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try to tell mother about potential new hobby and just. dismiss. now don't want to do at all

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shout out to those alters that fronted once then dipped🙏🙏

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happy pride, everybody. ask me about my queer system

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just system things

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saying "who said that" at the end of a sentence is a lot funnier when you're plural. who DID say that

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In these annoying times, for everyone who struggles with doomscrolling syscourse and doubting themselves:

Created systems/plurals, you're valid!

Plurality created intentionally is valid!

Plurality created unintentionally, by accident, is valid!

Plurality created to fight loneliness is valid!

Plurality created to help with functioning is valid!

And also...

People whose created plurality harmed/harms them, I see you.

People who feel regret because of created plurality, I see you.

People who have negative experience with created plurality, I see you.

I hope all of you have a good day. I hope all of you can find what's better for you.

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Switching isn't Always Dramatic

A thing that absolutely pisses me off when people are talking about DID as a whole is how many people think that people are faking if their switches aren't super dramatic and noticeable.

I'm not saying that they can't be, but more often than not it's so subtle no one would notice! That is kind of the point of the disorder, guys! To HIDE! It's typically very covert!

I'm not about to sit here and black out every single time then hit you with a "Wh-what? Where am I? WHO ARE YOU?!"

Chances are, you will never know the difference.

(I will repeat that your switches can and may always be super obvious and overt, and there isn't anything wrong with that, either! The brain is a strange thing that works different for everyone.)

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i hate when someone finds out im a system and their first instinct is to "experiment" on me. im not going to switch for you so you can question each of us. im not going to ask my alters things for you. i am not an animal at the zoo for your entertainment. this happens almost every time i come out about it to someone and its rlly fucking annoying. if you're curious, you can research online and ask us if the same goes for us.

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Shout out to all the kids who always picked shape-shifting as their hypothetical power growing up and assumed it was for gender affirmation but now realize it was also a plurality thing.

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one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

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god this is the least I've wanted to be alive in weeks. maybe months

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listening to "silly clown music" for one of our littles. "silly clown music" fucking sucks

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woke up had a panic attack super blurry it's somehow an hour later and I'm supposed to take care of the littles

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just messaged our friend because we were excited about something and he just replied with "not being rude but can you just let me sleep"

probably overreacting but like. idk I don't feel good now

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why the fuck is our mother talking to people about our healthcare information we did not consent to her talking to people about this

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putting beads on our shoes and making the laces into cute star patterns :3 will show when done