Star Wars TV series are best when there's one or more MILFs (Mandalorian I'd like to Fuck)
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So Iâve no real experience writing my own fanfic, but since Iâm going through a relationship break this kinda wrote itself for my own therapy, and because why canât Steven Grant exist in this universe for us during our post-breakups? Sigh.
Minor warnings of soft nsfw, more sensual than sexual except for the last bit. I know it ends abruptly. đ Maybe Iâll write more soonâŚ
Warmth. Soft. Comfort. Safe. The fuzzy edges of wakefulness prod at your sleepy brain, your senses letting you know that you feel safe. This is wonderful, you think, and wonder why you feel this at ease. You stretch, noticing the gentle puff as the blanket slides over your bare skin.
Waitâ your eyes pop open as you register that itâs not only the blanket touching you â for a confused moment you donât remember if youâd been the one to ask or him to offer, but Stevenâs there curled towards you, wearing the same thing from the night before, sound asleep.
It had been late and youâd been so exhausted, physically from the long work day and emotionally due to the barrage of spiteful texts from the ex who had been blowing up your phone all day. Blocking only helped for so long, before he made another number in an app and used it to harass you. By the time youâd been done your evening shift, the tears and anger had boiled over and you were grateful that Steven had sensed you needed a safe person to be around. So youâd asked him over to try to occupy you with takeout and tv. The moon had crept across the sky as you distracted yourself with pad Thai, a documentary about ancient Egyptian architecture, and your sweet coworker who insisted half of what the documentary person said was inaccurate.
You glance down at yourself now and see that your shirt has come up during your sleep, exposing your stomach and breasts to the smoothness of the blanket. It often happens, but knowing he stayed the night makes you feel embarrassed in case he was still awake to notice it happen. But heâs asleep now.
You watch him for a moment, grateful he stayed. Then, as you reach up to pull your shirt down, you feel a small stirring in the depth of your belly that causes you to stop. The feeling rapidly growing, you instead reach out to his white tshirt and gently tug it upwards so that his torso and chest are bare also, letting your gaze trickle over the gentle ridges and valleys that rise and fall in time with his breath.
He doesnât seem to sense as you inch close to him. You hesitate a moment, but the desire to breath in his scent and to smell of him overrides that pause quickly. Raising up on one elbow, you lean towards him tentatively, watching his face for any sign of waking. Then slowly, deliberately, you press your bare self to him, sighing as you feel your breasts squish against his skin. His warmth radiates over you, coaxing out a bit more confidence and a surge of longing.
Butâ he lies blissful in sleep, unaware. As much as you want to lean in and start kissing down his body, you hold yourself back. After all, he just spent the whole night and didnât try anything. Maybe he isnât attracted to you. It would be wrong to assume he did and wake him up in an awkward and compromising way.
Then again, your shirt had been lifted up. Maybe that was him? Your eyes trail down to where your fingers are tracing the edge of his sweatpants. Curious things with a mind of their own. They brush down with intention and you stifle a groan as they edge the thick outline of his bulge just under the fabric. Maybe it was a bad idea to ask him to stay last night. It had been only a few weeks since the breakup, but sex had been such a frequent part of life before that and these past weeks had left you with constant unmet need.
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Lovers' Crest | Chapter 15: Lovers Break
Din Djarin x f!Reader
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Summary: All things must break.
Word count: 4.3k
Warnings: 18+ MDNI, slow burn, non-canon (the Razor Crest never gets destroyed, it also gets upgraded with a cabin), post season 3, ANGST, I'm sorry, flashback, Reader's f'd up backstory is in play, implied trauma, bad relatives, canon characters present.
A/N: I'm so nervous about posting this chapter. Pretty sure I lost readers when it first went up on AO3. But I promise there's a happy ending in store, it's just going to hurt for a little bit. Thank you for reading, you're so great.
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After a particularly long session of exploring each otherâs bodies and pleasures, you sleep deep for an age, swimming in dreams of him. Voice and hands and tender kisses everywhere. Eventually though, you break the surface and blink awake, stretching a hand out to Dinâs side of the bed. Your fingers caress the cold covers.Â
Itâs not uncommon for him to rise before you wake; heâs the restless type. Still, right now, it unsettles you.
With the will of worlds, you get up to dress and stumble some minutes later into the bright cockpit while rubbing at crusty eyes. The first thing you clock is an unfamiliar nav path on the instruments.
Something about it makes your stomach churn.
Stepping up behind Din seated in his pilot chair, you snake your arms around his chest and lean over a pauldron-clad shoulder. He reaches a hand up to link gloved fingers with your own. His fully armoured state of dress just adds to the hot and unhappy roiling in your gut.Â
Youâre going somewhere. Somewhere important.
âHey,â you say, clearing your throat some.
âHey,â he responds. He tugs on your arm to get some purchase and turns in his chair to face you, settling his knees on either side of yours. âGood sleep?â
âOh yeah,â you reply, hands now resting on his chest. âI think my brain shut off entirely after you⌠did that thing you didâŚâÂ
He chuckles, coaxes you into his lap so you sit side-on and he can loop his arms around your waist. One of your own goes across his shoulders, the other fingers at his chest plate, toys at the edge of his bandolier. He presses the forehead of his helm into your cheek, murmurs, âMm, well when you have trouble sleeping, I now know what to do.â
You huff a light laugh. âYouâd do that on request, would you?â you say, meaning it in jest.
But he goes quiet. He raises a hand and runs it through your hair, draws circles behind your ear. For a long moment, he holds you so tender you could cry. âI think you know by now that I would do anything you ask, cyarâika,â he whispers.
You shiver, feel a pulse of pleasure over your whole body. But that now familiar sharp pang again, gods always so intrusive, makes you straighten up and hasten to change the tone.
âWeâre going somewhere?â you say, gesturing at the control panel now behind him. Dinâs head tilts up and leans back a little to look square at you.
He holds your gaze for another long beat, studying. You do your best to look passive, curious. He just keeps staring.
Now anxious, you prompt, âA job?â
A reverie of some kind lifts, he gives the merest shrug as he twists you both around to the front of the ship. He holds you against him with one arm and reaches for the navigation pane with another.
