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And i truly don't care anymore if this sounds "ungrateful", i worked my ass off to mentally sustain being active everywhere, i need to grow and sustain this for commission interest, i need commission interest to pay for things in my life, being a digital artist requires of you to "get good" at maintaining platforms but people seem to not realise it's also insanely mentally taxing? You need to keep exposing yourself to strangers and you never know if someone is gonna say something stupid or mean or nice to your sincere expression of ability because there is no consistency online. I am more sensitive than average i am aware of that but that just means i always have to keep quiet about this and "take it". It builds up, it accumulates, stupid shit accumulates even if you get positivity too, at some point one vapid joke tips the scale because it's always a gamble.

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and i'm sorry but nonsense is equally brain-numbing and hurtful as any sort of conscious hate or meanness, at least meanness tends to be directed at something specific but this is people being like they don't even know what they're looking at? making art is always a joyful experience for me and yes, it sucks i have to depend on socials if i want anyone to see it, but the stupid comments tend to outweigh even someone saying "pretty" or anything actually acknowledging what they're looking at. sorry if this is entitled or petty or whatever it is, my crazy controversial opinion is that everyone deserves attention with care and not just people using your art to be smug or some shit and you should just grow numb to it. I truly did try and it did not work !! Im not numb, I am affected by other conscious beings reacting to something i made from sincerity and i don't think i'm the problem for that. i get art isn't "solely" on the artist but dear god at least consider a human being used their time to make it it's not just a picture generated from nothing and specifically for you

just to let ya'll know again why i stopped posting here, what is this response to regular looking art. a wolf line up i sketched. what. i'm definitely deleting this account i'm just trying to save things i wrote here. maybe i don't get "jokes" but i wish people could see a drawing a be normal about it?

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you sit down to make something you care about and share it with strangers who try to be "funny" or smug or whatever about it? so along with having to keep experiencing people misgendering my characters just because they're slightly androgynous (????) (they/them exists if you don't know the gender??) i gotta hear nonsense like this.

just to let ya'll know again why i stopped posting here, what is this response to regular looking art. a wolf line up i sketched. what. i'm definitely deleting this account i'm just trying to save things i wrote here. maybe i don't get "jokes" but i wish people could see a drawing a be normal about it?

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just to let ya'll know again why i stopped posting here, what is this response to regular looking art. a wolf line up i sketched. what. i'm definitely deleting this account i'm just trying to save things i wrote here. maybe i don't get "jokes" but i wish people could see a drawing a be normal about it?

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just letting everyone know ill no longer post here, not sure if i want to go through deleting the account entirely because everything reblogged stays anyway but yeah! here's my carrd:

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just letting everyone know ill no longer post here, not sure if i want to go through deleting the account entirely because everything reblogged stays anyway but yeah! here's my carrd:

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Yeah ill just delete the account its been 5 years and posting here still feels as uncomfortable as ever. you can find me on bluesky as im most active there at the moment

Sorry if this is out of the blue but its just constant small annoyances accumulating to the point i dont wanna manage this place at all

I still get my lesbian characters tagged as "yaoi" here somehow it is absolutely incredible! i also realised its better for me to not check notifications at all if im to remain posting here but i might just nuke the account eventually

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I still get my lesbian characters tagged as "yaoi" here somehow it is absolutely incredible! i also realised its better for me to not check notifications at all if im to remain posting here but i might just nuke the account eventually

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deltarune is great, im waiting for it to fully settle in my mind before i make any fan art though

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elation

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I wish i could go to a gallery irl and see beautiful furry art but alas

i really need to reblog stuff more often but i am balancing 5 socials at once i cannot handle everything without getting burned out from looking at a screen

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i really need to reblog stuff more often but i am balancing 5 socials at once i cannot handle everything without getting burned out from looking at a screen

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toothy

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elation

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Whenever I see that 'just gonna get a haircut, wish me luck' I think of buttons and idk why, I don't know if you've even drawn that or even seen that. It's just so him coded. I can't decide if it's the GTA or Fallout version though.

Considering that haircut post and how much love he got for his long hair, I think it works with Fallout Buttons

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playfully intense

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i started playing deltarune it's rlly fun!! I'm playing it along the OG deus ex, also fun