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the matcha latte from Koffee Paradise is perfect. no notes.

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update:

oatmilk is OUT

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iced coffee medium

almond milk

2 pumps caramel swirl

1 shot of espresso

EXTRA ICE

my dunkin order for those who don't care and didn't ask ONLY:

LARGE (obviously)

1/2 decaf

oatmilk

2 pumps hazelnut

2 pumps butter pecan

2 pumps caramel

2 shots of espresso

EXTRA ICE

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there's no shame in continuing to live with your parents as an adult, but it does have an undeniable poisoning effect on your brain that you can't start healing until you live somewhere else

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my dunkin order for those who don't care and didn't ask ONLY:

LARGE (obviously)

1/2 decaf

oatmilk

2 pumps hazelnut

2 pumps butter pecan

2 pumps caramel

2 shots of espresso

EXTRA ICE

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GORDON LAITE

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I’ve been looking for a part time job for like 4 months now. the 9-5 schedule is making setting up interviews and availability difficult. So last night, I decided to apply to target. Within 4 hours, I received a rejection letter ??? I have so much retail/hospitality experience so I am genuinely concernedddddd. I mean 4 hours ? AND the position was just posted. yeah… so I’m trying not to think about dying

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i have no way out of this

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me at the stupid ass decisions I make that are based on fear

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I don’t have to be pleasant nor do I have to be fucking careful.

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“I’m almost 50, and here is the best thing I have learned so far: every strange thing you’ve ever been into, every failed hobby or forgotten instrument, everything you have ever learned will come back to you, will serve you when you need it. No love, however brief, is wasted.” @louisethebaker on Twitter

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everywhere I turn I’m reminded of this bitch

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annie steg gerard

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i love when i'm trying really fucking hard and i actually pull the thing off. it makes me want to do more things instead of being self-pitying and withdrawing. to stop putting myself at the bottom mentally. assuming that things will go poorly just drains me of my energy. life gets better but sometimes you have to kick it in the teeth and believe in yourself. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, YOU FUCK

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Could I just say something real quick? 

It’s all coming. Whatever you’re starving for, whatever that ache is that stings your bones, it’s coming. The love, the happiness, the adventures, and the creativity that you are seeking, it is all coming for you. Here’s the thing, don’t let your right now get away. The things you find mundane, keep them. Store them in the pocket of your favorite coat like found pennies. They aren’t futile. Do not let them cause you to feel empty and hollow. They are going to be worthwhile. Keep the hunger for what is coming, but please, keep a tight grip on these little ordinary moments that are happening right now, because they – these tiny pieces of this ordinary affair you find yourself in – are the foundation to your extraordinary. And I promise you, if you begin to recognize your right now, you’ll see your extraordinary coming.  

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today is the last day I’m going to feel sorry for myself for not being able to afford my own place/1bdroom apartment. i work hard every day. i spent my time in higher education. I did what I was “supposed to.” the government and its persistent pursuit to keep the poor-poor and the rich-rich is above me. I’d rather think about something else. i can’t keep obsessing over this and feeling horrible because I don’t make enough