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MANCINI TINY VOICE COMPILATION???

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Why is my YouTube feed all "go to sleep, rest, its 3am, here's soft music" what the fuck and its like 5 different videos and channels too

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i love this website i just feel at home here you know

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Personal yap (lgbtq+ and sex mentioned themes. Just someone questioning and losing their mind)

I think I'm aroace spec (???)

I think I can experience romantic/sexual attraction normally but I dont ever get that desire to actually do anything with someone especially off of first impression. I can feel romantically, maybe sexually even, attracted to people almost/off first impression, but I never want to do anything with it after. If I know someone for 8 months at minimum I'd say, maybe I would develop real desire.

However for actual intercourse I would probably put it off/not need it for a longer time, hesitate and all because I find it kind of sacred and really private and stuff, so I would want to do it with someone I really am close to and trust emotionally and all.

But I'm not even sure if romantic attraction is what I feel, maybe what I have always wanted is the actual connection but not exactly and explicitly romantic love. I know now I really desire a queerplatonic relationship with one person I know, and I would never kiss them, I dont like them romantically, but I would love to show PDA with them and do lovey dovey stuff, just platonically.

However, I am disgusted with sexual hookups and being reckless with that topic, especially when people talk about it. If youre going to talk about it make it clear from the start, not everyone wants to hear it (I dont really) and its kind of weird to flaunt and talk about casually.

I'm also starting to think my idea of a best friend is completely different from others. I give it very rarely and only after Ive known them or feel I know them well enough (at least a handful of months) and I just feel like a best friend is someone you desire to be with for the rest of your life (platonically). People get offended when they hear I'm not their best friend, but youre not.

It even makes me a bit icked when someone calls me their best friend after a month. Just say close friend, we're not like that. Honestly I think of best friend as something that has to be mutual, I think highly of that status. Maybe because I deep down dont have any romantic interest and see platonic relationships as the only substitution. My best friend is going to be my one and only.

I'm also very explicit with the friends I am around. It could be a side affect of reading into psych and such, but maybe its also cuz I see it as speed dating? Which is so bad, and it can't be right to think like that honestly.

I currently have 0 desire to be in a romantic/sexual relationship and am happy on my own. I would, in a way, like to be in a queerplatonic relationship. And to clarify, if I did get into a queerplatonic relationship, I would say the person is my partner, bf, gf, whatever they like most.

I mostly think I'm aroace spec from this information because of my delayed desire, sometimes apparent disgust, and how highly I think of friends and best friends. But I mostly think I'm on the aromantic spectrum.

Squishes, alterous, crushes

I have looked into this and feel that alterous fits me best, but also sometimes squish. Depends, but mostly alterous, like I want the connection and exclusivity from a romantic relationship but I just want the feelings to be platonic, no matter how affectionate and lovey we are.

Probably alterous is what I feel all the time, as well as queerplatonic attraction.

So I looked but I can't find

Demiromantic and demisexual didn't seem to fit me. I experience attraction (??) rather normally, and the general definition for demi is not being able to develop × attraction unless you have an emotional connection first. Which isnt what I feel, I dont want an × interaction unless I know the person emotionally.

But demi is the only thing I feel fits, I just dont want to misunderstand the definition because I'm literally not the definition, and I dont want to take away from people who 100% feel demi is a label that perfeftly fits them.

If there is anything someone can find out there that seems to fit, PLEASE HELP ME.

Something feels off about me, like being a generic romantic feeling person is who I am. I can't tell if its because I'm so mentally impacted by this one person right now, or if all my life ive secretly wanted a queerplatonic relationship and not a standard romantic/sexual one.

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LGBTQ+ folk what was your gender/sexuality pipeline?

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Guys which canuck do you think cried okay I'll go first I think it was lekkerimäki

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Oh my gosh. Someone sedate me. VICTOR?!

From Instagram. (Charlotte Checkers @ Abbotsford Cabucks, Calder Cup Finals 2025 Game 4. Jun 19, 2025) - Abby won!! 6-1 (Gifs)

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Dude barkov is such like a team queen like everyone shares his ass

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justin forkheim

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I now believe in the abbotsford polycule. I hate that ppl aren't more polycule-encouraging with NHL teams cuz that'd how ive always viewed teams whether its platonic or more/etc.

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Fuck Tuesdays I want my dad back

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Ive been really into saiki K recently sorry nhl fans that you see this side of me 💔

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This shot from flohockey's Twitter is making me crazy

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had to clip this after i saw it and wasnt believed when i said i saw it. cute kiss

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um um um um actually i dont have an excuse

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ohhhh his cervix is getting bruised tonight

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I will be comprising a post sometime this summer (in the following week) of photos of every canucks player I'd carry in my pocket