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My strange safe food is rice paper in hot boiling water with a lot of spices (it's very hot, low c@l and it makes my mouth "burn" so I don't feel the need to eat after that and kinda help me with my binge issue)

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Today was great <3

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There's something with counting c@ls and discovering again the feeling of being each day more light and empty yk what I mean?

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Okay today was great! I eat less and tomorrow I will eat less more than today!!!! my New c@l intake is now at 500 c@l and i can much less!!! We will see tomorrow!!! 💋💋💋💋

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Gained too much weight... feel disgusting... need to loose all of it bc the healing process didn't work.. I look like a pig and it's time to relapse🌟💋

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Walk for 1hour and do a "100 calories" workout today! The bad point is that my grandma forced me to eat during lunchtime and I don't know how much calories I ate :(

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Feel like a fucking pig... why did my grandmother forced me to eat bread... I just feel like so big despite I ate a very small part of that bread... I also drink tea but I know that my grandma put sugar in it... anyways... tomorrow I will not eat that much and only one meal.

I feel like the workout of today and the walk I did with my friend just ruin by this bread and this tea... I feel guilty... I wish tomorrow will be a better day... I will try to workout more and walk

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I regret to eat today... this morning I eat one biscuit with a lot of water and this night I eat a small bowl or rice with an egg (and I didn't finish my bowl like just 4 spoon of this and I was full) and I do my workout "500 cal" but I feel so fat now idk why... like I don't want to eat tomorrow, i just want to walk drink a lot of water and tea and do my workout... maybe I eat to much... I feel guilty for real

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Tea is life for real

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the cute frills and ribbon!

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Hi! I'm New here, like I said in my bio, this tumblr will be like my secret diary. I'm from France so my english is not that good but I will try my best to make good sentences and be understandable.

Dear diary,

Today is my first Day of fasting, it was more simple than I except and honestly the feeling of fasting is the best feeling ever. I just feel more pretty and dainty while doin' it. But I know I need to do more and that one day of fasting will be not enough for losing all that weight! But I'm going to be patient and do all my best to lose weight.

Sometimes the fasting is a bit harder bc of my mom. She thinks I will never succeed doin' it plus she always cooked greasy food and the smell makes me think about food and eating all those greasy things. But I'm not weak, it's my first day and I don't want to ruin it already.

Since I'm 12, I dreamed about being skinny and pretty... but I was not knowing HOW to lose weight at this time and I was not strong enough to do it anyways. But now I can do it!! Bc I'm strong enough to fast and do some things to lose all my weight and achieve my ultimate goal : being skinny and pretty.

Sometimes I wish some people give me tips and stuff to lose weight more easily but unfortunately no one can help me achieve my goal (not even my mom), so i just have myself to poursuit my dream.

I also start to restrain my meals! Eating more vegetables and fruits, no more sugar and stuff like that, no bad grease and a lot of water (and tea bc tea is the best things existing in this world) and eating small portion. I don't like sport but I will walk everyday for a long time to replace it and do some exercise. I will DEFINITELY fasting a lot bc I'm sure it will help me to achieve my goal.

The new year is begin and school will started soon so I want to have good habits before school started bc it will be more easy during school to maintain it.

I need to be strong this year! It will be hard but I swear this time I will do ANYTHING to be my dream girl.

I will update you everyday if I can or at least as often as possible ♡

Good luck to myself, don't disappoint you! XoXo