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I'm so sorry for the random rant but my family follows me on practically every other social media account I have so this is the only one I can talk about how I feel on :/

uhhh if you don't like people talking about how they lowkey don't like how they look/getting fat shamed/family issues/hating on everything/suicide jokes/hating my mom/mothet issues ig/just family drama/hating every female in my immediate family I'm related to... don't read this!

okay so like I'm not fat but I'm not skinny. I'm like the weird bloated older sister of skinny but the weird smaller younger sister of being fat?? I'm not sure if this makes any sense AT ALL! I have a stomach, and it's.. out there? I guess? Like I'm not thin, y'know? And it's really hard to find clothes that make me look nice because large is too big, small is.. well too small. And mediums make me look like rectangles, and they're neverrr sized right. Like i have a pretty nice waist I'd say. Not an hourglass waist (even tho i wish it was) but it is tea! And this is just kinda to explain to get to my main point which is... HOW MUCH PEOPLE INVALIDATE THESE FEELINGS!! oh and how much my family hates me oh my goodness .

It's genuinely insane the amount of times I've told someone how I feel about myself, not even looking for a response but just trying to get it out there, and then they "Nooo I wish I looked like you!" / "You're so skinnyyy!" / "But everyone is beautiful!!" . It's so annoying because yes, I know that you're trying to help. But it doesn't help at all. It just makes me feel like really.. not good about myself? I'm not sure how to explain it properly but the people who get it get it, and the people who don't, don't! And I know I am 100% NOT skinny. Like that's just not what I am, and I've come to terms with it. But it's not just the words, but the way people say it. Most of the time it just sounds like they're saying it out of pity? Another thing I hate is when I tell people I don't like how I look and someones like "Oh but you're someones type" like okay?? that literally means nothing to me.

Also my parents. My parents make it 100 times worse. Because my mom recently lost a lot of weight (and I'm so proud of her for doing that!!) but the thing is, when my mom lost that weight, my dad looked me in the eyes and said "you're 30 pounds heavier than your mom" and i KNOW he wasn't trying to hurt my feelings... BUT EXCUSE ME?? It genuinely hurt so much.

And then my SISTER. Of course, we're siblings, we fight. But it's not your regular "we're watching this show!" "no this show!" stupid shit you get over in five minutes. It's like my sister genuinely, extremely, fully hates me. She's always commenting on my body, always mentions when I eat, always saying I'm in the kitchen, and just calling me fat. And that's not even a joke. One time (AT THE DINNER TABLE!) I made a joke that I was like Garfield because we were having lasagna and i LOVEEE lasagna. And you know what she does? She says that I am. And then proceeded to make a circle with her hands. She doesn't even TRY to hide it either. There have been genuine times where I am AFRAID to eat food because of her. There have been times where I walk into the kitchen, grab some snacks, and then put them down because she got into my head. There have been days where I don't eat at all, no matter how hungry I am, because she might've said something. And when I feel like she's going to stop? Or going to maybe apologize? Or when I open up to her? she completely ruins it. One time I made a JOKE. A LITERAL JOKE. and the joke was "I'm going to hang myself on the ceiling fan!" but I said it with a certain tone, laughing, and SAID it was a joke after (also our ceiling fan is old asf so it's funny). And she said "Well you're too big it wouldn't work" but not a joke. Not being like "oh the fan is weak" but being like "oh you're a fatass". And before y'all BEAT ME UP in the comments like "what if you misread the scenario?" I did not. Trust me. She also would always look me up and down, make circles whenever I'm near, etc.

But the MOMENT I say something back to my sister? yeah, you guessed it, I get sent to my room. Not because of what I said, not because I might've been "mean", but because I "reacted" to her. Because apparently to my parents, whoever is the loudest is the one starting the problems. And then I try to tell my mom and she COMPLETELY invalidates it with "oh but you're letting yourself feel that though" LITERALLY SHUT THE FUCK UP. Like if you're watching a horror movie, do you allow yourself to get scared or are you just scared, mother? When you get extremely good news do you ALLOW yourself to feel happy or do you just feel it, MOTHER? And the worst part? MY SISTER NEVER GETS IN ANYYY TROUBLE. and it's not because my parents "don't know" what she's doing. they know. they know it ALL. But my sister doesn't get in trouble because my mom doesn't want to be a (IN HER OWN WORDS) "prison warden mom". My sister got grounded for MAYBE a week before my mom ungrounded her. Guess what happened right before that? My dad left to go on a six month long work trip. My sister NEVER fucking learns her lesson. Even her "friends" have shit talked her with me. ALSO, GUESS WHAT!! my sister is older then me (by two years). And my brother? older too (by four years). I used to hate my brother. now he's the only one I feel safe talking to in my household (except for his gf). And now?? My family might be moving to FUCKING EUROPE. My brothers gf wouldn't be able to come though, because she isn't our family. So my brother would stay here. With her. Then it would be JUST my mom, my dad, and my sister with me. And knowing my dad (i love my dad he's so epic), he'll end up just letting my mom do whatever because "happy spouse happy house". It'll be me and my dad against the world, EXCEPT GUESS WHAT. he never listens. like, he'll listen to me rant, but he'll try to solve EVERY. SINGLE. PROBLEM. but it's okay because he'll realize and be like "... do you just want to rant?" because at least he apologizes unlike my mother. I used to not like my mom, then i started to like her again, and then my mom started seeing herself in my sister and I started hating her again!!

