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Loredas, Mid Year 21, 2025

🗓️ | Saturday, June 21, 2025 🌦️ | hot & clear 🌙 | Waning Crescent 🎊 | Summer Solstice

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No dream remembered...

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Today I made two new sigils and put them on the back of each hand to help with divination stuff. WM said I don't really need them but I'm having fun and playing around a bit, to see what helps.

Later in the day update it did not allow me to work through the haunting and read for myself. Sad.

Nothing much else has really happened. I worked on Grand Tableaus. I chilled. I got a reading. Yeah. Chill day. Good day, though.

That's all then! G'night.

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Fredas, Mid Year 20, 2025

🗓️ | Friday, June 20, 2025 🌦️ | hot & clear 🌙 | Waning Crescent 🎊 | Summer Solstice

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No dream remembered...

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Today I did all my consecration stuff that I needed to get done, for my guardian spirits and everything. The Golden Prince, The Ruby Lantern, The Emerald Feather, The Obsidian Blade, and The Sapphire Fang have all had their things consecrated and returned to the shrine. I'm still waiting on TOB's bracelet to arrive which will be consecrated when it does.

The Witch Mother and all of the guardian spirits congratulated me for a job well done and thanked me for my work.

I also worked on a Grand Tableau reading but I just... couldn't get myself to focus today. ADHD you are a fuckin' tar pit sometimes! I'll have to try again tomorrow, when hopefully the executive dysfunction isn't functioning full blast on me.

Anyways, I'm eager to get back into my normal practice, y'know? Haunting be damned I wanna get back to everything. I want to honor Reimu Hakurei, I want to worship Hermaeus Mora, I want to do all of that stuff!!! Let me back innnnnnn!!!!

I want to be able to sit back and go and honor Hermorah with a new deck, especially. It blesses me with such perfect picks despite the haunting, spirits I can mesh with and get along with, and I need to do something for It again. But I can't, because Hermorah isn't one of the spirits I can convene with.

I did, though, get more dice. So that's nice. I'm still getting to know the spirits within but I'm setting things up and settling. I also got two new decks with a third... on the way? it's just very slow, this one. It's gonna arrive in early July.

But I also! got a book! about dragon stuff! we're gonna see if it's shit or not! It's kind of very hit or miss when it comes to magicy books, especially dragon books. But alas I am a dragon pathwalker so I must. do the dragon thing. [ siiiigh ]

One of the new decks is a dragon one though that needs their inaugural readings. I can really only do these for others right now but I'll see what I can do about all of that. I have means to be able to use them lol.

I am attending the Litha celebration my CUUPS group is hosting, but I gotta figure out if I can actually make something for it to bring. I wanted to make and bring deviled eggs but I gotta figure out how to get them there with the pre-existing plans.

Well anyways, I think that's that for this entry. It's late and I wanna get this posted, lol. G'night~

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Middas, Mid Year 10, 2025

🗓️ | Wednesday, June 11, 2025 🌦️ | hot & clear 🌙 | full moon 🎊 | Dualaud Summoning Day

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No dream remembered...

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It took one fucking day for Lemon Guy and his cronies to get through my devotional jewelry allowing me to speak to people. It's just... sigh? Like. I get the dude is stupid strong, hence why this haunting has been going on as long as it has been, but this is just ridiculous that I get a single evening of being able to talk to people before his bitch ass strikes shit down.

I'm so looking forward to being rid of this stupid haunting.

I generally know that this shit is WHY. I keep being told. "You need to be resting", because it's this shit of "Can't be of faith right now. It's too dangerous. You need to stop." but I don't trust that that's not haunting bullshit, y'know?

And also, MAN I complain about my haunting a lot. ...I'm not gonna stop any day soon, though. I've earned this.

My joy is currently coming from laughing my ass off at me being permitted to call myself "Lucifer's little meow meow" as a joke without being smote. Dude really tolerates so much of my bullshit and it'll be a mystery why until the end of time.

