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im not going to lie these past few weeks of summer have been flyin by so quickly!

texting her isnt enough though but i must suffice with it

i miss hearing her voice i miss seeing her blue eyes i miss feeling her blonde hair um ok bai 😭

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i miss her so bad lol

shes the only one that pays attention to the details about me

i know if i asked my friends what my favorite pen and favorite type of paper was they wouldnt know

but i know she knows because she bought me them as a gift :-|

i hate everyone except her i need her

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this isnt tc related ish but lol im getting so scared for college app season

im going to go tour yale and harvard next week but im not going to apply next season because i seriously do not have a chance at all but i really want to go to yale

i think i could maybe get into a good(ish) uc like uci and ucsb if i grind but idek atp 😭 if i have to go to my state schools id be fine with it but idk

i really like a lot of prestigious lacs too like wellesley and bowdoin but i dont think i have a chance at them either 🫤

i was thinking that i could do my first two years at the best school i could get into and then apply as a transfer to ivies later on but even so the transfer rate is more competitive... but i was thinking with the first two years im in college i could really grind and like do really high impact ecs. idk if it is worth it tho 🫩 im so scared for college app season... probably will cry left and right but rejection therapy i guess!

(doesnt help that two of my friends who were close with my tc are going to harvard and yale next year :p so much pressure)

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its been an entire WEEK since i have seen her and i still miss her so bad!! throwback to the time she told me she would cry about me to her husband bc i would tell her about how unhappy i am at school and with the people around me and that she felt like she couldnt do anything to help me

ummmmmm when will i ever have anyone like that in my life

my exes never cared about me the same way she does and neither do my parents

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hhh i cant stop thinking about her... im nearly halfway done with the journal she gave me to write in (its been four days since the last day of school) and i cant stop staring at the pic of me and her and listening to voice memos of the conversations i had with her during the year :( im going crazy..........,. maybe i will text her but im scared im gonna annoy her. hopefully shes been thinking about me too 💩 miss her calling me her little princess but whatever.

its gotten so bad i made a countdown on my phone and UGHHHHH SEEING 76 DAYS LEFT IS KILLIMG ME

guess i will just have to suffice with fake made up situations of me and her in my head. and fake talking to her through the journal she gave me. ok bai

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i just wanna cuddle up next to her and nuzzle my face into her chest while she calls me all the prettiest names

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but unfortunately her husband is hot too (no kids though so i could be her kid/gf/wife/baby)

me and her if she didn’t have a husband and kids…

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ughhh fuck im going crazy without being able to talk to her

she still has her remind open so i could like text her but like i dont want to annoy her when its summer and she'd given me a notebook to write everything i want to talk to her about into

atleast when i come back i know she's gonna read every single page because thats what she did when i was gone for a school trip and had made me write down everything into a notebook ;-( i just miss her so much and bbhhhhh and its like the only thing keeping me going is thinking about getting back from summer break and giving her that notebook and having her tell me that she can hear my voice through my writing and that shes obsessed with how i think

its just really frickin hard not being able to see her for over two months especially when i hate all my friends

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i can't stop staring at the picture of me and her

i miss her :( and i hate summer

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im gonna attempt a new challenge tomorrow... its called the

try and go to all six classes without skipping in tcs class challenge

dont know how successful i will be!!! 😣😣😓

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kiss this woman already. ur killing me

trust me... i would if i could

unfortunately she makes me seem like her daughter and she views me as one but you know sometimes she says things and i start questioning

like yess.... continue letting me ditch class in your room.... keep calling me your beautiful girl.... keep making it apparent im different from all the rest of these kids by making them jealous and letting me pick your lesson plan and not making me fill out a form to get a letter of rec from you... 💩 just trust me if i could kiss her i would!!

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today she let me skip second and third period with her yayayay but i got worried she was going to get sick of me so i told her that id go to calculus (my fourth period) and her response left me blushing so hard!! when i told her id leave after third, she said "but i need to keep you all to myself"

LAIIIIKKKK OMMMMMMGGGGG

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earlier this week my tc was telling me about how she has a student who thinks similar to me and i asked her "but im your favorite right?" and she responded with a "you know it" and continued explaining how whenever that student comes up to her to tell her a thought about a reading she gave out she thinks about me how and how "that'd be a thought katya would have"

eeeeeek i consume her mind too >.< its nice knowing how much she thinks about me and how much she talks about me to her husband mlem mlem

and i still havent gotten over how she gave me flowers yesterday and let me pull up a stool next to her desk and talk to her while i was supposed to be in a different class

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i really don't want summer to come i won't be able to talk to her for so long

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she's so cute.......... today she was telling the class how she's gonna start taking requests for letter of recs but she'll only take 10 and i was like "do you think im going to be one of ten?" and winked at her and then she replied "you know it!" and that just made me really happy because she did that in-front everyone who has to practically beg for one from her because she writes the best ones out of all the teachers at my school

i was also ranting to her and was just telling her i always claim ignorance when someone annoys me and she replied "that's my girl" and laughed

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wrote in a journal for her to document my thoughts during my trip and i gave it to her today to read

she said that she cant stop reading my thoughts and shes obsessed with the way i think

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today i went to snoqualmie falls but the only thing on my mind is her