âNo, not a job,â he murmurs. âI have received a summons to my Covert.â
You frown. âTo go back to Mandalore?â you ask.
He shakes his head.
âNo,â he says again, any playfulness that was between you now gone. âTheyâre here.â He points to a planet in a system you donât really know.
Still uneasy in this terrain, traversing this subject that is essentially Din himself, you puzzle over how to ask for more.
âWhat, uhâŚâ you trail off immediately.
He doesnât make you flounder about though. âAfter the battle for Mandalore and the defeat of Moff Gideon,â he intones, âwe Mandalorians began a journey to become united as a people.â
You nod along, having had this recent history lesson already.
âMany settled on the home world, to rebuild. But we are still built to travel the stars. And now, Bo-Katan has ordered my Covert to patrol this system,â he says, pointing. He tilts his helm back up to you, an air of fate in his movements. âThere are rumours of a new imperial threat emerging, and we have to be ready.â
âImperial?â you ask, dumbly. Youâre managing to stay still where he holds onto your side, but itâs a stormy sea inside you, heart and guts thrashing and slamming against your will to calm.
âYes, or remnants. Alliances of warlords and former military leaders,â he says, a hand circling on your hip as the other continues to move over the panels, bringing up data and field scores. âI do not know how serious it is. Or how far off these imps are from action. But⌠I must go.â
You donât know what to say to all this. Thereâs nothing you really can say. Heâs not asking your opinion, not raising it as a question. Itâs decided. Heâs going. Youâre trying to process that internally, take it all on faith. Not lay any particular meaning over this. But youâre terrified. You make a sharp inhale just as he moves the hand on your leg up to your arm, stroking there in comfort. You realise youâve come to be holding the fabric of his cloak in a white-knuckled fist.
You let go, move to stand. âHow long untilâŚ?â You trail off again, but your brain gives uninvited options to end the sentence. Until you go? Until you leave? Until this is all over?
Raw hope and fear chase one another across your racing thoughts. You hope he takes you with him. You fear what it means. And you donât know which one makes the most sense. Which one you are truly feeling. Either way, you cannot get your thundering heart to slow down or your skin to stop prickling.Â
He doesnât pause.
âI was hoping we would go as soon as you were ready,â he says.
We. Hoping. You were ready.
A hot-cold shockwave cascades over you, shooting pins and needles through your hands and feet. The feeling lands hard â terror-laced panic. The realisation floods in. Something like this. You wouldnât just be a visitor or a guest this time. You can sense it. The feeling of having sunk too deep into a circumstance you would have no control over. The feeling of being bound, pulled in and held tight. Being crushed under a weight of purpose that was not your own.
The feelings that rear up ugly and intrusive every time you sense Din trying to talk, about you and he, about us. That cause you to dodge, and evade, and distract.
Din speaks up over the rushing in your ears. âI know it is complicated, cyarâika. I know that,â he murmurs, posture held as if he were in close proximity with a wild animal. âBut⌠it will be okay.â
Instead of replying, you edge around him and toward the door, mutter about changing into something more appropriate. He lets you go.
You fuss and fidget over it. Over what to wear. Like it was consequential. Like it mattered. Casting through your meagre wardrobe, you hold one top to yourself, then another. It sends you back to deeply disliked memories of seeking just the right look for whatever Estate function you were to be subjected to in any given moment.Â
Eventually, you settle yourself on a wraparound vest with a high, stiff collar. The fact that it hides the love marks and bruises Din has given you is just a bonus. Itâs not about being ashamed. Youâre just comfortable in this. And okay, sure, presenting a more innocent side to Dinâs Covert feels important for some reason. This is for him.Â
This is what you tell yourself as you tuff up the collar and turn to stride back to the cockpit to ready for the jump.
The two of you are silent through the journey. When you returned to the cockpit youâd just taken your seat, and he hadnât turned back to you. It stays quiet as you descend to a parched and wind-pruned landscape, pockmarked with cavernous openings.
You spy a small, sparse settlement or two dotted among the undulations.
Din knows exactly where heâs going and picks a clear, flat opening in the terrain. Harsh, alien light floods into your safe little cockpit, heralding your landing. The Crest settled, he stands and turns to you, towering over where you reluctantly unbuckle your harness. His imposing presence is something you havenât felt this acutely for a while, all hard edges and brute force.
Get a grip, you try to tell yourself. Itâs Din.
He reaches a hand for you and you take it to stand.
âItâs a bit of a walk,â he breaks the silence. âIs that okay?â
You just nod, follow. Almost in a trance you follow â match his footfalls out of the cockpit, the hold, across the rocky ground away from the Crest. Every step feels like an approach to annihilation. Your anxiety in overdrive, bile rising and heart pounding. An unnamed dread eating you inside out.
Focusing on his steady, clinking gait is usually so calming to you, so you tune into that. It helps for a little, but then a wide yawning cave comes into view and those sure, even steps carry on straight into the dark. You have no choice but to follow, moving closer as Din flicks his headtorch on.Â
A winding path opens up into a well-established encampment. Warm light cast over your face and Dinâs beskar as you emerge into the space.
The unbearable tension slips away for one second as you hear a pitched âWeh!â and Grogu somersaults over a gathered party into your arms.
âBaby, hi!â you say, smiling wide. âWhat are you doing here?â He grunts and burbles, lets you give him one squeeze before reaching for Din, who takes him from you with trembling hands. You hadnât noticed he was shaking.
Thatâs when you take in the rest of the room. Several Mandalorians are gathered around what you understand to be a typical armourerâs forge.
The Armourer is in fact there, in deep conversation with a slightly shorter woman standing next to her. At Groguâs exclamations, they turn and your jaw goes slack as you recognise the other helmet.Â
Why would Bo-Katan Kryze be here?
You do the only thing you can do, you turn to the Mandalorian at your side. âDin, whatâs--?â
âI donât know,â he says immediately, not returning your gaze. He lowers the child to the floor and straightens to approach the two imposing figures, stops in front of them and raises a deferent arm to cross his chest. Grogu follows at his heels but you stay riveted to the spot.
