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I actually love this. Like this is the most peaceful post I've ever scene.

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Pleaseeee lucky clover pleaseee

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I'm alive again guysssss 😋

The depression has officially halted

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Happy Julius Ceasar stab day 🗡

Poll to be sent precisely on March 15th:

Pick a knife!

Every answer is a knife 🔪

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Hot take- Henry from the picture of Dorian Gray and Henry from the secret history have to be related some way. The parallels are too much.

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It's my 4 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Oh thank you for this, much appreciated..You know I feel like I should be weirded out but like it's Ancient Greece so idk man-

I have some serious beef with the person who said that Patroclus is Achilles cousin. Like who what when how why????? Like it's already bad to see it in the movie Troy but A DOCUMENTARY???? I- Im so done... someone explain please-

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I have some serious beef with the person who said that Patroclus is Achilles cousin. Like who what when how why????? Like it's already bad to see it in the movie Troy but A DOCUMENTARY???? I- Im so done... someone explain please-

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OMG EVERYONE

For our reading class we get to do a project on greek gods

I GET TO DRESS UP AS ATHENA AND DO A WHOLE PRESENTATION ON HER

My inner classics nerd is crying tears of joy

I know Athena is kinda basic but she has literally been my kinship since the 3rd grade.

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Okay wait

Thinking about more of the story element in the secret history... If this is Richard rewriting and recounting his memories how do we know that their really accurate? In the book he admits he's an liar and that at some times he was so drunk that he couldn't recount correctly. I understand he's an unreliable narrative but just how unreliable is he? Like we know Richard wasn't told everything that was going on in the group so what really happened? How much of the group did he not know? How much is he holding back? Not to mention that the group sometimes may have actually been lying to him and he never found out. It sucks because I'll never have my questions answered. Richard is an interesting but frustrating character. Also just a thought do we ever get a clear answer to why he's writing this memoir?

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I just finished The Secret History and holy shit. I hate to say this but it makes so much sense. Not in the aesthetic dark academia-isk way but in a real and true academic way. As a person who's been deemed a gifted kid since kindergarten it makes too much sense to me. Academia isn't just an beautiful, aesthetic thing. It's not as nearly perfect as it looks. Its not something to chase after just for the beauty of it. Beauty is terror and that what Donna Tartt shows in this book. Everything has its problems. To chase after beauty is to chase a wolf in sheep's clothing. People deemed academicly gifted have tons of problems and aren't perfect. These people usually get driven mad and do something to break this academic perfection. To break free and truly feel alive...but this leads to a nightmare that no matter what, you have to live with. God damn Donna Tartt you did an excellent job. This book is definitely going to stick with me.

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Apollo summary: A overly tragic and chaotic Bi free on any day

Idk why I just thought of that rn

Apollo*crying*: Why will no one love me? I mean I'm the best looking of all the gods here!

Artemis: Have you ever considered personality as a factor?

Another thing-

Erichthonius: Mommy?

Athena: DO I LOOK LIKE-

And one more...

Hippolytus: I'm asexual and I serve Artemis

Aphrodite: Peace was never an option

And maybe one more

Aphrodite: Hey there's a new few mortals that are single~

Athena, Artemis, and Hestia: Damn I- I kinda don't care

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Hi, I read your post on the pressure from being a golden child and I wanted to say that you’re absolutely right. I experienced something similar to you, but I’m an only child from both sides of the family who are highly successful & the pressure is enormous. I get compared to their childhoods & their successes all the time which unfortunately for me spiralled into depression.

Anyways, I just wanted to offer a virtual hug to you 🤗🌼 & some positive vibes. You’re not alone. Please feel free to DM me anytime:)

Thank you so much. This made my day so much better! I hope it gets better for you too.

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Ok I'm sorry to like the 1 person reading this at the moment but-

Why do people think being the favorite and golden child is a good thing?

Because I'm sorry but its the worst thing ever.

Ok I'm sorry I not trying to sound rude or inconsiderate or selfish but it's really bad and I just need to rant my heart out.

Also my situation is a little different because I got really old parents(I'm talking in their 50s).

