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The Mist

We were riding on the van with song played on the playlist while the rainfall pouring heavily.

The windows moist in coldness of the sorroundings and the road covered with mist.

It's once in a lifetime event seeing those clouds above our heads and coated the tip of the mountain where we are passing by.

The moment was perfect and superb. The silence was deafening and the out of nowhere talk blend to the smokey-like ambiance. It felt like we are entering to the misty forest where the end was the hogwarts.

When the rain stopped and calm, we stopped twice to take some photographs and appreciate the perfect baguio feels. The breeze gave chills, the winter feels sent shiver like we lost in the forest of Korea.

The healthy color of the trees was breath taking, the fog placed on its tip was lovely and the lit of light was contemplating the wonderful scenario where I only seen to those magical movies and to those forest that my mind produced everytime I read some fantasies.

The placed which I imagined once, was became reality.

The road was hazy, plain, and silent. The woods from distance was blurry and disappeared in vision.

It was perfect scenario to digest everything or anything.

We'd walked through pavements and captured scenery which catch our attention. The view was magical and phenomenal. I can't take off my eyes to every tall tree with cup of mist on its top.

Everytime some vehicle appeared on my eye sight and disappeared on the fog feels like I'm watching some movie with a great effects in an hd quality.

Now that I feel the winter on tropical place. Felt like the Snowflakes really in Ph. Though, the coldness wasn't that cold like the real winter in some other places yet the feeling was overwhelming.

And a one of a kind experience.

📍San Nicolas Magsaysay Occidental Mindoro

Photographs by yours truly

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No matter what people say, stay firm and brave. No matter how hard life gets stay tough and fight.

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“Get up in bed and left worries in it”

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Just someone

I wanted to hold your hand, like the other do.

Holding your waist and make fun of you.

Watching every sunset and every stars on the starry night.

Sitting beside you, no awkwardness when I'm with you.

Laughing together to every lame jokes we say.

Walking beside the shore, where we can clearly see how the ocean back to it's harbor.

Keeping in mind that we're already to this road that we wish for!

I wish we could live like this until tomorrow.

Waking up with watery eye

it's just a dream that will never gonna happen.

Someone owned you. Permanently!

The two of you bound with love and harmony

Unseparated couple! Indeed.

Everytime, I see the two of you the love is present , it was passionate.

How your glance collide a new world build.

In this story, I'm the someone's POV.

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Don't Pretend, Be Yourself

Every single people I knew saying that “Be Yourself” show your True colors, Don't pretend to be someone you are not.

Then, suddenly after we show off, we strip down our masks, there you go people! Acting saints and not a sinners, as if you aren't doing cut throats.

Yes, We knew that it's wrong that it is suicidal. We are not naïve to don't know the divine laws but you're the one who told us to be true to be ouselves yet at the end you were the one who drag us down—ironic!

Are we not allowed to be ourselves? It's not our choice at the very first. What if you are the one on our shoes, can you be tough and firm to your stand? It's hard how we fought and take all of the accusations, blames and discrimination. Yes, it's ludicrous how we keep on fighting for our rights wishing that one day we can be treated as equal—when we'll not!

You want us to be true yet you keep on caging us on the zone where we can't be US! If this is an illness the moment it stick on our lives we will wipe it—as fast as we can, just to be free from the standard of society but it's not...

it's not!!

Are we selfish to be like this? Are we selfish to be true, to be ourselves? Are we selfish to have equal rights? Are we selfish to give freedom for ourselves admitting that we are not your mundane fellow? Are we selfish to give credits and give love to ourselves?Are we? You must question yourself, maybe you are the selfish one.

Sometimes, we are confused to what is right and wrong! To where we stand, or to where we live! Even for us we didn't accept and admit it quickly, we consume lot of times. And even lots of us didn't accept it to theirselves, yet! Cause they're afraid to be criticize, to the discriminations.

If you don't want us to pretend, don't MAKE us to pretend! It's difficult to reach your standards, to fit in, to behave in your selfish ways. You're the one who made us to pretend. To stay to what you knew is our comfort zone when it isn't giving us comfort. You are just keeping us to the room where no sunlight, no oxygen and no spaces— you're killing us, choking us to death, issolating us until we take our own life—and you will say it's our choice when the true is you DIDN'T give us choice.

Stop telling us to be true, to be ourselves if you can't accept us being true! of being US!

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Bloom like flower🌼

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Masochist

“Savor the pain until it became part of you”

Insane right? How can savoring pain can help you to mitigate pain itself? Assuming that a salty fish can lessen it's saltiness by dipping it from a water with salt itself and leave it for a moment. Just like the salty fish that became tasteless after, the pain will probably gone when you savor it rather than getting rid of it—it just became worse.

Another one, did you know that befriending the person you wanted your feelings to forget is much easier than distancing yourself to that person(let's talk this sometime).

So why not savor the pain instead?

It is like eating sugar while drinking coffee! The more sugar you ate the more sugarless the coffee can be—all you can taste will be the coffee itself—that's what I meant. By savoring the pain latter it will became painless.

How can I say so? Pain is a feeling—like angry, or happiness— it has boundary. The more you take it the more it will become familiar to you, so that it become easy for you to take it.

How about, you ate lasagna for a consecutive week. Do you want lasagna more or you will be tired of eating it? It's the same with pain! The more you take it the more you'll get through it.

Who cares if you are enjoying the company of pain, latter the pain will ease. Unlike you're getting rid of it or you keep on escaping from it, why not take it and enjoy it? The longer the process the painful it can be.

You want more comparison that is related to this?

Let's dig a little deeper.

For example in sex! The first time you experience it it was painful and you want to stop it but the longer or frequently it happened the more you want it than you expected—I'm not in experienced lol😂—sometimes it became your hobby.

Pain was the same as taking drugs, the more you use it the more you became familiar and addicted to its dosage and effects.

“Masochist” that's what they called to those who enjoy in pain and want it more! If you're in pain why not hurt yourself even more? in that way the painful will became minuscule and has similar intensity to the other pain you are undergoing. Just like what they said before it become bigger end it the moment it was small.

p.s the letters below attached in the photo was written on a Caesar code.