âI was summoned,â Din says. âBut apologies, Lady Kryze, I did not know you would be here as well.â
Bo-Katan gives you each a nod. âI came to return Grogu,â she says. You almost relax for the barest moment, but she continues. âAnd to bear witness.â
âWhat--?â you and Din say in unison but youâre interrupted by the Armourer moving suddenly. Her sure footsteps echo in the space, hushing all present.
She strides around to stand in the space between you and Din, looks from him to you, back again. Addressing Din, she says, âYou remain together.â
âYes,â Dinâs reply is instant.
âDo you continue to couple?â she asks and your mouth falls open, eyes wide. What the--?
âYes,â Din once again replies without hesitating.
Youâre gobsmacked. Indignant. Why would he just out and say that? To everyone here?
âI see,â she says, she looks back at you. The unmoving façade of her helmet gives you the feeling of being a piece of dirty iron that she somehow must shape into a good and useful thing. The Armourer continues to speak, but you know sheâs not talking to you.
âHave you removed your helmet in front of her?â
â⌠No.âÂ
âHas she removed your helmet?â
âNo.â
The Armourer tilts her helm, then turns back to Din, taking several steps toward him. He squares up to her. And even though theyâre standing right there talking about you, itâs like youâre not in the room. What the hell is happening here?
She sears Din with her appraisal. âBut you have removed your helmet in her presence,â she says, not a question. âHavenât you.â
Din pulls back a little. The air in the room fizzes with layers of tension and you know youâre parsing only the very surface of it all. The Armourer strides back to the forge and picks up a terrifying looking hammer. Bo-Katan has steadily edged around the two Mandalorians facing off and come to stand just by you.Â
A long, tense pause before Din finally speaks again.Â
âYes,â he murmurs, rushes on. âBut she has not seen my face. The Creed saysââ
âI am aware what the Creed says. You twist the truth, Din Djarin,â the Armourer replies, with a menace in her words that unnerves you. She holds the hammer in a distinctly combative stance. âYou twist the Creed.â
But Din seems calm.
âI do not believe I do,â he says, broad shoulders square again.
The Armourer starts, stance affronted. Another penetrating gaze sweeps over the still and watchful Din. She seems to read something specific in his words. âWhat do you speak of?â
âI have been reading the texts of the Creed from its original sourceâŚâ Din says into the vast space. âAnd more than a dozen different translations.â He unhooks a datapad from his belt and holds it out to her.
He continues, âYou told me not long ago that you were uncertain what Mandaloreâs new age meant for us, for the Creed, what it means now to follow the Way. You said you were seeking answers for the good of our people.â
She looks at the device warily. âWhere did you get these texts?â she asks.
âThe old library, in the royal city â I⌠when we were last on Mandalore,â he says, gestures to the woman beside you. âBo-Katan told me of it, suggested I go there to seek the literature. I filled this datapad,â he holds it out to her. âIt⌠may illuminate answers for you, as it did for me.â
The Armourer puts down her hammer and takes the glistening tablet. She curls it against her chest, considering him hard. You donât know how he is withstanding all this scrutiny.
âI shall study these,â she decrees. âBe on your guard Din Djarin.â
Din nods, starts to turn back to you as if dismissed â thank gods â but the Armourer is not done.
âOur business here is not yet concluded,â her voice booms in the space and rings in your ears. Din stops, turns back. âIt may be that you have revealed hidden truths about our Creed here, spurred by your connection to this individual,â she raises her helm to indicate at you. âBut you know one thing remains absolute.â
A taut bowstring stretches across the expanse of the cavern making up this Covertâs inner sanctum. Every figure in the space stands tall and readied. The air simmers so hot you wonder why you havenât burnt up on the spot.
âShe is not Mandalorian,â the Armourer says. âShe does not walk in your world. And until she does, we must consider her an outsider. This will not do as we prepare for conflict, for war.â
Something passes between her and Din.Â
âIt is time,â she states.
âNow?â he asks. You canât read his tone. His voice is only just above a whisper, gravelly and soaked in emotions. Youâre just not sure which ones. He glances at you. âI thought we would have more time.â
âNow is not a time for uncertainty, or waiting, Din Djarin,â she intones. He just nods, acquiesces. âWe must be sure.â
He shoots you one long, yearning look before turning back to her.
âVery well.â
You can barely breathe over the panic constricting your chest. You once again turn to the Mandalorian next to you and utter a broken, âWhat--?â
Bo-Katan pulls off her helmet and looks hard at you.
You swallow, force yourself to ask, âWhat does that mean?â
âIt means you can be with Din. The Armourer is allowing you to take the vow, live the way of the Mandalorian, and be one with him,â she says, in a tone that suggests you might be happy with this explanation.
You donât have time to process any of that before the Armourerâs voice rings out loud and firm.
âDin Djarin, will you pledge to be made one, when you are together, when you are apart. Will you share all, and raise warriors?â
The words hang in the air before drifting down over the vast expanse now yawning wide between you and him.
âYes,â Din states. Says nothing more.
The Armourerâs helm swivels to where youâre stood shaking like a leaf. She simply says, âWill you?â
âDin?â you say. âI donât understand.â He doesnât turn to you, doesnât move. The Armourer, however, levels you with a look. You will the deepest breath you can; itâs not much.
âDin,â you try again. âCan we⌠talk?â
Bo-Katan, at your side, whispers, âThat isnât how this works. The question has been asked. It must be answered.â
You ignore her.
âPlease,â you canât keep the begging out of your voice now. âCan⌠we just go somewhere and talk, Din?â
He still doesnât turn. Itâs like heâs frozen in time, on a precipice.Â
A memory rears up white hot in your mindâs eye. The shapes and shadows of the Crestâs cabin swim into view, the two of you are entwined and bare.
âIt wasnât the first time he tried it you know,â youâre saying.Â
âWho tried what, love?â
âMy Uncle, tried to get me married off.â
Din had asked once how you had come to be at that prisoner of war camp where youâd first met. Far away from home. Youâd evaded the question. Not now. Not yet. Iâll tell you someday.