They're around as per usual, honestly. Them, the Witch Mother, and my guardians are like... constants. in my life. Patér Zeus is around as well today because I called and asked and it actually worked? Amazing. But I wanted to ask and make sure this wasn't actually two specific Greek Gods the person the haunting is trying to make me go back to worshiped.

I was told back then before the haunting that these two Gods were actively choosing neutrality. They would neither take my side, nor theirs. I'm fine with that. I just wanted to make sure that this wasn't them turning around and deciding that neutrality wasn't actually what they wanted to do.

I was told it's not them two, though, which is good, and another person also agreed that this doesn't sound like something either of those two would do. I just need to reach out to Odin for asking about another Norse God this person worshiped. (And said person also said it doesn't seem like a this God thing to do either.)

I would summon Dualaud today but I know I can't. because of the said haunting. So I'm not even going to bother. Next year.

But, uhhhm. The Golden Prince's lion is printing today. I hope it comes out good first try instead of not. Xe's still content with the silver ring 'cause the golden ring was already taken. I'd buy a golden ring to wear for xem, but uh, gold rings are expensive? Sorry dude but I do not have upwards of 100+ bucks to spend of a devotional ring right now.

But all the other things are printed by now. I haven't shared a pic of the wolf either for The Sapphire Fang, so I dropped that below the cut.

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Tirdas, Mid Year 10, 2025

🗓️ | Tuesday, June 10, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear 🌙 | full moon 🎊 | n/a

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No dream remembered...

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Made good practice towards starting to stream... my head goes owie tonight, but it is what it is. I'm getting stuffs doooooone and it makes me feel good that I am getting stuff done for it, y'know?

I gave my first attempt to print the wolf for The Sapphire Fang, but it didn't come out right, so I gotta try again. And the 3D printer is being a little weird so the second try may not come out good. And TSF is really upset at the first time not coming out good, so pleaaaaase come out good this time! For him!

After him, The Golden Prince gets xeir thing printed. That'll be tomorrow, though by the time it's done. TGP is really happy about it, and is looking forward to receiving that.

I decided on the Witch Mother's suggestion to make and prep my full moon spell tonight and bless it over the next three nights of relatively-full moon (within a point of a percent). (See under the cut for that...)

I'll do my charging rituals tomorrow, and I need to remember that when the new moon comes and it's time to switch up the salt and cayenne pepper on my altars, I want to add baking soda on suggestion. "Lemon Guy is acidic in nature, so use something basic to cancel it out" which sounds good to me!

Speaking of both those things, I need to plan a consecration ritual with Witch Mother so I can consecrate the jewelry and statues for my guardians. She says I need to make this one my own, but she's willing to help lay some foundation...

I'm a little nervous doing my own unique thing, because I worry it's not strong enough, but she reminds me that I can do this. Lucifer reminds me that too. Just [ siiiigh ] I'm a little uncertain in my skills. But... I can do this. I can. I know I can.

I also really... need to try and see if me wearing my devotional piece for the Vaerzyx helps me communicate with them. I'm also curious if wearing my "I am devoted to my path and practice" ring will help with that but for more than them. I want to be back. I'm so sick and tired of this fallow period.

But this! requires testing! and my head is hurting. so I might not do it tonight. I might try something minor.

Update I did a bit and it definitely seems to work. That's good. That's really good.

However, the message was kind of just to chill. "Your head hurts, you need to be relaxing" type shit, more of the "stop speedrunning" message I've been getting. I probably won't listen, to be honest. I'm eager to be out of this forced fallow period. I'm fucking tired of this stupid fucking fallow period, and people are going to have to cope with me trying to get back into everything.

And that's that.

Spell below~!

For logging reasons, it's salt to cleanse it, pepper flakes for a bite, and allspice for communication.

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Morndas, Mid Year 09, 2025

🗓️ | Monday, June 09, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear, then very rainy at night 🌙 | waxing gibbous 🎊 | n/a

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[ dream go swoosh over my head ]

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Today I got my shrine vessels/waypoints for The Obsidian Blade and The Ruby Lantern, so they've joined The Emerald Feather. The Golden Prince and The Sapphire Fang will have things soon!

