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yes, my life changed. yes, everyone i once trusted has lost their place. yes, everything is different.

isn't that what it's about? thing changing, people coming and going?

i trusted everything will always fall into place. and it has. i'm thriving.

so no, i wouldn't change a goddammed thing.

and i'm fucking proud of that

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i told you so, you said.

you were right. of course i never forgot it.

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the conversations are always good.

sometimes i miss them.

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For some reason, I expected you to keep loving me in some way.

Yes, I let you go. but that doesn't mean I still feel a sort of admiration towards you. I thought you felt it as well.

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And in that moment, in my most vulnerable moment, you asked me a question no one else had ever asked; "do you need me? let me help you."

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we looked at each other, and though we haven't seen each other in years, there was a mutual understanding that the love and care was still there.

i hated it at first, but seeing you healed something in me.

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I crave a love so deep, the ocean would be jealous. - Pablo Neruda

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it's been two years, and the second i saw you i went back to that day

i haven't seen you in two years, but i saw you today and i wished i hadn't.

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no, i'm actually not like this. you're just the one i want to be like this with.

i always told you i wasn't the touchy feely type, but i like being it with you

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i missed feeling that you loved me

i failed you once and you took two steps back

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you're lying next to me and i'm thinking about how your hands feel on my waist

you are all i crave

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i'm trying to figure out where my life is going

maybe it's not where i thought it was going to go

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“You have to get to a point where your mood doesn’t shift based on the insignificant actions of someone else.”

— Unknown

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you're brave for standing besides me when i'm not sure what to do

i've never been good at this sort of thing. i really hope i don't keep failing you

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Theres a red electric Train with 70s music playing over its speakers that crosses the sea everyday and as you travel across the sea, previously creatures start climbing aboard the train till all the seats are full

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I love you. Don't doubt it.

I wish you'd never forget it.

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I know I wasn't entirely truthful and I'm sorry. I didn't think about your feelings and I'm sorry.

I've never done this before and I don't have a map.