But youâre sprawled out and so content and relaxed right now. Din has his head resting on your stomach, where heâd laid it after dragging a series of delicious climaxes out of you. Neither of you have moved save for hands reaching. His own hold your sides and tug you close. Yours burrow into soft curls and stroke whereverâs in reach. Somehow, like this, feeling his hair and breath tickle your skin, eyes covered and mind sated, itâs not too painful to cast back through those old memories.Â
âIt was just after everything⌠everything with Torre,â you say, barely a whisper. âHeâd said to me, Now child, I am not angry with you. In fact, sweet kin, I am thrilled you have deemed yourself an eligible candidate to be made one within a union. I am merely disappointed you nominated such a worthless companion as a simple house spy.â
Youâre putting on his old affectations, trying to mock rather than shrink.
âHe said, Cherished flower, if you have deemed yourself so ready, I have a much, much more worthwhile co-mingling with which to engage your attentions.âÂ
While you talk, Din slowly lifts himself and moves up, until he can loop an arm under your head and wrap the other around you, pull you in close. He leans over you a little. Like heâs trying to shield you from a thing that happened countless years ago.
You just nuzzle into that perfect space between his neck and shoulder. Breathe deep, try to picture the curves and lines of the face hovering above you. Youâd traced fingers over it so many times, over aquiline nose, thick brows, plush lower lip. Kissed his closed eyes. You should be able to tell what he looks like by now. But itâs a monochrome sketch. Not satisfying.
âWhat did you do about it?â he asks, pulling you back to your tale.
You smile at the framing of the question. To him, the way he sees you, you wouldnât have stood for it. Would have fought. Would have killed the fucknut suitor where they stood. Whoever they were.
It feels so delicious that Din sees you that way.
âI fucked it up,â you admit. âCouldn���t keep up the proper good graces long enough for the generalâs son to be even a little charmed by me.â
You feel Din smirk against your hair. âI doubt that, meshâla. Iâve seen you in that world, like royalty.â
You hum at the comment, choosing to take it as the compliment intended.
âActually, I got incredibly drunk. I passed out over the entremets,â you say, enjoying his huff of laughter.
After that disastrous dinner was the first time youâd run. Youâd come close to a thing you feared and dreaded, a binding of your will to another. Found that, in the face of it, youâd rather lose everything but your own sense of self. So you ran, thinking youâd slipped away unnoticed in the dead of night, too young then to understand how futile it was. The illusion of your independence had been shattered when youâd returned sometime later, greeted by your Uncle with a simple, âDo you have it out of your system yet, dear flower?â
Heâd tried again. And again. Each time, you blew it to hell, packed up and tore off. It was almost a reflex. And each time youâd slouched back, heâd carried onto the next match. You thought his patience was infinite. NaĂŻve as you were.
But the final straw was a horrendous dinner at which youâd said some insanely inappropriate things about the political party your suitor was a member of and significant donor to. To be fair, you only spoke up after he â ignoring you for the entirety of the event â explained to your Uncle how a wife was a fine instrument to foment an advantageous social standing.Â
That was when your Uncle had told you to go, and to not dare come back until you would âaccept your place and station in this Familyâ.
You give Din an abridged version of the story. Leaving out the part where youâd cried, begged, said youâd already given up your lover for the Family. You didnât want to go. The scene â your exile â had played out in the same room heâd announced the more recent deal heâd made with you. The one heâd given you no choice in. And your family had stood and watched it happen both times, exactly the same.Â
You give him the short version and say you left under orders to come back only when you were ready.
âYou outlasted him there,â Din murmurs. âHe had to engage me to find you.â
Your turn to smirk, though sadly.Â
âI did some outrageous things while away from that place,â you say. âI think, subconsciously I was trying to get his attention, from all over the damn galaxy. âCome and get me, Uncle, I dare you.â Shocked me to hell and back when he actually did. But⌠well, it was naĂŻve of me to assume it wasnât just another proposition into unwanted wedlock.âÂ
A long, quiet stretch.Â
âFor me, marriage has always been a tool,â you whisper into the air between you. âEither a means of control, or a weapon. Both. Iâve never seen a happy union.â
He just strokes your hair, and says nothing.
The walls of the cavern reform around you, pulling you from the memory. Nobody has moved an inch. Din still stands facing the Armourer by her forge. Groguâs by his side, looking uneasy. Bo-Katan is at your shoulder, giving you a tap on the elbow, a subtle âyou still in there?â
One more try. Ignoring the indignant rustles of armour and weapons from the rest of the present company, you stride forward and stand to face Din head on. You just need to get him to leave this place and talk. Youâre ready to talk now.
But, when you look up into the face of the helmet you know so damn well, your insides run ice cold.
For the first time since meeting, you truly cannot get a single read on him. Not his thoughts, or emotions, or intentions. An expressionless mask simply stares back at you. He is the blank wall youâd accused him of being some time ago.Â
You feel unmoored. Tilting into a depth you canât fathom. Stripped of volition.Â
Only one thought penetrates the blind panic surging along with the bile and the tremors. One word.Â
No.
Itâs when the harsh outside light hits your face, blinding you after the darkness within, that you realise you had turned on your heel and run from the room. Run from them. Sprinted from that terrifying proposition.Â
From Din.
You turn back to the opening of the cave, no one follows.
Your feet continue to carry you. Thereâs nowhere for you to go but away. Itâs what you do. Itâs all you ever do. Blow it to hell and run.
Run away.Â
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When the frigid paralysis had eased and the reality of the past few minutes started to set into his bones, Din sensed some part of himself had left his body along with you.
It had all happened so fast. Heâd frozen, disconnected. Watched himself stand stock still as you tried to talk to him, felt paralysed as you looked up at him with terror and tears in your eyes. Felt himself shatter as you flew from the room.
Bo-Katan had tried to order him to go after you, implored him. But he was outside of himself, senses blurred and sunken. The only decision he was capable of was to return to his ship.
But the Crest sits quiet and morose.Â
The hull is sealed, and Din knows you arenât inside.
Grogu, however, babbles a string of hopeful sounds from beside him. Din just stares up at his lonely craft, before stalking toward it.