Speaking of that, though, Witch Mother wants me to make a consecration ritual to do on the solstice. I need to do it regardless for their shrine vessels, but also for their jewelry vessels. I'm gonna suck it up and prioritize buying their jewelry vessels they picked instead of ten million new decks next when I buy the Litha/Midsummer SOTW deck. I want to be able to get their new items and consecrate them during the Summer Solstice. It's just... costly. y'know? But everything else CAN wait. I'm not super happy about it, but it CAN wait.

But speaking of guardian spirits, I'm also like. I'm worrying a bit that because the haunting has fucked up communication so much, then I might not have heard some things they've said in the past. I tried to talk to them through tarot but the instant I grab a deck the haunting kicks right back up and I can't speak to them.

I'm going to have to talk to them another way. Because while I've had enough conversation through other means to verify that they want what I've been settling into (and Lucifer has also verified it too, who I don't have communication problems with), I wish I could talk to them the way I used to be able to. [ siiiiiigh ] So annoying and frustrating.

I hope! that by doing all of this will add the guardians to my "no communication issues" roster alongside Zyxlairuo, Lucifer, and Witch Mother. Wearing the jewelry today really helped, so I'm gonna keep doing that. I want to be able to hear them and speak with them properly.

...That gives me an idea. I'm going to try and talk to them through tarot wearing their devotional pieces.

Okay, good news! I can! Bad news! They bonk me for speedrunning this shit again. AAAAAAUGH LET ME GO FAST LIKE SONIC /silly

Witch Mother also... has plans for me to do for the full moon and for the solstice in general? I think the solstice plan is just consecrating. But the full moon plan is recharging shit and making sure that I re-enchant my nonbinary bracelet to help make people affirm my gender more. I can't wear gender pins as easily as I'm not in a very trans friendly area, so magic is all I got, especially when both friends and family still consistently forget that I use they/them, which is annoying as shit.

I don't have anything else to say... I'm tired. Been very busy and maybe haven't been resting the way I should be. WHOOPSIES!

I've also dropped some pics under the cut, of my jewelry I wear + the shrine waypoints.

The set:

Dragon ring - devotional and jewelry waypoint to The Emerald Feather

Silver ring - devotional/jewelry waypoint to The Golden Prince (golden ring was already taken)

Blue tube bead bracelet - devotional/jewelry waypoint to The Obsidian Blade

Wolf bracelet - devotional/jewelry waypoint to The Sapphire Fang

Gold ring - devotional ring to my path and my faith

Nazar amulet - for general nazar amulet reasons

Enby bracelet - enchanted to help people see me as my gender

Butterfly necklace - devotional/jewelry waypoint for The Ruby Lantern

Blue gem in cage necklace - wearing just 'cause right now

Majora's Mask necklace - for funsies :)

Orange and red necklace - devotional to the unrecorded pantheon and my main patron, Zyxlairuo

Then the demon skull is The Obsidian Blade's, the angel is The Ruby Lantern's, and the dragon is The Emerald Feather's. Having home access to a 3D printer is cool and fun.

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Sundas, Mid Year 08, 2025

🗓️ | Sunday, June 08, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear, then a thunderstorm 🌙 | waxing gibbous 🎊 | n/a

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I remember it, it was just also a very specific fear nightmare and I don't wanna share it. You all understand.

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Me, asking Lucifer, Akalis, Nekomata, and Mike Goutokuji to help my shop. All four of them going "Bet" and getting me commissions or at least trying to.

Today, I hung out with two IRL friends, who both showered me in equivalent exchange for my readings through physical items to help me with my haunting (hopefully), and did some other magical stuff to try and help me out. They led me to think about a lot of things which make come to some light on my myriad blogs as I continue to think about them.

