junilper

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Sitting here eating oreos and goldfish looking like a whole as constatation toke the form of a teenage boy in a dress

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entry eight.

i started feeling jealous, bitter & stressed more often than usual. how did i recognise that? how do i cope with that?

i talk with the gods, i ask them what's wrong. as a follower of hades, i can say i truly trust him to know me a little better than i know myself.

take care.

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entry seven.

hi my loves, a little more of a personal post this time. i advise readers to only continue to read if they are 18 or above, i express triggering topics {SA, grooming & abuse} in here that i am not comfortable to discuss with minors.

okay, let's carry on, thank you.

since looking into hellenic polytheism, i have found myself to be a lot more at ease here. i have been doing tarot card readings, and that has helped me find myself a lot clearer, understand my feelings a lot easier and so forth. one thing i struggle with is borderline personality disorder. that is something i have been very open with as of personally with people who are in contact with me. i think hades has caught on with that too recently, especially when reassuring me in places where needed.

dionysus has made me feel a lot more comfortable expressing myself sexually, not feeling ashamed of how i feel and what i should feel about my body and what makes me feel good.. etc. i have always been ashamed of my body and my sexuality since being groomed at such a young age. since turning to abrahamic faith during my teen years, i developed a negative aspect of myself being impure, shunning others for being open with their activities and so forth. turning away and turning to the gods instead has changed my perspective of how to view myself, what i feel and how it's okay to feel these ways. i was so very vulnerable around the people who took advantage of me and then shamed me for "being easy" despite me opening up, feeling cared and understood & then betrayed.

another thing the faith has helped me understand is that feminism is my best friend and is essential. i was taught modern feminism is the enemy to peacekeepers, which is definitely not the case. i am allowed to feel uncomfortable with men, and my experiences validate that. feminism would solve a lot of ongoing issues that we still face today. i am allowed to be bisexual and i will not be punished for expressing my love for another woman. why is my love invalid because i cannot naturally procreate with her? why is my life to be dictated by scriptures that hold little applicable values in a modern society?

it has been so hard to locate my meaning and my feelings, but turning to a faith that is TRULY so powerful and loving has made me realise life is worth living.

i was never alone. the gods were always there. i just needed to reach out.

a lot of people on here have been so kind in reaching out, providing resources and being extremely helpful! without you guys, i would be so very lost and unaware as to what to do. you guys have helped me locate my faith, and may the gods reward you for doing so. may the bless you, love you and help you reach the goals you want.

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entry six.

i have been thinking as of recently, about how i felt following an abrahamic religion versus hellenic paganism, and i can assure you which one i am glad i found. i loved islam dearly, but it just did not feel appropriate for my morals, my idea of a perfect society, and the relationship with god was not the one i had pictured.

discovering hellenic paganism has saved me, mentally and physically. that's something i will always appreciate! hades saw me when i was at my lowest and decided to work with me. i love the personal connection you have with your gods, how you devote small things and they will still answer you, love you unconditionally and remind you they are right there. that's something that no other religion could offer me. i am extremely glad i found faith in hellenic paganism.

i want to thank everyone who has helped me on here, been in support and has offered me resources to help me when i have asked. may the gods bless you, may the gods be with you, and i love you dearly.

take care.

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entry five.

well, a lot has happened since the last time i filled out an entry! i've been speaking to hades & dionysus very often, through tarot and the pendulum method, i've even made them a shared altar, which they were okay with.

so, where do i go from here? well, i do plan to start writing letters to them, as acts of devotion. i've remembered them in subtle ways, 'oh- hades would love this! dionysus would enjoy this-' and so forth. hades was there to comfort me in dark times where i felt horrible and there's nothing i am more thankful for. i do plan to increase the altar size and offer much much more int he future.

take care.

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entry four.

so today i did a card reading technique and i found out hades and dionysus want to work with me! we had very consistent answers from them, and i am glad to accept working with them! both of them were quite silly to begin with, tricking me saying yes no maybe at EVERY QUESTION. i don't blame them. i would be a little playful if i was a newcomer too.

does anyone have examples of how i should start off with their altars? i want to keep them on the same shelves next to eachother. what should i offer to them?

appollo also said he wanted a little worship before he starts to work with me, and i am okay with waiting. what should i do to show worship?

take care.

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entry three.

good morning, afternoon, evening and so forth!

i wanted to try and make daily (or every other day) entries in discovering my faith, writing devotions, making offerings etc... today my plan is the learn more about the gods and their personalities, write to whoever calls out to me the post, and make a small alter for the time being.

i will be using theoi.com to learn about these lovely beings, and i will be studying their mythology stories. i am aware these are stories made by the humans, they are not what we described them as. it is up to them to trust me and learn about me if they wish.

take care.

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welcome to my page, dear. 𖤣.𖥧.𖡼.⚘ here's some flowers for you 𖤣.𖥧.𖡼.⚘

⠀:¨ ·.· ¨:⠀juniper ⠀ `· . nineteen ﹒ she herꜝ ⠀⠀✚ ₊⠀hellenic polytheist. ⠀⠀ books, coffee, worship, flowers.

⋆˚࿔ a little more about me. 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

hii lovely reader, i wanted to make a little introduction to the small profile visitors! anyways... moving forward. hellooo, i'm juniper, i'm nineteen and currently attend university. i have a huge interest in philosophy, books, ethics, and a lot more humanities subjects trap me! i discovered hellenic polytheism as of recently, deciding to move away from the main abrahamic religions. i am bisexual, i love the colour orange, my favourite poem is tulips by sylvia plath and my favourite coffee's are cinnamon swirl lattes!!

feel free to message me, interact and so forth! i would love to make friends ⏾

take care dear. love from, juniper.

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entry two.

as a new hellenic polytheist the one thing i have always wondered is, how do i call upon to see which deities are willing to work with me? there is nothing more than i want to find these gods, work with them, show my acts of devotion etc. unfortunately i am not in the position where i am able to spend money... but i can write, i can read, i can listen, i can pray & so forth...

where do i find the clues the gods are dropping for me to seek? how do i understand who i am talking with? how do i show them i am here, i am listening, i am praising?

take care.

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entry one.

discovering faiths has not been easy. one thing that i cannot get over is the lack of humanitarian's crisis of constant war and bloodshed under the guise of religious reasonings. as of recently, i have left islam and have been called to discover the beauty of paganism. i was called towards the discovery of hellenism & the loves around me could not have been more supportive.

not only am i incredibly new to this, but i have a lot of catching up to do. i need to do a lot of research into this new faith & the way of worship. i come here in ask of help and somewhere to seek guidance of where to start, how to contact gods & how to show direct contact and worship, admiration for them, etc. if anyone has any tips, advice & sources that could help me, please do. i thank you.

take care.