can be powerful masters if we let them, and I was too vulnerable to resist the wide, well trodden path.

Now, three good therapists, an amazing embodiment coach and spiritual director later…the voice desperate to be heard is becoming more audible again.

Where once was silence i can now hear his faint voice.

And its getting

slowly

louder…

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This might be one of my fave GIFS from my fave movie.

It’s who Superman is and who I want to be to those I love. A friend. Sincere. Honest. Supportive. Trustworthy. Kind.

Maybe it’s idealistic of me in the world we live in, but it’s still who I want to be.

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I’m wondering if I could come on here more often and share my writing and more extended thoughts on all sorts of topics.

That might be fun…

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Will this become my Twitter replacement? I can write here more for sure. I just love my people on Twitter, and it sucks so bad that we are losing our safe space to an incompetent narcissist. I hope you can all find me here…

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Well fuck. Wow.

if i didnt know who these characters were i’d say its a french indie gay romantic drama that is playing a little too heavily with color symbolism

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Diana - Our Mother ITV seamless from Ashley Gething on Vimeo.

ITV and HBO film shown around the world. Highest rating film on ITV since 2009 - with 11 million viewers. Nominated for a National Television Award and a Peabody Award in the US. The first time Prince William and Prince Harry had publicly spoken about their mum.

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finding who I’ve become

I’ve really not been myself for a while. I’ve hidden away, I’ve been acting like I’m OK when in truth I’m really not. I’ve been masking without realising I was. I’ve got a lot of anger, which means I probably have a lot of grief, a lot of emotion, a lot of trauma. 

I’ve not been focussed professionally, I’ve not cleaned myself regularly, I’ve not had any sense of rhythm, focus or energy. In a sense, I feel a little lost. I’ve not had momentum, energy, or drive. It’s like I’m the living dead sometimes. 

I don’t have a routine, or a physical community. Those things help. The pandemic had a negative impact on us all in this respect. I’d always loved online community but this took it to another level, almost co-dependent, which is not healthy. So I stepped back, and limited my time there, and found healthier relationships and community. I found other online communities which really helped me and where I now feel at home, like my family, where I feel safest, most myself, most alive.

Yet outside those spaces and people I don’t. I need more structure, I need physical community, and I need some focus. 

I need to find who I’ve become.

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“I’ve been here all along”

What is it 

               what am i 

                               trying 

                                         to 

                                            say

                                                  ?

The heart knows. My inner consciousness, my awareness, somehow knows. I’ve just spent so long numbing it, so long being afraid....I just stopped hearing him. 

I spoke to him

last week.

And he said:

“I’ve been here all along”

I thought he was dead. Or quit on me. 

No, it was me. All along. 

However, no shame. Grief and trauma can be powerful masters if we let them, and I was too vulnerable to resist the wide, well trodden path.

Now, three good therapists, an amazing embodiment coach and spiritual director later...the voice desperate to be heard is becoming more audible again.

Where once was silence i can now hear his faint voice.

And its getting

slowly

louder...