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THE HAPPIEST VIDEO I’VE EVER SEEN😄

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i can’t believe i’m making this post. i feel sick to my stomach. everything is in a fog, like this is all a terrible dream.

i didn’t know liam personally, but even just watching him move about life being his tactile, steadfast, human-labrador self with boundless amounts of love to give, even if it meant taking on the brunt of others’ pain himself, as a bystander has been an honour and a privilege.

he had a talent—a true gift—and chose to share that with us. and through that talent, as a disabled high schooler who literally had trouble finding my voice and never fit in anywhere, i found a community. a home. somewhere i knew i could always turn, through the good times and the bad. in many ways, one direction saved me. there’s no “thank you” that feels big enough to encapsulate what he did for me and so many others.

all my love and well wishes to his family, friends and whoever was lucky enough to be in his orbit.

rest in peace, liam. ❤️

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and i guess i had this whimsical idea of all the boys sitting on a porch as old men reminiscing about the good old days in the biggest boy band in the world as five terrible dancers with a whole lot of heart, but life is cruel and just doesn’t work out that way sometimes, and it fucking hurts

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When it suddenly crashes on you that it is real and not just a nightmare, and the dam of tears breaks 💔

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i love you forever

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i’m in true shock x

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Miss them with my whole heart

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Liam reacting to Louis watching his Instagram Live

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Louis via instagram story - 17.10

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i loved one direction with an all-consuming force when i was younger. it hurts deeply to mourn someone you were a massive fan of as teenager, and became a peer of as an adult.

i know people change and grief is unsure or complicated when it’s attached to a fond memory or the feeling a person gave you and not tangibly the person themself. i can see many of you on here are struggling with that right now and i understand.

a few years ago i purchased a home that Liam previously owned. there were rumors the house was haunted. He assured me it was not, and i believed him. because i know the ghosts that haunt us aren’t tethered to buildings. They live in parts of us that are harder to reach and they go wherever we do.

as a parent, a fellow artist, and a fan, i simply cannot fathom this untimely loss. my heart goes out to his family, friends, and the fans. 💔

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The kid you loved wasn’t the man he became. You’re allowed to mourn the memory of your childhood you just lost even if you disapprove of the adult it made reality.

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Zayn: Love You Bro ❤️

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tonight i got a lot of messages from people i met through one direction in the past 11 years and we are all sharing a thought while trying to process this shocking news. this made me realise how much these guys changed the music world, the concept of fandom and the lives of so many people, including mine. as silly as it might sound, i wouldn't be where i am now if it wasn't for this band. one direction created something no other band did, they united an entire generation who still feel attached to them no matter how many years have now passed. these five guys will forever be my home and no matter where we all are at the moment or will be in the next years, a part of those who experienced this band like me will always be at the bottom of those stairs with the boys, in this world or the other.

a hug to everyone🩷

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to my friends who I am still in contact with, those who I lost contact with, those who were still around and those who, like me, have emerged from the woodwork due to tragedy - I love you I see you I’m thinking of you

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all my mutuals on here i’ve meet because of one direction i love u forever i’m sending soo much love and hugs to you…….

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We were supposed to be mourning our 1D boys in our 80s. Not now. I’m speechless.

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Last group hug of the OTRA tour in Sheffield, 10/31/15.