âForget it, kid. Sheâs not here.â
âBeh?â begs the baby.
âI said sheâs gone!â he rounds on the child, who gives a cry of shock.
Din exhales. âShe is gone, Grogu.â He looks at his ship again, its emptiness yawning wide. âSheâs just gone.â
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I made myself so sad writing this that I had to skip ahead to work on the fluffy, happy ending. Which WILL happen, once these two figure their shit out.
Hope you stick with me, thanks so much for reading.
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For the first ever Joel Miller smuttery I readâŚ. Thatâs setting the bar reeeeaaallly damn high đĽľđłđ
Fighting Fair
Joel doesnât know what or who started this fucking thing, but heâs finishing it. Tonight.
Tags: impish activities, soft dom!joel sorta aggressive joel, forced proximity, cock grinding, fingering, unprotected piv, creampie (always), teasing, dirty talk, almost somnophilia (theyâre sleep-teasing each other unconsciously) sexually frustrated morons, good ol' fashioned "we have to get naked and share body heat to stay warm" trope
A/N: I had to drag myself kicking and screaming into writing this fic that put me through the fucking ringer!!! Thank you @theywhowriteandknowthings @merz-8 and @beefrobeefcal for the general fic help and encouragement! And I think also @noxturnalpascal and @tightjeansjavi and ESPECIALLY @notjustjavierpena who talked me through this fic a couple weeks ago and gave me the push I needed to finish it when I was stuck. You guys all rock â¤ď¸
Itâs too cold tonight, even indoors and with a fire burning. He moved the large sectional couch as close as he could safely get it by the fireplace, gave you his jacket, and youâre still hoarding the blanket. Joel tries to gently tug on the blanket that youâve wrapped around your body, see if maybe you can spare to lose a few inches of fabric. You donât budge. Joel sighs, âYâcan share, ya know.â
âThis is sharing.â
âItâs not, actually. Iâm the one sharinâ here. I gave you my coat, you can quit hogginâ all the blanket,â Joel tugs harder on the blanket, itâs old and kind of scratchy, worn out by the years. âCâmon. Let up.âÂ
âYou can have this much,â You mumble, giving Joel a small amount of the fabric.Â
âHow generous of you,â Joel mutters sarcastically before pulling the blanket entirely off of your shoulders. âThank you. Sâvery kind.â
âHey,â you whine.Â
âYeah, I know,â he says. He covers his body in the blanket, making sure to cover your legs and feet as well. His hands brush over your own and he winces at their ice cold temperature. âJesus, girl. Gimme these,â he mumbles, taking your hands into his own and holding them tightly. âHands feel like icicles.â
âThis fucking sucks, Joel,â you complain.Â
âIt does,â he agrees. Joelâs been dreading this point in the year. Heâs eased up on his âno firesâ rule for the most part, but fire doesnât help when itâs as cold as it has been. Tonight, heâs grateful you spotted this old house from afar, even more grateful it has a fireplace. But itâs especially cold tonight, maybe even nearing below zero temperatures. Even with a glowing fire and a shelter preventing the chill of the wind piercing you to the bone, heâs not sure thatâs enough to keep you both warm. Joel shivers, âThis shitâs not workinâ.â
You shake your head no. Itâs not.Â
Joelâs not quite sure how to offer up his idea. Itâll be fine, or at least, it should be fine. What needs to happen is you and Joel need to get cozy and share body heat, the real way, with both of your bodies completely bare and pressed against each other.
Most of the time, you and Joel fall asleep separately. Occasionally, however, Joel will wake up in the early hours of the morning with your body inexplicably tangled in his, your head laying on his chest. The first time it happened, Joel was annoyed. âGet off of me,â he grumbled. âNot your fuckinâ teddy bear,â You whined in response, and when Joel tried to move you from him you clung to his body tighter. âJesus,â he mumbled to himself.Â
After about the fifth or sixth time of waking up with you clinging to his body, he stopped trying to fight it. In fact, he even started to hold you closer, stroke your hair. Sometimes heâd wake up holding you, other times heâd wake up with your arms wrapped around him and your tummy pressed against his back. It was nice, mostly.Â
Mostly. You have the most uncanny ability to tease Joel in your sleep. Your hand will mysteriously travel from his side up to his chest, your thumb rubbing over his nipple. Other times, itâs your leg that brushes against his crotch. Or your ass, wiggling against his morning wood. After you wake, heâll leave you alone for a few moments to quietly take care of himself, stroking his member to the thought of your naked body, your soft curves and smooth skin. Sometimes heâs not able to sneak away in the mornings and heâll be hard as a rock and miserable the entire day. Itâs unbearably frustrating. Heâs never brought this tendency of yours up to you and he never will, because youâre not doing anything intentionally, at least he thinks. Though, there was one time after a particularly excruciating night of teasing, he thought he saw you smirk as he left to take care of himself. It was probably nothing.Â
Thatâs what heâs worried about. Your body, naked against his, teasing him. His arousal wonât be so easy to hide without the protection of clothing, not to mention he may not even be able to fall asleep. Itâs not gonna be an easy night, but itâs the only option at this point.Â
Joel clears his throat, âWeâre gonna try somethinâ different tonight,â he starts, âAnâ weâre not gonna talk about it. Ever.â
âOkay,â you say, unsure of where heâs going with this.Â
âYou trust me?â he asks. You nod. âGood,â he says, âWeâre gonna share our body heat. Anâ it works better with skin to skin contact, which means weâre both gonna get naked and close under the blanket, but weâre not gonna talk about it. Not tonight, not ever. Can you do this?â
âI can,â you tell him. Youâre not totally surprised by Joelâs idea, but youâre glad he was the one who brought it up. Truthfully, itâs been something youâve been thinking of doing with him for quite some time now, since the weatherâs been getting so cold. Youâve pictured it, rubbing your bare feet against his legs for some warmth. Heâll probably kick you away, complain that heâs cold too. Youâll tell him too bad.Â