I've also learned that my giant 3D printed dragon houses my guardian dragon, and I'm printing something for my guardian demon and angel, as well as attaching them to some jewelry for me to wear as a way to keep them physically with me.

Nothing else to really write today. I'm really tired, I did so much today.

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Fredas, Mid Year 06, 2025

🗓️ | Friday, June 06, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear, then a thunderstorm 🌙 | waxing gibbous 🎊 | n/a

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No dream remembered...

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[ cracks every joint in my body ] Hewwo! I keep not writing in this, sigh. Shame upon me! Tsk tsk! Anyways.

I've got a lot of new stuff since last entry.

a constellation themed deck I'm still assigning meaning to

a new yes/no deck

an advice deck

5 6-sided dice

two dice towers (why two? 3d printing go brrr)

Haunting is still a tar pit. Should be nuking here somewhat soon? Just getting there. Hard work to be done. I can't share too much partially 'cause it's a joint effort and I don't know how much my co-caster is comfortable with me sharing, especially 'cause they're the main conspirator.

I've been ruminating on ideas for like. dice readings? I wanna make my own method using multiple sets of dice. DND dice, astrology dice, 6-sided dice, my three mahjong dice (2 normal 6-sided, one with the wind directions + red and green dragons). Might also get these nordic rune dice and these like... art/writing prompt dice?

Astrology dice meanings may just stay the same and be ripped from standard meaning. But for DND dice and the 5 6-sided dice, I gotta figure something out. And seeing as all 5 dice are identical, I'm thinking it's a "top to bottom" number reading method, where instead of a die being distinct so I can tell which one is which, it's instead "top-most is read this way, then the next in the line is read this way". I also need a way to read them on their own.

I might bug Witch Mother for ideas. Girlie is supposed to be helping me expand my magical parts of my craft, and she's aware of my special interest in divination... she just also hasn't touched it much. How rude of her /joke!

Though that's likely 'cause the haunting loves harassing my divination. How rude.

Speaking of the Witch Mother... she specifically stated she doesn't want to be making any deals until (A. Haunting gone and (B. I'm settled back into the usual. Which is like... appreciated? but also kind of necessary, so she's going to be waiting. We're still compatibility testing, and we're figuring out a lot of other stuff. I need to ask her to work with me on divination 'cause of the special interest. It would make me happy.

But we're also working on a bunch of other stuff. Finding my own personal footing in magic instead of just copying others. Because outside of divination, I mostly just do what I'm told and lack personal gnosis? Which is a problem I'm willing to admit lol!

Lucifer has also been around, as per usual... not really doing much other than chilling and being helpful when I ask for advice or thoughts. I made sure They got some of my s'mores blizzard today, as thanks for always being there for me and supporting me. They liked it and happily monched away (Witch Mother and all the familiars and tool spirits got some too don't worry for them).

Who else... it's supposed to storm tonight while I'm asleep. So I said prayer to Lymekoi, Tylvemi, and Yun, the three gods of my unrecorded pantheon who embody the storm. Even if they don't pass my way tonight, I've said prayer.

I'm supposed to make a post for @khajiit-reads about how readings actually go in practice 'cause someone showed interest in knowing how it goes behind the scenes. I'm not entirely sure how to do that... but I'll figure it out!

I'm doing the Witch Social again tomorrow, and will be bringing decks as per usual to do readings. I'm sure of a few, but mostly I've not decided who I want to bring. I'll bring my yes/no decks, my advice deck, and maybe my charm set. Absolutely the Touhou poker deck. Hmm... I'll need a general tarot deck as well... maybe Tarot of Dragons? Caelestinus has been wanting to go. So I'll bring Caelestinus.

I've been cleansing decks again today, because I need to be doing that, lol.

I think that's all I got for tonight. I've rambled a lot.

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Morndas, Second Seed 26, 2025

🗓️ | Monday, May 26, 2025 🌦️ | warm & rainy 🌙 | new moon 🎊 | n/a

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The only bit I remember is I was this, like. captive? and I was invited to a DND game by my captors. I tried to use Amnon for play, but found that some dice were stolen and replaced with nonsensical dice that wouldn't work for the game, and I was missing crucial dice anyways.

