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I'm feeling really depressed right now.

And alone.

And I don't even know why.

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INTJ

HumanMetrics Personality Test

INTJ:

Introvert(67%)  iNtuitive(25%)  Thinking(38%)  Judging(1%)

You have distinct preference of Introversion over Extraversion (67%)

You have moderate preference of Intuition over Sensing (25%)

You have moderate preference of Thinking over Feeling (38%)

You have marginal or no preference of Judging over Perceiving (1%)

Kinuha ko ulit 'tong test na 'to kagabi. Parang yearly ko na yata 'to kinukuha at walang nagbabago.

'Di ako nagbibiro, ito talaga nakukuha ko everytime.

Humans constantly change. Ba't parang ako hindi? 'Di na ba 'ko human? Hehe.

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I am not socially awkward. I just don't like human interaction.

Simula pa nung nagkaisip ako, hindi ko na-encounter ang salitang "hiya". Kaya kong lapitan ang gusto kong lapitan, kausapin ang gusto kong kausapin, gawin ang gusto kong gawin kahit sa harap ng madaming tao. I had anxieties when I was growing up pero ibang istorya na 'yun at hindi 'yun nakaapekto sa pagiging confident ko sa harap ng ibang tao.

Kung bibigyan mo 'ko ng napakalaking crowd o audience sa harap ko tapos uutusan mo ako na mag-discuss ng kung ano, kayang-kaya ko 'yung gawin. Kakabahan siguro ako pero hindi gaya ng ibang tao, hindi ako magbaback-out at babalik sa shell ko. Sisiw sa 'kin ang magsalita ng magsalita sa harap ng tao.

Pero kung maaari, ayokong kumausap ng ibang tao.

Sa mga klase ko, dahil madalas e wala naman akong kilala, wala akong kinakausap. Hindi ako 'ung friendly na type. Siguro kung kakausapin mo ako, ngingitian at magpapakilala tayo sa isa't isa e gagawin ko, pero sa kaloob-looban ko, kinasusuklaman ko na ang pangyayaring 'yun. Don't get me wrong, friendly naman ako kung gugustuhin pero mas trip ko ang pang-iisnab.

No offense, pero ayoko lang talaga na pinapansin ako. Ayoko sa mga party o mga gala time. Mas gugustuhin kong magkulong sa bahay o kwarto at ngumanga kesa sa lumabas at magsaya kasama ang mga kaibigan. Ayokong may biglang kakausap sa 'kin sa bus o sa jeep at magtatanong ng oras. Ayokong habang naglalakad ako e may tatawag sa 'kin at magtatanong ng direksyon. Ayoko ngang magsabi ng "para" sa driver ng jeep o magsabi ng bababaan ko sa kundoktor ng bus e. I loathe human interaction.

I'm aware na tinatawag na 'ko ng mga kasama ko na KJ o killjoy kasi madalas akong hindi sumasama sa kanila pero sa pagiging killjoy at "hindi pakikisaya" sa kanila ako mas kumportable.

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I find this so fucking offensive.

Pinost 'to ng isang bagong member sa anime group na halos pito o walong taon na akong member. 13 years old siya at bagong sali pa lang kaya naiintindihan ko ang pagsa-spam niya sa wall ng group. Gusto lang niya makipagkaibigan siguro, o maging ka-close, makausap ang mga kapwa niya mahihilig sa anime, o kung ano man. Pero nung pinost niya 'to at nakita ko, bigla na lang nag-init 'yung dugo ko.

Ikumpara ang isang "sweet girl" sa isang "otaku girl"? Fucking stereotypes. Aba, may homo pa na nakalagay sa t-shirt nung otaku girl ha?

Hindi sa kanya 'yung picture oo, pero sana naman iniisip muna niya ang mga pinagpopopost niya. Learn to read between the fucking lines. Age is not an excuse.

Nag-comment ako. Medyo pabiro (yata) para hindi naman mukhang seryoso at mukhang galit talaga. #medyooffensiveyungpost 'yung ni-comment ko. Tapos nag-sorry siya saka ni-delete. Wow.

Hindi ko lang talaga makalma 'yung sarili ko nung nakita ko 'to e kaya eto, blog post.

Effective naman.

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Isang zombie apocalypse na istorya na gustung-gusto ng mga kabataan ngayon. Ewan ko din kung bakit.

Chapter 4 ng 'Di naman nakakatakot. ay published na!!

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Gender blindness?!

[Please prepare for another confusing rant.]

I don't get the reason why people make such a big fuss about their gender or their sexuality. It was hard for me to claim or associate myself as a gender queer person because I actually did some research to what kind of sexuality I involve myself with. And I just labeled myself and thought that it was appropriate to call myself a queer just to shut people up that are always asking me about my sexuality. (Don't get me wrong, I'm not using gender queer as a joke, I actually embrace it and living up to it because I think this is the association of the sexuality I am in.)

But if I were to be followed, having labels such as straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, pan, asexual, cis, or even queer  is not really important. Like seriously, what the fuck is up with gender labels.

I'm a person that grew up that doesn't really care about other people's sexuality issues. Seriously, I don't. I won't treat you special just because you're in the LGBT community or you're a straight person. I don't give a fuck what's your sexuality. I will probably treat you special because of your attitude or your personality but not because of your sexuality.