âOkay,â he mumbles awkwardly, âOkay, sâgood. Iâm gonna turn around and get to it then, fâya wannaâŚâÂ
âYeah, got it.â
You and Joel separate, he places the blanket at his end of the couch as he begins to unbutton his flannel. You remove his coat from your body then shimmy off your pants, leaving them crumpled on the floor. You catch a glimpse of Joelâs back, the firelight dancing on his toned and broad muscles, the scars and stretch marks decorating his skin like art. Quickly, you avert your eyes and begin to remove your shirt. You donât notice Joel stealing a peek at your body, the blush creeping up his cheeks when he sees your bare breasts.Â
âReady?â
âMhm,â you mumble, but youâre anxious. Youâre not sure how it happens, but youâve been waking up with Joel here and there. Sometimes you wake up in the middle of the night with his limbs inexplicably wrapped around you, his chin resting on your head. The first time it happened, you were confused. You tried to shrug him off of you, but Joel only held you tighter, sleepily mumbling in an annoyed tone.Â
After about the fourth or fifth time of waking up with him holding your body, you stopped trying to fight it. In fact, youâd back yourself into him, even scratch his forearms to relax him. Thereâd be times youâd wake up being spooned by him, other times youâd wake up spooning him, with your arms wrapped around him and your tummy pressed against his back. Itâs nice, mostly.Â
Mostly. Joel has this inexplicable habit of teasing you in his sleep. His hand will mysteriously travel from your side up to your breasts, his thumb catching on your nipples and rubbing them softly. Other times, he presses his cock against your ass, nudging you and gently grinding against your ass. When you wake, you find somewhere quiet to touch yourself, rubbing your clit to the thought of his body, his warm eyes, the groaning noises heâll make when he stretches in the morning. Sometimes in the mornings, you canât sneak away and youâll be soaked all day, miserable as your core pulses and aches for him. Itâs god awful, unbearably frustrating. But youâve never brought this tendency of his up to him and you never will, because heâs not doing anything intentionally, at least you think. Though, there was one time after a particularly excruciating night of him teasing your nipples, you felt him touch you a little more intensely, like there could have been conscious thought behind the action. It was probably nothing.Â
This is what youâre worried about. His body, naked against yours, teasing you. Itâs gonna be a difficult night, but you know itâs the only option.
Joel reaches for the blanket, spreads it out as he inches back towards you on the couch. âYou can lay on your side like that, facinâ the fire,â he offers, and you follow his suggestion. Joel slots himself behind you and tucks the blanket around both of your bodies, then pulls you closer to his body. âYeah, good girl. You got it. Mâgonna hold you tight like this,â he tells you.Â
Good girl. His words send desire flooding your veins. Sweet talking in your ear, his hands holding you close and tight. God, this is trouble.Â
âJust need to scoot a little closer, likeââ you back your ass into his crotch, âMâjust so cold, Joel.â
Fuck. Joel can feel his growing arousal pressing against your ass. âI know you are, hon, justâdonât move like that on me,â He keeps you as close as he can against your body, pressing the length of his arm against your torso to keep you warm. His hand brushes against your breasts, thumb caressing your nipple. You gasp.Â
âNeed you closer, though,â you mumble, wiggling against his crotch once more. His length hardens fully, prodding against your ass. His breath hitches, âIgnore it,â he grumbles, now annoyed. How many hints does he have to drop? Or are you doing this shit on purpose?
Youâre annoyed too, honestly. Heâs not directly groping you, but his fingertips have not left your nipples, lightly grazing over them and setting your skin on fire. Do you need to spell it out for him, what heâs doing to you? Surely itâs intentional on his end. Has to be. Â
Thereâs a moment where youâre quiet and so is Joel, both of you tired and confused and sexually frustrated with the other. Maybe you���re looking for a fight, but somethingâs gotta give. Fuck it, youâll be the one to instigate. âIgnore what, Joel?â you ask, voice incredulous and laced with sarcasm.Â
âIâmâmyâfuck,â Joel stammers. He feels your body move with your stifled giggles. âKnock it off.â
âItâs all for me, isnât it Joel?â
âDammit, justâshut up,â Joel stiffens as he feels his face and neck begin to warm. âAnd mind your business. Sânot for you. Sânot for anyone,â he lies, cringing internally for his defensiveness, definitely overcompensating. He rolls his eyes, knowing he was right. Five minutes into sharing body heat with you and it is not going well at all. You twist your hips once more. âI said ignore it,â he grumbles, his hand finding your hip and holding it firmly in place. âNot rub your ass on it. Now sit still. Youâre testinâ my patience.â
âI canât help it, Joel. Iâm just trying to get comfortable,â you lie.Â
âYeah, whatever. Youâre gettinâ me in trouble is what youâre doing. Now for the love of god, quit it.â
Ten minutes go by without an incident, and Joel is focusing on trying to sleep with your naked body pressed against his. Heâs certainly beginning to warm up but at what cost? Heâs breathing in your scent, feeling your warm skin under his hand, which is hard enough to deal with. And then you fucking do it again, because his fingers are still lightly touching your sensitive nipples. âWhat did I just say?â Joel flips you on your other side so youâre facing him, then holds your jaw between his fingers. âLook at me,â he tells you. âKnock it off. Quit your squirminâ, quit wigglinâ your ass on myââ You canât hide the grin that forms on your lips at his accusation. You purse your lips in an attempt to hide the amusement youâve garnered from your payback, but Joel sees it. âWhyâre you fuckinâ with me?â
âMe?â
âYes, you. You know exactly what youâre doinâ. Why are you fuckinâ with me?âÂ
You shrug, âYou started it.â
âI never fuckinâ know what youâre talkinâ about,â Joel complains through a deep sigh, exasperated.
