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Ambition, and lack thereof

I have never fully committed to a craft. That’s why I’m not great anything. I’m here at a Fallout Boy concert and Patrick Stump is fuckin amazing as usual. That kind of musical talent takes a lot of work and dedication. And it’s not because my lack of ability that I’ve never achieved anything worth mentioning, it’s my lack of trying.

This is not me saying I could do these things if I wanted. This is me saying that dedication and commitment are the most difficult things.

Anyone that has both these things and a realistic view of how things are, are amazing and deserve accolade.

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Skin picking issues

How do I stop myself from extracting ABSOLUTELY EVERY SINGLE COMEDONE that is on my face? I see a little tiny dark dot and I have to squeeze it out. It’s just making my pores bigger and they’re filling up faster.

Hopefully getting a hydrafacial in a few weeks will help. My face is really starting to suffer from my need to squeeze all of it out. 

Maybe I need to cover up the mirrors.

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Puffy eyes from eyelid surgery and crying about my old and dying dog. I cried for about half an hour while petting her and I think she got sick of me.

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Eyelid Surgery

I got my upper eyelids done 5 days ago. I’m getting my stitches taken out later today. It’s 5am right now and I’ve been up for 3 hours. I guess that’s what taking Phentermine at lunch will do to you.

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I have not blogged in about a decade

Should I start again? I’m using my actual name so I feel like if I really say how I feel about things, I’d be ostracized. My opinion about things are very... non-SJW. 

I’m a realist. I’ve been through struggles but I feel like I’m always trying to better myself by doing things that bring me joy. Sometimes I still struggle with motivation.

I guess if I start getting hella backlash for things I say, I’ll just stop againl