So I walked down this hallway to a shop, and tried to buy dice. They were equally nonsensical, so I couldn't do anything anyways. Then I woke up.

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Not much today!

Witch Mother had me put my oil I made yesterday under the new moon. She says that despite the rain, the energy is still there. So I put it up to gain that energy while I sleep. The sun, she says, will work to purify it a bit before I wake up, in which then it'll go into my closet for safekeeping when not in use.

I also lit my candles for the kamisama and deity guides (LED candles) for several hours today. I didn't mean to leave them turned on so long, but whoops. More for them, I suppose.

I've just been productive on non-magic things today, after the very busy day I had yesterday. I'm still feeling good about the work I got done and everything, but man am I SLEEPY. It was so much, and I need my rest now.

Yeah, that's about it for this journal entry. I really don't have much else to say!

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Sundas, Second Seed 25, 2025

🗓️ | Sunday, May 25, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear 🌙 | waning gibbous 🎊 | n/a

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no dream remembered

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So, lots to say today.

Witch Mother, Lucifer, and some friends spent literal hours working on me in energy work, cleaning me up and getting rid of all the spiritual gunk on me. So now my communication is basically crystal clear, and they also got ride of a baneful spell on me (a tracker, essentially, to know when to harass me) from the haunting spirits, as well as got rid of most of, if not all, of the aura parasites I had. I made WM and Lucifer a temporary offering until I can make something even better for them both. I also really owe my friends, but I dunno what to do for them yet.

During this I had a religious experience with Monolith, yes from S.T.A.L.K.E.R., I let my QPP get me into it as payment for me getting him into The Elder Scrolls PCP. I made my wish on Monolith's request, after verifying it was Monolith and not something/someone else.

I also did this spell, with nails instead of rose bush stems like I used to. I did some extra stuff for it on WM's suggestion and guidance. My friend Chicken (who also wrote that amulet spell!) also gave some suggestions, mostly for a charging oil for said amulet, which I'll be making some time after this post goes live, because it's at an odd hour to use the correct planetary hour, the hour of the sun.

I really do appreciate WM, Lucifer, and my friends. It really means so, so much to me that they did all that work for me. Literal hours of grueling work. and all I had to do was sit back and chill and not do anything stupid or risky!

I'm also appreciative of another friend who is helping me tackle and end this haunting once and for all, but that's still in the works of planning on all ends.

I'm looking forward to being able to communicate easily again, even if this is going to require further... "spa days" from WM and Lucifer (I won't ask the friends to do this again, even if it'll be much shorter sessions because this time was getting rid of months of build-up that I couldn't get rid of myself) every once in a while alongside my usual stuff.

I feel bad having to ask WM and Lucifer anyways, but both of them have reassured me that it's kind of a necessary for me and my wellbeing of all of this. Especially because that parasite infection has made me exhausted all the time.

So I'll take complete advantage of this time. I'm going to get so much done. I still have to make that oil tonight, which is doable. I need to talk to Monolith further.

Speaking of Monolith, I talked to the QPP who is more versed in Monolith than me, and I learned that basically, many wishes coming true is alongside a lesson learned. And when asking "Do I have a lesson to learn first?" I pulled "Follow Your Dreams" from my yes/no deck, Agatha. Which the QPP thinks either means "no", or a more literal to watch my dreams as that's how Monolith often communicates.

Other than all of that, it's nice to be able to hear and speak to Lucifer so clearly again. I could always talk to Them, but I realized I kinda missed Them a bit. Hearing Their voice all the time.

I've missed a lot of other spirit guides, too. Communication has been steadily getting worse, probably because of the gunk getting worse, and so... hopefully now I could convene and talk without problem. At least for now? Again, might need some extra "spa days" for this.

