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It makes no sense to me how on paper I can understand (some very basic) Korean grammar but can't use it ???? I don't know how to explain it but I've been trying to learn Korean for years and every single time I learn the basics all over again and get discouraged because I can't use it to create my own sentences so it feels like I didn't learn anything. I don't know, maybe I'm not smart enough to learn lmao.

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I need help coping with stress. How do you all do it? I feel like I'm at my limit.

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No one cares but I did something that scares me today and I'm still shaking with the anxiety and borderline panic but I'm proud of myself for doing it but also I'm so, so, so embarrassed and scared but proud but anxious, but...

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brain: it seems like problems are happening. would you like to pretend they’re not and think about fictional characters instead?

me: yes please

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Just took an online midterm for one of my classes while on a zoom call for another class. I am exhausted, your honour.

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that nap after online classes >>

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Ever since we started online classes I have the feeling that my phone camera is always on and I get really paranoid about it.

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You know what is hot??

A passion for knowlege and learning

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✎ 10.20.2019 // two days of writing papers. four meals. three iced coffees. one gallon of water. fifteen references. sixteen pages of content. one overwhelmed n tired graduate student.

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I'm going to start using my language learning blogs soon.

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I'm so sick I don't want to study today but I have a test on Friday and I've been sick so much this week that I haven't studied enough. Sigh.

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I want to learn languages because I want to open myself to new parts of the human experience but the problem is I lack discipline and a clear motive. If I say I want to be able to speak/understand Italian/French/Korean someday there's no clear goal in sight so I never study. Sigh. I could be so great if I just did the stuff I want to do instead of wasting time doing nothing.

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Today I spoke in one of my online classes. I know it's not much but for someone with as much anxiety as myself it's a lot. I'm really proud but it feels like I just ran a marathon, my hands won't stop shaking and my heart is beating so fast. This anxiety thing really is not normal.

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inside of you are two wolves. one wants to read every book it can get its hands on. the other can’t focus on a page for longer than a minute. you are a dark academic

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I just wanted to say thank you to all the people behind studyblr that keep inspiring me to work harder. You're great. I see your hard work, I see your progress.

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I'm so not used to speaking to other people that when the professor started asking random people to answer questions during a zoom class today I got so anxious, I panicked and exited the call.