It's really sad to see that people are coming out and saying that they are part of the LGBT community just to gain attention. They claim to be this and that just for popularity fuck, I have nothing against the community but there are people that are doing this for the sake of "special treatment". You fucks have sexuality that are outside of the common norms, there is nothing special about that for fuck's sake. 

I hate labels. I really think that gender labels or sexuality are not issues. People are just making them issues. (Haters come at me.) 

It's also really sad to see that gender equality is the basis of the whole concept of human equality.  We are all human beings, why can't we treat each other as equals just because of that reason? 

So for me, I won't care what gender you associate yourself with. I'm a person, you're a person. You're a human being, I probably am a human being too. There is no reason to treat others in an unusual way just because they're straight or gay. 

P.S. My arguments are confusing, I know, but I just want to let this all out.

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FAMILY COMPUTER DISK SYSTEM!!! YAAAAAYYYY FDS!!!!

Yep..wala kaming ibang gaming consoles ng kapatid ko noon (hanggang ngayon) bukod dito sa FDS at Tamagotchi.

Battle City, Circus Charlie, at Chip and Dale Rescue Rangers (na alam ko sa NES lang meron pero nalalaro naman namin sa FDS kaya wth) ang mga paborito naming laruin...joke, 'yang tatlong 'yan lang talaga 'yung natatandaan ko.

Hindi ko na alam ngayon kung nasaan na 'yung FDS namin e pero ang sarap lang balikan neto!

Kayo?? Anong gaming console ang meron kayo nung bata kayo? At 'wag niyo kong sasagutin na "kalaro ko ang kapaligiran" shit ha kasi inaassume ko na lahat tayo e naglalaro sa labas nung mga bata pa tayo.

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WHY IS MY FACE SO BIG xD #gpoy #face

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Get to Know Me Uncomfortably Well

1. What is you middle name?

2. How old are you?

3. What is your birthday?

4. What is your zodiac sign?

5. What is your favorite color?

6. What's your lucky number?

7. Do you have any pets?

8. Where are you from?

9. How tall are you?

10. What shoe size are you?

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

12. What was your last dream about?

13. What talents do you have?

14. Are you psychic in any way?

15. Favorite song?

16. Favorite movie?

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

18. Do you want children?

19. Do you want a church wedding?

20. Are you religious?

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

24. Baths or showers?

25. What color socks are you wearing?

26. Have you ever been famous?

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

28. What type of music do you like?

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

32. How big is your house?

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

35. Have you ever tried archery?

36. Favorite clean word?

37. Favorite swear word?

38. What's the longest you've ever gone without sleep?

39. Do you have any scars?

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

41. Are you a good liar?

42. Are you a good judge of character?

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

44. Do you have a strong accent?

45. What is your favorite accent?

46. What is your personality type?

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

48. Can you curl your tongue?

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

50. Left or right handed?

51. Are you scared of spiders?

52. Favorite food?

53. Favorite foreign food?

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

55. Most used phrased?

56. Most used word?

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

58. Do you have much of an ego?

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

60. Do you talk to yourself?

61. Do you sing to yourself?

62. Are you a good singer?

63. Biggest Fear?

64. Are you a gossip?

65. Best dramatic movie you've seen?

66. Do you like long or short hair?

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

68. Favorite school subject?

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

71. What makes you nervous?

72. Are you scared of the dark?

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

74. Are you ticklish?

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

77. Have you ever drank underage?

78. Have you ever done drugs?

79. Who was your first real crush?

80. How many piercings do you have?

81. Can you roll your Rs?"

82. How fast can you type?

83. How fast can you run?

84. What color is your hair?

85. What color is your eyes?

86. What are you allergic to?

87. Do you keep a journal?

88. What do your parents do?

89. Do you like your age?

90. What makes you angry?

91. Do you like your own name?

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

94. What are you strengths?

95. What are your weaknesses?

96. How did you get your name?

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

98. Do you have any scars?

99. Color of your bedspread?

100. Color of your room?

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

I'm an open book, ask me stuff!! :D

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Ayun o.

Ganun pala 'yung feeling na may grade na singko.

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Isang zombie apocalypse na istorya na gustung-gusto ng mga kabataan ngayon. Ewan ko din kung bakit.

Chapter 3 ng 'Di naman nakakatakot. ay published na!

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Isang zombie apocalypse na istorya na gustung-gusto ng mga kabataan ngayon. Ewan ko din kung bakit.

Chapter 2 ng 'Di naman nakakatakot. ay published na!

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'Di naman nakakatakot.

Isang zombie apocalypse na istorya!

It's my first time writing an apocalyptic story! Yay~

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So I made an Instagram account...

OMG WHAAAAAT lol.

Follow me if you want: lekristagusta

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I had nothing to do so I made a messy bun and tried to be cute and all...

Total failure lol.

Dat forehead tho.

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My semester is officially (well, technically) done! <3

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Tatlong istorya. is published.

Kung gusto niyong basahin just click here.

Overview or summary shit (if you want spoilers): Tipikal love triangle lang siya. Ang dahilan lang kung bakit ko siya isinulat e kasi gusto kong mag-try ng bagong style ng pagsusulat. Madalas kasi sa mga sinusulat ko, 'yung perspective lang ng main character 'yung pinapakita ko, sa istoryang 'to, pinilit ko na lahat ng perspective e makuha. Kaya kung binasa niyo, 'wag na kayo magulat kung cliche man o ano. I warned you.

Bakit love story na naman? Kasi 'yun 'yung sikat sa Wattpad at kailangan ko ng criticisms and responses.

That's all.