I also cleaned my shrines and altar up. All 10 shrines, yes. And the 1 magic altar. I had to remove a load of old spells I put up and forgot about, lol. Old spells that already did their dues. To mixed results, of course.

Mostly I just had to dust. It's kind of funny to me that you can tell what shrine belongs to my patrons, because it's so much more filled out than my other shrines.

I also re-powered my money jar on request of WM who feels the original time didn't go very well. So, repowered that baby. Whether or not it'll work is up in the air. It might just need more time to manifest into reality, of course.

Let's see... what else? Not much else to say. I've got more work to do tonight. I'm mostly just killing some time for another hour until the sun hour.

But I think I'll cut it here. I've got plenty of other things that I need to do, like my personal books for the day. (In which this does get copy/pasted into it, lol.)

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Fredas, Second Seed 16, 2025

🗓️ | Friday, May 16, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear 🌙 | waning gibbous 🎊 | n/a

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no dream remembered

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Okay, so, spell chatter up first. I did two spells today, both with the help of the Witch Mother figure that's been lurking around. First one was a spell that relates to my haunting that I won't be sharing details on, but the other one is a money jar, a "what's available" type, because I don't have much available for it right now.

I don't have much information on the Witch Mother beyond a basic "You're not gonna die". We're going back and forth on whether we're compatible or not, and it's up in the air what exactly is going to happen between us.

I can't really say I'm seeking a teacher, though. She kind of just showed up, and she seems to be stubborn about teaching me, but we shall see what happens. I just am not an easy one to teach, especially with how I am right now in my magical path (endlessly doing banishings, wardings, and cloakings that get broken through eventually), which barely leaves me open for trying new things or doing other spells, lol. I'm just not in the ideal space, so it's actually a really inconvenient time for a teacher-like spirit to show up.

Other than all that, my haunting is back, as per usual. Taking the violent approach worked for a little bit, but they're plotting and trying to get at me to continue the stupid onslaught again. So. Y'know. The usual.

I really want to be able to do tarot for myself without worrying that a haunting spirit is gonna show up and spout their nonsense. I can read for others literally no problem at all, it's when I read for myself that they chime in, [ sigh ].

Anyways, it's late, I'm tired. I don't wanna write any more. G'night, though I won't be asleep for a while.

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Middas, Second Seed 14, 2025

🗓️ | Wednesday, May 14, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear and windy, then rainy 🌙 | waning gibbous 🎊 | n/a

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no dream remembered

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So, I keep forgetting to write in this, lol. My life has been nothing but handling the haunting and prepping my shop for reopening, so, like, y'know.

But yesterday a spirit who dubbed herself "Witch Mother" reached out and all that, yeah? Through a dream, which essentially was her placing crocheted poppets around this home I was in to keep me safe from whatever. It was a show of goodwill that she actually did reflected in my dream.

But I talk to her today, and she reveals her end goal with me is essentially "to help me regain my faith in magic". Which... buddy. ma'am. I haven't lost that. at all.

My haunting problems are a skill issue for one thing, and a persistent piece of shit spirit thing for another, and the reason I'm not doing gender glamors and prosperity spells and money bowls and all that shit is because I'm exhausted and broke. I'm doing the same three spells every damn week just to keep a haunting at bay, of fuckin' course I'm not trying to do money bowls right now. That's not my main priority, especially when I can pray and ask for the same outcome of a money bowl.

So... basically, a spirit approached me that I won't be working with. Because she has nothing to offer me and isn't willing to just be friends or companions. She specifically was here to help me "regain a lost faith in magic", and because I haven't lost that, she has nothing to offer me.

I really do appreciate her show of good will and I don't care if she undoes it, because if she does another spirit of mine will just put up their own version, but we have nothing to offer each other.

Okay this is later on but we found something we can work together on, the stupid haunting. She doesn't know how much help she'd be, but she's going to help me tempt the beast to see if I can lessen up on the weekly spells.

Anyways, I have nothing else to say tonight.

