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puffin muffin

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Skellies??

I have a vague memory of some museum I went to back in high-school where there was a whole floor for a display of human remains. There were bones, whole skeletons, jars with various organs, one display was of the entirety of a human’s nervous system! It was great. I hardly remember it but I know me and my friends spent most of our time there, looking at everything. Some jar had weird, mutated fetus. Would definitely go there again.

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would you race him

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Hey there. I want a break from all of this. The path that everyone sets for each of us. School, uni, work. I’m just going to take a break and see what happens. I’m quite privileged in a way that I can allow myself to just float along with life and not bother too much. I used to be told whenever I got too anxious and stressed how “this isn’t hard, wait until it actually gets hard”. Kind of made me think I was overreacting every time. No help, just shaming about how I don’t really know how to deal with certain situations. If it will only get harder, I might as well use all the privileges I have now and worry about the ‘hard times’ when they come. No need to overwork myself out of fear of “what if I won’t have enough footing when the ‘hard times’ come?”

There are so many irrational things happening around me constantly that I cannot plan for any of it. I’m dealing with people who have no sense of logic when they talk or do something. And they never listen to anything I have to say. “First manage to stand on your own two feet, only then you can have a say in this” is the only argument they have against what I express. The only thing I do is not waste money on rent somewhere in the city when I have a room in my childhood home for myself. Is me not wasting my money count as me not being able to stand on my own two feet? Debatable. The only thing that gives me some power in this place is that I am useful to them. Now when everything is long-distance and it’s extremely important for the devices to work properly, people are afraid to step over the line with me because I might not help them when need be. Why is it that the only value I feel here with most of the people is based on fear? As always, not all the people. That’s also a reason why I stay here. There are some people I don’t want to leave alone in this place.

- little krekar 🍘

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Init

Hey there. How long have you been here to stumble upon my post?

I’ve gone on a walk today. First one in a while. Had a calm moment to think about what I’m doing, with my life and all. Didn’t get to any conclusions, but it sure is nice to be able to think clearly.

I’ll be doing some changes. One of them happened to be this whole thing. I’ve been writing random thoughts in a journal for a while, mainly inspired by Night In The Woods a few years back. The game came out back in 2017, can you believe it?? It’s been four years, lots happened in that time. Not in my life, though. It doesn’t feel like anything much happened. Even though I can make up a tale (based on real events, of course) about what had happened, but to me it feels like nothing really happened. So I’m making something happen now. This is a fun change, making it so some stranger passing by could stop for a second and skim through. I don’t really care whether this is read or not, much like I don’t really care whether someone listens to what I say or not. At least, most of the time. There are a few exceptions, like with everything.

I’m not sure whether I’ll make these long or short posts. I guess it will depend on the mood. Then again, is this one long? For me it’s not. Who knows.

- little krekar 🍪