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idk much about astrology but Scorpio and Cancer just felt right to me

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New Jimcurly comic just dropped!! guys come get your wholesome Jimcurlyyyy!! 🗣🗣🗣

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he got his Jimussy out dawgggg!!! 🤯

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Curly can be a freak AND very gentle and loving (in my au). The duality of man. Two wolves inside him and all that

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this could be us.... the whores ❤

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FINALS ARE KILLING MEEEE AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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I can’t stop thinking about bald Jimmy 😭 if you’re not too busy, could you draw bald curly? 😇

I didn't mean to make Curly so mean in the first one I did it was very ooc and it's been eating away at me for weeks now so thank you anon 🥲 Now they're even

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Can I use ur art for a pfp/icon? 👀

Yes! I don't mind people using my art for personal use. As long as you aren't claiming it as your own, then you can do whatever tf you want with it. You have my blessing. 💚

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could you draw Jimmy with pigtails? I love the way you draw him and think he’d look cute!

(Magical girl jimmy ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨🦶🏾✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨)

The sunglasses one goes hard

And PUT THAT FOOT AWAY!!!!! 🗣🗣🗣

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Jimmy when I catch you Jimmy 😏🥵💦 Jimmy when I catch you 🥛😈🍑

oh and uh hi curly what’s up 😐

U ppl send me the most diabolical asks 😭

....please continue to do so it's hilarious

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Did some expressions from Nirami's emotion challenge thing (OG template is under read more) while I regenerate

I like to play w Jimmy's hair like he's one of those Barbie styling heads <3

Template by Nirami on YouTube

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The trope I appreciate very much

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What happened to the tulpar in ur au?

40+ panels... I used my entire spring break on this shit... I ran outta Wellbutrin halfway in.... but I did it... FINALLY!! I'm fuckin FREE!!!! AAAAAAaAAAAA

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Content is coming. Here's a baby Curly in the meantime. He's like somewhere around 7-10 here (?) Sweet baby boy my baby <33 Can't wait to get to the flashback part where they first meet as kids bro I cried writing it bc it's so cuteeee 🥲 Jimmy's definitely that one kid in recess that makes everyone play *his* way because it's *his* ball so *he* gets to make all the rules and everyone has to listen to *him*. Anyways I love them both <33

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JIMMY!!!! MOVE OUT OF THE WAY!!!! IT'S MY TURN TO USE CURLY BOOBIE AS A PILLOW!!!!! MY TURN!!!! IT'S MY TURNNNNNN!!!! 🗣🗣🗣

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hiii umm feel free to ignore this if u want. im not really good at words and articulating things and i know the full project and context is still yet to come but i would really like to ask what direction you’re coming from with this… cause im perceiving like, a sort of unempathetic “HA stupid shit idiot loser finally realized he needs therapy and medication to be worth something” undercurrent (yknow not maybe in those exact words but this general vibe) and i would really like to know if im totally wrong about this, cause i like your art plenty and it gets shared in my circle but something still pokes the back of my mind y’know? i hope the rest of your day is good :)

Ok I avoided mentioning this because I really prefer not to share details about my mental health and personal traumatic experiences, but I guess I should've said this sooner:

TW: Depression, su*cide attempt

Note: To be clear, whenever I mention "Jimmy" I am NOT talking about the character from the game. I'm talking about the Jimmy in my AU.

This AU is rooted in my own experiences with mental illness, severe depression, and taking medication. I have struggled with depression for the majority of my life and around 4 years ago I reached my lowest point. It got so bad that just being alive hurt. Living hurt. Everything just hurt. From the moment I woke up until the moment I fell asleep all I could feel was just pure pain. Not just emotional pain, it manifested into physical pain. And it was bad. I felt like I was rotting on the inside and my soul was trying to climb out of the torture chamber that my body had become. I was willing to do anything to make the pain and suffering stop. I was prepared to end my life and if I hadn't made the decision to try medication as a last resort, I can say with 100% percent certainty that I would be dead right now. I really couldn't take it anymore. I had reached the absolute bottom. I gave up.