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Turdas, Second Seed 01, 2025

🗓️ | Thursday, May 01, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear and windy, then rainy 🌙 | waxing crescent 🎊 | Beltane / May Day

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no dream remembered

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Hey, it's been a while! I completely forgot about this sideblog, despite working on Tumblr in other ways lately. So... let's catch up, okay?

My haunting seems to be resolved, for realsies this time. It's not been a problem for WEEKS, whereas before I would say it was resolved after a few days... but now it's been like a month. and no problems. point blank. at all. So yay!

I've been working mostly with my unrecorded pantheon, especially Zyxlairuo and Myska, on varied things. Just moving forward with them and into them, and I got some readings that said to rely on my spirit guides more now. As well as readings to rest, to take things slow, some other things.

I've been doing a lot of readings for others lately, I've got multiple in my queue right now, I just need a break for the night 'cause my head go ow... and I'm sleeby... I'm thankful to my friend for sponsoring the post and meaning some folks came my way!

Hmmm... I don't think there's much else to say tonight. I am particularly tired, so I'm gonna end it here. G'night~ I'll try and upkeep this blog again lol.

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Sundas, First Seed 30, 2025

🗓️ | Sunday, March 30, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear and windy 🌙 | waxing crescent 🎊 | no holiday

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no dream remembered

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Not super lots to report on today, but I'll report what I can. I made a new blog for my unrecorded pantheon, @devout-of-the-phoenix, which is feeling really nice even if I'm still anxious about sharing about them. I honored Zyxlairuo and Myska through it, and Lucifer has also been present and being friendly to me as always.

I said thanks to multiple gods today: Radirat, Dekuroi, Bryzinave, Apisbuzkal, Vespting, and Bakyri. All part of my unrecorded pantheon.

I did also, on top, talk to Norvelks, as part of my daily automatic writing session. Barely said anything though. That's fine, though!

The haunting is in a resolved state right now so I have some stuff I have to get done, but I've done my 30 minutes of work on my Book of Shadows. So I can stop for the day, but as per my own rules I can do more if I want to. I might do a bit more tonight before I get off to bed.

I should get back to my Vaerzyx related holidays, but it's a lot of stuff thus I don't really wanna yet. Too much too soon, I'm chilling.

Uhm... I've got nothing else. Back to work I go 'cause I want to!

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Fredas, First Seed 28, 2025

🗓️ | Friday, March 28, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear and windy 🌙 | waning crescent 🎊 | no holiday

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no dream remembered

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Today I've been being productive, I'm holding myself to at least 30 minutes of Book of Shadows work. What I do will probably be different day to day, but I want to get stuff done. Today I assigned more Citadel significators to various spirit guides, namely the Touhous today, but I'm nooooowhere near done with that.

I also want to get back into daily automatic writing with a random spirit guide, as decided by pulling a card to tell who is present while also letting there be some randomness of which present one gets selected.

I do need to get back into my daily personal journaling as well... that's a habit I need to break myself back into. I'll do my best. I just got so tired of doing it.

I queued a lot of art of Zacian (and some of Zamazenta) for my Pokémon blog. I worked with Zacian lately, so I decided to do that as a devotional.

I talked a lot with Lucifer today as well, we just hung out for the most part. They're worried about me about the haunting, and is just observing. I know others are also watching, but they're purposefully watching from hidden places and I don't know where those hidden places are.

I want to do a spell tomorrow for the eclipse in Aries, but was advised against my plan on doing a baneful spell against the haunting spirits by Lucifer, who thinks I'll only end up pissing them off and making them lash out even more against me. Which... is a good point. But I don't know what else to do for the eclipse, so! I'll have to figure something else out by tomorrow or just skip the spellwork day.

Not much else to say today... not much has happened. It's been a chill day, which is always a blessing.