âThe teasing,â you explain, âYou snuggle me and end up teasing me, playing with my tits and whatnot. You know what you do,â you accuse, âSo Iâm getting you back. Fairâs fair.â
âSo you get worked up and you retaliate by givinâ me a hard on. Charming,â Joel grumbles, âAnd youâre one to talk about wanderinâ hands. Do you know how many times Iâve woken up with your hands in places they shouldnât have been? Shouldnât even be fuckinâ sleepinâ together.â
âYou never complained about it before,â you retort, referring to the accidental snuggles that take place between Joel and yourself.Â
Joel wears a confused expression for a moment, then glares at you. He narrows his eyes at you, completely misunderstanding what you meant. In his head, heâs thinking that youâve just admitted all of that accidental teasingâit has been fucking intentional on your part. He knew it! âBefore? Youâre tellinâ me this is a hobby of yours?â he spits, âI knew you had ulterior motives with that late night cuddlinâ of yours. Youâve been gettinâ me hot anâ bothered on purpose, havenât you?â
You sigh, âNo, Iâm talking aboutââ and then you realize, if Joel thinks youâve been intentionally getting him worked up all this time, heâs been doing the same shit to you to retaliate. âOnly because you did it to me first,â you accuse.Â
Joel scoffs. âI donât believe this,â he scoffs, âI donât care who started it, Iâm finishinâ it right now.â
Your heart pounds as desire pools in your gut, a warm, sticky feeling. âWhat are you talking about?â
âIâm talkin about,â Joel whispers in your ear, his hot breath tickling your skin. âIâm gettinâ you out of my system once and for all. Youâre fuckinâ ridiculous. Weâre done with this.â
Joel shifts his arm, reaching for his cock. You watch as he wraps his palm around his member, thumb swiping over his red and swollen tip. His soft belly bulges against his arm thatâs pressed tightly against himself as he strokes his member slowly, patiently. When you reach for his cock to replace his hand with your own, youâre in disbelief as he swats your hand away. âJoel,â you whine, confused.
âWas never really teasinâ ya, by the way. Think youâre a little selective in that way. Seeinâ and hearinâ what you want to.â Joel accuses in a gentle tone as he continues to massage himself, âAnd even if I was, you donât fight fair.âÂ
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âIt means, sweetheart, all that shit you do to me, Iâm gonna do right back to you,â Joel reaches for your leg, grabs the back of your knee and hikes your leg over his hip, pulling you closer and exposing your pussy to him. âNot going to go easy on you sweetheart, you sure you want this?â he asks, giving you an out. But you nod anyway, your tummy fluttering with desire as your mind begins to race, wondering exactly how heâll retaliate after being pent up like this for so long. âGood,â he says.Â
Holding his cock in his hand, he guides the tip to your center, collecting the slick pooling at your entrance and taps the thick head against your clit. He pulls you closer and begins to drag himself through your folds. âJoel,â you gasp, âWhat are you doing?â
âTryinâ out your modus operandi,â he breathes. âIsnât this whatcha were just doinâ? Rubbinâ up on me?â
âI wasnâtâmmmm,â you hum as he continues to rub the head of his cock against you, âWasnât like this.â
âYouâre full of shit,â Joel groans as goes up and down, up and down, notching his tip ever so quickly inside of you to gather your increasing arousal and dragging it through your folds, paying special attention to your clit. Youâre pulsing, clenching around nothing as he teases you agonizingly. âYouâre makinâ a fuckinâ mess. Sâall for me, isnât it?â he taunts you, using your words from earlier. âGod, you donât take much at all. Soakinâ me, sweetheart.â
He notches his tip inside you to collect your wetness once more and you cry out, âJust fuck me.â
âYouâre not gettinâ it,â he breathes, âTold ya, youâre gettinâ your comeuppance.â
You feel like youâre gonna burst. He rubs the head of his cock over your clit in circles, listening to your whines of displeasure when he pulls away from you to focus on his own pleasure. When presses himself against you again, he focuses his tip only at your clit, your slick helping him to slide up and down with ease. When he begins to roll his hips for added pressure, you bite into his shoulder to contain your cries. This is agonizing and so fucking delicious all at the same time.Â
You adjust your hips, simultaneously reaching for Joelâs cock to guide him to your entrance. You need him now. âCâmon, now. You mind your manners,â he chides you, âSânot any way to get what ya want.â
âPlease, just fuckâneed you inside me.âÂ
âSure thing,â he says in a honeyed tone. He replaces his cock with his fingers, leisurely dragging them through your slick folds before dipping first one, then two fingers inside you. He finds that delicious spot inside you, but curls his fingers lazily, not yet providing you with what you need. Youâre throbbing, aching, hungry for more.Â
âJoel, notââ
âShoulda been more specific, then,â he interrupts. Bastard. When you try to argue, Joel flips you on your back and guides his cock to your entrance, notching his tip in you again, this time not leaving. You whine eagerly, wrapping your legs around him and pressing your feet into his ass, trying to pull him closer. You need him inside you, now.
âNot all at once,â Joel purrs as he enters you at a glacial pace. He pushes inside you gradually, letting you feel every inch of him, stopping momentarily to adjust the blanket over his shoulders to keep both of your bodies enveloped in warmth. Joel bottoms out inside of you and pulls back out, then enters you again, so fucking slowly. Youâre not sure how he manages to tease you while fucking you, but heâs doing it. You just need more, need it faster, harder, more. You reach for your clit, but Joel pins both of your hands under one of his own as he fucks into you. Tears of frustration begin to build in your eyes. âYou can cry all you want, sweetheart,â he coos, âYou made your bed. Weâre not done with this yet,â he continues, âBut, maybe if ya sweet talk me, apologize for startinâ somethinâ you couldnât finishâŚâ
âMâsorry, Joel,â you apologize quickly. All your fire, your mischief, Joelâs now extinguished like a flame.
âI knew youâd be sorry,â Joel murmurs. Knowing how badly you need to release, Joel snakes his other hand between your thighs and circles your sensitive clit with his thumb ever so lightly. Torturing you, taunting you with what you could have and never giving you more.Â
Heâs fucking you at a steady pace now, the tip of his cock brushing against your g-spot. Itâs not enough. The wet, gushing sounds of your cunt and the way Joelâs skin feels against yours has you feeling dizzy. Joelâs savoring the way youâre squirming under him, straining your wrists against his locked grip. He knows youâre aching for release, but heâs determined to teach you a lesson, even if that means torturing himself.Â
Yes, as pleasurable as this is for Joel to watch you fuck around and find out, itâs misery for him too. Fucking his fist with the tip of his cock kissing your pussy was no easy task, and neither is holding back from how he truly wants to fuck you. Because, truthfully, he wants to fucking ruin you. Show you just what he thinks of these stunts youâve been pulling. Show you just what he thinks of your wandering hands and your innocent âadjustmentsâ.