Ok so let's start with being the "favorite child". Also I'm sorry to all the people who had to deal with worst favoritism and being the unloved child. Ok so I know being the favorite sounds amazing on surface value but it's not. I'm the youngest and you probably expect me to be a spoiled brat who gets everything and narcissistic because I'm the "favorite". But that's far from the truth. I don't get everything I want, I have extremely low self esteem and I'm not a spoiled brat. I honestly used to this that all the stereo types about favored and gifted children were true but now I realize that for me and some others it's not. I used to beat myself up for these things and tbh I still do even though I've come to terms with the fact that there not true.

This is probably due to my siblings. I have two older sisters, both of which are in high school. Because my parents favor me more I have a strained relationship with them(if you can even call it that). There both incredibly bitchy to me and shit. There rude and they criticize my every more. They beat me down whenever they get a chance, even if I'm already at rock bottom. This is probably because they think they have to make me suffer because of our parents. Which isn't fair at all. I can’t even talk to them about my feelings because they'll use it against me or they just call me sensitive and won't give two fucks. They talk to eachother about there feelings and experiences all the time and just disclude me. They also talk about me behind my back and even to our parents. At first when I was younger I thought it was just them joking around with me but I realized when I got older that it wasn't. However my parents "favor" isn't even really big. Our parents still buy then what they want despite saying they wouldn’t. So they beg and get a lot of things but the moment I ask for a book or something there mad at me and calling me a spoiled brat. Which leads me to my next point.

Being the golden/gifted child

If I had a dollar for everytime I had a mental breakdown because of my grades I'd be a million air.

So I have something called academic validation. Meaning that my self worth is solely dependent on my grades. I was always a nerd but this is just to much. My oldest sister used to be in the same role but the pressure was lighter. So when she got into high school she said fuck school and started skipping classes and shit. This was bad but it didn't help that my brother who is 21 now did the same thing but worse. It started with my brother so our parents started to put pressure on my oldest sister and me, the youngest. They said the the middle child grades were fine even though they were lower the both of ours. We were always straight A students but then my sister decided she didn't care anymore that left all the pressure on me. I was only in 5th grade at the time so it was a lot on me. When I talked to my sister about it all she said was "don't care, deal with it". And so I did.

All my middle school years was just academics. I went to a Ib league school so the work was harder than your average American school. I sill managed to keep all A's but I wasn't happy at all. I never got anything for my academics anyway. My parents just brushed it off and said, "Your smart you should get these grades anyway. We shouldn't have to be expected to give you something." All I asked for was a good job or something like that. That night I broke down completely. Then I finally realized that no matter what I do ill never be good enough for anybody. I had no good traits about me. I hear no talent, I wasn't pretty, and I wasn't really a fun person to be around. I over thought everything I did so whenever we played games I couldn't deal with the pressure. Once one of my friends told me "your the only person who I know can make the game hangman unfun." It was supposed to be a joke and we laughed it off but that made me want to cry. That day i realized from another friend that we kinda grew up to fast. Looking at it now I didn’t really have a child hood. I was always fored to play catch up with my older siblings. I always had to be on par with them to even be looked at as a human being.

I was always the one people looked for help to with was good(I love helping people) but it kinda became overwhelming. I kinda just hide it with jokes about myself. I'm the therapist friend but yet I can't tell people my feelings. I can’t talk to my parents, my sisters, my friends, and I don't have a lover. They'll either just brush it off or not care at all. It hurts a lot. This leads me to often be confined and left alone with my emotions.

Which leads to me today. The me currently writing this long ass Ted talk. I have terrible anxiety and zero self worth and I feel the need to be validated with my grades and by the people around me. But even with all this I still feel empty. Like it's just hard. I turn to books and history to try and distract me but that can only take you so far. Also I find myself comparing myself to my friends because my parents always compared me to my siblings. I feel the emine pressure to fit into the mold my teachers, friends, and parents think I am and want. I work as hard as I can but it feels like I always come short.

I apologize sincerely if this comes off as selfish or narcissistic.

I wanna try and over come this and gain confidence in myself but it seems impossible. I'm still only in the 8th grade so maybe it'll finally dawn on me. It's just wherever I try to reach out for help I feel so selfish and entitled. It's like a voice in the back of your mind telling you "People deal with so much worse than this and you have the audacity to cry at these things? You shouldn't feel this way just suck it up. Your just weak, nothings wrong with you."

Thank you for listening to my rant, I apologize for wasting your time.

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I'm making these into posters and hanging them up in my room and no one is going to stop me- Their too perfect...

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Oh sweet lucky golden potato please grant me good news I beg of you- 🙇‍♀️