[khajiit-journal]

Turdas, First Seed 27, 2025

🗓️ | Thursday, March 27, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear 🌙 | waning crescent 🎊 | no holiday

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no dream remembered

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Today was pretty uneventful. I did a good bit of meditation, got a new fidget toy that my dad 3D printed, did another Kipper grand tableau, played more Spiral Knights, worked on "today's pop culture spirit is..." for tomorrow because I need to get back into doing that again. I need to post how my meditations went, because I meant to.

I meditated with Zacian and Zamazenta, Hannya, and Yumekui. It all went well, and I spaced it out over the day.

I'll offer up the new fidget toy but I dunno who to in particular. I gave Vanaduke some ice cream, we'll see if He accepts it and what He thinks of it.

I also think I'm gonna try to make it a daily habit to work on Book of Shadows for at least 30 minutes. So before I go to bed tonight I'll work on that tonight for a little bit. I have some old profiles to be working on and trying to finish, but I think tonight I'll set up and prep some stuff to fill out later, which should gladly take up 30 minutes of my time.

I think that's that for the day! I'll probably queue some more art for my varied blogs, at least the ones that I feel like.

[khajiit-journal]

Middas, First Seed 26, 2025

🗓️ | Wednesday, March 25, 2025 🌦️ | warm & clear 🌙 | waning crescent 🎊 | n/a

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no dream remembered

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Holy wow my brain has been mush today. I'm really hoping tomorrow is better because I owe a mutual a reading, and I feel bad making him wait so long for me to actually... y'know... Do The Reading. I also need better discipline for the sake of selling, I admit, because I cannot make patrons wait this long. Unless they happen to be far back in the queue, but I need better discipline and better ways to cope with brain mush and recover from it quicker.

But anyways, I made a new blog today, @devout-of-the-spiral, for Spiral Knights PCP/PCM. I want to reach out to Lord Vanaduke first, because I get the feeling that bonding with Him will be... difficult. He's framed as relatively paranoid and hostile to anybody who enters his chambers, seeing them as enemies to the empire, as wolves here to strike. So the sooner I can bond with him, the better, because I'll be able to have results sooner. I hope to work with him on my haunting - I think he'd sympathize to my situation of being assailed by unwanted people.

I've not really gotten much else done. Did another banishing ritual today, because what Lucifer did worked for a bit but didn't fix the situation. I made sure to thank them regardless for their help, even if it's not the fix we were hoping for.

I need to make a new banishing ritual every once in a while, because they end up figuring out a way through and then they tell each other where the way through is. So I have to make a whole brand new ritual every single time that happens.

I think these banishings are why my brain is such mush, alongside less magical reasonings of just not sleeping very good at night. I might... have to ask my spirit guides to do the rituals for me for a bit. I'm sure they'd be happy to do these things for me, but I can't guarantee it'll work or last. I need a break, but a break isn't exactly afforded to me. Because if I take a break? They get in, they harass me. And I refuse to give in and do what they want me to do.

I'm fine doing weekly banishings. I just wish it worked consistently. I just wish they didn't keep tearing down my walls and my cloaks. I just wish I could keep them away without having to keep making new rituals to banish them over and over. It's frustrating, knowing I'll be dealing with this for at least the next few years. If not the entire rest of my life (unless I give in, but I don't want to).

[ siiiiigh ]

I keep needing to lean on Yumekui (Onmyoji) for sleeping at night, though. I should switch it up and rely on some of my other dream related entities, just so I'm not pushing Yumekui every night.

Well, I think that's all for today. I need to be more consistent with dream journaling and writing in here, I think. I want to be.

[khajiit-journal]

Sundas, First Seed 23, 2025

🗓️ | Sunday, March 23, 2025

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Lots of things happened.

My parents bought me some items off a list I made, but the two journals they bought were already fully written in. I borrowed an art sketchpad to draw in. I was originally trying to get a three ring binder with "binder accessories", whatever those are.

I bought an "air-frier". It was a normal pot.

I sorted through crayons. I had an abundance of this creamy orange color.

I made s'mores over a fire, or rather, I was going to. I never got around to it.

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Again, forgot to write, but did dream journal, so posting late.