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10.3.2025

Okay chaos begins i got all these courses i'm supposed to get done this month and it's already the 10th. Matcha latte pictured above. I looked at my calendar and realized i'm about to get completely cooked unless i study like a fiend for a week at least. So i panicked and made emergency latte.

I'm down with spring seasonal sad/generally not feeling motivated for anything but i'll continue. Time to get the chaos managed, wish me luck. I'm considering doing this in "cosplay mode" bc it somehow helps with my motivation.

This list is more of a general overview of what i gotta do in the next day(s), 10/3 - 12/3, and very likely the study amounts are per day and will get more and more insane, i'll update as this goes..

🪻 research ethics course: 🌸 1. check deadlines 🌸 2. watch first lecture (online course thank gods) 🌸 3. backround material studying 0.5/1h 🌸 4. first assignment for week 11 due on 16/3, begin in time ! 🪻 email 🪻 pedagogy course: 🌸 1. check deadlines 🌸 2. backround material studying 0.5h/1h 🌸 3. second assignment, what do i need to do and when, start if possible 🪻 start a new book (for actual phd research) 🪻 introduction to phd studies course (i'm a fool and forgot abt this): 🌸 1. check deadlines 🌸 2. backround materials, what and how much 🌸 3. assignments? could u do one/week? 🌸 4. watch online lectures (if any, my intuition says there is some) 🪻 korean revising bc i skipped last week's lecture 2h 🪻 korean homework 0.5/1h 🪻 try not to go mad <3

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somebody sedate me pls, also look at my cutie patootie doods <3

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It’s a privilege to study, many women around the world are barred from this human right: to read, write and learn. Be grateful anytime your pen touches paper, or you are learning theorems developed by intelligent, hardworking men and women from ages ago.

It’s a pleasure and a privilege to learn. Not only is it a privilege to study, but you should be aiming and striving to take science, medicine, law, philosophy, art further than the marker we have reached. It’s a comforting thought to think, from your work generations of humanity down the line will benefit.

How many brilliant women were in the shadows of amazing feats of science and technology and life changing patents? Contribute while you can. If you pour into knowledge - it will pour back into you.

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what id like to read this month 📖

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back from spring break and ready to get back to work. it was a much-needed and very refreshing break. i made my bed this morning and woke up 15 minutes earlier than usual.

i also really tried to eat well this morning. the dining hall is by no means healthy, but i tried!

To-Do:

- french homework

- double check sign up dates

- finish reading AMD manuscript

- write comments

- read Hemingway passages

- 1 hr editing ATFN

- do stats homework

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Home

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Rules to not feel like shit:

sleep. for fuck's sake just sleep.

take care of your health! u can't study while being in p a i n

exercise or stretch every day please please your knees need it

do not!!!!! leave things for the last fucking minute!!!!! i beg you!!!!!

Yea guess who's feeling pain everywhere and can't barely keep her eyes open but has to cram a presentation for tomorrow!!! AGAIN!!! AAAAAA

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DON'T LEAVE THINGS FOR THE LAST DAY. DON'T. DO NOT. I BEG OF YOU, PLEASE PLEASE STOP PROCRASTINATING SM BITCH U HAD 3 WHOLE ASS MONTHS

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Foggy day on campus this morning. Pleasantly cool and damp outside. It smells like wet grass, with a hint of spring.

to-do:

- study irregular futur simple verb stems

- do laundry

- make bed

- make outlines for possible am lit essays

- read frost poems

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made my bed this morning. i don't do it often, but maybe it will catch on. perhaps i shall make it a habit.

(also, i have realized i am sleeping under a hanging sword of around two hundred pounds of books and trinkets. surely this will not come back to haunt me.)

to-do:

- check for stats exam

- clean desk

- study french verb tenses

- reread frost poems + take notes

- do french practice exam

- find lost earring

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[ 22nd february, 2025 • 6/159 days ]

it was nice to go out for a bit and not have to worry about studying

-> IAED lab02 (10/10 exercises, 100% tests ☑️)

-> bought the gift + attended a birthday party (we did a croquette rally and it was so much fun!)

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Use your nice things.

Use that makeup you've been saving for a rainy day. Paint your nails whenever you want. Eat that decadent treat you've been saving. Wear that gorgeous outfit. Read that book you've been putting off. Play that video game you bought and haven't touched. Pull out your finest dishes for dinner.

Nice things are meant to be used just like regular ones, and your life will feel richer for indulging in them. They are treasure, and so are you.

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After you find the youtube playlist for efficient preparation 🥰🥰🥰

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i am afraid i do not understand poetry

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02/24/2025 — monday

criminal law — right of self defense (notwehr)

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SIMPLE LITTLE EVERY DAY WAYS TO TAKE BACK YOUR POWER

Dont respond. Just don't respond. You can just give no response. Even when it's the good or right thing to do. You can just nahh. It's not your duty to do what's good or right your duty is to survive

Leave. Just get up and leave. Mid sentence mid date mid party mid get up and leave. You don't even need a reason honestly you can just leave. You can leave because the sun is a star you can leave because it's too cold you can leave because you realized you're made of flesh and blood just leave literally any time any where just leave because it's midday or something idk just leave

Reject guilt. You did what you did it is what it is. Reject shame reject embarrassment just heh and move on. It is what it is. Whatever comes of it comes of it. It went how it went and the world kept spinning. Yada yada all that. What next.

Validate your reality. Validate your reality. I told you what validation means. Exactly as it is.

Ask the question. Ask the damn question. Ask it. Chin held high eyes trained spine straight. Ask the question sis. And follow it up with another. As many as you wish. Invent questions to ask if you have none.

Just block her. And him. Just block them rn. How many chances will you give them to show you how disrespect is done? At some point - one of these days- you'll have to realize trading respect for attention is dirty trade, and then I want you to just. BLOCK them. On the spot.

Laugh. You know that "laugh in my face" saying? Try it. 10/10 would reccomend.

Boxing. Jiu Jitsu (THIS> ESPECIALLY THIS) martial arts. Shooting range. Archery.

Tell the truth. Tell the truth. Okay? Those consequences you're so scared of, they're weakening you. Tell the truth and step back, whatever happens happens.

Say exactly what you think. Out loud. EXACTLY as you think it.