Anyway, I just needed to get this out. I'm sorry this isn't my usual content of random reblogs and the occasional stupid jokes. Thanks to anyone who read it🫶. Writing this has literally felt like a breath of fresh air bro🙏

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I wolf on his wood until he couch

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if those two guys from trigun are plants can i smoke em like weed? (I haven't seen it no spoliers)

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Happy Skeletá release (eve)!!!! 💜

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he's so much softer, isn't he. do you remember prequelle? the anger, the justified rage and vindication that defined copia from the moment we met him; the first thing we knew about him was that he was mistreated, he was an outsider, and he was finally getting the appreciation he deserved. but perpetua? he doesn't have that edge. skeletá is all love and joy and gentle mystery, this sense of him taking his first steps in the limelight, much more nervous than he is proud. it gives you this image that where copia was raised in overwhelming noise, perpetua was raised in silence. a child of the clergy, and a child sent far away from the clergy. who raised him? who spoke these lessons into him, who taught him how to worship? it must've been someone kind, but distant. with the way he speaks about his faith, he was taught to love satan on a personal level.

copia being a clergy kid, raised deep inside this community, inside the church, gives me the general image of a child raised by a village; he knows everyone's name, he's used to constant noise, he runs around with important papers in his hands and dodges the young ghouls chasing each other through the halls.

but perpetua gives me the image of a child raised in the woods. a quiet, faraway mansion somewhere, with no other kids his age around. empty corridors that he'd explore on his own, tall portraits of antisaints that he'd pray to every night before going to bed. he was never roughed up by his peers the way copia was, he never learned to resent or to covet what others had. all he has in his heart now is fear and love, and that's what he walks out onto the stage with. he's eager. he's nervous. he's so much softer, isn't he.

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guys im really confused with some ghost things right now so i need EXPLANATIONSSS!! so first of all, are those "ministry orgies" a canonical thing, or did the fandom just be freaky and it became a thing?? and also like what are the new ghouls names?? and swiss is gone but like whos the ghoul (not real person) that replaced him? and who replaced cumulus (ghoul, not person)?? im a die hard ghost fan and im just confused with this rn

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THIS US GOOSBSJSHEGRHGHDBDV I LOVE ITTT AHAHAHAHAHHAHHHHH

And I miss my lover, man

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REAL

if you post ship hate and then tag the ship youre hating on fuck you

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YOU ARE COOKING THIS UO AND IM DEVOURING IT

This AU has been cooking in my head for a while now (was calling it the Grimm Dark AU for some reason, but I think something like Shattered Sky would be a better fit).

But yeah! Dreadking Emeritus the IVth, reigning monarch of Hell on Earth quite literally. The AU is a dark fantasy setting following the storyline of what if during the war between Heaven and Hell, Satan won, killing God and shattering both the Heavens and Earth. Angels fell and Hell seeped up through the cracks and corrupted the land and its people.

There's a lot of lore that follows, and world building that I don't want to get into right now, but the main storyline essentially follows two split paths, one that is Copia figuring out how to rule while being unknowingly manipulated by the Sorrowqueen Dowager Imperator, and the other is the first three brothers who were all killed (Primo drowned, Secondo poisoned, and Terzo framed for their deaths and beheaded) dealing with being resurrected by a growing rebellion trying to overthrow the Sorrowqueen Dowager and new Dreadking.

Also, Shattered Sky was conceived before the introduction of Perpetua, so some things may be reworked once I start seriously working into this AU.

If you have questions please ask :D

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damn they were FREAKS back in the day (wowza! i second this!)

i hope you all know it's my new favorite hc now that secondo has a print of that 1880 erotic alphabet on the wall in his office

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Yeag.

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i headcannon frater told him NO bat wings and NO sparkly jackets and V is only doing this as petty sibling rivalry

bat bros!

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Sodo: “i’m bored..”

Perpetua crossing his arms: “yeah, me too..”

Sodo: “..wanna go release all of Frater’s rats and watch him scramble to catch them?”

Perpetua: “..absolutely i do”

Later that day~

copia in tears and running after his rats through the ministry: “how does this keep happening?!”

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he pulls push doors trust

Me and the beauties I pulled by being unable to open doors

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copia is only projecting because hes never felt the (loving) touch of a woman

don’t dish it if you can’t take it, copia

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OHHHH MY GOD THE SMILELELELELEL

Drapetua! 🦇✨

He's a creature i lov him... them...