Jimmy in this AU is sort of a projection of myself, both past and present. Good and bad. Not sure why my brain decided to pick this character specifically to project onto. I hated him with a passion when I first finished the game. Idk might have something to do with me having autism and adhd or something or all the jimcurly fanfic I started reading. I'm doing better now, but that experience will always stick with me. Because it's part of me now in a way and I found that using creative outlets to sort of cope really helps. Like taking parts of my trauma, creating something new out of it, and then just putting it out in the world and letting it go. It's not trapped inside my body anymore. It takes some of the weight off my shoulders. It's helped me heal a lot. I also have a tendency to use self-deprecating humor as a coping mechanism. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing.

Maybe I've been too hyperbolic about Jimmy's traits? I'm not sure. I tend to do that a lot to myself.

But, all of this au stuff isn't just something I pulled out of my ass or made up. It's all based on something real that happened to me. This is built on an actual person's experience. My experience.

Jimmy is also meant to be a lot more nuanced. There's an animation in progress that tells the story a lot better. It's like one of those animatic music video things ppl make and post on YouTube. The song is really important to this AU, honestly it's kinda like the theme song to me?? Idk It's called TENSIONNN by Webcage (such a bop legitimately) it's meant to describe the tail end of the "fallout" and the entirety of the "split" from Jimmy's pov. The most important lyric in that song and probably the lyric that this AU was created around is:

"I won't leave you now, It's too poetic"

It's poetic that Jimmy left with the intention of watching Curly crash and burn without him in his life, only to turn around and watch him succeed and soar. It's a tragedy. But it's ALSO poetic that Jimmy started to heal and worked so hard to get to a place where he could re-enter Curly's life and have a healthy relationship with him. Now they're together again, but this time they're not two impulsive, emotionally immature, 20 year olds. They're two adults that have had time to learn and grow as people. And that is beautifully poetic to me. Also super interesting to explore that concept.

If canon Curly and Jimmy sticking together was what allowed the events of Mouthwashing to happen, then them spending some time apart could be what prevents it from happening. Atleast that was my logic while writing this. I wanted to make a sort of fix-it AU to fill the "wholesome Jimcurly" hole in my heart bc fanfics like that are scarce as fuck (understandable bc of the source). I tried to write this whole thing as a fanfic, but I quickly realized that 1) I'm not good at writing anything longer than 1,000 words and 2) this story requires visuals to properly tell it in the way I intended.

Also, I'm having fun. Drawing and writing all of this makes me happy. Obviously, the story isn't very "fun" (I've cried for hours while writing and drawing the more depressing parts probably 20 times by now), but telling it is. I don't know. I'm just a guy that draws. A depressed guy that draws and is still healing. I'm in no way "cured" by the medication I'm on. I still have depressive episodes, but I've been managing them better. I'm in a much better place mentally rn and I'm proud of myself. I've been fighting an intense mental battle against depression everyday for 10+ years of my life at this point. I'm not like 100% happy, I'm just kinda chillin rn idk.

I'm glad you asked this question! I encourage other people to ask questions! It helps me grow as a beginner writer and storyteller.

I hope that answered your question. I appreciate you.

TLDR: No, that isn't at all what I'm doing here. Jimmy is a reflection of myself and my experience with having severe depression and how I started my healing journey. It's based on very real events and thoughts that I have had. No, I don't have any bad intentions. No, I don't hate mentally ill people. I'm mentally ill and neurodivergent. I'm diagnosed. (We're in this fight together, man why would I do that??) I'm not a mustache-twirling villain with an ulterior motive. I'm a tired, mentally ill college student with audhd that is recovering from severe depression that literally almost killed me and drawing these guys is my current hyperfixation that helps me cope with that. That's it.

Also Jimmy is my favorite character (in this AU!!!!) idk why ppl think I hate him. Don't artists usually dump all their trauma on their ocs and make them suffer incomprehensible horrors bc they love the oc?? I thought we all did that. I did that. That's what I'm doing rn. 💀

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My favorite thing in Jimcurly fanfics is when Jimmy wears Curly's clothes and they're too big on him it's just rly cute

The size difference fluctuates based on how I'm feeling at the moment. Ideally, Jimmy is somewhere around Curly's booby just tall enough to bury his face in his chest. That's all that matters to me. 🥳