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Down 4.7 |bs this week!!! Progresss!!!

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gothic ṯh!nsp0

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💗⋆˙⟡ Reblog if you’re an active blog in April.

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My mom just hit me with the "it seems like you're doing better lately. I've noticed you working out and going on walks."

Little does she know, I'm mentally ill and pushing myself miles beyond my limits.

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I really don't ever want to be fat enough to see the folds on myself

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Why do all the health/coquette aesthetic things gotta be pink, green, or white. I just want shades of purple and black :((

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"Well atleast I'm not doing drugs" I say as I do other destructive things

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When I’m inactive I’m definitely going through a binge period

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locking in bcs i CANNOT be twinning with the whales at the beach this summer

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𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐛𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫.

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how’s everybody now that it’s 3 months til summer (i’m crashing out fr)

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Guess who's back bitches

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--WIEIAD 10/23--

Broke a 48hr fast

Spaghetti mix full amount cooked was 16oz whole wheat noodles, 20oz spiraled zucchini, and 5oz spiraled carrot. I made dinner for the family hence why a full batch is so much.

Despite not fasting now, I'm still so exhausted. I hate being chronically ill

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Day 23: did the media play a role in wanting to lose weight?

I would say, at this point, no, but I'm the beginning I couldn't day for sure. While now I take motivation/inspiration from media, I wouldn't say it is the reason behind it.

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How do I explain to my professor that I literally cannot come to class bc I am beyond exhausted and can barely drive 5 minutes home to have help staying alive let alone 30 minutes to actually learn stuff or take a fucking test that I would fail bc brain so foggy!!!

Why can't I be normal?!?!?!!?

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"man, why am I so tired this week" wonders the chronically ill bitch who has the infamous 'makes you super fucking tired' disease

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Day 22: what was your lw? Why did you gain?

My lw is 108lbs. Its also my cw so I haven't gained I don't think. Hopefully at worst im maintaining but I haven't weighed myself in almost 2 weeks