âPlease,â you gasp, âJust make me come, Joel.â
âYeah, I donât know. Mânot feelinâ particularly generous at the moment.â
âPlease,â you whine, âBeen needing yâthis for so long.âÂ
âAhhh,â Joel hums, âAnd the truth comes out,â he groans as he rolls his hips against you, âSâthat what all of this is about? Been needinâ me?â you nod quickly, âTell me how long youâve been needing me.â
âFuck, Joel, I donât know. Forever,â you cry, âI need to come now, please. Need to come on your cock, fuck.â
âFâya said somethinâ earlier instead of toyinâ with me like youâve been doinâ, we wouldnât be in this mess, sweetheart.â
You donât know how much more you can take. Tears of frustration trail down your cheeks, each of his thrusts hitting deep and massaging your insides, intentionally, powerfully.Â
Joelâs right there with you, struggling as well. He wants nothing more than to keep fucking you without allowing you to finish, having never seen anything before so erotic and beautiful as your squirming, writhing body. Your soft body, those sweet noises, that frustrated face of yours. And itâs all at his hands, heâs the one responsible for turning into this mess.Â
âFuck,â he whispers through a shuddering breath, âNot gonnaââ
âJoel,â you cry, the only word you know anymore being his name.
âLetâs be done with this,â he decides, fucking finally. He circles your clit steadily now, finding a pace and a pressure that has you letting out breathy gasps and moans as your orgasm approaches. âWant you to come for me,â he says.
His words are all you need. That warm, sticky feeling in the pit of your stomach builds quickly and releases almost instantaneously, sending pleasure erupting through your veins. You feel it everywhere, the back of your thighs, deep in your gut. Wave after wave of pleasure rocks your body as Joelâs thrusts quicken as he fucks you at a now frenzied, sloppy pace he chases his own release.Â
âFuck,â he hisses, coming with a deep, stuttering moan of your name. His muscles jerk and tremble as his cock pulses inside you, painting your insides with thick ropes of his spend. He pulls out of you groaning, his hot, slick release making your thighs sticky. He places a gentle kiss to your lips and then to your forehead, the action a stark contrast to his previous demeanor. All's right with the world now. Sexual frustration solved.
He takes his place behind you again, pulling you close to his chest for the last time and making sure the blanket is covering you both. Youâre certainly warmed up now. A little too warm, even. But youâre not complaining.Â
âStill not talkinâ about tonight,â Joel reminds you, âEver.â
âNope,â you agree.
Another quiet moment passes. For shits and giggles, you rub your ass against his crotch. âBut I take it weâll be doinâ this again, wonât we?â he says, defeated as you continue to tease him.
âDefinitely.â
âGood god,â Joel sighs, âGet back over here, then. You drive me fuckinâ nuts,â he adds, pulling you back for round two. He was right, itâs a long night ahead of him.
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Itâs Steven Grant. Heâs the trinket from the gift shop. đ đ
Side note, for some reason I canât find the original post; this pic is swiped from FB. đ¤
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Sllllluuuurrrrrp
I admit, lifeâs been so exhausting that Iâve been procrastinating on my own writing.
But READing about my fav fictional guys, well thereâs always time and energy for thatâŚ
MIGUEL smut recs ?? đđť
NONNIE im so sorry i took so long to answer you! i deadass missed this ask!! ok so here are some mig smut recs:
use me (billionaire!miguel o'hara x secretary!reader) - @inklore
halo (miguel x ai!reader) - @missdictatorme
(dub con) monster - @writefightandflightclub
bubble baths (soft bf!miguel) - ME đ¤ HAHAHA (self promo bc it got flagged so fast)
touch-a, touch-a, touch me - @dimepdf
no matter how many times you try to convince yourself that Miguel is the bane of your existence, the way you react during training proves otherwise.
the death of peace of mind - @tusks-and-claws
you think your fearless leader needs help relaxing, but another door is opened entirely
rendezvous (scientist!miguel) - @campingwiththecharmings
PWP in which you and Miguel get each other off in a storage closet
stitches and claws - @astroboots
you find yourself in a compromising position on your knees when you help stitch up Miguelâs wounds
surrender - @romanarose
miguel needs help letting go
(non con) always yours, never mine - @melodygatesauthor
in every universe there's a version of you that exists...when I find you, I will have you, I'll make you love me, and I will never lose you again.
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Super low energy and aching (almost my ToM), so my mindâs on bubblebaths and massagesâŚ. so oc Iâm thinking Iâll probably write something later involving Steven Grant and a date bath in one of those massive jacuzzi baths filled with bubbles. Debating if I should keep it more fluffy or veer completely into 18+. Thoughts?
Entertain me at work! (Iâm stuck here)
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Babes, Iâm stuck at work for a few more hours but itâs a unique situation where I have to wait and do not much of anything. đŤ
PLEASE ASK ME STUFF
Scream about blorbos with me
Ask me to message you a fic spoiler
Ask me to recommend a fic
Ask me anything!
Tell me to read your fic or tell me to follow you. I need more blogs to follow!
Ask me for a few sentences of a WIP
Ask me thoughts/opinions on blorbos
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Would Steven be able to actually fully engage in spank play? Or would he keep interrupting the mood because heâs compulsively panicking about hurting you too much? Heâs smacking your bare ass with his palm and you whine more. So he complies and spanks hard, making you shriek in delight.
âShit, love you alright?! âM so sorry, oh god I didnât mean toââ
âGod dammit Steven, shut up and spank me!!!â
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Decided to take a break from work, hopped onto social media and saw thisâŚ. Not going back to work now
Redrew my first Miguel portrait from back in June
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After devouring all the Moonboys and Miguel OâHara 18+ fanfic I can find somehow I still want more. So⌠if you canât find it, create it, right? Seems the best approach. Expect a lot of creative lustfulness here. Mainly about Steven Grant probably.
Thanks @melodygatesauthor for encouraging others to write!
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